What Matters most To Me ?

Does it really matter if the ship really sinks? Do you really care if the last leave fell? What does it matter if you really don't care? What if you don't want it anymore? Dreams last for so long before they fade. What falls through the cracks Is dust. Sometimes it's even less. I take hold of something... I have no idea what it is.. I ran up the hill instead of down. I listened instead of talked. I cried instead of laughing. Why? What matters most to me? What matters has gotten lost In a sea of mindlessness.