My Poetry

Kirsten Rogers

Becoming

It is with care we make ourselves
Cloaked in personalities, into other hearts, we delve
We try to seek familiar souls
In wonder and heartache, we pay the tolls
Until one day swimming through the murkiness
We touch another who fills the emptiness
Mistakes we make, and so bad choices
We scream for help, upraising our voices
But that destined match, the one we found
Will plant us firmly on the ground
And in that love we grow and grow
We become the one only the other will know
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2001 Kirsten Rogers

Eternal Bliss

How it is, she can't define.
She cannot loose him from her mind.
Just one moment. A touch, a kiss.
A lifelong moment. Eternal bliss.
It aches, it hurts, this need so deep.
It haunts her, it moves her, even in sleep.
She feels him, she smells him, though he is not near.
This wanting, this longing, it's but her cross to bear.
For how he feels, she does not know.
Her blood, her heart rate, it thickens, and slows.
Her moment, she'll find it, when the time is right.
Again, she fears, she'll find no sleep tonight.
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2001 Kirsten Rogers

Inspiration

You bring out the best in me, girlie! Thank you Kamila Kay.

I can't explain the way you touch me
I feel and relish every heartbeat
Like the waves that crash upon the shore
Your words wash over me, I feel no more
You fill me up with love and misery
Until we meet, you'll remain a mystery
As for now, you remain my inspiration
We'll find together our final destination
It is with pride I call you my friend
We'll forge ahead, and find no end
With hope, with caring, with trust, with love
With grace from all the beauty above
We'll find our way in this world we live in
The fates will see, they'll have to give in
No greater team they'll know but us
With open arms, accept us? They must!
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2001 Kirsten Rogers

Self-Doubt

For my loving husband

Harsh lights burning my eyes
Heartfelt, I shiver when he cries
Lancing pain, it digs so deep
Useless trying, I cannot sleep
Heavy fear, it surrounds my heart
Searching, hopeful, someplace to start
Quick and shaky, I speak my soul
Wrong and uncertain, I need him after all
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2001 Kirsten Rogers

Time

I see time. It's empty and it's crying.
I see empty. It's lonely and it's dying.
I see lonely. It's so far away from here.
Holding everything that I hold dear.
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2001 Kirsten Rogers

Queen for a Night

Everything I'll never be. Oh please...Oh no...I couldn't

I want to fly away
on wings of alabaster
with a crown as good as gold

We will do it my way
Where I would be the master
And you'll do what you're told

I will gladly be the queen
of this, my beautiful world

You could be my prince
We'll have a little fling
We'll have them all talking
I love to make a scene

I think they might wince
Then I'll show them my wings
What's the fun in walking?
Wake up now...just a dream
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2001 Kirsten Rogers

The Big Apology

I've been lost through the years looking for you.
I've been lost through the years in your eyes.
I wished through the years that I'd find you,
Never once did I even realize.
You were always right there beside me,
Ready to take my hand.
You might fall a little behind me,
But I'm willing to share the land.
My dreams will never end my friend,
You've been in them far too long.
Troubles are hard to mend, and again,
I'll admit when I've been wrong.
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2001 Kirsten Rogers

By Myself

Yes, folks. Left to my own devices, this is the stuff I think about...

I sit and wonder what it is to be truly alone.
It's terrifying.
To think that no one will be there to turn to when you need it most.
How cold is that?
I can't comprehend what it is to be truly alone.
Yet I feel it awaits me.
And I cower at the thought.
How can one person be afraid of so much?
And still live?
Alone
Is it so different than just needing to be by yourself a while?
Being lonely in a crowded room.
That, I take comfort in: that is what I'm used to.
It's easier than being alone.
When the silence is deafening.
And it seems to last for days.
Restlessness.
The need to just: be.
Not alone.
Never alone.
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2001 Kirsten Rogers

The Rider

Like blood coursing through the veins,
He rides the night, grasping the reins.
He hopes to live, he will not wait,
This day he'll find, he'll meet his soulmate.
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2001 Kirsten Rogers

Melancholy

Dreary days and bygone ways
I fear the time I spend alone
Looking in, my eyes ablaze
The things I hear begin to drone

I must wake up
Break out of this trance
My mind, it lies
My eyes, they dance

Salt flavored water beats a path
Down and down my face
It won't add up, can't do the math
I can't stay in this place
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2002 Kirsten Rogers

Found and Lost

I've found myself wanting...
Everything you couldn't give
I've found myself lacking...
Searching for the will to live
I've found myself crying...
Hoping that the hurt would stop
I've found myself shaking...
Clutching the key to a useless lock
I've found myself staring...
Eyes wide, hoping again that I could dream
And now I've found you...
And lost the fight, the urge to scream
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2002 Kirsten Rogers

Untitled

For Sir Brendan Graham, and The Countess Eleanor of Clarin

Muscles rippling in golden light
I feel you now, the time is right
Flesh is sliding, bodies taut
You've got me trembling, weak, and hot
You touch me here, I kiss you there
Sensations almost too much to bear
I feel you inside me, filling me up
You stop to kiss, I pause to touch
We start moving slowly, coming together
You've got me flying, light as a feather
Now you decide to pick up the pace
You brush back my hair, my heart starts to race
Baby, can you feel it? The pressure is tightening
A storm is brewing, thunder and lightning
Now we fall back down to earth
A sigh of pleasure, a chuckle of mirth
I look at you, a smile in my eyes
"I've never...I couldn't...didn't realize."
You tell me you knew it would be like this
And smooth your thumb across my lips
We fall asleep still intertwined
My body is yours, and yours, now mine
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2002 Kirsten Rogers

Madness

I get so mad I can barely see
You know you have no claim on me?
You've got no right to bitch and moan
At times I wish you'd leave me alone
Maybe it's just I'm not that way,
I see, I know, I have no say
Even still, I won't get pissed
You judged me wrong, you know you missed
All this stuff? It's harmless fun
It's stupid, it's young, it's silly, it's dumb
And still you get all mad at me!
Leave it alone, just let it be
There is no use in getting mad
It only serves to make me sad
I can't be who you want me to
You think I'd ever ask that of you?
I'm gonna do what I want to do
Whether or not you want me to
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2002 Kirsten Rogers

Foolhardy Heartbreak

Confusion is at it's greatest in a city with no angels.
Love and pain combine as within one second all is lost.
Simple words took all that was given.
Heaven is weak and the body lays to rest.
To be risen only when the sweetness rings in my ear.
To be controlled by the mighty one.
The one that belongs, believes, and is beloved.
And you, my sweetness, are the mighty one.
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2002 Kirsten Rogers

The Enchantress

Empty and longing, she watches the night.
As the wind kicks up, long red tendrils take flight.
She wonders of happiness, what it really means,
Misting over, green eyes start to sheen.
“There’s magic inside me,” she whispers to the stars
Then casts her eyes down, watching the cars.
It’s there she finds him their eyes meet and lock
“Hey,” he calls up, “Nice night for a walk.”
Her heart flutters open, and gives her a view,
The man standing there, the boy she once knew.
“Could he love me still?” she thinks in her mind,
“Ever and always, what never was mine.”
He heard her thoughts and in kind replied,
“The last time I left her, some part of me died.”
Maybe now, they’re meant to be,
The threat is ending, one hundred times three.
It’s her turn now to break the spell,
Bring Heaven to earth, not damn it to Hell.
Air and Earth have done their part,
It’s up to Fire to protect her heart.
She can’t give in, she will not break,
Her life, her island, Evil won’t take.
And so she comes down, and takes Water’s hand.
Blue energy glows and forms a band.
They walk to her lighthouse alone on the cliff,
And they hear the sea, the pound and the skiff.
She stands at the edge, looks out at the night.
This moment, this man, it all feels so right.
“Our lives long here, we’re meant to see.
As we will, so mote it be.”
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2002 Kirsten Rogers

Need

I needed you last night
Needed you to hold me tight
And promise that you'd never let me go

I wanted to taste your lips
Feel the tentative touch of your fingertips
I needed it more than you will ever know

But you weren't there
Though you slept so near
It was you I couldn't force myself to wake

I wanted you to hold me
Words can't say what you never told me
You don't know how to give, but just to take
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2002 Kirsten Rogers

Bleeding Hearts

My soul speaks to me in whispers
And I try to listen well
It speaks to me of pleasures
And it speaks to me of hell

At night I hear her sobbing
I see her standing in the rain
Her tears are ceaseless, never stopping
And my heart bleeds to feel her pain

My soul reaches out to take her hand
I only hope she does not flee
As she looks up to where I stand
In her eyes, I see she's me
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2002 Kirsten Rogers

Alternate Reality

How easy it not to feel?
Under everything, nothing's real
Get lost in nothingness, lose your mind
There is no pain, no hurt, no time
Put aside everything, throw it away
Think what you want and mean what you say
What is real? This life or the last?
Did you do it right somewhere in the past?
Do you deserve to go through this, stuck with the same
Reliving the hurt, the fear, and the pain
Get lost in nothingness, lose your mind
It's your turn now to make your own time
Kirsten Anne Rogers
Copyright ©2003 Kirsten Rogers