I didn't remember much of the plane ride back to Tampa. However, I do remember that Nick was right beside me. Our relationship has never had a very traumatic time in it. I guess this would count as one. I just couldn't help feeling guilty that he was going home with me and not staying in New York with the guys and meeting with his fans on Total Request.

"Nick....I really think that it would have been ok if you had stayed in New York. Think of all the fans who are gonna be disapointed." I said softly.

Nick was staring straight ahead and then he turned to face me. He placed his hand on my knee cap and squeezed it gently.

"The fans might be disapointed. Your right. But, Tia, their is nothing you or the guys could have said or done to have stopped me from coming home with you. I love you." He smiled and I smiled. Hearing him say that officially was the greatest thing in the world.

"I love you too, Nick!" I kissed his cheek softly and then rested my head on his shoulder for the remainder of the flight.

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The guys were all sitting on stools up in the Total Request Studio. After the funeral Nick and I decided to watch the show in the family room with my mother. The guys had just finished singing a few songs and it was now time to take questions from fans. Sometimes I dread this part. Their's always the "Do you have a girlfriend?" question. Even though some fans know about me, not all of them really do. Or they like to pretend it's not true.

"Guys, can we take a few question's from the audience? Is that cool with you?" Carson Daily asked.

"That'd be great!" AJ said.

Carson handed the microphone to a pretty blonde girl. She stood up and asked her question.

"Um, where is Nick? Is he sick?" She asked.

"Yeah, what's up with Nick? Nick and I had said we would do a one on one nerf b-ball game." Carson said while looking into the camera.

"Brian? You wanna answer this one?" Kevin asked.

"Yeah, I'll take it. Guys, I know you all wanna see and hear Nick. Sadly last night his girlfriends grandma died and he went home with her for a few days."

Their were alot of "Awwwwww's" and "Ohhhh's" coming from the large audience.

"Nick man, I'm sorry. Also, tell your girlfriend were all sorry too." Carson said into the camera.

I smiled as Carson made that plee into the camera. Carson was my favorite MTV V-Jay. It was nice to see that Nick's fans weren't holding anything against me.

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Nick was out in the back of the house, sitting on our patio. I went into the house to talk to my mom about the up coming tour for the 'Milennium'. I had been asked to go. All the guys had asked if I wanted to go. So, I had told my mom about it a while before my grandmother had died and she had been ok with it. However, I wasn't sure if she would be ok alone, now.

"Mommy?"

"Hey, Tia. What's up honey?" She said sweetly.

"Umm...I'm gonna tell Nick that I don't want to leave you alone when the tour starts."

"No, no, no, Tia! I want you to go. It'll be good for you to go around the world and everything. I know it would be good. Besides, you've got two award shows before you go away on the tour. You've got the Ameican Music Awards and the you have the MTV awards. I'll be fine by myself, honey, ok?"

"Are you sure, mom?" I said again.

"Of course I'm sure, baby." I kissed my mom's cheek and then headed out towards the back with Nick.

I walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed his shoulder. He brought up his hand and brought it through my hair.

"What did she say?" He whispered.

"She wants me to go with you." I whispered back.

Nick and I sat down next to each other on the patio and we watched the sunset together. That was on of the things Nick and I loved to do. You didn't have to talk during it, every emotion was explained through the sun rise.