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At times all i have left is my anger.  
This madness driving me insane  
Driving everyone away  
Killing the last shards of my soul  
I dig myself deeper into the hole  
 Go away        
I want you to stay
You cant be here,  
But i want you near.  
Dont trust me,  
For i dont trust myself  
I wish i could change,  
I wish you could understand,  
But no one can...  
No one, Not even myself
 
~
 
another day another death  
and so i wonder what is left 
in this world so cold and void   
people become emotionless androids    
in my void i sit   
staring at my wrists    
as if they were slit

~
 
every action i make is like a dagger in someones chest  
for their sake,  i know whats best   
So i sit in the shadows  
Letting the spiders weave their web   
letting life go by   
Letting time eb 
But sitting here is still a knife 
They want to erase me from their life  
I know their pain and i understand  
And so i become the nameless face of a souless man

~

Deep within my lonely nights
Everyone has left my sight.
People watch my life decay.
Reason in my love has gone away
Eternal depression
Submission
Surender
In the end
Only pain survives
No love left in anyone's lives
 
 
~
 
Absolutely alone in my depression
Haunted by the pain of my agression
The last one that cared..
Away I have scared...
Without reason, Without rhyme
I'll be alone until the end of time
I don't want to wallow in this pain
But the choice is not my own
Life has decided my path
My fate to be alone.

~
Flood of tears, wash my sanity away
Flood of tears, let my life decay.
Flood of blood from my heart
Flood of hate, i'll rip you apart
Flood of bone, the bodies burn
Flood of time, the world will turn
Flood of life, the babies cry
Flood of death, as the mothers die
Flood of idiots, rambling people
Flood of catholics, hiding in their steeple.
Flood of nazi's, death keeps dancing
Flood of jews, careless prancing
Flood of words, upon my ears
Flood of lies, prey on my fears
Flood of tears, wash my sanity away
Flood of tears, let my life decay
Flood of tears, sweep me away
flood of tears, to a brighter day

~

again i crawl back into my void, the only place i am accepted, this time with a message.  A message from the earth.
 
 
please my children you're killing me
I scarred my body when you were young
i gave you shelter inside caves
i brought fire to you from the sky
i nurished you  i guided you
and for all that you have turned your backs
you have chained me with your highways
you have dug deep inside me pulling out my organs
you rape me
i allowed you to acheive this intelect
yet i did not know you'd foresake me
you dont care about me
but i still care for you
i still guide you
at least those that listen
but so many turn away
so many take my beauty for granted
you build your cities and destroy the life within
perhaps i should let you destroy yourselves
but i fear you will destroy me
i want to swallow your cities into the depths
i need space, i need you to retreat
you crawl on my skin 
you leave your poison
you leave me to die
but when i die so shall you
let me heal  let me grow again
back off
back off
back off
at times i wish you would leave me
go off into the nothingness
but that loneliness would kill me
so please may we acheive a balance?
between what you take and what you give back?
is that possible?
for you to show me some respect?
or are you too self centered to care?

Battered, beaten
Tattered, torn
Begin to die 
When we're born
Hating ourselves
Loving others
Spitting upon
Sisters, Brothers
Killing those you say 
     you love
Praying to hell in
     the sky above
Ending it all
     one little twist
Upon your skin
     one virgin wrist
In the blood
     There is life
Final rest from
     futile strife.