Verse 1
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I felt the darkness surround
and sank deeper
into my private world;
(the one where I can go
to be alone and blue;
where others do not come
in the darkness that I brew).
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Verse 2
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I could not find the path
that led to hope again;
(you see the way is guarded
and I'll never share the secret,
for then you would know;
thus I couldn't hide anymore).
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Verse 3
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I cried out in my pain
and wrote upon the board
the thoughts that swirled within
this vast empty void;
(which is my promise
to never let anyone else in,
for hell is the chaos
found in the tears of my mind).
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Verse 4
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You read the fears, my name
you knew though I wrote it not;
(of course I knew you would
no matter where I chose to hide,
even into hell you would come
to be able to sit by my side).
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Verse 5
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And reached across a continent
to safely secure my fragile world;
(this chaos of my mind in wild
winds and rains of storms
with darkness of the night
your hand reached right through
to hold on to mine tight).
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Verse 6
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It was a night of terror
when I heard your voice
and knew you knew;
(but I knew you would
how could you not respond).
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Verse 7
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My anonymity lost and shame revealed
how could I ever hope in you to confide?
(Why did you have to come into
my private patch of horror,
why couldn't you've have stayed
away just one day more?)
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Verse 8
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Now knowing each word would reveal
another part of me open now to scrutiny.
(Thus I screamed I hate you, I hate you,
I hate you, I love you, I love you.)
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Verse 9
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Dare I tell you my hidden thoughts?
Tell how the darkness returns
and hides what once was light?
(It was too late you knew how I felt;
you always have and always will.)
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Verse 10
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No! I cannot run to you my friend,
nor on your shoulder cry;
to ask your help to relieve this pain
to rescue me again and then again.
(Even knowing as this is said,
I didn't run to you, instead
you called me and I could not lie.)
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Verse 11
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I'll walk alone and do the best I can
until peace comes again but not alone;
(you're here, you're always here no matter
where I run or hide you somehow know
and look and find even in the chaos
of the horrors of my mind you dwell
to bring me peace and rest once again).
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Verse 12
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Now my children are more confident
and my husband loves me more
why did this happen to me now?
What powers do you hold?
How can you a mortal be so bold;
to understand the chaos of my mind?
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