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Poetry is my outlet of emotions. Feelings that are stored deep down inside of me are wounds that become opened, and sometimes healed after I write a poem about it. All of my poems are original. They're real. Real pain. Regardless, I love my poetry. I've found that other people can relate to my poems also. Some things that I've felt are identical feelings that some of my friends feel too. So I'm happy that my poetry benefits others as well. Feel free to express it to whom ever you wish, but please shout me out because it is MY POETRY!
So Easy To Let Go
I hear the door opening again, the one you slammed in my face,
When I was just all alone, I feel someone invading my space.
Forcing their way back into my life when it was so unexpected,
Especially when you always said you cared but left me feeling so neglected.
You ask for the place you once had in my heart and expect me to say "yes,"
I shrug with confusion, bat an eye, and my answer is simply a guess.
But when u start to do what you used to, I no longer shed a tear,
And that same old song that you used to sing goes in one, and out the next ear.
Because I'm starting to turn my back, something you always did to me,
And I'm showing signs of disconcern, feelings that would've shown inevitably.
It seems that the tables have turned, and on the other side, you've taken my seat,
The game is being played differently, and I won't sucuumb to defeat.
When I once held onto our relationship so tightly, no matter the situation,
I convinced myself that you were meant for me, I'd given it no serious contemplation.
But now its just the opposite, it took me years to know,
That you can come and go like a daydream, because its so easy to let go!
*Written by me*
Cries From A Lonely Heart
There is a deep silence, while my heart drains...
Rain drops beat against the window, and the emptiness stains.
The sun, hidden behind the dark clouds, attempt to peep,
And the angriness that has consumed my soul begins to weep.
Memories of laughter-complete happiness- starts to fade,
And the cost- expenses for love- remain unpaid.
A state of solitude lingers in the air,
I've searched for completion, but I only find despair.
A tear escapes my right eye,
Then I realize that I can no longer fight it: I have to let myself cry!
Because there has been built up emotion that had an entrance and no way out,
I figure there is a root to this pain, but I'm not sure what about.
My heart skips a beat, then begins to pace,
There's a numbness in my stomach, and tears race down my face.
The silence gets LOUDER as the beats of rain get LOWER,
My heart beats speed up again, as the rain falls slower.
I wonder, what could've made these unfamiliar feelings start?
Now I know they're cries from a lonely heart.
*Written by me!*
The Meaning of Fading
Yesterday I was fifteen, the day before that, I was eleven. Last week I was nine, and the month before I was seven.
Freshly in my memory, I was four, then suddenly I remember: these days that are passing are really years and this ageing is inevitable.
But who would've ever believed that this time would pass as quickly as my tears are falling?
And who would know that those friends once trusted would be those that fade into the sun?
As I stop to catch my breath, because I can't keep up, the world spins quickly around me....
And the memories of us cheering together, fade too, like the screaming voices of the crowds in the stand.
And the long pages of our notebooks that we passed in our classes, fade, the words full of life and laughter.
The gym days that we walked the track idlelessly and all together attempted tai boe, they fade like our goodbyes when we parted our seperate roads.
Those endless nights that we spent talking everything about nothing fade, like the sweaty palms that ended with the kiss in the car that marked and sparked brand new feelings in the both of us.
And as we all take that big step from childhood to adulthood, the memories are footsteps behind.
The footsteps, tainted, with pain, and joy mistaken, because of the future.
And each step aligned in different directions that all mark confusion, they fade.
The gaps between the footsteps symbolize the instability while my emotions become numb.
My emotions were hang dry from disappointment until I could feel no longer.
Then I began to feel like it was a lie all along, the friendships.
They were initiated with trust, sincerity and love, that fade like they are now all filled with insincerity amd deceit.
I can only hope its not so!
That hopefully the future will prove them to be real, all of them, even the lost memories.
That hopefully they will be found in the morning and rekindled with the same passion alike.
And although the fading continues, the memories are still vivid in my heart, and I miss them.
Instead of yesterday, I want them to be today and tomorrow.
But its all in my mind because I've truly witnessed the meaning of fading...
*Written by me*
How Can I Let Go?.
After the time thats passed, and I've given u my heart, how can I let go?
B/c you've made it clear that u want to go on w/o me, and now I guess I just know.
It's amazing how we'd become so close so fast, yet we've grown apart so soon,
Not feeling your touch or receiving your kisses, I've not yet become immune.
So exaasperating is this difficult task of forcing myself to get over you,
B/c I keep hearing your voice and seeing your face although I've assured myself that we're more than through.
You don't call, you don't write, I never did exist,
But you did a good job frontin' that u cared, it seemed u couldn't resist.
I've attempted to contemplate, the reasoning for your actions, but I can't come up w/WHY?,
I just have to accept it, and sooner or later you'll regret it, but missing u, I can't deny.
An extreme passion, and a potential love between us that is no longer alive,
A quick death-our brief journey for ecstasy- that defenitely was not able to survive.
How can I let go of those feelings of pain you've caused that I'm reminded of everyday?.
Silly me! I knew this would happen from the jump, but I went on w/it anyway.
I wish it weren't so, but I know in the future, we'll never again be the same,
but I gotta remember that you lose, b/c your loss is another nigga's gain.
How can I let go of all this disappointment that lingers in my soul?
B/c I've been hurt before, its another lesson learned, and just to go w/my life is my goal!
*Written by me!*
I said it before...
I said it before, and I'll say it again,
I wanna be your only woman, and you my man.
But there's so much about you that leaves me confused,
I'm only tryin' to give you my heart and I already feel used.
From my last relationship, my broken heart isn't entirely mended,
But it didn't take you any time before you were the next nigga contended.
You promised me, though, that you would NEVER be the one to hurt me,
and now those once so meaningful words seem so empty.
The months are passing like days, we still have no "understanding" yet,
I NEED to search to be fulfilled, but forgetting about me and you, I'd hate to regret.
I said it before, and I've not begun to realize who there is to blame?
I point my fingers at you b/c my feelings are sincere, and I'm still not sure if you feel the same.
You do everything else to make me believe besides assuring me with your heart,
so then I point my finger at myself w/blame for letting us get this close from the start.
But what is it a/b you that makes me yearn for your very presence?
And what is it a/b you- when my heart stopped loving- that made my heart commence?
But I can't continue to feel like this any longer, you can't say I hadn't tried,
So all I've got left to do is wonder while I protect my heart and maintain my pride.
For awhile, I've wrestled w/the decision to let this emotional and mental stress go,
so whenever you understand and feel like you can be real w/me, then you let me know.
*Written by me*
The Way It Has To Be
The emptiness, overflowing with nothing, that I can’t describe,
The way I felt about you, words can’t explain it and I can’t hide
My love, taken for granted, I didn’t wanna let go,
I wanted to be with you forever and I didn’t wanna let you know.
Because when I opened my eyes, reality hit, and you were still the same,
You played me over and over again, I was your video game.
The times we spent together, my heart will always keep,
and the sleepness nights when I hurt, to my pillow I would weep.
A long-lost love that I always tried to live ,
My everything and all, to you I tried to give.
But it just wasn’t enough for you, your motive was to make me fall,
Until I gave you the only thing left in me, so you’d win and have it all.
The price for me, a lot to pay, so much for just so less
Because in the end, I’d be left with nothing, and of me, you would’ve gotten the best
And in the end, I know now, I was only trying to make you love me,
But love is not forced, and now I see, that this is the way it has to be.
*Written by me*
So You Want Me Back
It wasn’t too long ago when you looked at me while you held her,
You had no respect for me, you devoured my worth,
And every damn time that I found someone new
You dragged me back into the mess we’ve already been through.
But you fell for someone else, once again,
And left me there not knowing where to begin.
I waited for you when you left me alone,
Then you came back and my heart condoned.
Since I’m now happy and content,
You’re the one whose twisted and bent.
And baby, I believe you’ll never learn,
That my love and heart, you’ll never once again earn.
I’ll admit, that its funny to know you’re mad,
Cause now I got you contemplating on what you had.
So next time you try it on someone else,
Remember, you’re only hurting yourself.
I still care, and that ain’t no lie,
But all I can tell you sweetheart, is...GOODBYE!
By: my dawg Lauren
The Door To My Heart
I hear knocking
Someone's knocking at the door to my heart
Whose there? Whose there?
What do they want from me? What is it?
I don't wanna answer the door
I don't think I can answer the door
Its impossible, and why?
Because I remember what happened the last time I opened the door
They came in, and made themself comfortable
They stayed quite awhile!
But then! They slammed MY door, to MY own heart, in MY face.
And I was alone.
At the one time I felt they'd never leave me.
I was broken, torn, ripped, dismantled, disfigured...
I remember telling myself that I would never let it happen again.
So whose knocking on the door to my heart?
I don't know. I don't wanna know.
They'll just have to keep knocking.
Because I won't answer the door.
And eventually, the knocking will fade.
*Writen by me*
The Game:Boyfriend
Ask me what kind of game it is, and I could never answer.
I don't know how he feels, or what he wants
I will never know
Sure, he feeds my mind with what I wanna hear all the time
But what if I do start believing it?
Whats at risk?
Myself. But I'll be paying that price for giving him me, all of me
All I ever wanted from the start was the truth,
I didn't care what it was
Was that too much to ask for?
I don't know. I don't know anything.
I'm not good at this game.
I wanna quit, but I have to finish, whether I lose or win
And what comes with winning or losing?
Tears, anger, depression, happiness, peace?
A little of all, or a lot of one
Who knows? Not me!
I'm confused, and all I know is that I'm trapped.
Whats my next move??
*Written by me*
Why?
This same feeling is what got my heart broken last time,
and I said I wouldn't let it happen again,
I thought another love I would never find,
and if I let someone else love me it would be a sin.
Why does my heartbeat slow down,
whenever you come around?
Why do my ears yearn to hear your voice?
Is love forcing me, or do I have a choice?
And why do I hear my self saying to you that I wanna be with you?
Why do I see my worst nightmares coming true? What do I do?
Because I'm trapped in this dungeon of confusion,
Do I really want you or is this just an illusion?
Why are my roller-coaster of emotions taking over me?
Why can't my unmended heart just be let be?
*Written by me*
In My Mind
In my mind,
I put the past behind.
In your mind,
I hope thoughts of me I will find.
Everyday, I want you to say,
how you feel about me, and why you feel that way.
One day, in my mind, we'll be able to call each us,
We'll really learn how to love one another, and not just know how to lust.
Our prides and egos, I hope we can pass,
and have a strong relationship, one that will last.
When I tell you how I feel I don't wanna lie,
because everytime I think of you, I began to cry.
In my mind, I think of the time, when things between us were best,
But I look at us now, and it really hurts, because things between us are so much less.
Now, I sit in a stage of doubt, "How could we possibly be the same?"
When all we do is argue and fight, and find each other to blame.
You're not appreciative of me, and all the love I have for you,
When I tell you that I love u, do you really mean it when you say "I Love U too?"
I only wanna be with you, I love you way too much,
But loving you hurts me, and I hate feeling as such!
*Written by me*
Favorite Quotes
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God. Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God.
Drugs is a government game. A way to rob us of all our best black men, our army.
Everyone who plays, loses. Then they got you right back where we started, slavery.
*One day you’re going to wake up & realize how much you truly love her, & when that day comes, she’ll be waking up next to the guy who already knew. *
