Kaori - Dear Diary... haha scratch that. I hate this. I hate my life. It's just not fair at all. Zeke... that moron. No, he's not the moron. I'm the moron. You know why? Because I freaking fell head over heels for him. Stupid move, Kaori... really stupid move. It happens this way every time. I thought that perhaps we might have something one day. It never ever works. What's so good about him anyway? Everything... I met him when I went to Mrs. B's classroom that day. Mrs. B. is just the greatest. She always listens to me and encourages me in everything that I do. For that I consider her a saint. Anyway so I was talking to her one day and in strolls...Zeke. And I was just like "whoa." So we introduced ourselves and then I went on talking to Mrs. B. Then Mrs. B's assistant, Mr. N. came in and Zeke started talking to him. They know each other somehow, I don't know where from though. This continued for the next few weeks. And every time that I saw Zeke... I fell for him even more. He's just such a nice person. Also, I think that Mr. N. is out to get me. I swear every time that I talk to Mrs. B. he just seems so... annoyed with me. Like I should leave "his" classroom and not intrude with anything. I don't get him. Or maybe I'm just imagining things. So today I came in to talk to Mrs. B. Things were going smoothly. Mr. N. came in and didn't pay any attention to me. That's fine with me. And then Zeke came in followed by this girl, Jill. She's in one of my classes, and I don't think anything of her. Except for maybe a fake...argh! So they left and then Mr. N. turns to Mrs. B. and says "Hey did you see her? She's Zeke's girlfriend." Well I was just shocked. It was strange the way that I felt as if I had been stepped on. But I kept cool and pretended not to be paying attention. I had to leave anyway. It was time to return to the lab. So I said good-bye and left. Everything felt so weird. I felt like I had just been smacked down. I mean, is it a crime to want to be loved? All of my life I've been doing this villain act. Now, when I get the chance to start over, I get shot down. I mean, I can't keep Zeke from going out with others. I'm a villain, but I don't have that type of power. I guess I'm not that advanced. I can't control his feelings, though I wish he had felt for me. But there's nothing I can do now. It's time for me to move on. You know what? Next week I was going to sing the National Anthem at our homecoming game with my chorus. Haha can you see that? Me, Kaori, in chorus! Isn't that weird? Reforming from villainy is really different. Anyway, I was so happy because I know that he was going to be there because he plays football. I was going to sing the National Anthem for him. I wanted to do my best for him because I thought that there might be something there. But there's obviously not. So you know what I'm going to do? I'm singing the National Anthem for myself. Because I've always wanted to. It's just better to stay out of stuff like this. Everything I do from now on will be for me. Not for a stupid... argh I can't call him stupid! All for me... nothing for anybody else. I am a villain. And maybe I just wasn't cut out to be good. I wasn't. I'm going to the lab. It's where I belong. I don't belong with good people. Or with Zeke. So he can go on and be happy with Jill. I'm not going to be there for him when things go wrong. I don't care anymore. Ahahaha! I am a villain and I'm staying that way! Do everything for yourself... you're better... I know and I'm going to stick to that. Besides in the end, it all comes down to me. There'll be other people. But for now, I'm the villain. The villain has a job to do... be vengeful. That's the way. Blood... I want blood. I need blood. Mr. N... hmm... He's caused me enough pain. That look of contempt on his face when he announced that Zeke had a girlfriend. He's gonna pay for that. I am a villain. My purpose is to ruin the lives of others. That's exactly what I'm gonna do. I'm doing this for myself. Why? Because I'm angry. Because my life never goes the right way. Nobody cares. I've got nobody there to help me. I'm hurt again. It's all because of you, Zeke. Don't look at me again. Don't speak to me again. It's because of you that I'm leaving this life and going back to being a villain. Does that satisfy you? Good. I'm glad then. I won't let myself be hurt anymore.
