A TRIBUTE TO TERRY



~ ~ ~ STARHAWK ~ ~ ~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TERRY ...........STARHAWK...........

TODAY IS A DAY OF CELEBRATION, I TOAST THE DAY OF YOUR BIRTH.


TODAY I REMEMBER AND REFLECT ON THAT DAY 41 YEARS AGO WHEN GOD INTRODUCED US FOR THE FIRST TIME..
I LOVED YOU BEFORE I KNEW YOU, THOSE 9 MONTHS OF HOLDING YOU UNDER MY HEART.... BUT NOTHING COULD PREPARE ME FOR THE DEEP AND WONDEROUS LOVE OF A MOTHER WHEN GOD PLACED YOU IN MY ARMS AND I SAW WITH MY EYES WHAT MY HEART HAD GROWN TO LOVE...... YOU WERE MY PRECIOUS BABY BOY, MY EVERYTHING.

I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU OPENING YOUR EYES AND LOOKING AT ME AS IF YOU KNEW WHAT WE WOULD ALWAYS BE,.... AND HOW MUCH I NEEDED AND WANTED YOU.
I TRULY BELIEVE THE PLANS FOR OUR DECADES TOGETHER EXCHANGED BETWEEN US AT THAT MOMENT, BY THE GRAND SCOPE OF TRUE FAITH.
TODAY AS I THINK OF YOU AND LOVE YOU, I CELEBRATE YOUR LIFE AND BIRTH ON EARTH.
AND AGAIN IN TRUE BELIEF AND FAITH , I KNOW YOU ARE IN THE HANDS OF THE LORD, SURROUNDED BY ANGELS , PURE BEAUTY AND LOVE.
MY MISSING YOU, AND THE TEARS I SHED ON THIS EARTH ARE MY PAIN AND MY GRIEF, BUT ONLY FOR MYSELF... FOR I KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOW AND FOREVER BACK IN THE HANDS OF YOUR CREATOR, WHOLE, HAPPY, AND FILLED WITH JOY AND LIGHT.

TODAY I ASK GOD TO GIVE YOU A CAKE MADE OF THE SWEETEST CLOUDS AND PUT ON TOP, A CANDLE LIT WITH A STAR. I ASK THAT ALL THE ANGELS SING FOR YOU AND THE STREETS OF GOLD FILL WITH DANCING ANGELS TO CELEBRATE THE WONDERFUL SOUL YOU ARE, AND YOUR....... " FIRST BIRTHDAY BACK IN HEAVEN."





I WILL LOOK UP TO THE HEAVENS TO SEE YOUR BIRTHDAY CANDLE TONIGHT....., KNOWING THIS ONE WILL NEVER BE BLOWN OUT. BECAUSE IT IS YOUR BIRTHDAY STAR..... AND YOUR GREATEST WISH IS WHERE YOU ARE .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY , MY SON......
FOREVER LOVING YOU
YOUR MOTHER

~ ~ ~ A MOTHER'S HEARTBREAK ~ ~ ~

Written In A Letter To A Friend
On Thursday, December 02, 2004 2:45 PM


Terry passed this morning at 3:55 after a long hard battle. I held him in my arms and handed him back to the Lord ever so much like I accepted him from the Lords arms 40 years ago. I realize now that he was a gift indeed, but on loan and handing him back into the arms of our Lord was an honor and I was happy to do so. I watched his face go from the torture of the battle to the peace of seeing the other side and the Lords eyes.

His face actually healed itself in my hands of all superficial blemishes and imperfections, his complexion became clear as tawny marble he had no stubble of the beard he he had minutes before even. his eyes opened , peace enveloped him the great healer is also the great plastic surgeon. not a scar or blemish was on his face as I held it in my two hands and kissed him good-bye. I kissed his eye lids and said thank you sweet Lord for the loan of my son. and let him go.

I will never again feel such pain or such understanding of The gift of life all at the same time again. My heart is broken and filled with Love at the same time.

I have to go now and rest awhile and then go to prepare for a funeral. He wants cremation and then a memorial service. I will then arrange a military salute and grave site marker . Though he will be buried at sea. The family wants a site to visit. I will take him to sea later.
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~ ~ ~ TERRY'S EULOGY AND JOURNEY ~ ~ ~


I WANT TO THANK EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU FOR BEING HERE TODAY TO HELP US CELEBRATE TERRY'S LIFE AND TO HONOR HIS PASSING.

I KNOW THAT MY SON WAS A VERY SPECIAL PERSON AND THAT THE REASON HE WAS HERE ON THIS EARTH TOUCHED THE PEOPLE HE MET.
"YOU EACH HAVE STORIES ABOUT HOW YOU MET TERRY AND HOW HE TOUCHED YOUR LIFE."

I KNOW THAT YOU WILL EACH HAVE A REASON WHY YOU WILL REMEMBER HIM.

TERRY LOVED TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE AND I BELIEVE THAT WAS ONE OF THE WAYS HE WAS ABLE TO UTILIZE ALL THE MANY GIFTS AND TALENTS HE HAD BEEN GIVEN.

I ALSO KNOW THAT PEOPLE WHO DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HIM WERE TOUCHED BY HIS ACTS OF KINDNESS AND GENEROSITY.

WE BELIEVE IN THE INDIAN MEDICINE WAY, THAT THERE IS ONE GOD
ONE GREAT SPIRIT OVER US ALL.

WE ARE NOT RELIGIOUS PEOPLE, WE ARE SPIRTUAL PEOPLE.

TERRY WAS A STRONG BELIEVER IN THE INDIAN PHRASE



" MI A TAKA O WASHAN"
" WE ARE ALL ONE PEOPLE"

TERRY DID NOT SEE PEOPLE BY THE COLOR OF THEIR SKIN OR THEIR RACE.

TERRY PRACTICED THE BELIEF THAT GOD MADE ALL MANKIND............. AND HE MADE US ALL EQUAL..........

HE BELIEVED THAT LOVE, KINDNESS AND HONESTY WOULD BE RETURNED TO HIM .

"IF HE OFFERED TRUE FRIENDSHIP"

IN LOVE, KINDNESS AND HONESTY BECAUSE-----

THE WAY TERRY APPROACHED LIFE IS-------

WHAT "GOES AROUND COMES AROUND."

"ALL THINGS IN LIFE ARE A CIRCLE"

"I WENT FULL CIRCLE WITH TERRY"

FROM BEING A SCARED BUT BOLD 17 YEAR OLD YOUNG MOTHER----

WHEN THE LORD PLACED HIM IN MY ARMS THE NIGHT HE WAS BORN ,

TO NOW 40 YEARS LATER----

WHEN I HANDED HIM BACK TO THE ARMS OF THE LORD DECEMBER 2ND AS HE PASSED OUT OF THIS WORLD.

BEING PART OF THIS MADE ME REALIZE THAT TERRY WAS A RARE AND SPECIAL GIFT INDEED. AND I TREASURED HIM. I LOVED HIM, DEPENDED ON HIM IN SO MANY WAYS---- FOR SO MANY REASONS.---- HE WAS MY SPECIAL PERSON WHEN I HAD NO ONE----. SO I MADE A PERSON OF MY OWN. ------

I HAD TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT SOMETIMES PEOPLE AS WONDERFUL AS TERRY ARE ONLY ON LOAN FOR A SHORT TIME TO THIS WORLD ,

HANDING HIM BACK TO THE ARMS OF THE LORD WAS THE HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE-----

BUT AT THE SAME TIME IT WAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL , BECAUSE IT WAS THE GREATEST HONOR GOD COULD HAVE GIVEN ME AS HIS MOTHER------.

IT SHOWED ME THAT THE LORD HIMSELF HAD TRUSTED ME TO BE THERE FOR MY SON, ---

" FULL CIRCLE"

AHO, AMEN



A LETTER FROM TERRY
" SEPTEMBER 24TH, 2006"

"I DON'T WANT TEARS TODAY"....
"I FEEL YOUR HEARTFELT LOVE"..
SO I'M SENDING YOU THIS MESSAGE...
FROM MY BIRTHDAY UP ABOVE....

YOU ARE WONDERING IF I'LL CELEBRATE
MY BIRTHDAY, WAY UP HERE.....
I KNOW YOU'RE MISSING ME TODAY...
BUT I AM ALWAYS NEAR...

GOD'S PLANNED A SPECIAL DAY FOR ME.....
SO SADNESS PLEASE DON'T THINK...
HE ORDERED ME A SPECIAL CAKE....
(IT'S ANGEL FOOD I THINK).....

BALLOONS YOU SEND FROM DOWN BELOW...
COME FLOATING THROUGH THE CLOUDS......
AND THE LOVE I FEEL ATTACHED TO THEM.......
MAKE ME SMILE THEN LAUGH OUT LOUD.....

YES THERE IS,... A BIRTHDAY PARTY...
JEWELLED ANGELS RIDE THE WINDS..
WITH HARPS AND HORNS, THEY PLAY SO SWEET.....
THE MAGIC NEVER ENDS......

WE'LL HAVE MY CAKE AND ICE CREAM......
GIFTS DAZZLING TO THE EYES.....
BUT WE DON'T BLOW OUT CANDLES HERE.......
YOU SEE THEY LIGHT THE SKIES....






"A mind stretched with NEW ideas will NEVER return to its original size"
by Terry Cowlishaw


Though you are gone from this earth, you will never, ever be forgotten, Terry.





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