I don't know what to do. I feel as if I live each moment waiting. My life has become the prelude to my life and I can't live this way. I love you more than I have ever loved, more than I have ever seen or felt or dreamed. I can not imagine a time in my life when I did not love, when I will not love you. This has all been said before. It's just that now I don't know what to do. I dream every night of a time when I can be with you every moment. I can't sit still for 2 minutes without my thoughts meandering to the subject of you. I can't tell you how many times I've daydreamed about life with you. And I can't live like this. I know I can, I know that we will make it through this, but I can't live like this. I know that we are both strong and that we are seperate people. I know that we don't need the other to define ourself, but I can't live like this. So tell me what to do. Tell me to transfer to Georgia State. Tell me to drop out of school and marry you. Tell me what to do and I will do it. I just can't live like this. This isn't a life, living each day waiting for the next to come so that it can be over and the next will start. I can't live like this. I can't live like this. I need you here with me now. I need your arms around me when I go to sleep at night. I need your voice in my ear when I wake up in the morning. I need your hands on my shoulders when I'm working in the kitchen. I need your eyes on my back when I walk out of a room. I need you. I can't live without you. I can't.
