lost in the desperation of losing dreams
vivid in the chaos of my life
clouding my perception of hope
invading my mind like lightning
striking me in my weakness
I hear a deafening sound
as I break
falling to the ground with no one to catch me
always hit hard
slamming my goals to the ground
like porcelain to the pavement
the shattering of a human being
bearing the weight from 22 years of eternity
the hours drag on
months go by
before I wake up the next morning
trying to stand up
with the yoke I bear for people
walking barefoot
across the broken remains of my porcelain soul
bleeding every step I take
trying to reach my goal
as I walk on this treadmill to nowhere
never advancing
the constraints of my life
strangling the sparkle my eyes used to have
peering through a painted face
that way they dont know
it doesn't wash off
a clown in my eyes
a stronghold in their eyes
shackled to their hopes and dreams
that I strive to make come true
before I wake up from this nightmare
into my paradise of light and salvation
