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"10 Questions with Gackt"
(An interview when he's in Malice Mizer from SHOXX Vol.67)

1. Please tell us about your big mistake.
    "Umm... This question is very dangerous because if I truly answer, I may disappear from here.(laughs) But if I rashly say, my big mistake was my birth and existence. I don't think the existence now will be happy. If you make a little mistake, you may be a criminal. For me, I don't want to leave my relatives over, so I don't want to have any child. When I was a child, I faced many bad things. Although I'm still alive, there are many factors lead to suicide. I don't want those experiences happening to any other children. When I was a child, I was very weak, especially mentallity. I saw what others couldn't see. Nobody believed what I said. However, I'd really like my parents believed me the most. At that time, they didn't believe me at all. As a result, what I think that my birth was my big mistake might start from that time."

2. How do you think about this world in the year 2305 ?
   "If still being lucky, this world will exist. I feel like humans now are forced by some stimulation that happens in each one's mind, which can lead to catastrophe that you can't know. Therefore, if they haven't changed themself, this world may be broken down, and what humans have now will start from zero again, won't they ? I think something will start if it's decreed by fate. Currently, the condition of the world is getting close to be over soon. I think, without the World War II, populations in this world might have been over 10 billion. Food wouldn't be enough although there're high technologies now.  War might seem to be bad thing, but if there's no bad thing happening, I think a human is only a cell which has meaningless."

3. If you get a chance to be a film director, how will your film be ? However, there's a condition that members of MM must be lead actors.
    "Characters in my film may be not  humans. I'd like it to be a silent film. If there're dialogues, nobody can act. I'm talking about the film, not history or causal relations(laughs). Do you know cartoon "Gon" ? It's about Dinosaur, no dialogue. The story went on by pictures. When you read the introduction of this cartoon, you'll be moved that "Is there this kind of cartoon ?" Actually, there're some movies like this cartoon, but not good. About character setting, I'd like everybody acts as spirit. The title will be "Malice Mizer and funny friends" or "Nice Middle and funny friends"(laughs). There will be a joke in a serious matter. When the movie ends, you will see ones who are laughing, and ones who sigh, or ones who don't leave their seats. I think this kind of movie is quite good. Mr.Taro said, "Hard acting is comedy acting."  I agree because, if  you have an experience of crying or being sad, you can play. On the other hand, acting to make audiences laugh is very hard.  If I produce a movie, I'd like to put a joke in a serious matter. I don't think music is everything of mine. I'd like to try on doing other things. I think singing for the good of the world is very good, but acting is very good as well. Therefore, I also would like to be an actor because I'm greedy."

4. Your idea about homosexual.
    "Idea of people about homosexual that 'it is not good to have a lot of these things in this world', it's quite true. However, I don't care.   Actually, being a woman or a man is not important.   The important thing is 'one has got respectation or not'. If my lover is a man, body relation will be impossible because of being the same sex. But if you can clear about it, there's no problem, and then you'll think it's good. For me, my boyfriends around me are only who haven't had body relation with me, but about feeling, it's the same as I give to a woman. I think the feeling that will become love, it's not about sex. But of course, there must be liking. Long hair has no meaning(laughs). But if you have long hair, there's no problem. I think making a friend is not about being a woman or a man. If someone think I'm bi-sexual because of this interview, go ahead."

5. The necessary things for sex, in terms of stimulation.
    "Being 'two of a kind'(or not) is feeling. And it's important. Otherwise, how good techniques you have, it doesn't work. I think 'sex' communicates the part that is unable to speak.  If you can put something contains your feeling into another one's body, and that one does either, it will be a wonderful feeling. I mean mentality, not body. Saying 'good' or 'expert', I think it's wrong. I have close friends who are female more than male. I had been thinking 'Why ?'. Now, I can understand. It's because I have no body relation with my boyfriends. On the other hand, if compare to a woman, body relation seems to be natural. We can communicate by feeling, not words. About boyfriends, I took much times to understand our feeling. So, feeling between me and girlfriends can be understood quickly. Until now, I don't have any disconnection or bad relation with any girlfriends. In my opinion, intergrating of understanding in feeling is more important than sex."

6. In your opinion, what is the necessary things for human ?
    "Time, money and close friends. If you had them all, it would be good. If you have something you want to do, you can do if you have money. Money may seems to be nonsense, but if you are tied by this nonsense, I think it's nonsense and burden even more. So, there's enough money for living, it's the best. About close friends, when I say, "I want to go...." and there's someone can go with me, without concerning with time and money, it's much better than going alone. When I have these 3 things, my happiness may start. However, I don't have these 3 things now. Some friends of mine have both money and time which I don't have. So, I felt guilty when my friends wanted me to do something, but I said, "I'm sorry, I don't have time at all." I think it's loneliness. Or saying, "I can't because I have no money.", it's loneliness even more. If I have these 3 things, it will be happiness, and my new happiness will start too."

7. The final destination.
    "How will I do ?", "Will I die ?", "Can I relinguish ?" I would like to be linger when I'm going to leave somewhere, but not wanting claps. I'd like to make time when I'm going to leave a stage be more important than time when I appear on a stage. I think a human does this kind of thing again and again, but finally, how can you make other people linger on you after you died ? However, I won't think in negative way surely. I always think how I can do to be alive continually. Even about the death, if you think you should know about the death and birth, I think you can't understand surely because death and birth is "One appear". Moreover, we can't see our birth and death by ourself. And  if you want to see only 'death', you'll become a mysterious person, won't you ?(laughs) I think continuing our life is an important thing. So, my idea about death is very positive. I'm not optimistic, but I'm hopeful. Life may face trouble. Someone may think 'Why am I painful like this ?', but who can realize the benefit of living will think he's not much painful like that. If you can understand the benefit of happiness, you'll think it's interesting."

8. Joyful memory in your childhood.
    "I can't remember, I have no memory. If I say about my happy time, I can remember only when I lighted a fire. fuu!  I like living what I like. When I was young, I was very happy. I went to see a river all day, or, in a sunshine day, I went to throw stone blocks at riverside. It's always like that. For me, going to school in a fine day was my big problem. I liked English subject, so I would make my decision that 'Go to earthern ridge.' or 'Today, go to river.' At there, I spent my time for reading books even more to studying at school. I didn't hate studying, but I didn't like some teachers. So, if he/she was my favorite teacher, I often went to study. And when I studied, I felt like something go into my body. I liked it. Besides, I like night view. When I was young, my grandfather, at Okinawa Navy Base, took me to a little hill for seeing view of crowded area. At there, I could see the light from roads that were very beautiful. There made me feel good. I like night view since then. Later, I often went to my grandfather's house because there's the sea in front of the house. I could watch the sea all day. I watched it about 8 hours a day, so I felt the sea become the living thing. Wherever I went, I would often light a fire, and be alone, and many hours a time. Who came with me would feel torment because of sitting without doing anything.(laughs)"

9. Talk about a person who has an influence over you.
    "I met that person when I was about 18-19 years old. I was negative abnormally since I was young. However, when I met him, I had changed myself at all. For other people, when someone pours out his grievances, they often say, 'Is that so ?' to make the conversation continue smoothly. So, finally, it will be only a consolation. To that person, when I poured out my grievances, he bursted out laughing, and said "Nonsense!..., you think like that because you have your point of view like that. You should think like this." He changed my view. He's very positive.  He has an influence on me so much. I, at that time, often thought only about the death. The more I stayed with him, the more my view had been postived. I can say I know the meaning of existence, it's not exaggerated. He is older than me about 10 years, but for me, he is greater than me many many years. When I stayed with him, I was very enjoyed. Many stories he told me were very new to me. And I got some influences of those stories too. His movement was great. At that time, I rarely laughed, but he could make me laugh. Therefore, I think if there were many people as him in this world, this world would be better to us for living.

10. Leave a message to women in this world.
    "If I could see you all, I'd like to do. Because of limited time of my life, I'd like to see many people. To simply compare, this world has 5 billion people, 2,500 million are women. I'd like to see you all. As I say seeing many people is good, it's my belief which has no cause. I think it's great. However, there's less chance to see many people. I think seeing another person is wonderful. I am happy with many things I've seen. Thank you very much. From now on, I'd like to see the important thing that is 'love' more."