ive finally realized
the limitless horizon of possibilities
narrowed and filtered
black and white
spectrum reduced to clear cut
i love you enough to let you go
or i hate you enough to never again look at your beautiful face
either way
the same result
isolation
my choice lays before me
as a sentence before the condemned
both lead to misery
but it must be one or the other
both at once is ripping me apart
at the seems, tears spilling
through the cracks
along with blood and joy and anguish and shit and bile and honey
id rather cry for the wrong choice
than for this fucking indecision
im sorry
goodbye.