My Letter to AJ
If you have any poetry that you would like to submit to me, it can be BSB related or about anything else you would like, then please email it to me and I will post it on this page! This is what I sent to AJ after he announced that he was going to enter rehab. This is not a poem really but just my random thoughts during that time. I got a postcard saying that it had been read, but I seriously doubt AJ actually read it. You never know though. Feel free to let me know what you think.
Your life was full of success and blessings
You had it all---or did you?
What could possibly be wrong
They all ask
Never a moment to be human,
But that was the problem---because that’s exactly what you are
The fame
The success
The money and the millions that adore you
But why exactly do the adore you?
Because of your wonderful personality?
Because you have blessed the world with your talented soul?
Or is it because of the things that you possess?
The world won’t give you respect
What will it take to show them?
Should you even care?
You couldn’t leave it if your life depended on it
The music grabbed your heart and its grip only tightens as time goes on
Please don’t doubt for a second
What my exact intentions are
Your sincerity and passion had me hypnotized from the start
And the rest of the world’s opinion couldn’t even get me to flinch
The beautiful melody that escapes from deep within you touches me and keeps me going
Countless times you have found a way
To reach within me
And pull me out of my shell
I admire your courage, strength, determination, dedication, and most of all your honesty
I also realize that you are only human
And I love that
I know you can understand problems that I have gone through
Because not only do you have to face your struggles,
But you have to deal with your problems while the whole world
Looks on with a critical eye
Not just anyone could do that
I know that one of your biggest fears would be to be considered “ordinary”
Just imagine how ordinary we would all be if we didn’t have times like this to make us stronger
You hid it so well
But you couldn’t hide from yourself
I can only imagine the pain you kept inside
The pieces are beginning to fit together
These are the times
When you find out who is gonna be there for you
Whether they know you personally or merely from afar
The warm love that radiates from them could be felt across the world
Don’t worry about them though
The strength and honesty that you portray
Hasn’t gone unnoticed by them
They have learned the valuable lessons that you didn’t even realize you were teaching
And no matter how long you may take
When you have risen above everything that has insisted on holding you down---
They’ll be there
Louder, happier, wiser, and prouder than ever before
So relax, take the time that you deserve to discover yourself again
I promise you that as soon as you’re ready---
You can count on them to accept you back with open arms
It must be difficult
When every breath you take is observed all over the globe
And everyone assumes that you have it all
But what about privacy---trust---RESPECT???
Don’t you deserve those things too?
Or were those sacrifices in exchange for the money, fame, and success?
They want to be able to help you
The same way you always seem to rescue them
But how?
They can’t speak out to you
The way you sing them out of their misery
If only they could proclaim their love and support through your stereo speakers
They feel they at least owe you that much
Things don’t always work out like we plan them
And our problems don’t disappear if they’re ignored
Some people won’t realize this until it is too late
Others are willing to lay aside their pride and risk losing a lot
But in the end these are the ones who are gaining it all
Don’t listen when they say your over
Because you have just begun
When you made the decision
To face your fears and accept the help you so desperately needed
You only opened the door wider and invited love, support, and true happiness inside
And all we want is to see you happy!
You didn’t want to hide anymore
Something inside you opened up
And everything that had been locked up inside
Shone through those revealing eyes
You removed the mask that shaded those eyes
Because you knew
That they wouldn’t keep your secrets any longer
Those very eyes were crying out---
Begging for help
Your heart had already made the decision for you
Now all it had to do
Was convince your body and soul to agree
You knew that no matter what you did
They would understand
You all shared your ups and downs since the beginning
Management problems, heart surgeries, deaths of loved
Ones, injuries, marriages…
You’ve been through it all together
And take a look around
They’re still right here!
And you all know that this minor setback
Is just that---minor!
Will you make it through?
Of course you will!
You’ve all been searching for respect
Well, God knows you’ve got mine
And because I know that the Lord
Hears and answers prayers
There is absolutely no doubt in my mind
That you guys will make it through
Just keep your faith and believe in your hearts
God won’t let you quit until HE says it’s time
Congratulations!
Not what you expected me to say next huh?
Well, think about it…
This is really great news!
Once you’ve taken this step
You can put it all in the past
And move on to bigger and much better things
I would say “I love you”
But how could I love you
When I don’t really know YOU?
So I guess I’ll say
That I admire you
And that I love the passion
You put into everything you do
You have truly blessed my life
I pray that my thoughts and feelings
Can have even a tiny impact on your life
Please just always know
That if everything fell apart today
You could track me down
And you would find me in my room
Stereo blasting out one of your songs
Me jamming to it
Like it was my first time hearing it!
For that moment all is right with the world
Your music does that for me---
It makes me happy!!!
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