Chapter 19

I decided to walk to school on Monday.
I hadn't heard or seen Nick since that night, and hoped
I didn't today. I didn't know what to say to him, or
what to do around him. As I walked inside the
school I saw Cindy talking to Jimmy.

"Cindy! I really need to talk to you," I said
pulling her arm.

"I'll see you later," Cindy said as Jimmy
walked away. "What?"

"Nick and I had sex," I said gripping my books
a little harder.

"YOU DID WHAT?" She said flabbergasted.

"We haven't talked since, I'm so freaked," I said sighing.

"That what?"

"He'll say something mean to me again, or he'll want to
take it back or something," I said pushing my hair
behind my ears. I wore the same white shirt that I
did that night, mainly because it smelled like him.

"If he does he's not right for you Jess," Cindy said
as the bell rang. "I gotta go, see you
after school?" She asked walking away.

"Yeah. Bye," I said walking the other direction.

I walked down the hall in a fast pace hoping not to
be late. Not paying attention to what was going
on I bumped into him.

We made eye contact as I wanted to say something,
but I just walked away, afraid of what he might
say to me.

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"You haven't talked to him since?" Ashley asked
whispering in chorus.

"He hasn't either it's not just me," I said taking out the
new sheet of music.

"I'm sorry, I should have never said anything," she
whispered as Nick walked in the room. He looked at
me as he walked to the back of the room.

"No I'm…I'm glad it happened more then anything.
It was the best thing that's ever happened to
me," I said sighing.

"So you don't regret doing it?"

"Never," I said as we started warming up our voices.

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"Cindy can I have a ride home?" I asked as we
walked down the hall after the bell.

"Yeah sure, wanna go shopping?" She
asked as I went to my locker.

"I can't I have to go with Ryan and get my dad a
birthday present," I said shoving my books in my
locker.

"Oh yeah your dad's birthday is this Friday isn't
it?" Cindy asked as I shut my locker.

I turned and bumped into Nick again for the
second time.

"Come on Jess," Cindy said sadly pulling me away.
Nick and I looked at each other as I walked out
the main door and into the hot outdoors.

"Yeah it's Friday," I said clicking back into realization.

"Jess you have to talk to him someday," Cindy said as
we drove off. "He lives across the street from
you for God sakes," she said stopping at the stop sign.

"I know, I just don't want to find out he regretted
what we did, or that he doesn't want us to be
friends, or more then friends."

"You are so confusing!" She said as I smiled.

"Sorry," I said as she rolled her eyes.

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I got home and saw no one home, where was Ryan?
I shrugged and sat down on the couch. I looked
through the mail and opened a few of mine that were
junk, sighing deeply.

I couldn't get his taste of my
lips, his wonderful taste. I brushed my fingers over
my lips as flashbacks of his body engulfing mine came
back to me. I closed my eyes as I felt the warmth of
his tongue in my mouth and his hands searching my
body. His breath hot against my body and his
chain necklace falling on my chest…

The phone rang scaring me to no end. I jumped up
realizing it was only the phone I walked over and
picked it up.

"Hello?" I asked sitting down on the counter
next to the phone receiver.

"Can I talk to you? Something horrible
happened with me and my boyfriend Alex!" BJ
said crying.

"No problem BJ, I'll be over in a second okay?"
I said jumping off the counter and hanging up the
phone.

Even though I knew Nick was home, I had to help
out a friend.

I knocked on the door as BJ opened it smiling bright.

"Hey Jess! Oh look at the time, I think I have to go!"
BJ said pushing me inside. She shut the door after
me, as I stood there puzzled as to what she just did.

"Jessie?" Nick asked walking in from the kitchen.

"Was this a set up?" I asked sighing.

"Um…yeah," he said smiling.

"I have to go, Ryan and I are going out…"

"I told him to come home at 5," he interrupted.

"I have to go feed Chaos."

"Already fed by Angel."

"Call Cindy?"

"She knows you're here."

"Okay fine. I just want to go home okay?" I said
opening the door. Nick shut it and took my
hand, leading me to the couches.

"I want to talk to you."

"About what?"

"Friday night."

"Nothing to talk about," I said as I visioned that
night over in my head.

"Jess I know you know what I'm talking about."

"I don't want to talk about it," I said shaking my head.

"Why?"

"Because I don't!" I started rambling again. "I mean
I don't want you to say forget it or say mean things
about me or be mean to me again. Let me tell you
something," I said getting up, "I don't want to forget
it. I mean you said you loved me, and if you were
lying and just thought I was a hoar that you could
easily get laid with I don't want you to tell me.
It was the best thing I've ever done and I
don't want to regret it, and I don't want
to hurt anymore," I said as he got up.

"I love you Jess," he said brushing his hand across
my cheek. "I never meant anything I said, I was so
angry about you and Eddie and all the things I
had done to you…I just…I took it all out on you.
I'm so sorry," he said wiping the tears from my
eyes. "I want to kiss you, and hold you,
and tell you how much I love you everyday, can I
do that?" He asked.

"Please," I said hugging him. "I always
thought you hated me."

"I could never hate you," he said holding me
tight. "I always wanted you," he said as he let me go.

"Always?" I said in shock.

"I only competed with you so I could be
around you, and so you'd talk to me," he said
as my mouth dropped.

"Wow," I said still shocked. I sat down, as did he, I
looked into his eyes, he was as scared about what we
were doing as I was. "Okay. Just don't do it
anymore," I said jokingly.

"Promise," he said as we laughed. I sat
down in his lap and kissed him lightly.

"Nick?"

"Hmm?"

"When you and the guys become famous, promise
me you'll sing a song for me," I said as he stroked my
hair.

"Every single one," he said kissing me passionately.

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"Game is tied, 105 to 105, it all depends on Logan's
foul shot. Silence audience," Ryan said as I dribbled
the ball at the foul shot. Nick and I were finally
finishing our game.

"This is it!" Aaron said petting Chaos. I
looked at Nick who was so nervous.

I shot the ball and watched closely as it…it went in!

"YES!" I yelled jumping up and down. "I won!
Beat that Carter!" I said jokingly.

He lifted me up and dropped me in the grass as
we tickled each other to the ground. "Face it
I finally beat you at something!" I said laughing as he
tickled my stomach.

"Come on Nick, let her go!" A.J. said as the guys
rolled their eyes at our flirting. Nick stopped and
helped me up. He picked me up and spun me around
kissing me. I never forgot that day, for that was one
of the happiest days of my life.

THE END!!! :)

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