How I Feel
As I sit on the porcelain cover
in the only room when
the door is allowed
to be shit
I have swallowed my pride
And it burns through my gut
I don't know what to do anymore
I can't keep it inside
So I take out on my book and write through the blurs of my cries
Staining my clothes
the fall one after next
as another track
chose to travel down
and in another brutal wreck
Feeling flustered and
hysterical I'm still trapped
With no one beside me
MAs y sinus stuff and
My head explodes
at the emptyness inside me
I work hard and try to
gain and everyday
something else is lost
All you do is say its
gone and it none no
matter what the cost
to be a property of
the city feels like shit
why the fuck did
I choose this path
Now it's my turn to
run away and I never
Will look back
They say respect you
You're the mom
Yet when they pull the plug
when I'm speaking to
Mine!
Say how I'm rude and
Not supposed to be on
the phone after that time
I said it's important I
had to call, they say
I didn't at all. and as
they gang up on me, even
being 5'3" I now feel 2 inches tall
What have I done
I've been through enough
You have no idea
I hope when you all die you come
back in my shoes
and see that
my point's clear
You ask my age and
say I don't know
shy
Just because it's 15 years
I have real eyes
experienced real life,br>and responded real tears
I've been on the streets
with no food to eat
I've lived in homeless
Shelters for days
I've thought of how easy it owuld be to
Escape and counted endless ways
But what good
what it do
not to see things through
So I decided to go
and pray
There's a thine line
Between consequence
and bitch abd you've crossed more than you should
Keep on like that on
the wrong track the outcomes never good
How can you judge me when you have no idea
The life that I have lived
I had it harder than most old men, women
and most generation of kids
To think I'm an ignorant asshole
You must not know how much I'm real
One dy you'll learn
the hard way and see just how I feel