Chapter 17
"Mrs. Robinson… there's someone here to see
you." A guard named
Russell said smiling.
Russell and me have gotten pretty close over the years
and he's
the only one who has kept me somewhat sane.
When he turned and
walked away, I saw Brian and Kevin standing behind
him smiling sadly.
"BRIAN…KEVIN!"
I said happily as I put my fingers through the
bars to touch them.
Kevin
smiled faintly, and walked slowly putting his fingers
through the bars to touch
my cold skin.
Brian stood back for a minute or so before he walked over,
I could
see the tears welling his eyes as he said hello.
"Well guys…
this is it… only one more hour and-"
"Please Carla… don't be so
happy about it all!" Brian whispered.
"I'm sorry!"
"We
can't stay long but I couldn't go without seeing you…
it has been a while!"
Brian said sadly.
I couldn't say anything but I did nod.
I could
see the sadness in both their eyes, but I could also see the memories
floating
through their mind.
I tried to shake the feeling of being scared or the sadness
that resting on
my stomach but I just couldn't, with Brian and Kevin standing
in front of me!
It made the seven years of waiting to die… wanting to die…
disappear.
I just wanted to rewind my life… like the movie that it had turned
out
to be- back when I was happy with Brian as my big brother, I had no worries
then!
Time stood still as Brian, Kevin and me talked but then the time
seemed
to be rushed when Russell came to my cell or should I say cage.
I knew what
he was coming for before he even said it.
From the look on Brian and Kevin's
face… they knew too!
"Can I just have one minute, Russell?"
"Yeah
Carla!" Russell said and walked to the next cell.
"Well guys this
is it!" Brian's hands started trembling and he turned white as a ghost.
Kevin
stood there like a zombie and finally released my hand when we said our good-byes.
"I love you Carla… my little sis… I love you more…. Than… than-"
Brian
couldn't finish his words, he broke down right there in front of me… I
couldn't
do anything but cry inside.
I had cried too much over the years
that I didn't know how to anymore.
"I love you!" Kevin whispered
and I felt my face grow hot as
I watched Kevin carry Brian from my cage.
"Carla…
it's time!"
"I know Russell… I know!" I whispered as Russell
unlocked
my cell and put me in handcuffs.
It was all in slow motion,
I came to realize as Russell led me down
an endless hall that seemed like a tunnel.
When we finally reached our destination, Father Phillip was
there, a
few witnesses and two police officers.
Father Phillip hugged me as I felt
my heart shattering, as I knew
my last breath was about to be drawn.
The
two police officers took me inside a small dark cold room with a
chair sitting
in it, they took my handcuffs off and sat me down in a chair
that was in the
middle of the room.
They closed the door quickly after they had me buckled
into the chair,
I watched as they pulled the handle that would release the gas…
and here I am waiting… waiting for what?
I don't know… to see Nick again,
I guess...
