September 20, 2007 11:35 AM

The paper wrapped around her waist kept crunching every time she moved and the room was icy cold. Buffy didn’t say anything because all she had been doing lately was complaining about how hot she was and Spike didn’t need any more ammunition to be snarky. She stared down at her toes contemplating the new shade of pink polish that Raven had picked out, decided she did like it after all and started to swing her feet again.

Spike wandered the room inspecting everything to stave off the nervousness. The last time they had been in a doctor’s exam room was when they were trying to get pregnant. This was the last place he wanted to be but he knew that it was important to Buffy for him to be there so he had volunteered before even being asked. Then after Xander had talked to him about what to expect and how vital his role as a father was to the whole thing he had begun to get excited about it.

“What’s this?” He held up an instrument that he had found on a tray in the corner.

“God, Spike, put it down.”

“Just trying to do the right thing and be all curious and I get yelled at.”

“It’s a speculum. It’s so the doctor can look at my cervix. Happy now?” Buffy snapped as she continued to exam her feet. She realized that he was nervous but his constant movements were making her anxiety level rise. Then his feet came into view as he moved to stand in front of her.

“Embarrassed to have me here? Cause frankly this ain’t doing a whole lot for me.”

Her head snapped up ready to lash out at him but only found him grinning at her. She playfully pushed at him.

“Stop it. I’m nervous enough.”

Then he started to pull the stirrups out of the table, extending them until they were in their proper positions. He looked to the left one and to the right one then back at Buffy.

“Can we get one of these at home? Might be fun.” He wiggled his eyebrows at her as he grinned lasciviously.

“No, don’t you ever think of anything besides sex?” Buffy rolled her eyes as his hands ran up the outside of her thighs and he leaned closer to her.

“Might not if I was getting some.”

“It’s normal in the first trimester.” They both looked around at the voice that had come into the room. “I’m Dr. Parker. Don’t think we need the stirrups yet.”

“Sorry,” Spike mumbled as he put them away.

Buffy and the doctor both laughed as he quickly sat down.

“It’s okay. You’re Spike, right?” After receiving a nod in agreement Dr. Parker continued. “Lack of sexual drive is normal during the first trimester because of all the changes her body is going through especially if she is having a lot of morning sickness. Be patient it will come back.”

Nodding in relief Spike settled back as the doctor started to question Buffy. Kate had recommended this doctor because she was aware of the demon world and would be able to handle all the unusual aspects of their lives. He decided that he already liked her from the no nonsense approach in which she had handled his behavior when she came into the room. Her appearance also gave off a comforting but practical air. Dr. Parker was a black woman that appeared to be in her mid-forties and she had a slightly round face that denoted her slightly overweight appearance. When the two women laughed he glanced over at Buffy and realized that she liked her too and was beginning to relax under her humorous approach to the visit.

“Well, it seems the due date should be right around April 27th.” Dr. Parker hesitated and looked back at her calendar then over at them. “Kate said that the conception happened after your change but to be honest from your last period your ovulation was almost over with. The date most likely for conception would have been the fifth of August. Two days before. It’s still possible that it happened afterwards but not as likely.”

Spike looked up at Buffy and she looked down at him in amazement. It was something that they hadn’t even considered. They had tried for so long with no results that they assumed it was because of the transformation. Then she smiled as she reached for his hand.

“It was the desk.”

“Must have been,” he agreed.

“Something I don’t need to know.” Dr. Parker smiled at them. It was good to have a couple that had gone through so much to have a child. These were the kind of pregnancies she enjoyed being a part of. “Know you’re going to hate this part but it’s time for the pelvic. I’m also going to have a sonogram done because of the extenuating parentage. Everything will be done in this office for that reason too. The less people who know the better off we are.”

Spike stood so that he could hold Buffy’s hand with one of his and the other could stroke her hair. She was smiling as she looked up at him but he knew she was afraid that the exam would show something to be wrong. But it took only a few minutes for it to be over and everything was pronounced fine at that point.

“Lita will be the one to do the sonogram but I’ll stay during it. Be right back.”

After the door closed Buffy pulled Spike to her in a fierce hug. “I need you. Thank you for being here.”

“No other place I want to be than here.” He whispered.

Someone poked their head in and told them that they needed to go down the hall to another exam room for the procedure. Spike dropped his duster around her to make sure she was covered for the migration and then kept his arm draped around her. Lita and Dr. Parker were already waiting for them and they soon had Buffy up on the table. Her hand was clenching his in a bone crushing grip.

“This first one is going to be transvaginal scan which means the transducer goes into the vagina.” Lita explained.

Spike thought he was the one that was going to faint when Lita pulled out a long piece of plastic that was to be inserted inside his wife.

“You’re turning green, Mr. Blood.” Dr. Parker said. “Are you going to be all right?”

Her comment had the desired effect because Buffy laughed at his queasy expression which helped her to relax some. After everything was set up, Lita turned some dials then turned the screen toward them.

“There’s your baby,” she announced pointing to a small oval shape. “You can’t really see anything but the gestation sac at this point but that’s it. Would you like a picture?”

“Yes,” Buffy answered. It was too surreal for her at the moment to believe that the glob on the screen was her baby.

Spike stood transfixed at the screen as the reality of their baby wrapped itself around his heart.

Lita turned some more dials and the room was flooded with the sound of their baby’s heartbeat.

“Oh, my God, Spike, that’s our baby,” Buffy’s face lit up in pure joy at the sound. Everything they had gone through in the last year had just become worth every second in that moment to her. They had created this child together; a symbol of the love that they had fought for.

It was too much for Spike. To stand there and listen to the heartbeat of a child that had come from him hit him like nothing in his existence ever had. This moment made everything he had ever gone through worth it. He knew in his soul that every moment with Buffy had been building toward this moment and he crumpled under the magnitude of it. He buried his face against her as he began to sob. Her arms came around him as she whispered how much she loved him and that everything was going to be fine.

“I’ll give you two a few minutes alone,” Dr. Parker whispered. “Just come back down the hallway to the exam room when you’re ready.”

Buffy nodded in gratitude as she ran her hand up and down Spike’s back.

It took him a couple of minutes for him to get himself back together and when he raised his head he found he was alone with Buffy.

“You okay?” She asked softly as her fingers wiped the tears from his face. He nodded his head as he leaned down to kiss her tenderly.

“I love you so much, pet.” His hand covered her lower stomach. “I never thought we’d be here. That I could ever be so lucky to have you love me and that we’d create a baby.” He broke out with an even bigger grin, “Buffy, we’re going to have a baby.”

“Yeah, we are. It’s a good thing we never killed each other in the beginning.” She smiled at him enjoying the way his face was so filled with happiness. If nothing else reassured her that this was the right thing that look did.

“Can we get out of here?”

“Yeah, we can. Just need to see the doctor for a minute then we can leave. Okay?”

He nodded and helped her get up from the table. It took only a few minutes before Buffy was allowed to get dressed again and they were able to leave.

As they walked through the parking lot Buffy snapped her fingers. “I forgot we’re supposed to pick up some more streamers and balloons for Raven. Is it okay if we stop on the way home?”

“Yeah, doesn’t she have enough to decorate the house and half the neighborhood though?”

“It’s her first birthday with us and as long as it’s not hurting anything I just want to let her have what she wants.”

Spike nodded as he reached out to open the van door for Buffy. There was enough to worry about with Raven without concerning themselves with the little things. After she was settled in he closed the door and quickly walked around the van.

“How about some lunch first?” Spike asked as he settled behind the wheel and started the vehicle.

Buffy smiled, “Yeah that sounds good.”

They had a quick lunch and then picked up the rest of the supplies for Raven before heading home. Buffy kept looking at Spike as they went about their errands contemplating the changes in him. He was being so sweet to her, always there to help out and checking every few minutes to make sure she had everything that she needed.

On the way home she leaned her head against the window letting her eyes shut. She was feeling drowsy from the heat of the afternoon and it would feel good to get home and sleep for an hour or so. She felt his fingers reach over to tuck her hair behind her ear and she grabbed his hand bringing it to her mouth so that she could kiss it.

“I love you,” she whispered.

“Love you, too, Pet.”

Then she felt it. It moved through her body, warm and tingling, flooding her nerve endings with desire for him. And she wanted him now. Her head popped up and looked around noting that they were getting ready to pass the cemetery.

“Now, turn in the cemetery.” Buffy called out as she reached for the wheel.

“What? What’s wrong?”

He swatted her hand away from the wheel but did as she asked. It was too bred in him to follow her orders because there was always the possibility of an attack that he didn’t know about. His eyes opened wide when he looked over at her and she was lifting her skirt.

“Buffy, what the hell is going on?”

“Park somewhere.” Her hands started to pull her panties down. “If you want to get laid, find somewhere to park now.”

“We are two minutes from the house.”

He pulled the van behind a crypt just as she knelt between the seats and began to undo his pants.

“Shit, what if someone sees us?”

“Quit being a prude. You’re the one that’s been complaining that you aren’t getting any.”

“Yeah, but I didn’t mean I wanted it in the cemetery in the middle of the afternoon.”

“Fine, I’ll take care of it myself.”

Buffy didn’t mean it as her hands wrapped around him and began to stroke him. When he moaned she knew that he was going to give in.

“Where?” He asked as he started to climb in the back as she crawled backwards to give him room to maneuver.

Buffy pulled him down so that he was on his back between the first bench seat and the driver’s seat. He was wedged with a shoulder under each and his legs were bent with his feet propped on the sliding passenger door.

“Bullocks, there is no bloody room.”

It wasn’t deterring Buffy as she bent over taking his semi-flaccid cock into her mouth sucking and licking to get him hard enough. Her hand gently squeezed his sac making him groan.

“Damn it.” He muttered in frustration as he tried to reach out and touch her but couldn’t do it. His arms were almost immobilized from his position.

“Sorry,” Buffy whispered as she moved up his body and straddled him. “Just wanted you so bad. Couldn’t wait.” Her mouth meshed with his while her hands held his face. “Knew if we waited until we got home something would stop us.” She slid down on him sheathing herself completely. Her hands rested on his stomach as she moved over him.

“Get down here,” Spike ordered. “If someone sees you doing that, we’re fucked.”

“Trying to,” Buffy answered as she lowered herself over him then took advantage of her new position to rain kisses on his face and neck.

He used his feet as leverage to thrust up into her, meeting her as she came down, and when she gasped from the force, he smiled in satisfaction.

Her hands ran up and down his body as she kissed him over and over before finally sucking his tongue into her mouth. He wanted to flip her and take control but he had none and the only thing he could reach were her sides as his fingers tried to feel her. Laughing Buffy leaned over so the back of his hands could brush over her breasts. Her movements over him began to speed up and he followed suit pushing up more with each thrust.

“Unnngh,” she moaned as he filled her completely, over and over, stimulating her clit with each thrust. Her walls started to ripple and squeeze him as her orgasm hit her and there was a cracking sound that they both ignored. Spike strained upward to join her when his feet broke through the paneling on the side of the van and he collapsed back on the floor. Buffy froze and turned her head to see what had happened.

“Forget about it, finish it, I’m almost there,” Spike pleaded. It was so close and he didn’t want anything to keep him from cumming at this point.

Buffy raised and lowered herself, squeezing him and grinding on him until he spilled himself inside of her. As their breathing slowed down they looked over at the door and started to laugh.

“How are we going to explain this?” Buffy giggled.

“It was your hormones.”

Spike fell against the floor again as Buffy lay against him still giggling. Although he couldn’t reach her, he wouldn’t change anything about this. Life was definitely good.

TBC