Disadvantage

Life and its advantages
Gone, Passed me by
I wish you could see
It's not for me anymore,
I wish i was the one who made that decision
I feel deserted from what i want
My heart wants so much
But my head wont let me
Im trying to be fair
But, what about me?
I wish so much for what i want
Blackness and the dark...
I know i learnt long ago
That you never get what you wish for
One of my biggest downfalls
I want my heart to stop weeping
I want to feel like "One" again
The more that i want
The more i need
They dig deeper into my flesh in reality
The further they dig
The more i bleed and die
There's not much left of me now
All i feel is hurt...from a heart that can't give the love it holds inside