The next few hours were spent with the baby, who we call Amber Nichole. As I slept, Alex spent most of his time in the nursery, holding his new daughter.

Denise was really proud of her son, as she watch him sitting beside me, while I slept and he fed baby Amber. She couldn't believe how mature he was at that moment.

Brian and Anna moved in together at the end of the week. I guess with all the excitement in Amber's arrival, it got everyone to thinking about a family.

Nick and Sarah were married in a double ceremony alongside Kevin and Rae. It was a small intimate wedding with just family attending, and was supposed to be kept under wraps until they decide themselves when to make the announcement. This was fine with the management, as long as they got their share of the earnings.

Howie and Stephanie decided to take things slow, not rushing into anything they aren't ready for yet. They still see each other, and they are in love with each other, but no drastic measures, as of yet.

Amber is daddy's girl, as she won't leave his arms. We are now in the midst of our wedding, performed in the hospital chapel. I guess Denise finally got her wedding. She also got her grandchild in the same day.

We have planned to get married again in December after the US Tour is over, maybe a Christmas wedding, but as of now, we are perfectly happy with this small wedding, attended by nine of our closest friends. We couldn't have asked for a better wedding party.

Alex is a very great father. He pulls night-shift, as he likes to call it. He enjoys his time with his daughter, as he rocks her to sleep and changes her diapers. Now, if he had that breast-feeding thing down, I could sleep a full night.

Amber is just like her father, the way she acts, and her facial features and expressions. I couldn't love no two people more than I do Alexander, and Amber McLean: My husband and daughter.

December 24, at 11:45 pm, Alex and I exchanged wedding vows in front of the whole world, when they were guests on MTV's Total Request Live. It was a special night for us all. This would be the night, when we would fully dedicate our lives to each other and to our daughter.

The fans have accepted the fact that 'Bone' got married. There have been no death threats, nothing that would harm me or Amber. It's like I told him, God is always watching out for the people who deserve it, and we do.

We were sent an angel that bettered our relationship, and for that I am grateful.

As I am watching him rock her to sleep, I write this entry in my journal that I will someday give to Amber, to let her know what her life was like before she could remember.

••To my dearest Amber, you are my angel sent from Heaven. I thank you for bringing your father and I back to together. You have taught me a great deal about myself, and about unconditional love. I would do anything for your father, and I hope you grow up showing him nothing but the utmost respect. He loves you, I know it by the way he holds you.

••To my husband, Alex. You have shown me love, you have given me love, you have shown me happiness, but yet, you ask nothing in return except to be loved, and I hope I have loved you the way you wanted to be loved, and I hope it is everything you have imagined. Thank you.

~The End....

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