I was chosen before the foundations of the world for this walk with Him. I always felt different than the rest of the world as I was growing up. I never quite fit into the mold the world wanted to shove me into. I would rebel, and go off by myself, wondering, why am I different, why can't I just be like everyone else?

Did you ever ask yourself that when you were young? Why am I different? Why? Why? Why?

Why must I feel like I have to defend the defenseless, the ones who were broken-winged, lying along the road of life? I was always defending the truth it seemed. I was not as the others who would just follow. I could never just do what everyone else did. It was something inside of me, that just made me different. I had to forge my own way, never like the others that would just follow. I had this drive in me, something that drove me to seek out truth.

I finally found out, after so many years, the why of it. What made me so odd? Although it seemed to bother all the others, somehow it never bothered me that I was different. I had to follow my heart. I was driven by the spirit from youth. I was always searching for truth, and never quite finding all of it. I was forever on a quest for truth. Searching, seeking, and looking for something that was missing inside me.

Well, finally after half my life is over, I have found the thing which I longed for all my life. I longed to know Him, as my closest friend, to know Him like I would know my best friend. Finally, in the year 1994, I believe, I finally came to the place which I had longed for for so long. I reached the bottom of the abyss, and I cried out to Him for help. That day was the beginning of this journey, this quest to know the heart of God. He has given me so many treasures along this journey, this is really only a benchmark along the way.

I hear everyone speaking about wanting to know Him, yet, nobody wants to spend the time to search for Him. It takes time to find the true treasures in life. To find the treasures which are hidden in this life. We must seek Him with all our hearts, not half our hearts. Maybe for you it was easier, I hope so. For me, it seemed to be a long journey, yet, a journey that I would not give up for all the treasures of the world. My treasure is not in the earthen vessel, but in the hidden things of the heart. To seek Him, and to find Him, is the best treasure I could ever find. I may not have money in a bank account on earth, but in heaven I have much treasure. I have chosen to go a different route than most. A hard journey, yes, but no treasure is worth its weight, unless it is hunted for. It is like finding nuggets of gold along the way, when He teaches me a new thing from his heart. There are so many things to learn, so many treasures to be found along the way, along the journey of life. If we seek Him with all our hearts, we shall find Him. He is the greatest treasure that can be ever found. His pearls of wisdom are like the treasures of the earth that men will seek. His words are as fine gold, no other treasures are needed in this earth, along the way. If we have found Him, we delight in his ways, as a child delights in the bosom of the mother. He is the treasure which we have sought all these years. What was missing in our hearts? He fills us to overflowing now, as we come into his throne room. No better life could I ever ask for upon this earth, but to know Him.

So many rich men, die unhappy. Their wealth has not filled their hearts with joy. If they have not known Him, then they have not lived a wealthy life. Many poor men, die happy, because their treasures are not found on earth, but in the heavenly things of God. I would rather live on day as that poor man on earth, then to live 90 years years a rich unhappy man without God.

So when you think that you have nothing, think again, dearest child of God, you have found the richest of all treasures, made in heaven. You are a child of the King of Kings. No finer treasure could you have.