I made this banner in rememberance
Sept 21, 2001
This month will never end. On 9/11 The World Trade Center in New York was Struck with two highjacked planes. Killing thousands on thousands of innocent human beings. Then the next thing you know A another suicide piolet hits the pentagon. And another was steered away by passengers in Penn. OMG We Are At War. I can't take this. No I don't live in Wash. Or even NY or even Penn. but God has this effected me. I don't really understand how come it has gotten to me. I dream of being bommed I dream of terrorists taking over my town. I am so scarred. I made a Memorial Page on the 11th. I couldn't sleep I was so scarred. People are going nuts calling in bomb threats, that has slowed to almost nothing now. Last Friday my old therapist called and wants to see me today at 10am well it's almost 8:45 and I am ready to call and cancel. I have only left the house once in the last three months and I was forced then. Before that I only left to see psych. And not at all three months before that. I only leave for seeing psych. I know that is awful, but I am so afraid, afraid of panic, afraid of the world. I don't want to see people, I don't want someone to touch me. I have been cutting this last week a lot. Sitting here starring at the razor blade right now been planning how to cut on my leggs so noone will see it. If Janie were to see any more than I have now she would freak. And so would my hubby. I have been taking classes online for a few weeks now. I have taken and passed two and have my diploma's from both the classes. The first one HTML 101 I missed one on the final. And the Second one Tables I aced. I will start a new class Oct. 1 for Paint Shop Pro. Taking it easy this go round. He He. I guess you are wonder where July and August went about now huh? Well July I had saved on Word 2000 and my computer got messed up and I had to reinstall and stupidly didn't save it to floppy. As far as August, oh well I just didn't write anything. Don't think I'm cured now lol lol. Oh I have learned how to do animations as you can tell from the plaque. I am making animated dolls now too. Having a blast. It keeps me busy and keeps my mind occupied. And that's a good thing.
