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PLEASE IGNORE THESE plain-text  " NOTES TO MYSELF"  

                         Ignore = don't read them . . .

02/15/98 Sunday    My first web page. 

02/16 -  03/29     Ramblings were noted.  

Prior notes were archived for unknown purposes.

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04/02 Thurs 12:30 a.m.

ICQ is working fine, it seems. I brought it up on Sunday after the above notes.

Emily has her own home page now. I volunteered to help her out with it. She is using an Apple MacIntosh and connecting with AOL. I wonder what her screen looks like when viewing my home page. If AOL users want to see what my home page looks like on Netscape, I have made a picture of it.

It looks like Rosie is back on line. Anyway, I think she is, because someone from penn.com was peeking at my index page over the weekend. (Now she's probably asking herself, " How does he know that?" Just one more mystery for a while.) Maybe I'll have a letter from her when I log on tonight. Or maybe she hasn't caught up with her old mail yet.

Matt has decided to give up WEBTV and go back to a real PC. His only problem was that his old PC didn't have enough smoke to cook up the pages. So he made a big investment in many megs of memory and a large hard drive and is now ready to buy a new motherboard and a case to put it in. Many hundreds later, he may wish he had just bought a new pentium. I tried the upgrade route once. I stretched out a bit of life in my old 8086 once, even did it with an 80386 later, but I don't think it's worth the hassle of both time and energy. Buy a new one, put an ad in the paper, and sell the old one. There may be a few pieces of the old one to save, like the tape drive, the scanner card, or whatever. Even then, these items get outdated, too. Someone just starting up won't care about the missing bells and whistles until they learn a bit. By that time they will either have given up on computers or will want the latest and fastest.

By the way, if you have a small (or full) hard drive, be sure to empty the browser's cache every so often. Delete those other old TMP files every now and then also. Some programs are notorious for leaving big footprints behind, both in memory and on the hard drive. The memory clears everytime you reboot, but the hard drive just keeps accumulating STUFF.

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04/06 Monday 12:30 a.m. Sunday night

RE: DANCING - Sandy (my wife) and I haven't been dancing (together) since the special event in Tampa last Saturday. At the Tampa thing, she was fighting off a flu bug, which hit her pretty hard on Sunday and she was sick until Tuesday afternoon. I started to catch it on Wednesday or Thursday, but it didn't hit me until Saturday, and nowI'm sniffling, coughing, hacking, sneezing and trying to rest at the computer. Maybe I should be in bed, but I wouldn't feel any better there. Anyway, Sandy was feeling pretty good last night, so she went dancing without me.

RE: CARS - The old '88 Grand Prix went over some rough concrete and suffered a flat and a bent rim, so we traded it in for a '98 Grand Am. Wasn't that reason enough? We put about $1200 into its engine a year ago, and the trans- mission was acting up. It only had 123,000 miles on it. We'll keep the '89 Taurus as a second car. We put about $1200 into its transmission last year (a challenging year). Our Ford has 80,000 miles on it, but we'll just keep it as a "spare", since the two of us car-pool almost all the time.

RE: WEB - I haven't touched Eudora Pro yet. The method to read mail at USA.NET is a bit slow, but the traffic isn't too great, yet. Also, I can just manage the mail with Netscape 3 or 4, even if the options aren't as many.

RE: ROSIE - Still no mail from her. Maybe that was not Rosie who logged on from penn.com to look at this site last week. Or maybe it was one of those other hillbillies from Clarion County. I remember being one of those hill- billies. My first wife, who was a German, kept reminding me of the American saying, "You can take the boy out of the country, but you can't take the country out of the boy."

RE: HTML - I need to study the HTML Primer that Angelfire linked on their Users' page. I had been learning by example and now I see that some of the HTML functions have more options than I thought. But I guess that the AOL browsers are still unable to read anything that has TABLES. My AOL browser is AOL95 for Win95, but I think there is a later one available. I made a screen capture of part of my home page and saved it to a JPG picture if any AOL folks want to see how it looks on Netscape and the latest Explorer. Meanwhile, it is nice to be able to preview an HTML file while off-line and in draft mode before it is uploaded to the web site. I tried to load a copy of a locally saved HTML file into AOL and I was asked to please log on to the service. I wouldn't have minded tying up the telephone line to do that, except that I was not on the UNLIMITED plan. I believe I will be dropping my membership with AOL by the end of this month.

RE: UPLOAD - Most of my uploads after the site is set up are merely cut and paste from the Wordpad. The upload mode in Angelfire is sometimes very slow, even when the editing option is working very smoothly. So now it is time to go on-line and retest the new links, including one I inserted to the web page of one of our local newspapers. (Many pictures = slow loading.)


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04/07 Tuesday 11:30 p.m.

Finally changed the Angel for April. I was surprised to find that this branch of the Golden Dawn is now calling itself the Morning Star. I suspect that the REAL Golden Dawn (if there is such a thing - maybe the HOGDI ??) registered a complaint about the use of the name. Anyone wanting to search this out can start with the HOGDI or just search for the "Golden Dawn" and I'm sure there will be a few thousand references and links to even more links. (Hi to Chic and Tabatha.)

Good luck.

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04/11 Saturday Just a few graphics uploads & change guestbooks to one that allows HTML code and also a preview of the messaage before it is finalized.

Eventually I will make a separate page for just the major LINKS. Last night I found a message in my guestbook and went to see the Home Page of my visitor. WOW ! ! ! A 14-yr old kid. His guestbook was impressive with the number of visitors and the graphics they linked to him, like banners and animations and such. Check him out at his home page and be sure to view his guestbook. CAUTION: he is in high level msei coding. And check out some of the nice links in his guestbook.

Rosie sent me some snail mail (USPS). Her computer is up, but the modem doesn't work.

Emily has Easter break at school. It's tough working for the school system.

Matt, are your big gigabytes on line yet? Sometimes it's cheaper to upTRADE.


I'm running to the shower. Easter dance tonight. Sandy is in the BONNET contest. I'm just going for the dancing. My cold/flu is about gone. I still have the bothersome congestion, though. The sweat I work up dancing will be good for me.

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04/21 Tuesday evening

The 4/11 Saturday dance wasn't bad and the sweating probably was GOOD for me. I think I was almost over the cold/flu/whatever. Then there was the Tuesday dance, the Wednesday Tango, the Friday dance, and the Saturday dance. Saturday I was feeling a little shaky, but I didn't pay much attention to the feeling because I was enjoying the dance and Socrates (not the original) was putting on a nice show and a nice lesson. Plus I danced with his wife and another Greek lady who was visiting. In fact, I danced with over half of the ladies who attended that night. Somewhere I caught another bug, but I think I caught it on Tuesday. Anyway . . . Sunday, Monday and half of today I was down again.

I'm still a bit tired. And I won't do much updating tonight.

Rosie is back on line. She's in Windows 3.1. She hinted that she didn't know how to DELETE a file. I tried to explain it by e-mail. I hope it worked. With only a 500 Meg drive, Peachtree complete (???), MS Works (??), Win 3.1, and what else (??) loaded, it still won't take long to fill up the hard drive if the internet explorer cache is saving an extra copy of EVERY web page and every piece of graphics she looks at. My AOL runs into problems if there is less than 40 Meg free disk space on the C: drive. (For Rosie, C: is probably the ONLY HD that she has.)

Emily is having another birthday? April 22. She has one just last year. That was when she found me on the internet. I was going to make her a birthday page, but I was sick for three days. Maybe I can still do something and send it to her web site. I'll hide it under her own page. But maybe she'll see it here, so it's not too well hidden.

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04/25 Saturday evening

Whoops, It got late and I never uploaded the 4/21 update above. Then I got busy at work, thought I was getting better; then I had a relapse or something new. This time It really hit my throat and sinuses. I lost my voice and couldn't clear my throat. But I had a project to finish at work that was due Friday afternoon and I had already lost two days on Monday and Tuesday.Anyway, . . . .

Friday night and again tonight I am staying home to avoid erratic dance hall air conditioners, cold corners, and working up a sweat to add to the chill factor. Last night was a big opening night at our new Tango location in Sarasota - sorry that we missed it. Sandy stayed home with me.

Tonight, Sandy went to the dance alone. She went to our normal Saturday ballroom spot when she knows all the instructors and they dance with her quite often. Even the lady instructors practice their male leads by practicing with her. Instructors need to know both parts so that they can teach both parts, especially when working with couples. The male lead is more difficult to learn, but I really have a hard time the few times I try to do the female's "follow" part.

I intended to add some links for the dancing and some links for the tree of life pages. My other idea is to make a LIST OF LISTS or a set of LINKS TO LINKS of pages where many others have spend considerable time preparing lists on various topics. This will be a great help to myself and those who don't have time to browse thru the lists that come frome SEARCHES. The problem with SEARCHES is that, no matter how much you refine the SEARCH, you still get HITS to sites that may only mention the topic in passing or in sidenotes, if at all.

But I doubt I will get to it this weekend. These pages take time to set up, even if you know what you want to do. Someday I'll also get back to my family tree again. I think I will get "a round tuit" and get "around to it" again, soon . . . . .

I added a few pictures as a start for my family tree album. They now link from the tango pictures, and eventually will link also from the family tree and pedigree charts.

And, hard to believe, I'm on the net, but I haven't checked the mail for three days or more, since about 04/20. Now I'm off to bed. I'll check the mail tomorrow. I saw Rosie checking in to my page the last three days (on my visitor counter). She said she's going to look at the links to the angels and catch up on March and April since she was off-line so long. Have fun, Sis. You know I love you even if I'm not too punctual about answering my mail.

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05/02 Sunday evening - not uploaded until Thursday 05/07

RE: TANGO - On Saturday we went to a big Tango Party in Sarasota. Two carloads of South Americans drove in from Miami, and two couples of their group were professionals. In addition to the solos and shows by local groups, the professionals put on a superb exhibition. A great time was had by all. Sunday there was a workshop with a chance to learn some new moves. But Sandy and I were tangoed out and I had a lawn to mow, so we missed the workshop. I'm sure it was a good one.

RE: SICK - Sandy and I are both back in the land of the living. This past weekend was a relief, because the two prior Saturdays I was feeling pretty washed out. Maybe I had been burning the candle a bit at both ends. Well, that slowed me down a bit. It was nice to get out and about again. I needed the exercise.

RE: GUN SHOW - at the Lucinda Church. My home town area of Pennsylvania is good hunting country. Most of the hunters have a different gun for each type of hunting. When I was home two years ago, I attended the benefit dinner - actually an all-day affair - with bingo, raffles, iced beer kegs, and lots of food. My sister Rosie e-mailed me to tell me that she was going to it on Sunday with my brother Andy and his wife Alice. That reminds me that I got a surprise e-mail from Andy's and Alice's daughter, Andrea, last week. I also had a recent e-mail from some cousins, Wayne and Marge, from the same local area. It seems like the hills are alive with the sound of RAM and DOS.

RE: MEMBERING - when I was a kid studying my three R's. This was NOT how it went according to Dick and Jane and Spot: (One of the ladys at work (Gail) gave this to me.)

C:\ DOS
C:\ DOS RUN
RUN DOS RUN
RE: BACK HOME - on the Clarion opinion page. I posted a suggestion that some of us folks from that area are hillbillies. One of the less verbal readers appeared to be greatly irritated. I say "less" verbal, because he appeared to be stuttering on the ENTER key of his WEBTV. He sent one message twice and a followup three times. He says, "Screw you, we are NOT hillbillies," and a few more choice protests. The town of Clarion is the county seat of Clarion county. In addition to beautiful rolling hills and forests, the town has an annual Autumn Leaf Festival for the tourists form the south as well as for the locals, to celebrate the season change in the fall. Another claim to fame of Clarion is their university where even a few of the more ambitious hillbillies get a chance to further their education. They might even learn a more cultured way of saying "Screw you" or might learn not to take offense so easily. Also, the expression of K.I.S.S. in explaining one's self doesn't necessary mean limiting yourself to four letter words, occasionally five. A seven-letter word they really know is venison. We may as well mention an eight-letter word: road-kill. The crackers will especially understand that last word. I can see the watering mouthes.

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05/07 Thursday evening

RE: ANGEL - - Angel #1 is Andrea, my niece, in Pennsylvania. She's her daddy's little angel. Thanks for dropping in to the willnet1. Andrea is another one who really likes her venison. Her dad mounted the head of the buck she got her first season hunting. It must have been that lucky knife her uncle had just given her, eh?

RE: ANGEL FOR MAY - I still haven't found one that I want to use. Keep looking, I say to myself. I would like to link Metatron to the Qabala, but I can't find a picture at the sites. Anyway, it'll hold a while. Traffic is still pretty slow. I need to add some some link pages to my site - going out to the rest of the world. There's no use re-inventing the wheel, but I'd like to point in the direction of some of my favorite wheels. The Circle of Life being one of them.

Time to upload . . . . . midnight again . . . too late to chat . . .
. . . Hi, Emily . . Bye Emily . . . Chat you later . . .

05/13 Wednesday evening

Just checking in and out. The rumors of my demise are greatly exaggerated.
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05/17 Sunday evening

RE: TIME FOR A NEW PARAGIGM:   The Angel for May/June (double duty) links to a site just north of Tampa.   Here is more background on many of the angels and archangels, similar to my prior angel links for Feb and Mar.   Now I find it interesting that this branch of the Golden Dawn, not the Morning Star, is denying any association with the Thelemic sites.   Maybe a few of the Thelemites went a bit too far, and received a bit of bad press, or maybe there was some kind of jealousy involved. I don't know too much about the Thelemites, yet, other than that they sprang from one of Crowley's many themes.   Speak about "BAD PRESS" - . . . but HE loved it - the bad press.   If some one stirs you up, at least maybe he's making you think.   If it's anger, hatred or fear that is being stirred, who is more to blame - the stirer or the stiree??   One of my favorite philosophies is that if someone and I disagree on something, then let's at least agree to disagree and get on with it.   Let's find at least one thing that we CAN agree on, and maybe we might discover the differences aren't as great or as many as we thought there were.   Maybe we were just looking at the same things from a different perspective or with different colored lenses.  Maybe either or both of us could use a little paradigm adjustment.   Hmmm, I never heard that expression used that way before,   If someone disagrees with you too stongly, maybe he has some valid reasons (for disagreeing) that he is able or willing to express and maybe he will be willing and able to listen to you in return.   Maybe not.   But you'll never know if you don't try - without trying so hard as to alienate - and maybe the combined points of view will be many times greater than the either of the separate points of view.     Did I really just spit that out     What or who is whispering in my ears and my mind.     Is that the "other me" again, or one of the other mes?   Or maybe one of THOSE angels.   Or maybe Krishnamurti is right:   Maybe "It's all in my head."



RE: CELESTIAL RAMBLINGS - - Also in the past weeks I've had a few indirect brushes with Yogananda, Krishnamurti, Sai Baba and two Maitreyas.   Now we at least agree that Krishnamurti was NOT a female (inside joke), in spite of the length of his hair or the smoothness of his complexion. (And HE does say, "It's all in your head, in any case.)   And the Maitreya of one of the sites claims to be the ONE AND ONLY - I chuckle at that expression.   But I will look into it further.   Maybe he/she is the sole correct one, claiming the others to be FALSE. But if they still express the same ideas, what difference does it make?   It may be pleasant to belong to something allegedly unique, but what pleasure can be felt from excluding or denying or separating instead of re-membering.   I think we should be heading TOWARDS UNITY and not getting further from it.   Come on, you Earth kids, let's get it together again.   RE-MEMBER!     I will try to re-member to link some of the above a bit later.

05/21 Thursday evening

RE: ANGEL #1 - - WOULD YOU BELIEVE ? ? ? My baby brother's baby girl just started her own web site. And she finds time for this as well as her own little baby and taking courses at the local college.     What about the BEAR?     What's HE doing?     Angel and Bear   =   What a pair!   Good show !   Keep up the good work!     (PS - Tell Aunt Rosie to write.   Where is HER web site?)

RE: LINKS - - The tree of life now has some new links at the bottom. Don't get lost.

05/22 Friday late evening

RE: UPLOAD IT - - Yeah, why not. I almost didn't. I guess I got carried away.




05/31 Sunday late evening

RE: DANCE - Friday was Regular Tango night. Saturday was a night of rest. Last Saturday was a nice evening at Pineapple. The previous Saturday was USABDA. Next Saturday is workshop. I've been neglecting the dance notes. The other dance night is Tuesday, but the past week we didn't go because Sandy's instructor was at the hospital for a nose job (deviated septum).

RE: ANGEL - Andrea is doing fine with her web site.   I scanned and uploaded a few of her pictures.   The Bear is up and running.   As also is Mrs. Bear. I have a picture of her dad and me to put up.

RE: ROSEMARIE - I haven't heard from her lately.   I'll start a page for her.   Maybe she'll help by sending a few more sedling thoughts.   Maybe Cinnamon, her daughter, will send a few choice words.   Maybe all men are NOT creeps - or are NOT like PARKING SPACES:   the good ones all taken, and the rest handicapped.   Maybe that's why I haven't received any e-mail lately.   O.K., ladies, share some news.

RE: LINKS - I have added a number of additional links to my site.   Some of the sites MOVED to new addresses and a few of them are lost (maybe closed).   After updating some of my bookmarks, I created links to the sites at the bottom of the TREE OF LIFE page.   Someday, I hope to find the time to do some commentaries and try to relate the ideas to how they affect the way I live my life.   (I don't presume to tell you how to live YOURS, you must decide that for yourself.)   For example, if we are all a part of some larger SOURCE (ALL o' WE) with which we are trying to RE-connect or RE-member, then what we DO UNTO OTHERS would really be in effect what we are DOING UNTO OURSELVES.   So the giver and the receiver are ONE, but in a sense that is at a very high level of awareness / consciousness.   UNITY is a much over-used word, with many meanings and shades / degrees of meanings.  

But sometimes a concept of a higher level / dimension is difficult to express in terms that the masses at a lower level will understand in such a way as to raise their level.   How can you draw a 3-dimensional hologram on a flat piece of 2-dimensional paper?   Or how can you descrive a circle or a square or triangle on a straight piece of stick.   How can you describe the flight of a bird to an earthworm?   How can you describe to the pet goldfish that you are not a GOD who changes his water?  Or are you?   That is not what is meant by the theory of relativity.   But let's think about it . . .

Imagine, for a moment, that some larger being has us under a microscope and is observing or experimenting with our planet or our solar system.   Or imagine that each of our bodies is like a solar system or a planet / star and the creatures on or in our skin are like the humans and creatures on the earth.   Perspective is a viewpoint.   What is the theory of relativity?   E=mc²   Can we fathom what is the speed of light? There are humans on the planet who believe the trip to the moon was a hoax.   Cna there be creatures in the universe whose understanding / intelligence is as far above humans as the humans believe themselves to be above the animals?

RE: RAMBLINGS - See Rosie, you're not the only one who rambles.

RE: SATURN - Has anyone seen   SATURN  in the picture at the top?  Just let your eyes relax and look thru the pattern.   Crossing the eyes is a harder way to do it.

::: I'll upload this tomorrow (Monday) evening.

. . . . later . . . .



Hi Matt,

I deleted some of the hidden code now that you know how to get to it.

But I just stuck this in because there was space before the bottom of the rainbow. Now you don't see it . . . . .now you do see it.



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