Chapter 9
When I got home late that night, my face pretty
much looked like a Rocky
movie. My head sore, my eyes
swollen, and my heart broken, I laid in my bed to
wallow in misery.
"Alex?" My mom asked as I rolled around in my
blankets.
"Go away!" I whined.
"Alex it's been 3 days
since you went to Jessie's
and you haven't moved from your bed, you need to drink
and eat."
"I will if you leave me alone, go away!" I yelled
as she shut
the door. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't do
anything
but think of the love I ruined.
"Alex you have company!" My mom
yelled from the kitchen.
"Yo Boner, you up?" Brian asked jumping
on the bed.
"Go away," I moaned as I covered my face.
"What?
We have to go record in the studio today!"
"Go without me."
"This
is a 5 person group, not 4.5," Brian said as
I sighed.
"I can't
sing."
"Fine…Jessie was on t.v. last night!" Brian said as
I leaped up revealing my swollen face.
"What for?" I panicked.
"Um…what's
wrong with your…" Brian said pointing
to my face as I shook my head.
"I'll
tell you in a second, why was she on t.v.?"
"They were talking about
us, then they put up a picture
of her and they said she now is in the middle
of a modeling
contract…with some Italian guy…Gucci or Versache
I forgot,"
Brian said as I cried.
"She told me they excepted her," I said lying
back
on the bed and wallowing.
"A.J. you got to get out of bed, do
something
to make you forget Jessie."
"I never will and never
want to forget
Jessie Brian," I said scratching my arm.
"You
know what I meant A.J., you can't
stop doing everything, Jessie hasn't."
"Well
if she cheated on me…I'd still be like this," I said
with a shrug, pulling
the covers back over my head and closing
my eyes. I pictured her beautiful face
with the smile I loved so much.
"A.J. don't quit out on the band,
we just started
you want to quit now?"
"No…" I sighed.
"Then
get up, I guarantee you'll feel a little
better," Brian said with a southern
accent.
"Fine, go away so I can change," I said pushing
him
as he shut the door.
"Oh look who decided to grace us with
his presence,"
Nick said with a laugh.
"Who's beaten up and looks like he got ran over
by a truck,"
Howie said as I sat down on a stool and sipped some
of
my vodka I took from the liquor cabinet at home.
"What happened to you?"
Kevin asked concerned.
"I beat the shit out of Jason, Jessie's neighbor,"
I said
with a laugh.
"Are you sure he didn't beat you?" Nick
asked as I took a gulp
of my vodka.
"Are we going to start, I want
to go home," I
whined as they sighed.
"Maybe we should do it
when you don't look and
feel and drink like shit," Kevin said as I shrugged.
"Why
don't I just quit?" I asked knocking the stool over as I
walked out the
door. I walked to the parking lot
as Brian ran after me.
"A.J. stop
you don't mean it," Brian reassured himself.
"Of course I mean it,
now fuck off," I said pushing him
and hopping into my car.
Another
week past and I definitely was dying inside.
I lost my mother, Nicci my sister,
my best friends, my job,
and my girlfriend I loved so much. I drank constantly,
never shaved, never bathed, never ate, I looked like shit.
"A.J.?"
Belle asked knocking on the door.
"Go away," I whined.
"I
have some news of Jessie," she said as I
leaped from the bed weakly and
opened the door.
"What's up?" I asked as Belle looked at me with
shock.
She shook her head as I laid back down in my bed.
"She moved
back here last week," she said as my eyes bugged out.
"When?"
"Like
2 days after you beat the shit out of Jason," she said
with a laugh. "Um…anyways,
I haven't talked to her since
she moved back. She lives in Tiffany's apartment."
"So?
She won't talk to me, what's the use of
making a fool out of myself again for
nothing?" I shrugged.
"Because you love her, and I know she loves
you…and you
need to get your life back together…and you smell
like socks,"
she said as I laughed.
"Thanks, I'll remember that," I said with
a laugh.
"I got you to laugh!" She said happily.
"I
think I'm going to go see Jessie tomorrow," I said as Belle smiled.
"Need
any help with a plan?" She asked as I looked at her with a puzzled look.
"Why
are you being so nice to me lately?"
"Because you were defending
her against Jason, and the
incident with that girl you were drunk off your ass.
I laughed at
you and asked if you were bald and you nodded saying you
had
an Afro," she said as we laughed.
"Thanks B," I said hugging
her lightly.
"Oh hey watch it, you definitely need a shower, WOW!"
