~~~~~>~~~~>~~~>~~>~> X <~<~~<~~~<~~~~<~~~~~ You are fighting for life. Every fiber of your being intent on beating back death, on cheating the odds, your iron will focused solely on survival, muscle, blood and bone and wiry strength and heart and soul channeled into battling the inevitable. And I can do nothing but look on. I ache to go to you, to comfort you and tell you of my love, tell you how you are the most important thing in the world to me, divulge to you my pride at being your partner, tell you to stop your heroic struggle, tell you to let it go, that there is no shame in giving in. I would, but the handcuffs looped around my wrists and threaded through the radiator forbid it. Unable to physically help you, I steel myself and keep my eyes riveted on your struggling form, mutely standing witness to a battle fought bravely, a defeat, valiantly postponed, but still creeping inevitably closer with every heartbeat. Literally. There is so much blood, more than I ever thought a body could hold. An artery was hit, I'm sure of it. You try desperately to staunch the flow, to keep the precious liquid from spilling out, but it oozes around your fingers anyway. You are covered in the stuff, kneeling in a crimson lake that grows wider by the second. No one could lose this much blood and live, I know this, just as surely as I know you know. I blink and your eyes are on me, regret and anguish written plainly in their depths. Your strong arms shudder under the strain of holding on, holding out against death, the white-knuckled grip of your hands slackens as exhaustion wins out. I nod once and -- so fleetingly I almost miss it -- a small, tired smile moves across your strained features. I blink again, and the smile is gone. With impotent rage churning in my gut, I look on as you visibly let go, fatigue evident in the slump of your shoulders, the way you hang your head in defeat. When you crumple to the floor, I know the inevitable end has come. I yank at the handcuffs trapping my wrists in frustration; the radiator gives a little but not enough to let me get to you. Your body lies sprawled on the cold tile floor not 5 feet from me, and I cannot reach out to even touch you. I cannot let loose the rage and anguish I feel at the tableau before me. Lives depend on our captor not knowing who we are, not realizing our connection and our purpose in being here. We came unannounced and he spoke to us, believing us to be merely pathologist and psychologist, and we let him. Identifying ourselves as FBI Agents would have been the appropriate thing to do, but by tacit agreement we both left our badges in our pocket, instinctively knowing that confronting him with such signs of authority would make him clam up. The ensuing interview soon proved us right, and provided us with our first suspect, and the only one we needed, as it turns out. Revealing ourselves now, would only further incense his rabid hatred for any and all authority figures. I know this, but it still takes all I have to not say a word to give us away. All I want to do is to lie down next to your still form, wrap my arms around you, close my eyes, and just stay like that forever. There are more lives at stake here than ours, though, and with almost super human effort I pull myself together and surreptitiously cast a glance at our captor. Harry LeFoe III is standing over your insensate body, breathing hard - mesmerized, it seems, by the shadow of death hovering over the scene. You'd think he would be used to it, having caused so many deaths already, but perhaps he recognizes the struggle that took place here, and relishes this kill all the more for it. There is a thoughtful look on his face as he squats down and dips his ring finger in the blood pooled at his feet, and then brings it up to his mouth. His tongue snakes out and he licks the vital fluid from his stained digits, smiling as he does so. Gathering more of the red liquid, he leans forward and you are hidden from sight. He's a big man, tall, with broad shoulders and arms the size and girth of tree trunks. His shoulders bunch and his arm moves with frightening purpose. I strain to see what he is doing, simultaneously curious and horrified at the though of him desecrating your body. When he sits back on his haunches, I see he has drawn an intricate pattern on your forehead, an ornate cross, sketched in blood. ~~~~~>~~~~>~~~>~~>~> X <~<~~<~~~<~~~~<~~~~~ "Skinner just handed us a case that looks pretty promising." "Promising as in...?" "Picture this. A Summer Camp, three supervisors dead, found hanging in the dormitory, one nurse narrowly escaping the same fate." "And where's the X-File?" "Getting to it. Check this out. No suspects, but wet footprints at each scene leading to and from a nearby lake, and plenty of tales doing the rounds of revenge from beyond the grave." "Mulder, this case is not for us, and you know it." "People are dead under suspicious circumstances, sounds like an X-File to me." "Sounds like a case for the local PD to me." "What about the fact that no-one in any of the dormitories where the victims were found hanged, saw or heard anything. This despite the fact that in each case there were about twenty boys present, none of whom show any signs of being drugged, and none of whom woke up while the victims struggled for life at the end of a rope?" "A conspiracy of silence, drawing closed the ranks to protect one of their own? Wouldn't be the first time." "And what about the legends of a ghost rising from the lake to avenge a cruel and untimely death?" "Classic horror movie stuff, take any Summer Camp near a lake and you'll have these stories circulating around the campfire. There's no mystery there." "Touch‚. But still, it's a case needing investigation, so how about we each postpone judgment on whether or not this is an actual X-File until we get there." "Mulder -- " "Come on, Scully. We don't have anything beyond mountains of paperwork to do at the moment, and we could both do with some fresh air and sunshine. Oh, did I happen to mention the fact that the Camp is down in Florida, where the weather's fine and there's nary a hurricane's in sight?" "What about moth men, invisible water creatures hiding in the sewer, Fiji mermaids, tattooed conundrums..." "Nope, none of those, except... " "Except, what, Mulder?" "You. But don't worry, you'll be the only tattooed conundrum for miles around." "Promise?" "Cross my heart." "Then I guess this'll be pretty boring, but boring's good, boring's okay, I can stand boring for a bit." "Okay then. Michael Meyers meet your match, the X- Team is on your a--" "Wrong movie, Mulder." ~~~~~>~~~~>~~~>~~>~> X <~<~~<~~~<~~~~<~~~~~ That's how it started, the inauspicious beginnings to what soon proved to be a case with deadly consequences, and it's all my fault. Too intent, as always, on proving you wrong, I proved you right instead. LeFoe picks your limp body off of the floor, panting at your dead weight, heavy in his arms, and shoves you in my direction. You crash to the floor and your jacket falls open. Your gun, resting snugly in its leather holster, is revealed, shining dully in the gleam of the fluorescent lighting. For a moment everything goes silent, all background noises cease and all I can hear is my own sharp intake of breath bouncing around the room. LeFoe spits a curse, the sound harsh in the otherwise total silence. There is a sense of urgency to the hush that has fallen over the room, a sense of shocked anticipation of things to come. Then he snarls his rage and, quick as a rattlesnake, rips your weapon from its holster. Before I can yell a warning, his booted foot thuds into your side. I imagine I can hear the snap of bone. Your moan reverberates around the room, echoing loud as a gunshot in the hollow spaces of my heart. Your body curls around the hurt in your gut, trying to protect itself. He kneels down beside you and presses the barrel of your gun against your throat. "Who are you?" he asks, his voice grates on my nerves like the scrape of chalk on a blackboard. You don't answer, and he makes as if to hit you. I yell his name and he turns to me. Relieved, I watch him get up and stalk away from your heaving form, towards me. He squats down beside me and waves your gun in your direction. "You two and item?" "No," I tell him, and I see his eyes grow darker. "What then?" "Nothing. We just work together." From out of the corner of my eyes, I see you lift your head, panting still, face contorted in pain. I see in your eyes the deeper hurt my words have caused, and it's all I can do to ignore it and keep my gaze focused on LeFoe. "You carrying a gun, too?" His finger curls around the trigger and you're staring into the muzzle of your own gun, so all I can do is nod. He leans over, pats my sides and back, and relieves me of my gun. "Who are you?" "FBI." Silent still, LeFoe gets up and goes to the window, walking towards it through the blood pooled on the floor around the broken body of Kenneth Morrison, Junior Camp Supervisor, and the latest victim. The man you so valiantly tried to save. Bloody boot prints trail their way after LeFoe as he approaches the window and looks out across the lake. With him otherwise occupied, I manage to reach out my manacled hands and pull you closer. You're still out of it, unable to help, and almost heavier than I can manage in your insensate state, but finally you're near enough for me to be able to examine your injuries. I lift your shirt a bit, and suck in a breath at the multi colored bruises already forming over your ribcage. As my hands tentatively palpate your flesh, trying to determine if anything is indeed broken, you awaken with a groan. "Crap." "That about covers it. How're you doing?" "Just peachy." "I'm sorry, dumb question under the circumstances, huh?" "Pretty dumb." "Your ribs feel alright." "No, they don't." "Alright, as in I think they're not broken." "Alright, as in, thanks for the diagnosis but they hurt like hell anyway." "In other words, 'shut up and leave me to my misery,' right?" "Yeah." "Alright." ~~~~~>~~~~>~~~>~~>~> X <~<~~<~~~<~~~~<~~~~~ "How are the kids doing?" "They seem okay, which is a wonder after what just happened. He's got them driven back into the far corner, well away from the windows. They're not going to be much help." "The rest of the staff?" "Every one else is outside. One look at all the blood, and half this mess hall was deserted before LeFoe could slam the door closed." "I seem to have missed most of that." "You were otherwise occupied." "How long do you think before the authorities get here?" "I'd guess about thirty minutes more." "Doesn't leave us much time to try and resolve this." "No, it doesn't, and I have a feeling it didn't help his disposition any to find out he's holding a couple of FBI Agents." "Seems strange that he'd let himself be caught red- handed like this, finishing off Morrison right around the time he knew reveille would be blown and hungry kids and teachers would start to pour in." "Strange yeah." "Any brilliant ideas?" "Nope, other than that maybe he wanted to get caught." "I don't know if that qualifies as brilliant." "Why the hell not?" "Seems pretty damn obvious to me." "Yeah well, don't ask then." "Any other insights that might prove helpful?" "Some, but now I don't know if I should share." "Do." "I'm wondering why he picked on Morrison. Out of all the staff available, he hangs the three senior supervisors, tries to do the same to a nurse who's as old as the hills, and stabs Morrison. The first four have been here since before time, whereas Morrison is a recent arrival. Why them, and why hang the first four and stab Morrison? It doesn't make sense." "Must've something to do with his hatred for authority figures, though where Morrison fits in is a puzzle." "Yeah, and why didn't he succeed with the nurse, where he was able to hang three grown men, and without them putting up enough of a struggle to wake the bunkhouse he strung them up in?" "Maybe they died elsewhere?" "And he just hung them from the ceiling in the bunkhouses to make a point?" "But what point?" "Maybe something in the way he hung the bodies, or the progression through the bunkhouses." "Huh?" "I'm thinking that's it, he was here as a kid, something must have happened then, something to do with the victims." "I don't follow." "The first victim was found in the bunkhouse where the youngest campers stay, the second where you would stay if you stayed for the second year and so forth." "How do you know all that?" "Didn't you go to camp as a kid?" "I did, so?" "I'm thinking they must be the dormitories he stayed in as a kid. "Say what your saying is right, then where does Morrison fit in?" "Oh but he does, trust me. Mind clueing me in on what the hell you two are talking about?" "You. The why and wherefore of this." "You really want to know?" "Yes, we do." "Why?" "It seems you have issues about this camp and the people who run it. Perhaps talking about it will help." "I have issues with nosy FBI Agents pretending to be what they're not." "We didn't pretend anything. We are what we said we are, it's just that we're FBI Agents too." "You tried to trick me!" "We didn't. We just want to help." "Fuck you." "Just undo these cuffs and come with us, and we can work this out peacefully. Please." "Shut up." "We want to help." "Shut up, and you -- get up." ~~~~~>~~~~>~~~>~~>~> X <~<~~<~~~<~~~~<~~~~~ LeFoe stands over us, steel-toed boots wide apart, arms akimbo, gun dangling loosely from his fingers, eyes trained on you. At his command, you climb to your feet with some effort, and he pokes the gun into your side and forces you to walk towards the middle of the room. "Don't. Whatever you mean to do, don't." "Shut up." "Or take me instead." "Shut up." This time, his boot lashes out and finds *my* side and I bend double in agony. When I straighten up, there's a noose around your neck and he's tying off the other end, leaving you just enough rope to breathe -- as long as you stay upright. "LeFoe, don't." "You really wanna know why I'm doing this?" "I want you to let my partner down from there." "Shut up, or I pull this here rope a might tighter." "Alright, alright, calm down." "I am calm." "Please, let my partner down." "Nope, gotta have me some insurance when your cronies come busting in here." "They'll not come busting in here." "Yes, they will." "Not if you give yourself up first. Let it go, let us help you." "You can't help me." "Yes we can. Something happened here, didn't it, Harry, something happened to you when you stayed here as a kid." His face crumples. "Morrison's dad was running this camp when Suze and I came here the first time." "Suze?" "Susana, my sister." "Oh." My attention is elsewhere. From out of the corner of my eye I can see you concentrating on our conversation, willing questions my way, while your breath gets shorter and shorter and pain and fatigue mark your face. "She was so very pretty, special. There wasn't anything in the world that I wouldn't do for her. I never told her that, that I'd do anything and everything for her, and then I never could." "What happened?" "They used her. She was an innocent and they used her." "The three supervisors?" "Yeah." "Then where do Morrison and the Nurse fit in?" "Morrison's dad knew about it, Suze went to him and he didn't do a thing but tell her not to talk to anyone about it, that they would think her a little whore if she told." "Same with the nurse?" "Same message, different specifics." "I'm sorry." "They knew about it and they just let it happen, year after year, until I finally found out. It had been going on for three years by then." "How did you find out?" "She tried to hang herself." "Tried?" "I found her in time and she told me what had been happening. I went to Morrison but I was only twelve and no match for him. I tried to stab him but he just laughed me out of his office. When I came back, Suze had walked into the lake until she couldn't walk no more. They dragged the lake for hours and finally brought up her tiny bloated body the next day. "I never did get to tell her I'd do everything for her, and in the end I wasn't able to do anything for her." "I truly am sorry, I know what it's like to lose a sister, we both do." "Fuck you." "Let us help, please." "Like your colleagues did when I went and told them what had been going on?" "You went to the FBI?" "After the cops and the doctors and everyone told me to drop it, that there was no evidence and I should just put it behind me and get on with my life and all that happy horseshit. They were my last resort. They didn't do anything either." "Jesus." "Yeah, well, there you have it, end of story." "Not quite. Why hang them in the dormitories like that, why not quietly dispose of the bodies?" "I did. I hung them till they croaked, and dumped them in the lake." "But -- " ~~~~~>~~~~>~~~>~~>~> X <~<~~<~~~<~~~~<~~~~~ The sound of sirens puts an end to our conversation. LeFoe looks up in sudden shock at having run out of time. As he gets up, I chance a glance at you and my concern ratchets up a notch as I notice the trouble you're having. The noose around your neck is being pulled tighter and tighter, the effort of staying upright wearing you down. Your throat is bruised and abraded, bleeding in places where the rope burn is particularly severe. LeFoe shoves against you as he rushes towards the window and you loose your footing. In slow motion I watch you pitch forward, watch as the weight of your body pulls the rope so tight that you can't breathe. I yank at the radiator again. It gives a little more, but still my strength is no match for so much unforgiving metal. "LeFoe don't," I yell. "Don't let this end in another tragedy. All the rest were killings out of revenge; there are extenuating circumstances there. Killing an FBI Agent in cold blood is not going to go down so well." Your face is turning cyanotic and your hands are desperately clawing at the noose encircling your neck as you struggle to regain your footing. Just as I think I'm about to lose you for good, you finally succeed in finding your feet and manage to loosen the rope a fraction. You breathe in a huge gulp of air, which immediately starts a spate of coughing that has tears rolling down your cheeks. Tears of sympathy and relief course over mine as well, as slowly the morbidity leaves your face. "You're out of time, game's over LeFoe, you won." "No, I didn't." "You did what you had to do for your sister. Let her rest in peace now." "I can't." "Yes you can, it's over." "Shut up." His face is red and I think he's actually about to cry, then it's as if granite takes possession of his features. "I told you, I can't." "Why not?" "What am I going to do now, huh? She's still dead, I still can't tell her anything." "Give yourself up, please. You've had your revenge. Let it go." For a moment, I think I have him, but then his eyes light up as he looks as you. "Not quit, the nurse survived, somebody needs to take her place." With that, he yanks the rope tighter and your knees buckle. He looks on as you start to choke again, laughs strangely as your body slowly goes still, and then casts a startled eye in the direction of the door, which buckles under the weight of a battering ram. The cavalry has arrived. The kids must have told them we were in here with an unarmed man and LeFoe seems to have forgotten he no longer is. Both our guns are still sticking out of the waistband of his jeans. Instead of using them, he cuts the rope strangling you, heaves you over his shoulder, makes for the side entrance and flees in the direction of the lake. All this passes me by, it's only later, looking back, that I realize the sequence of events; my eyes cannot seem to shake the image of your face and lips turning blue, your eyes bulging, your body slowly going limp. The door is sturdy and the battering ram is a long way from breaking through, no one seems to have noticed LeFoe has escaped and left the side door open. I realize it's all up to me, whether you live or die is in my hands. With adrenaline-induced strength, I give a mighty yank, and the radiator finally comes loose. Not caring that I'm bleeding from where the cuffs have bitten deep into the flesh of my wrists, I rush out after LeFoe. He's already in the lake up to his thighs and I panic when I don't see you out there with him. I only start to breathe again, when I see you are laying on the shore, feet dangling in the water but otherwise high and dry. I'm sure he meant to baptize you as he did his first three victims but something held him back. As I dash towards you, I catch a glimpse of something in the water, brown hair floating around the round moon face of a small girl, eleven at most. She is smiling and beckoning and when I look at LeFoe, he has this rapturous expression on his face, as if he's just received absolution. Then I'm next to you and your throat is bloody and raw, bruised black and blue and there's a strip of skin missing in an almost perfect circle and you aren't breathing. I fall down beside you and one hand goes behind your neck and instantly becomes soaked with your blood and the other pinches your nose shut and I breathe and I breathe and I breathe for you. Your chest rises and falls with my breaths, but you're not breathing on your own, and I do compressions and don't care that I'm further damaging your damaged ribs. And finally, finally, you cough, and it sounds awful and your face twists with the effort, and I find myself sending up a prayer of thanks when I hear you take a rasping breath. ~~~~~>~~~~>~~~>~~>~> X <~<~~<~~~<~~~~<~~~~~ You wear turtlenecks all the time now. They look good on you, but knowing what's hidden beneath makes me wince in sympathy every time. Your doctors assure me that the scars will heal, that they'll fade and will hardly be noticeable after a time. All that'll be left will be a thin white line, just a thin white line, only visible when the light hits it just so. A thin white line, reminding me you nearly died. You've been on sick leave and we've not seen each other for a bit. I've been at the office, mostly. We're inundated with paper work once again, medical bills and incident reports and background checks to fill in the gaps in our account, which is due to hit Skinner's inbox tomorrow. I gladly filled in form after form, grasping any excuse to stay away from you. You nearly died, again; a thin white line this time demarcates the occasion. How often is this going to happen before your luck runs out, before mine does? The fact that you were bedridden for a while, under observation because of the danger of delayed onset of respiratory failure, and then unable to talk without causing yourself pain, spared me having to voice my fears to you. You've been home for a couple of days now, but unable to talk on the phone and I've stayed away like the coward I am. The few times I've seen you, your eyes screamed bloody murder at me as your hand furiously scribbled notes that I pocketed without reading. You nearly died, again, this is the thing I keep getting back to -- you, dead, and where does that leave me? A line, a line needs to be drawn, a thin white line. What is it going to be next time? We've both already been shot; poison, haven't had that yet, I don't think, and neither of us has been stabbed yet -- cut, yes -- but not stabbed, how about electrocution? We stood by while Darren Oswald worked his magic, but neither of us has been hit by lightning yet, have we? You nearly died, and I nearly was left behind, and we need to draw a line, somewhere. It's Sunday now. You'll be back at the office, on Monday. I received a terse e-mail this morning to inform me of the fact and I'm terrified, have been all day, while I contemplated death. You nearly died and a thin white scar delineates the occasion and you nearly left me alone. The e-mail stated that your voice too is back, mostly, it's still hoarse and you shouldn't speak too much, or too long, or it goes out on you again. When you do speak, you sound like Marlon Brando. The fact that you hate the way you sound wasn't in the e-mail, it was in your inflection when you called just now and informed me you're coming over to talk. You nearly died, a thin white line and you nearly died. A knock on the door and you're there, wearing jeans and a black turtleneck and a scowl like a thin white line bisecting your forehead, and all I can think is I almost lost you, I almost lost you and where does that leave me? ~~~~~>~~~~>~~~>~~>~> X <~<~~<~~~<~~~~<~~~~~ "How're the ribs?" "Just hunky dory." "Truth?" "Hurting a bit but they're okay, what about yours?" "They're fine." "Good, that's good." "Have they found LeFoe's body yet?" "Yeah, right where twenty five years ago they found his sister's body." "Think she really was haunting that lake?" "I could swear I saw her in the water..." "Me too, I think." "And I think it might have been her placing the bodies in those cabins for the authorities to find, for us to find." "Now you're reaching, Mulder." "Who else could it have been?" "LeFoe himself, for one, crying out for someone to stop him?" "Or his sister, doing the same. He said he dumped the bodies in the lake." "He could have gone back to get them, hung them in the dormitories, and never known he did it himself, there's a condition..." "I know. Do you know that back then the camp wasn't co-ed? Boys and girls were strictly segregated then." "So?" "So I'm wondering how those three ever got to Susana." "Hmm..." "I spoke to the nurse and she told me LeFoe always had an unhealthy interest in his sister, and she in him." "Think he might have been taking advantage of her himself?" "It's a distinct possibility." "Guess we'll never find out now, huh?" "Guess not. But whatever was going on with LeFoe or his sister, I think they're both at peace now. The danger seems to have passed, and I'm just glad we both escaped with our lives." "A truer word was never spoken." "I'm so sorry I got us into this, Scully. Sorry you got hurt, sorry I keep dragging you into danger, sorry..." "That is *such* crap." "What?" "You do not drag me into danger, you are not the one that hurts me, except when you get like this. I'm a grown woman, I make my own decisions." "But I lured you with false promises, baited you until you couldn't say no." "If that's what you think, you either give yourself too much credit, or me too little. I could have said no, I could have made a convincing argument for us not to accept the assignment, I chose not to, I chose to go." "Scully -- " "Stop it. I've been thinking on this all weekend and I'm drawing a line here. Cut the self flagellation, stop thinking the world revolves around you, I make my own decisions and I stand by them and if they turn out to be mistakes, then the mistake is still mine, not yours." "But -- " "Mulder, I'm warning you, this line is very thin and you're in danger of stepping over it." "Scully, shut up for a moment and let me finish." "Please do, but I'm warning you, tread carefully." "I was going to say that, yes, I know and accept that we lead a dangerous life, either one of us could have been killed last week, I know this. But that's not going to stop me from worrying." "Worrying is okay, worrying is good, I like it when you worry a little, just don't let it override everything else and for god's sake stop blaming yourself for every bad thing that happens to me, okay?" "Okay." "Promise?" "I promise to try." "That'll have to do, I guess. See you Monday, then." "I'm glad we talked." "Me too." "As an apropos, do you know how sexy I find it, that you sound like my favorite movie star?" "What?" "The original Wild One, partner, the Godfather of Godfathers." "God, you're so bent it's a wonder you can see straight." "What did I ever do to deserve this disrespect?" "Mulder, I will see you Monday." 1