It's come again, that uneasy feeling. I sit silently, as if waiting for The moment to pass. I can barely breathe.. I can barely keep my eyes open. I stretch, to keep my legs From cramping. The silence is oddly thick. Any moment something is going To change my life. I stand, tired of sitting. I open my eyes, daring The moment to bring me To my knees. I have to live.. I have to.