Moi?

This is me. This is the way I operate. I usually write with no structure anyways, but nevermind :)

I am fifteen years of age, the clock started ticking for me on Wednesday the 4th of March 1987 8:15pm.

I was a strange child. I was weak, had asthma, hardly ate.. yep, I wasn't very well.. But gradually over time I grew stronger, and became the person that types before you today. My earliest memory was when I was about four, and it was my Grandpa's birthday. Being too young to grasp the concept of buying presents I decided I wanted my Grandpa to have a present from me anyways. I remember walking in like a mime artist, with a "box with a puppy in it"... Poor sod, there he was, trying to humour me by "opening" an invisible present, and pretending to be overjoyed when the invisible dog leapt out. Not wanting to burst my bubble, my Granddad named it spike and pretended to walk it everywhere for the next week. I suppose my Grandparents are a big reason for me being like I am today. God bless them.

There have been many points in my life where I have picked up on things, maybe not as everyone else would. I was a very introverted school kid. I had a close knit group of friends who used to take advantage of my naevity and stupidity. I grew up a lot the day I told them to fuck off. Surprisingly though, it seemed just like a break from them, as I am once again friends with the majority of them... I think I've matured a lot, and know that I don't need to take shit from anybody. It was pretty much the same week that I fell out with them that I got into the alternative scene. I listened to punk mainly, but was soon introduced to Slipknot, a band who's music (don't scoff) has helped me when I felt alone. I was on my own for about a month. I was sat in the far corner of the room, stood in the far corner of the playground, and during this time I learnt the basics of fending for yourself, and being whoever you wanted to be. This didn't mean, however that I liked myself.. Oh no.. I didn't like myself at all. About three years after this transformation Sophie, the "freak/mosha/goffick/ Slipknot fan" goes through her family being torn apart, which I think it's fair to say drags her down just a "little". I did stupid things last year when i was low.. things that really I shouldn't even have considered.. But it made sense at the time. So.. that brings us to 2002, the most influential year of my life to date. Not much happens through the first half of the year.. Had my first experience with alcohol, which I must add isn't something I'm proud of. I learn the beauty of friendship, and made lots of new friends when I started to hang out at the crin. It was a lovely warm summer, with breaking and entering, drinking, subways and smackheads.. It was fun at the time.. Then school rolled round again. Preparation for work experience... the best time of my life really. I worked in Mesmerize, a local goth shop where I was treated equally, respected and had a hell of a lot of fun. It was also the place where I met the love of my life, so you know it must be good. Really, since the thirteenth of September 2002, when I first stared into those beautiful blue and yellow eyes, my life has been pretty darn good. Because at the end of the day no matter what shit things happen at school or at work, or if I've just got caught out in the rain or had a brick launched at me, I know that someone, other than people that have to.. will love me, and I'm just so darn lucky it's the most amazing person on this earth that it is. For more info on him, have a look at his wee tribute. :D

So that leads us to the future.. I hope to get into Thomas Rotherham College, which seems really really good... Well to a lowly comprehensive girl it does ;) And then to University.. I'd love to be a psychiatrist, and generally study how people think and work.. But after that I have no idea really.. right now I'm just aiming for University, and anything bigger will follow naturally. Kids? Hmm.. I don't know.. It depends how good the healthcare is whenever that's destined to happen, or whether or not they would be Rob's.. Cuz that's the only way I'd want it to be.. not painful and with Rob. Lol! I always say that I would hate to have kids, but thinking about it realistically I would like to have a child at some point in my life.. I just want to have a life first. And that indeed I will :D