Mood:  not sure

I got a phone call from a friend last night that I didn't really expect...even though I kinda did since I kinda asked for it. But still, I was surprised. I didn't know what to say. And when I'd hung up I really regretted what I ended up saying. They're right, I am fucked up in my head. Now I just have to figure out why and what to do about it. I'm not blaming anyone else, I'm taking full responsibility for it. Who the hell do I think I am?? Better than everyone else?? Worse than everyone else?? I don't know anything anymore...

Yes, I know, another one of my confusing posts, sorry friends, didn't mean to confuse...it's more like...thinking out loud or something and not really anything you need to take notice of. Just ignore what I just wrote. Thanks for (not) listening.

I'm gonna go back to trying to figure out how to get that big box to Belgium now...DHL? How does that work? Do you call someone or go somewhere with it and what am I supposed to write on it??? I need my B! Wake up dammit!