GRIP thoughts of endless oppression continue bleeding rain within the grey brittle roses to pave all the wisdom in which closed gates create brick wall of rigid self control manic nirvana controlled built a brick wall that I can't climb and nobody knows, I try I walk with the wings of broken desire as the wolf stalks me as his prey the cracks in my hand break only larger from bludgeoning memories writhing, screaming and crying I ponder reaching for the break of day rotting in the lonely lust of the shadows that only I could create barbed wire fence of self oppression pulled tight around my brain imagined fear tints the reality that darkens everything I see
KONTROL time is taking control pull the trigger take one step down your vein-fucked life dominate by controls flesh of doubting men who fear by need to hold me tight controlled my life my arms open wide take the pain inside oh the taste of murder can't control it one taste of death I can't resist arms raised words the risk of hate assimilate pain and death and inconsistent violence gripping fear and lies spread the ignorance holding me warped-cold sanity proven guilt lust-found destiny predict the end given trail in time control of my mind
DIFFERENT KIND OF WAR cramped up, dry heave throat parched in lebanon captured lives near human cries salvation sought in lebanon their hearts so real anger to feel running away from lebanon prisoner of war but not of war thirsting for hell in lebanon running away inside lebanon comes alive through brick walls I feel my life with pain in my soul at night eyes all around life underground moved by night through the walls of lebanon tasting the ground shriek from the sound visions of life after lebanon sand whipped skin, the bitter taste of sin blood soaked beliefs and tears in lebanon empty mind breed hateful crimes pounding the flesh of the streets of lebanon
CREATION drift down the line fucked in my mind fell through the cracks omit my life why does it take the constant hate inside of me to lead this life don't try to take this constant hate inside of me I need this life what does it take to be me? how does it feel to be me? what does it take to be me? how does it feel to black my life? twist my limbs and break the drive in me questioning the suffering insert the death I fear my life why does it take the constant hate inside of me to live my life don't try to take this constant hate inside of me I need this life what does it take to be me how does it feel inside my eyes pulling down I'm strangled inside drink the blood to keep me alive burning eyes you blinded my sight taste the pain that comes from inside all the truth and guilt I hold in my hands tainted words the liar speaks as if he was the holy man doubting me drew strength from inside blistered soul forgotten goals and still the blood drips from my eyes what does it take to be me? how does it feel to be me? what does it take to be me? how does it feel to black my life? cause I don't feel what I feel inside cause I can't see with these blinded eyes
VERSION 1.2 Lines drown all around me can't cross the fear that engulfs me flash back pain from deep inside kept my soul alive what makes this dream come alive inside so many ways to keep this fear in sight corrupted views are all that's left for me to keep my soul alive divide, decide define what's on your mind inside the fight break down the walls within your mind and speak of the lies and what I feel now this fear that takes control of me a vision the death that I'd receive bleeding empty views tried to break free from this life of hate this pain that thrives upon my soul lay me on my back make me beg for more a certain time of death left up to me bled my life away
VIRUS Infect me Choke me Shove your sin in me your virus strikes takes control from inside of me pulling down the needle that rips my back this virus starts to attack Shout Fear Don't Infect yourself Shout Fear Don't Infect me now Drag me down the needle rips my soul Inside my fear made my pain pray for more Nailing crosses make my headstone bleed buried dreams broken nails digging into me pathetic heart driving my soul This virus takes control Trust in you in all the violent fantasies filling wounds with all of your impurities Slice my veins I can't take anymore Infect me now It takes a hold of me this virus deep inside me from the violent attack it turned my soul to black
RELIGION Why should I burn if I still believe? Why should I be roped up by your disease? You kiss the hand of the cold and the liar while you weep and whine for your desires Who is your God? Where is your God? Why would your God want to torment me? Who is your God? Where is your God? Why would your God want to torture me? Concrete dreams left in my mind Disgust from poverty and lies Force fed guilt then steal my dreams Use the knife to set me free from the fear that lies inside of me Spread the would to let me bleed Forget the gold you stole from the children Forget the lies of the dying man Forget the love one can have for another Forget the family when the dollar is your brother Who is your God? Where is your God? Why would your God want to torment me? Who is your God? Where is your God? Concrete dreams left in my mind Disgust from poverty and lies Force fed guilt then steal my dreams Use the knife to set me free from the fear that lies inside of me Spread the would to let me bleed
TRAGETY head of information loud shrill beckons me control of segregation deny the tragedy corruption of our children right wing destiny fixed determination admit the tragedy deny defy in me defy the tragedy in spoken fears pose hate that I can see through violent misery in thoughtless words the hunted youth fall prey to the tragedy deny defy in me defy the tragedy spinning around the dreams that lost the life inside of me stolen years and swollen tears that rape my sanity left behind the dark the living of life so low in me safe in scratches arms that choke me in my sanity deny defy in me defy the tragedy in drowning eyes the sickening takes hold my life begins to fold in twisted veins brainwashed to believe in the tragedy deny defy in me defy the tragedy deny defy in me defy the tragedy
HAIL evil thoughts on my mind revolve around the sins of my design knife slicing through blood-soaked sheets kneel to the floor on broken knees split false truth doubt me? fuck you a hand so cold the pain you stole a wall standing silent by my side a wall standing silent come alive plagued by the guilt foretold death the smell drifting through in my hell split false truth doubt me I do my hands feel pain the blood you stained a wall standing silent by my side a wall standing silent comes alive malformed beliefs confused by light healing wounds to die alive this lifetime is wasted this lifetime is wasted this lifetime is wasted my soul my screams my tears my dreams this lifetime is wasted this lifetime is wasted this lifetime is wasted my guilt my pain my rotting veins my lifetime is wasted my lifetime is wasted my lifetime is wasted my soul my screams my tears my dreams my lifetime is wasted my lifetime is wasted my lifetime is wasted my guilt my pain my rotting veins inside
