[datum 08.04.01]
Okay, again it's been a long-ass while since I've made an update, but that's how it is now. I'll probably be doing it more often now, since I seem to be ungrounded. I ended up taking LSD(2)XM(3) and I was majorly fucked, my god that was insane. I ended up walking to Steve's house on LSD(2)XM(2) a couple nights before that. The most amazing experience I've ever had. Anyway, the LSD(2)XM(3) thing was a couple days after that. I walked to Zach's house, he was having a camping party type thing, and my mom wouldn't let me go because a couple girls would be there. How stupid is that, I didn't plan to do anything with them (and didn't) - hell, I've got a girlfriend!!! Nothing could get me to cheat on Megan, absolutely not. I love Megan. Anyway, I walked over there, had a good time, then walked home. I took a few shots of 80 proof rum, and I was messed up. Spent the rest of the night listening to music and watching a movie, and reading, and playing "Sonic 3D Blast" on my Sega Saturn, haha, "Good times" as Erik Pemberton would say. Sonic is much more complicated when tripping/high/drunk though. So the next day I'm still fucked up, I get a lecture from my mom, and I end up telling her I use hallucinogenic drugs. Needless to say, she wasn't pleased, in fact she was rather of a bit pissed at me. Not surprising. She took the two last doses of DXM that I had, and made me promise to stop dealing, and taking it. Damn. Anyway, Rickits, we'll need to chat within the next few days.
Zach keeps ditching me to go to parties and shit, I think he's kinda acting like an ass, but I know he's just trying to have a good time over spring break. Anyway, he's supposed to show up sometime today, though it's 2:00pm already and I haven't heard anything from him. Oh well, if he wants to be an ass then he'll be an ass. Just hope he doesn't turn out like Bud, and can't be depended on by anyone for anything other than showing up at a party. Pfft... stupid anyway. Oh, Megan is back from her trip, she got online for a few minutes, but she had to go so she could do homework she neglected while she was gone (I don't blame her, who would want to do homework over spring break when you're off having a good time!) So, she's home safe, and she said she had a fun time. I'm pleased. I can't wait to see her again, I've missed her so, there really hasn't been a moment that's gone by that I haven't thought of her... yep, I'm truly in love, and it feels so good.
[datum 12.04.01]
All's well. Megan and I are still together, and I've still got faith that it'll continue to go well. We may be going to the mall tomorrow (since we don't have school), this could be fun. We're not going alone, so we're probably not going to end up doing anything... um... yeah, but anyway we'll probably have fun. I've heard stories of them hanging out in the mall before, they always seem to have odd times, if nothing else. And there's no way I could have a bad time, I can't have a bad time if I'm with Megan. She's such a sweetie. Isn't that the most retarded spelling of a word? "Sweetie" I could have sworn or the longest time it was "sweety" and that just looks more correct to me, oh well. I wonder if those water lilies have grown yet, I know they grow in early spring, but this could be a little too early. I'll have to go look, I think I remember where they grow anyway, it's been a long time. They're quite pretty, Some of the prettiest flowers I've ever seen growing. I hope they're growing, they'll be a nice surprise for Megan.
[datum 13.04.01]
And just when I thought that I'd get past the whole "Friday the 13th" thing, boom.
Okay, so the beginning of today was basically normal. Da de da de da etc. Oh, by the way, the flowers haven't grown yet.
Anyway, Megan and I were going to go with Monica and her boyfriend, and Ariel and Ian to the mall to hang out. Monica and Mike cancelled, as well did Ian. Leaving Ariel, me, and Megan. Not wanting to have a "3's a crowd" type thing going on, that was cancelled. I decided to be novel, and came up with the idea of going to the movies, just Megan and I. As usual with my life, the fewer people involved the easier things work, and we were able to go. Now, I had a good time, the movie was pretty good ("Just Visiting"), and Megan and I held each other and talked quite a bit. What's wrong you may ask - something that came up while we were talking. Megan asked me to quit using any drugs. No more acid, no more shrooms, no more Dex or Benadryl. As much as I really don't want to stop (I'm not addicted dammit, I'll kick your ass if you say I am), I love Megan, and I've agreed to. She said it was okay if I kept selling, as long as I didn't do them. I'm going to try to talk to her and see if she'll allow me to take anything new once, so I know it works, and how it feels. It's difficult to sell drugs if you don't know what they're like. I'll miss acid most, oh the times we've had... but it's for the best I guess. I have to weigh my options, do I want Megan, or do I want drugs. The choice should be obvious. I'll have to note she told me she's quite sensitive to touch, especially noting her feet - don't forget this, me... it'll certainly be useful sometime. Just holding Megan is like a drug, I get the same type of euphoria, I just automatically get happy and things just seem to be perfect. No visual effects though. ('Twas a joke!) Well, that's basically it. I've discovered that I really like the ohGr cd, at first I thought it was just okay, then pretty good, but now that I've listened to it a few more times, I really think it is very good, and I recommend it to anyone who likes that type of music - or may start liking it.
Megan had better appreciate this... there have things I've had more desire to give up in my life.
[datum 19.04.01]
Nothing's going on lately. I'm still off acid, and off DXM, and I'm doing fine. More importantly, I'm still with Megan. Happy joyest of days.
I'm addicted to Coke... that is to say, I'm addicted to Coca-Cola... I can't seem to function properly without it. Kinda like how some people can't function without a cup of coffee. Anyway, I've gotta go, so perhaps I'll write more later - but there's really not much more to write!