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January 10, 2006- New blog (sort of, it's my old xanga one) is now going to be my new home of almost daily blogging! The link is on my facebook.
December 20, 2005- Even though I've been posting on this website since my junior year of high school, I'll have to close this up. This makes me sad. My new place of blogging (not created as of yet) will appear on my facebook, or ask me. Farewell, wonderful page of Yaelle history! You know my first post is Nov 13, 2003? Just a bit after WOW... how nice. I thought I'd have my whole college experience sort of documented on this one page, but that's okay. Look for the next page on my facebook.
December 15, 2005- Hooray! 3.45 grades this quarter, not what I was hoping (3.5 gets you on the Deans List and I should have done better...) but this quarter was a lesson to me that finance is the worst thing in the planet and I will not be associated with it any more! Then the rest was some A- or B+ garbage that I didn't deserve, but are good grades nonetheless so I'll take them. The BEST news, however, is I found a new place to live! I can't do anything to put all of my eggs into one basket, since housing has never been my lucky streak, but it looks good. The place is a townhouse on Toro off of Santa Rosa (near Murray) so it's close to campus... I'd sort of have my own bathroom, a big room... I'm looking forward to it! It's month to month like my current place so transitioning in shouldn't be so bad as far as rent and stuff.... I'll know more later and I'm SUPER excited! These girls are so nice and I think it'll be fun.
December 11, 2005- LAME. Grades are starting to come in. I have this large pattern in a lot of my classes with getting 88s and 89s, and getting B+s. Not that these aren't good grades, but they are just SO CLOSE to A-s, which really make up the difference in the GPA calculation. So far I got an A- in audit (I deserve an A, "particiapation" was not on my side, bull crap), a B+ in my production management (bull crap, that was the easiest class ever, I just didn't do as good on the final but had an A going in to it) and a B in my securities finance class (I got a 73% on a final worth 50% of our grade, so I'm ok with a B), and for my last class, the class I worked SO ahrd on and made that report and all that, I have a 88.99% in the class. I REALLY hope that gets me an A-. He said he might curve slightly. I feel like compared to my past performances I sort of didn't do so hot this quarter. I was supposed to get 3 flat As this quarter and a B or B+ in finance. I am dissapointed with myself. :( This weekend has been great, no homework or schoolo pressures, and the roommate has been gone, so I've had this nice free range of the house! I discovered I have rodents in the kitchen, so I have a lot of cleaning and terminating I have to accomplish. I bought the glue traps, the most inhumane traps to kill rodents. Yes!
December 4, 2005- Let's see, it's finals week! What did I do lately. Well, Wednesday of dead wekk I didn't go to school, which proved to be ok since one class was cancelled and the other was 15 min long. Good call for me. I knew it was going to be like that. Then thursday, I had to watch presentations from 9-11, and did some errands, but my dental work was REALLY hurting. So I had an emergency meeting at 1. Soon after I got home, the gum tissue started to grow more over my screw thing in my jaw and I got into tears I hurt so bad. After calling my dad and him urging me to call the dentist again, I had an emergency appointment with my oral surgeon. He numbed me up and cut off all the excess gum tissue and reattached this little knob thing. I was in immense pain and it hurt so bad, I even started to tear up during the actual procedure. Lame. I was in so much pain he gave me a perscription for vicodin, so I hurried my ass to the health center driving in pain. I parked behind the building in somone's driveway and knocked on thier door balling asking if I could park there for 10 min as I went to the health center. Not only was that embarassing, but they were closed!! So I went over to Rite Aid and waited about 35 min for my medicine, quietly crying and sitting with secret stares of pity coming my way. Finally I got my medicine and took it right away, and I felt like crap the rest of teh day. I hadn't cried for so long in a long time! And it was phyical pain making me cry to, which is so much worse. Then Friday, I had this druggie hangover from the vicodin and I felt like crap. However, I couldn't stay like that for long because I had to give a tour of the OCOB building and the rest of the campus for 2 hours, then go to a staff meeting, then Kinkos, then Careers in Accounting Day. That was like my super-prepared Fall Symposium, but targeted to people like me, juniors looking for internships. They had this panel for the first half of the event where peopel asked these CPAs questions about working life and so forth, and how new laws have affected their firm and so forth... but yeah. I asked 2 questions which I thoguht were good and all the recruiters afterwards said they thought they were really good and meaty questions. Yay me! I gave out my resumes to 6 firms, and I'll apply to an additional one after you can online. My dad thinks I should apply to EVERYONE and that way my options are very open, depsite if I think I'll get a job somewhere else or think I wouldn't want to work at some of these places. We'll see. I do think seven, however, is pretty decent. That doesn't include Apple either, whcih I have yet to hear from. So that's the week in recap, now I've just been left to study and memorize stupid falshcards in preparation for my audit midterm tomorrow. I have Finance on Tuesday, and my government and project management ones on Wednesday. Best final schedule I've ever had! One hard one a day, for the first half of the week!
November 29, 2005- Why do I come to school? Lame. My report got moved from being due Wed to next week Tueday on our final period, so NOTHING is going on this week. Usually I'm swarming with last minute projects, but not this time. I guess I shouldn't complain. I have to run some errands, most notably pick up my mail, make a return, and fix up my resume, oh how super! Final schedule next week for me is the best yet!!: Mon Audit (just need to study for), Tues (Securites, lord help us all), Wed Govt/Policies (just have to study) and project management (cake!!) So not ad, one serious one a day and the first 3 days. Done Wed! Then, I can enjoy 3 weeks of shopping, getting gifts, food, family, and trips to SF!
November 25, 2005- Oops, haven't updated. Well, backtracking the past few weekends, I had my Apple interview in the bay area and it was lame. I had 4 30-min interviews and the frist one totally blew. The guy was so rigid and scary and asked me the most confusing question, possible ever, about something so easy. So it made me want to cry. The last 3 were fine, so we'll see. I don't want it anyway... at least I don't think so. I'll hear back either way early December. So I just had Thanksgiving up in Georgetown (past Auburn) at my dad's new house. It was fun and I was happy to see people. Amber wasn't there and that was kind of dissapointing. But my aunt cooked up a storm so that was nice that we were still able to eat well. Today I hit up all the Day-After-Thanksgiving sales at Roseville Galleria and Arden Mall on my way home, lots of shopping!!! I only bought like $26 worth of stuff, which is good since I'm utterly poor. I also bought a friend a belated birthday/Xmas present, so that was fun. It seemed so fitting. Anyway, I'm going to drive back up to SLO tomorrow morning, I'm at my dad's place in Davis right now. I'm too tired to make the trip back now and Sunday has WAY too much traffic.
November 14, 2005- I went on a super long weekend to the bay area to.. yay... go again this weekend. I got a second interview with Apple and I'm not looking forward to driving down. Yes they pay for expenses and stuff, but I have a lot of projects and stuff and I feel dumb driving so far 3 days before I go home for Thanksgiving. But I have to go back because I have 2 presentations, one Mon and one Tues. So oh well. In other news, I officially don't speak to my roommate anymore and have reclaimed the kitchen. I moved all the jungleness (4 potted plants in the kitchen alone) to one place in the apartemnt so I can reclaim my dining room table. Hooray! Anyway, I had an audit midterm and it did not go as well as I had hoped. Hopefully I can get at least a solid B and return to my happy life. I knew some of the answers I missed but I just didnt understand that was the question he was asking... so poo. I didn't study very hard, just tried to memorize things, so I guess that's what I get for not thinking conceptually. Okay, well easy midterm tomorrow, got to work on that... lame.
November 8, 2005- Something is not right with my throat, I feel like there's a lump of air in there. Who knows. But I'm excited! This weekend turns into a giant 5 day weekend for me! It's a holiday Friday, but even though I don't have class, that means I don't have a staff meeting. Also, Thusday my serious class got cancelled and so I don't think it's worth going to my pointless class... so I'm just going to take Thursday off! FMA is Thursday, but, I deserve a vacation. I sort of want to go somewhere, but that might not be good. Gas is expensive and I have an audit midterm Monday. I swear I just had one, insane. Anyway, so this weekend should be nice. I want to go shopping. That would be fun! Also... 2 more weeks of NASCAR, and then no more. But Jimmie is still in it!
November 5, 2005- Oh, what a nice little Saturday. Not much to do, going to a bonfire tonight, some homework during the day... life is ok right now. I went out with the Philipino Club Exchange (PCE) last night and it was fun! I had a good time. I registered this week and it wasn't that bad. I'm really running out of things to take and it's getting harder to figure it all out. OH! Most important development over the past few days! Thursday we had the CFO of Apple come and speak and we packed the silo, which was so amazing that could get so many people to come out. Anyway, I wasn't sure if a lot of people would bring their resumes, so I thought I should include mine in the stack because I'm awesome like that. Well, that night they had an info session at Woodstocks (free pizza, who can resist) and I thought it would be best for me to go since I was on FMA board. Well, they liked me and scheduled an interview for Friday! It was a half hour and it went really well. I like interviewing with the younger people fresh out of Poly. They are the easiest to talk to. But yeah, I'll know in 2 weeks. I still want an accounting internship (afterall I have been working my ass off to impress these people) but those interviews aren't until Feb. I don't know what to do, but if I get extended a second interview in Cupertino, I'm definately not going to reject it. Any opportunity is good, and like my dad said, it's better to have several options than no options. I'm not going to make any decisions until I know more. No sense in counting your chickens before thay hatch. Happy weekend!
October 31, 2005- November real soon, hot damn! Well, I now have internet back at my house. It's Dial Up, but it's all good. It's really faster than I would think. I guess times have changed between AOL in '98 and Earthlink in 2005. So my midterm week from hell went okay. I got a 74 on my 404 (law and govt class) midterm, which was sad because it wasn't that bad and everyone I studied with got a high B or A. I probably just lacked on the sleep department. Audit I got a 94, so balanced with my 99 before hand, I have super strong A in that class. In my evil finance class, I suprisingly got a 85. I could ahve done better, but I pretty much marked down the wrong answer on the scantron, even though I knew the right answer. But that doesn't help. I'll take my B and run. A lot of people got Ds, and when it's worth 35% of our grade, I'm just glad I'm not them. Thank the lord for having old test copies. Anyway. And my project management class, well I got an 88, which is pathetic when it was open book and open computer and open note. But I'll take it. For being such an exhausting week and having it all over, I guess I survived well. Anyway, Halloween was WAY fun, but I don't really have any pictures. I want to get a digital camera. Maybe for Chanukkah. It was really fun. I was this devil thing and I had a good time! Happy Halloween!
October 26, 2005- It's hard for me to get on the internet with this crazy living situation... my roommate hasnt paid the internet bill since June and I'm so pissed. Yes she doesnt use it but she never told me she couldnt pay it and she never told me it wasnt getting paid and I had even offered to pay for some and she said she'd let me know. I cant believe it. So internet is cut off so I'm at the library often doing homework, e-mailing, etc. I'm so pissed. I also jsut saw my grade for my first of FOUR midterms with weeka nd I got a solid C. I thought I did much better than that. I'm really dissapointed. I had 2 midterms today and I hope I get at least a B on the finance midterm and I know I got an A on the audit one. I ahve a 371 test tomorrow, and that will conclude my insane week of midterms. I've been really stressed and eating out (unhealthy) since I have no time to cook and I can't wait for life to return back to normal. I've been studying around the clock since last Thursday, and I'm ready to go out for Halloween! I need a costume. Mine isnt very interesting. Just slutty. Anyway, I'm hungry, and bummed about my midterm I got a C on (it wasn't that hard)... I wonder what I did. Anyway, I have an 85% total for midterm gardes, and that's a thrid of the grade, so an A is still possible, I just have to do well on the group prject coming up and the final (each worth a third). Hooray!
October 19, 2005- Have you ever noticed how iTunes has this weird way of playing all the music that matches your mood? It doesn't go from sad to rap to rock... anyway. I have this terrible sleeping pattern forming. I'm waking up at 7:30 or 8:30, depending which day it is, and then I come home and by 4 I take a 2 or 3 hour nap, have dinner, do homeowrk and watch tv, then I can't go to sleep until at least 1, but probably more like 2. It's so terrible. I don't feel stressed, not like the 15 hours of stuff to do in 10 hours worth of time stressed, but who knows. Probably getting off the internet would help with that. I think it's watching all that Sex and the City. It makes me think a lot. It's so corny and terrible, and I know the show is already over, but I just started watching it. It's incredible how much a show like that amkes me think. Anyway. I also decided I am going to move out of CA after college. It's just necessary. And, in the more immediate future, I have four midterms next week. Next week makes or breaks my grade in every class. Sweet, just what I love.
October 17, 2005- I should be tired, as it is 1:30am, but I woke up only 12.5 hours ago. I woke up around a decent time, 10 perhaps, and I was so exhausted I went back to sleep, but woke up right at 1. My day was completely shot. I did some cleaning and did my group meeting with the freshmen for work, but that's about it. $11 even for some groceries.. Yeah. That's it. You know, I have been watching a lot of TiVo at night before bed, and because I can zap through commercials, I can watch quite a few shows within a short amount of time. And I can't tell if I'm being inspired or poisoned by the shows I watch. I watch SVU before I go to sleep and have dreams of crazy women killing people and being raped, and then I have to solve the case. Or I watch South Park and I laugh at some pretty offensive stuff. I usually wouldn't care, but my roommate is SO in love with Jesus, like I get this really guilty feeling that I shouldn't be watching it and bring it into the house. But it's my room and my TV, so I should be able to do what I want without the guilt. I don't know, it's a weird circumstance. Everything is fine, actually good considering how life can be sometimes, but I just feel like I need a change. A big change. With more than just housing, like a change of scenery, people, entertainment, clothes... I don't know maybe I just need sleep. I do like my room though. It's the first room I've had in a very long time (10th grade?) that felt like my own room in a nice livable place. Hm. Well, I don't want to be a hypocrate for actually saying important things on a blog, so I'm going to stop. Good night!
October 15, 2005- Eew, I don't think my body likes being treated like crap anymore. I've been eating lots of sodium, sweets, pizza.. it's getting bad. I don't have time to take care of myself, and I'm starting to feel too poor to grocery shop well. But about a week ago my leg went numb and last night, although I did consume a lot of beer, with all the other crap I ate, I felt my like my body shut down last night. I was really sick short of throwing up, shaking, my stomach twisting... that's it. I'm going jogging and starting the salads! Otherwise... let's see, I got an 86% on my law class midterm, 2 high As on other midterm the week before... I am working ony my investing project for my securities class and I bought an option on Apple the other day that made 63% return in one night! I had an option on WM that went up 13% last night. Options can make you crazy amount of money! But, you can also lose... everything. I'm so done with taking finance. I feel like I've done a lot to know enough for my own personal knowledge, but I KNOW it's not going to be my career, and it's not going to be sometihng I want. However, if I don't take it, I think I'll be graduating early. I don't know if I really want to graduate early.. but it would be cheaper.. Who knows I could start working at 50K a year in just over a calander year from now. Hm, hard choices... I don't know. I want to talk to an advisor but I work with them and I don't think they can help. :(
October 13, 2005- I think this makes the quarter almost half over? Crazy. I don't know what's going on this weekend, but I have a lot of school catch up to play, some work, some staff meetings, some other things, so we'll see. I'm sure it will be fun no matter what!
October 9, 2005- Time flies by really fast. Exactly half of my week (Sun-Sat) is School and half is Weekend. I have school Mon, Tues, Wed, and Thurs I get out at 2 (which cuts the day in half really.) I can't decide which half goes by faster. But this weekend I got some good needed rest and relaxation time put in. I have a meeting tonight at 4:30 for my freshmen group and we'll see how many people come. I combined with another group so that way it won't get cancelled. Watch the numbers still be low. :) I went grocery shopping today too and that was nice, I like having food. I bought some Nutella too... so good. I really have not been eating healthy, but I don't really care. It makes me happy. Um, midterms went well last week, 2 for 2 on A's! I really want a 4.0 quarter this quarter, it's only happened my first quarter here. I think I can do it! We'll see about my securities class...
October 7, 2005- So it's Friday night, and I'm in my pajamas with a InStyle magazine, Queer Eye on the tv, with a bowl of ice cream... and I love it! Some times you just have to let go and relax. And I needed it. I wish I had a whirlpool bath to really soak in. I'm really over the small bathtub thing. You know, I've been getting more and more addicted to quality and I went shopping and bought clothes, and I jsut want to go out and go to New York for a week and just go shopping... For someone who doesn't like girly girl stuff and chick flicks, I really have been in the mood in the last little while. I can't wait to have a job and a real paycheck and to have so much!
October 5, 2005- I can't believe week THREE of school is about done. That seems crazy! I had a midterm in audit today and basically if you memorized oodles of paragraphs and sentences, you got 100%. And I did. I missed one question but I feel like I can argue it for credit, but still an A nonetheless. Hooray me. So I felt so good, I went on a shopping spree downtown and spent $120 on clothes that I probably did not need to spend. The deals were just too good and I couldn't pass up... anyway. I got som nice stuff. Two collar long sleeve shirts, great grey slacks, a sweater, and a great constructed blazer all for 120 after tax? Geez I'm great. Anyway, I ahvea bull shit misterm tomorrow in my produtions class. It kills me to think I study so hard and do so well in a difficult class, and then I get Bs in these cake walk classes and GEs. My GPA would be outstanding if I just actually took the time to care about all fo my classes. But I don't, just the ones I like. I am trying to boost my GPA though this year because it's migrating lower, and although it's still good, I would like it to be better! Plus this is what recruiters will see as I pass out resumes... so yeah. Anyway, this weekend should be relaxing. Thursday night, out with Syreeta, Friday during the day I have a lot going on but nothing at night yet... Saturday day I have Ryan's matinee (West Side Story! I'm so excited I've never seen any version of it before!), and Sunday some group work, studying, and the race, of course. I need to try to update this thing more often. I know people come to the site so obviously someone cares.
October 1, 2005- Ocotber? Wow! Well, last night was the Fall Symposium, the thing I have ben working on for hours to plan and organize. I am so glad it went without problems! I talked to some people and I have a lot to digest whether or not I want to go the samll firm route or the big firm route. Lots to digest... But yes it went well. Now that all that stress is off my shoulders, I can relax for a little... except I have a huge midtern on Wed for audit. I did a ton of work for Tad and I need to do well on this midterm to make a solid name for myself... we'lls ee how it goes!
Septmber 25, 2005- This weekend turned out to be kind of stressful. I'm kind of mad at some parts of my life right now, and I don't want to get all into it on my blog because that's dumb. But yeah, I'm just not super thrilled at the moment... But last night I had a good time. I saw a bunch of people I knew when I was downtown and that was nice, and then we went and saw 40 Year Old Virgin. That was pretty funny. So this week should be a killer, beyond class and LOTS of HW, I have meetings all Monday night for FMA and Fall Symposium, lots to do before Fall Symposium this Friday, and catch up and housework and I still am trying to keep a few lunch dates with friends. Being busy is good, it makes me focus on the things I like to do and not problems. That's a good thing. I ahve work in an our and I then get to meet my freshmen group I am mentoring, so that should be a good experience. I hope they're all excited about it, and it becomes a great experience for everyone.
September 24, 2005- So the first week of school is over and I'm already behind! I had a good amount of stuff to do today and I did some, it took longer than I thought. But oh well. Last ngiht was pretty interesting. I walked around with Nikki and felt like pathetic freshmen thirsting for alcohol, roaming the dim streets of Kentucky and Frat Row... it was a sad low for the need to get out. I don't know, I just needed to get out now that everyone's back in town. It seems with rush coming up that not a whole lot is going on. Next weekend should be a lot more eventful. I'll be going out tonight, and it's already 7:20 so I should start getting ready... but yeah. Fun stuff
September 20, 2005- So WOW and school have bene going on since my last update. WOW was great. It really turned around on Thursday and we had a great time. Quick overview: Monday: Pizza making, park time, hike the P, WOW-o-Rama. Tues: Kayaking in Morro Bay (cute seals), SLO Bound, Hypnotist. Wed: Academic Day, BBQ, Bonfire. Thurs: Presentations, painting pottery downtown, Farmers, then Smile & Nod. Fri: Chill day at the beach, then pool time at the rec center, and an early closing so people could do what they wanted with their Friday night. I heard the band Ozomatli did an awesome show. Oh well I was freakin' tired. I had a really good time though and I'd do it again if friends did it with me. I felt a bit lonely doing it with no one else I knew, but then the night Becca tagged along with me, it's like I was instantly having more fun. But it was worth it and I'm glad my WOWies, or the 7 that came to stuff, had fun. I can tell some of them are going to friends for a long time! Anyway classes started this week and I already feel tired. I took care of a lot of Fall Symposium stuff too so that's good. I'm behind in classes because I don't have my books yet, but this weekend I'll play catch up. I'm taking some Business Law class which seems really interesting, Securities Analysis (finance), Audit, and some bull shit management class. It should be good, but man I'm already tired. I don't think I've caught up on sleep from WOW.
September 13, 2005- I still exist, WOW is taking over my life...updates to come in a few days. But in short: AWESOME
September 8, 2005- Yay so I finally clocked in the rest of the race. I am so happy for Kyle Busch and his first win. He and his brother look like such dorks. They look like the stereotypical geeky office network guys. Anyway, that made me happy. Today I have our first WOW meeting 1-3, and then my co and I are going out and decorating signs/shirts. Then tonight I get to see Syreeta's new place, and I am so excited since I haven't seen her in a while. I just downloaded some music from the WOW concert, they're called Ozomatli. They do some Spanish stuff and some English stuff, I think I've heard it before too. The English stuff is pretty cool, it's like rap. But the Spanish stuff? Who knows, they could be saying white girls are whores the whole time and I would have no idea. I last heard Story of the Year was doing the concert, so who knows. Last night was some crazy times, but that's for another time. Got to get ready for some WOW craziness! I can't believe how ugly the shirt is this year (Kix theme on bright yellow shirts). I wanted the pink Fight Club Shirt and on the bar of soap Brad Pitt was holding it said WOW. It was awesome.
September 7, 2005- Wow, I don't have much of summer left! I still haven't watched the race from Sunday and I don't know when I'll get to. Today I have work 12-5 and then am going to a BBQ and most liely won't be back tonight, and then Thursday I am going to do WOW prep/meetings all day and then see Syreeta in the evening, and Friday I have more WOW stuff and I'm sure I'll be busy, Saturday I have to help out with a bunch of WOW things and go to the football game/go out, and Sunday I have more WOW stuff in the day and so yeah! I am so excited. WOW better be so awesome. It will be awesome, what am I saying? So yeah, exciting times ahead... but when I will ever get to watch NASCAR??
September 4, 2005- Okay, so I haven't updated in a while. I went home for the holiday weekend with ym brother and helped my dad move. It was really nice I like spending quality time with us. We don't do that too often. The new house is really nice. There are things I would change, but my parents feel the same way, so I guess it's all good. It's up in Georgetown, in the Sierra foothills I guess near Auburn but futher into the woods. You silly SoCal people don't know what I'm talking about, but there is a palce call Google Maps, so I'll stop there if you really care to know. But yeah, it was so much driving. We left SLO on Friday, and then made 2 round trips to the house on Saturday, and today (Sunday) we ran into Sac, went back and forth between Woodland and Davis a few times, and then went home. We probably drove right up around 1000 miles in the past 2 days. I'm pretty sick of the car. Tomorrow I get the entire day off from work or anything and I need it badly. I have a lot to do in terms of setting up the new furniture I got back from the house and cleaning out my car for WOW, and all that stuff. The furniture is going to be the big thing. I also have to swing by BBB and get ym last paycheck... all sorts of things. It's 2:15am in the moring, I should probably get some sleep, but I'm just so exhausted it's like keeping me awake. I'm sure it won't be too hard to get some sleep. Exciting though to get a day off-- I can sleep in!!
August 29, 2005- Today was full of work! I went to the accounting office at 8:30, worked at the adivinsing center 9-3, then at BBB from 3:30-8:35. I love my new job! I feel so positive about what I'm doing and I think it'll be successful. I am dissapointed though that I'm not going to be a peer advisor, but more focused on this program. However if I do well, I don't think I'm going to be thrown to the street. My boos, Kris, even complimented me on my enthusiasm today and said she was so glad she hired me. Wow, some appreciation! Who knew? I am very happy to be working there. The phone lsits we ened to start calling people about the program isn't in yet so my schedule isn't really set yet. Plus the week after next is WOW, so we'll see what's going on. I only ahve 2 shidts at BBB left, or nine hours. I think they both sound like too much! Anyway, work at BBB tomorrow only from 11:30-3:30. I need to do a little shopping (my new job is strict business casual attire) and hopefully I'll get my car all cleaned out. I am pooped from this full day I had today!
August 28, 2005- I can't wait to be done at BBB! Three shifts left. I start my new job at the advising center on Monday. Tomorrow. I am excited, it should be good and rewarding work. I'll be part of a mentor program for kids who live off cmapus and perhaps come from some typically lower income/performing schools. It's like a connection prgram to OCOB and Cal Poly to help kdis get involved. I'll catch up with them, see how they're doing, and so forth. That'll happen once a week for an hour, and then I'll have work during the week preapring for it and staff meetings. So it should be fun. Enjoyable work! My days of retail end with BBB on Thursday. How awesome. It's a dream come true. The other night was drama. We went to the drive in and some kids dropped a water balloon from an overpass onto our car, but it cracked Mike's windshield and we almost got into an accident... it was really not fun. We pulled over and tried to figure out who it was and talked to some kids in a truck driving off near us. We knew they did it, they called us all sorts of names, and we got their plates! The cops finally came after an hour or so and we filed the police report. It was a bummer. But we saw Wedding Crashers and Red Eye in the drive in, which were 2 good movies! Anyway, tonight I was planning on going out but I don't know what happened with that. I took a 3.5 hour nap, so I don't know where my friend went! I am just going to relax on my Sunday, watch the race (which I hear is awesome) on my TiVo, and clean up a little. I have about a 10 hour day tomorrow, between workign both places and Fall Symposium errands. Hooray...
August 25, 2005- My headache is killing me. Today sucked. I ran some Fall Symposium errands and went to work. People there are SO dumb. I just think did you REALLY just say that? Anyway, I got a promising sounding message on my phone from the OCOB Advising Center, I need to call tomorrow so that is good news. I hate BBB. There is this front end lead person, not very nice lately, and I amde a crack at her about being paid less than me. She just about exploded. Anyway, I like to think there is more to my life than work. So, what else is going on in my life. I got some closet organization things so I'm trying to get rid of more of the clutter and crap. I am getting this financially-deadly addiction to quality, so the crap must go. I have the day off tomorrow so on top of working on some Fall Symposium stuff (I have about 3 hours of work to be done on that), I need to clear out my car for once. I will be so excited. I have almost reclaimed my normalcy, which hasn't been around me since February. I love getting organized!
August 23, 2005- I decided I don't like visual cahnges. I don't like the new Daily Show set, I don't like the new facebook.com layout, and there are many more. It's a weird and random thing to realize. Today I went to the beach with Scott and that was some much needed relaxation. It's so interesting to hear things about people you never knew before. I made what I thought was an awesome dinner. I can't get enough of my cheesey white sauce. That was hours ago and I'm still pretty full. So today was a pretty good day. I did put in my 2 weeks at work, I don't think I've mentioned that. Oddly enough, they keep calling me in and extending my hours. I guess they really don't want to be losing people but they should have thought of that before they refused my time off. I think it'll be best to quit so I have no work with school. And hopefully I'll get that job on cmapus with the peer advisors. As far as I hear on that, people liked me but they are trying to figure out what they need people for and such. I've been pulling some weird hours lately and I am getting little sleep. I think I have a lot on my mind and I'm getting pretty anxious about school starting. I hate my insominiac phases... they lower the quality of my days. Like it's 2am right now.. shouldn't I be asleep? Anyway, it is late and I am sunburned.. I should get some sleep. Oh and this is the craziest thing in the world I was shown, you got to try it! http://www.i-am-bored.com/bored_link.cfm?link_id=12373 Let me know if you get number 5. Okay, sleep time...
August 20, 2005- I have to leave for work in like, on minute, but I'll do my best. Yesterday I had the worst headache from registering (I was registering almost last) and all this crap was going on with the job fair thing I'm organizing... so many e-mails form so many people because there's an RSVP deaadline... ahhh I could just die. I ended going over to Scott and Mike's anyway despite my crappy feelings because I needed to get out. This morning I wanted to sleep in but osmeone for the job fair called at 9... I just took a nap and am rushing to get to work... Work 3-8 and I'll probably come home and watch the race I ahve saved from last weekend. I heard it wasn't very good, so I may not. yBut how could I not? It's a NASCAR race! Anyway, I really ought to go..
August 18, 2005- I am back from my week! Poor me, get back into town and I have work in 2 hours. My week was really good. I went to Davis for the weekend and saw my dad. It was my stepmom's birthday so we wen tout to dinner and I gave her my presents. I spent some time with Anne too. Then I went to my mom's and took a day to shop in SF for some new shoes and a nice suit. I spent the evening working on my resume and went to Kinkos to make some nice copies. Tuesday was my frist office tour at KPMG. It was okay. It was in downtown SF off Market and 2nd St so it was a very nice building. KPMG and I are not destined to be. I really don't think so. Everytime I talk to them things don't go as well as I would hope. Things just got brought up that I didn't know, it was too weird. It didn't go bad, but I was uncomfortable. But yesterday, Wednesday, I went to Deloitte in San Jose and it was great! I talked to the recruiter for about an hour and a half just about things, and then I went on a tour. She was so nice and I was really impressed. Then, she gave me a tote bag with some other goodies and get this... $75 for my gas to come up! Isn't that crazy? So they are now my absolute favorite for sure. The last 2 nights I was at my friend's house in Cupertino and we had a blast. We went go-kart racing and had dinner and went to her hot tub... so all in all I had fun, got gas paid for, made a good impression with Deloitte, and I am excited for Fall! I register tomorrow, and I have no idea what I'm taking. Anyway, so sad... I don't want to work!
August 11, 2005- TAKE MY POLL, It is important to me. You can take it more than once too. Anyway, on with the post. Work is dumb. It's not hard or anything, people just get on my nerves and I just get so annoyed. And things are so goddamn expenseive I feel like I work a ton of hours to just cover bills and gas. $30.06 to fill MY tank. My small fuel efficient car is even super expensive. I am so glad I don't drive some gas guzzler monster from the 80s. Going home tomorrow and will be home until Thursday morning. I'm spending the weekend in Davis with family and friends and doing the New Student Welcome Event in Sacramento for incoming freshmen. Then on Monday I'm heading to my mom's and doing stuff, and on Tuesday I have my office tour with KPMG, and Wednesday with Deloitte. Super fun.
August 9, 2005- 1000 hits! Ha! So you do read my website. How do I know? You're reading it right now, aren't you? Anyway, hooray I went to the career services today and saw the counselor. My resume looks good and I got some advice to take with me to my office tours. I am so excited to maybe have something good going on. I want a job! Anyway, I have work today 3:30-8:30 and tomorrow -begasp- at 6am! Anyway, I'm going to be leaving this Friday and I should ahve a good weekend. I made a birthdfay present for Amber last night and it got super glue all over me and paints, but I had fun. I need to get in touch with my creative side more often I think. Anyway, I am off to watch some TV and brush up my resume before working at the hellish abyss known as Bed Bath and Beyond.
August 7, 2005- So I'm doing well updating I think! Good news, I got an A in both my music appreciation class and sign language class at Cuesta. Sweet. Too bad it doesn't really factor into my GPA. I had a full day at work yesterday and I have work everyday until Thursday night. I am sad I have so many days of work! Now that I'm not drugged out, I want to go to the beach and be active! I actually went jogging last night in my new effort to be healthy and I feel like my legs have been beaten with a stick. I went to the high school's track so I wouldn't have to worry about parking. I did jumping jacks and crunches and all sorts of good things, but I can feel it! It makes em sad because when I trained for my black belt I was actually in ok shape. I could run a mile no problem, did a bunch of crap, had lots of flexibility.. now I tihnk it might be time to reclaim some of my stamina!
August 5, 2005- It just hit me that it was August. That is so far into the year! I mean I remember New Year's eve like it was maybe a month, maybe 2 ago? Not 8. Crazy. Well today I did absolutely nothing. I am taking my medicines and they aren't kidding, that vicodin stuff really does make you feel sick. It also produces feelings of laziness, lethargic feeelings.. and that's just how I feel. I haven't left the apartment all day! Well, I got something out of my car, but that's it. I did some productive stuff regarding office tour arrangements (I actually have 1 official meeting and 2 promising leads!) and tweaked my resume. I also made an appointment with Jane Johnson, the career service resume guru on campus, so hopefully I'll have some impressive things to show on my tours. Plus, I want some good advice about what to bring up at the tours, what would be some good questions/things to look for... so yeah! Exciting. Work tomorrow 8:45-2:30, so hopefully I won't feel like shit after tomorrow morning. It's 11 and I should feel sleepy, but I took such a long anp this afternoon I just don't need to go to sleep right away. I don't think I will have a good night's sleep until I get hired for an internship in the winter... as it seems. I need to relax. There really is more to me than my obsession about landing a job!
August 4, 2005- Um, today was an adventure! I got my implant done. My baby tooth that never had the permanent tooth is fianlyl being taken care of! They pulled that sucker out and put in a titanium screw directly into my jaw. They took an x-ray and man it looks like the size of a smaller screw from Home Depot. It goes deeper into my jaw than regular tooth roots. It's crazy. They numbed the area well so I couldn't feel pain, plus there are no nerves in the jaw bone, but man I felt enormous pressure. The drilling vibrated my bone (obviously) and in turned vibrated my skull, and I still have a headache from it. But when they put int he screw, it's like he used a small torque wrench and each rev just amde it tighter and tighter. I'm sure everythin was fine, but it FELT like my jaw bone was going to crack through the middle it was so tight. I've never felt so much pressure ever. I'd hate to be run over by a car if that's how that feels. Anyway, everything went well medically wise. I just ahve to take anti biotics to keep away any possible infections. Next week I have a check up for the doctor to remove these metal stitch things in my mouth. From there, I jsut have to wait a few months until my jaw bone fuses with the implant, then I can get ready for a crown (where it would look like a real tooth!). Sweet. My vicodin for the pain though makes me feel like I ahve a great hang over. I feel like shit. This part cost 2166.50 too (not including the insurance's part). Oh, and 12.50 for the medicines. Maybe I should go into the oral surgeon profession. That seems like it's good money
August 2, 2005- Wheee! I actualyl did not only good, but great on my interivew this morning with Peer Advising! They aren't 100% sure if they're hiring, so I don't know exactly what is going on, but I am most excited that if all else fails, I know I can pull a great interview. I think a lot of it was that I knew the people so I wasn't nervous and got some good answers out. I think now that I am more acquainted with recruiters I won't be so nervous. I hope everything pans out. Anyway, I did my interview, went to work for 4 hours, and then got my teeth cleaned at the dentist! They are cute and whiter now. So nice... anyway, I'm off to the Midstate Fair with Nikki and Becca tonight. Toby Keith is there tonight but we're all to broke to see it. I don't care, but I have this great urge for a corndog. Oh yeah!
July 31, 2005- As I sit in my nice new room, with no boxes and a clean floor, I feel sadder than I thought. I finally have most everything in place, except for some needed vaccuuming and my Rubbermaid bin-makeshift desk. I don't know, just lately I have felt so overwhelmed with fears of not getting an internship, getting time off for work, a LOT of worrying about money, figuring out what classes I need to take, some personal things as well... I just don't feel genuinely happy. I am definately ready for Fall, I can't wait to actually learn things again, and I really hope this next year will be awesome. I don't feel lonely because I've been doing many things with people so it's not like that, well, I don't know. Right now I'm pretty hungry and even though I keep eating, I just can't get full. And that's kind of the mood I'm in too, I suppose. Anyway, tomorrow will be a good day because I will talk to Kris at advising about getting a good job and I can bring in my oh-so-impressive resume and hopefully escape the hell of BBB. I can't believe I can't get the day of my surgery off. I'm just going to call in sick.
July 29, 2005- I guess since I haven't had school, I don't care about updating! No, I do, I just don't do it. So, I went home earlier in the week to go shopping with my mom in SF for an interview suit and that beccame unsuccessful, although I did spend money on shirts and other cute things to make me happy! Wednesday was killer, I woke up early, drove 5 hours from Davis to SLO, and then an hour and a half later I had a 5 hour shift at BBB. Lame. Tonight was pretty relaxing, I cooked lasagna for Mike and I thought maybe a few other people, but it turned out I was drunk when I planned this night and in fact, no one was in town. I shall do it again though. I really miss cooking like a good meal. My small individual meals are good for my night at home, but things like lasagna, that's cooking. To me anyway. So I am glad I was able to do that. In super great news, the counselor for OCOB (college of business) was super impresed with my performance of summer advising and wants me to come in Monday to give her a resume and talka bout working within the office. I am so excited! I could quit BBB and have a job that lets me think, would be interesting, I'd get to know great people, and it would look great on a resume! How exciting! Mike helped me with a nice resume and If I could scan it in, I would. Not only could you see my wonderful achievements, but you could see the wonderful formatting Mike did for me. Super. Anyway, I was falling asleep watching movies so I should probably crawl into bed now before I get some sort of second wind.
July 22, 2005- No more school! Hooray! All days off are like days off! Next week I have Monday and Tuesday off, so I think I will head up to my mom's and go shopping. I can use a nice suit and she said she'd treat me to one! I tend to spend money entertaining myself so I should go somewhere to spend money at least. Today I spent 55 bucks on Amber's birthday present and stuff at Wal Mart. so yeah, I need to stop that!
July 19, 2005- Last week of school... yay! Sadly this week I dont have many hours because I requested some time off and my hours were scheduled during those days so I am missing 2 shits which should be at the start of the week... This would normally be good at any other week but my days off coincide with school now so it doesn't amke much difference. If I have a few days off in a row, it's defiantely worth it to go home or to SF considering I'd spend like 25 bucks on dinner and money on movies anyway. Yesterday I had an entire day off and it was great. No work or school, which was the first time that happened all summer. I can't believe it's almost August. The time has gone by so fast! Hopefully I'll be occupied with enough things to do until school. WOW cuts my summer a week and a half early, and I am going home for 5 days in mid August and early September, and I ahve my oral surgery (the 2200 dollar implant) next week so much is going on. Plus my co and I ahve to schedule all of our WOW stuff, I have summer adivisng this Friday, what else... plan on going to the fair at some point... it should be good!
July 16, 2005- I sure am groggy. Yesterday I did summer advising and it was so strainign on my brain. It was like explainging everything as much as I could and these poor lost souls were just trying their very best. I got paid at least! I'm doing it next Friday too, and hopefully that will go better than before. So yeah, anyway, work 4-9 and I hope to get my room cleaned up in the mean time, and get some rest. After work I'm going to go to Cristin's birthday party so that should be fun, but I have to work out something with my car. Anyway, I think I'm just going to relax and watch tv because I feel just exhausted.
July 12, 2005- Fluffy got bathed! And vacuumed! And cleaned up! Fluffy is now officially the hottest piece of Toyota ass in the neighborhood. We went to a detailer shop thinking it was a coin operated car wash and as we adamently said we were going to go elsewhere ($19 for wash/vacuum?? no thanks...) the guy thought I was haggling with him and he didn't want to lose us so he chopped it down to a car wash for me for $7 and free for my friend's car. Then we went to the gas station and did the coin operated vacuum. Oh man, I'd actually allow someone to sit in my front seat now! Unfortunately my trunk and back set have a lot of things I need to haul to Goodwill, but I can have a passenger! Hooray! Let's see, sign was cancelled today, test tomorrow, um... work blows and they aren't giving me the days off I told them I needed at my interview (and it's school related/going home related/accounting tour related stuff, not a concert or beach party, give me a break.) Let me ask, is cancelling an accounting firm tour for a 5 hour shift at BBB worth it? Hells no! They're dumb. I also requested off a day for my oral surgery (tooth implant) and I don't know how that's going to go. I wanted to keep this job until Winter when I got hired for a summer internship, but it looks like I may ahve to quit right around August or September if they won't give me the days off. Because I know where I'm going to be, and that is not SLO, so if BBB refuses to accept that, well, I will refuse them! I mean I'm going home one weekend to help my dad move. A. It's my dad and great family, B. I want to see the new house for myself! C. I don't go home very often so it would be nice and D. My dad and Amber pay for a huge amount of college expense and it far outweighs my BBB pay checks, so I know who to keep happy! Anywho, TiVo still rocks my socks and I am happy to have only a week and a half of summer school remaining! Things overall are pretty okay!
July 10, 2005- This weekend has been pretty fun! Friday night I went to a bonfire with some old friends from my dorm and I met a ton of people who seemed really nice. There were these little kids nearby too that were playing and talking to us and they started making marshmallows and I told them to amke me some and I'd judge it so they started making all these smores and things for us and all we had to do was give them a score and they were perfectly happy! How funny. Then SAturday I went to the beacha nd laid out with my frined from sign class and then went to work, and today I am going to dinner and to the drive thru with Mike! So with geting money and doing stuff, it's a pretty good weekend. This summer kicks last summer's ass BIG TIME.
July 7, 2005- I thought I had maybe something like salmanella (spelling?) because I've not been doing too well today, and I ate some raw cake batter. But, I looked up symptoms on the internet and thankfully I do not have bloody diarrhea so I tihnk I'm okay. Thank goodness. Could you imagine such a horrid experience? Anyway, if you haven't stopped reading by now, I went to the oral surgeon today about my tooth implant. I am on the ball of geting it done and my big day is August 4, but unfortunately the whole amount of close to 2200 is due all in full on that day. So hooray, I felt so bad telling my dad but he new it was coming and was okay. I will probably end up paying for any misc costs to save my dad some more heart ache but for the most part my dad is being a good father and taking care of it. And I'm sure Amber is helping out as well! Who knows. But as long as I don't get wiped out I think it will all be okay.
July 5, 2005- Today and yesterday haven't been bad at all! Yesterday, I went to work for a few hours and 2 people got fired/quit (?) because they both didn't show up for 2 shifts in a row. And, they're both cashiers so what does that mean for me? 11 extra hours of work! Hooray! And then I went to a BBQ with Syreeta and it was at her work but then Ken, someone I know who just graduated was there and that was an unexpected suprise. So anyway, a small group of us went to go see the frieworks up from the hills and it was pretty cool. The stars were actualyl really nice. I got tipsy and everyone was sober so it made for some good laughs, and then I came home and made a few phone calls because I was awake and talkative... and then I fell asleep. I don't know who reads this so I'm not going to say much about my dilemma, but I sure am laughing at myself.... poor me...
July 3, 2005- Whee, another awesome day at work. About half the cashier staff didn't show up for their shifts today which makes me a happy camper since I can probably scoop up all those slackers' hours! I have to talk to my boss and see what's up with having 5 days of work and 19 hours scheduled. I seem to stay a few hours later every day so it works out in the end, but it's not guaranteed. Anyway, the 4th is tomorrow and I have work until 3:30p and then my friend from sign is having a BBQ, and then we're going to head over to the fireworks later. So, it should make for a good night! I ahve a music midterm on Tuesday and I have NO FUCKING IDEA what we have been doing in that class but it'll all work out. A few extra credit things and badda-bing I bet I can pull an A out of my ass. I wish I could say that about my business classes...
July 2, 2005- Hooray! I saw a race! That means the world to me to finally have my life back in order. Yes, I know no one else cares, but it's so frustrating for me to miss this week after week. What else... My room is looking more like a room, I think I made like 8 trips down to the trash can taking out garbacge and boxes so that was pretty cool. I dropped off a bunch of cooking stuff for Zach so that was nice to unload some stuff and give it to someone who needs it. Otherwise, not too much else is going on... Brandon sent me a postcard and I got a note in my PO BOX saying that I ahve to pay 14 cents in pastage to pick it up. Weird. Um, yeah, I got my schedule for work, I work 5 days and have 19 hours. How stupid is THAT. I would even be ok with the 19 hours but at least put it in the course of 3 days, not 5. I hate short shifts!! Anyway, Jimmie just tok the point lead and I'll be having a good night's sleep tonight so all is well in the world of me! :)
July 1, 2005- Pay day and rent due... oh man what a let down. All your money slides away to the hands of someone who doesn't really need the money. Sigh... Work was okay, I guess I'm under a lot of scrutiny because I've been training people lately so if I do one thing wrong I swear everyone is on me. Stupid. And then today I got told how to do 2 or 3 things that I was "supposed to know" already that no one told me and I've been doing ym way for 7 weeks. Now finally someone says something. I don't know, that job is stupid and I don't care, as long as I keep getting paid. I only got 19 hours for this upcoming week and that's not super fun. But I'll be doing Summer Advising for OCOB in 2 weeks for 3 days and I'll make 9 bucks of tax free dollar per hour! Whee! TiVo is pretty cool and I get to watch all sorts of cool things. So yeah, anyway, not too much going on, but I best be checking up on my online banking and stuff.
June 29, 2005- Hey I'm actually doing well in my summer classes, suprise suprise. This music midterm is going to kill me next week because I dont have a musical ear and I can't pick up what the rhythm patterns are and stuff. It really sucks but I want an A and it'll transfer so that'll be good. He offers hella extra credit so I just have to pick up an assignment and I'll be fine. DirecTV is coming tomorrow, not yesterday, because I totally blew it. I knew I had work 2-7, I knew theey were coming 1-5, but I didn't put it together until that morning I'd have a conflict. So I REALLY hope everything is working by tomorrow evening! Tonight I'm going to go downtown with my new friend from sign language, and I'm not sure what else. There's a WOW summer social tomorrow night that I might go to but I have to admit, if I get TiVo tomorrow, I tihnk I'll be the happiest person alive to spend all night watching TV all night and setting up TiVo to record everything my heart desires. Let's see, in other news my room almost looks like a room and once I get a desk I'll have a nice place after all! My dresser got a ton of crap and clothes off the floor and opened up more space. I'm so glad. So yeah, I'd let someone come over now if they wanted to but I think people need to hold off a bit befopre seeing my place. I need to get picture wire and nails too for some of my stuff. Anyway, off to find something to do for the time being...
June 27, 2005- I figured out if I just unplug my roommate's computer and put in my cable I can get on the internet! I have to go to the OCOB accounting office today on campus to take care of some business for the Fall Symposium job fair thing I'm chair of. But I ahve all these documents and I have no way to save them off my computer since Joseph rebuilt it. The A drive isn't working and I realized that my CD burning software is deleted. What am I to do? So I e-mailed tehm to myself but still, I don't like this situation. I guess I'll have to buy a USB port thingy-ma-jig. Anyway, life in SLO for the past 2 weeks of summer hasn't been too horrible. TiVo and DirecTV are coming to my room tomorrow and even though it will be expensive I'll be so happy. I've missed the races for the past THREE Sundays. Speaking of which, Scott and I saw Herbie Fully Loaded last night. It was the most dumb and corny movie in the world but I got a kick out of it for this 25 second TERRIBLE acting part Jimmie and Jeff did talking about herbie (actual NASCAR drivers). I was the only one in the theatre laughing. I'm glad I saw it because I'd be sad if I didn't, but no, no one else should see it, it was pretty cheesy. There were many little kids there too laughing really loud like kids do when some stupid slap stick comedy thing happened. It was cute. Hmm... I'm feeling better and am getting more sleep. When I'm home I try to do something up until the point of before I am about to fall asleep in my chair and then go to bed. I'll probably fall asleep watching TV a lot once I get it. Work is okay, and I'm just glad I'm getting a pay check. As long as I don't look like I'm not doing anything people seem to not bother me. I could go on with little stories about how everyone is a manager and it's so annoying but that would be tiresome. Pay day is on Friday though! Anyway, it about 9am and I have work in 5 hours but must get many things done beforehand, so I think I better start my day! I'll update as often as I can, but feel free to call!
June 22, 2005- No, I haven't forgot to update. My internet at my place isnt working for my computer (I have to buy a router or something) so I am able to use Kathy's, my roommate. But she has an iMac and for some reason angelfire wont really work on it and I am unable to type in the field to update my website. So, summer is going well. I'm in the second week of class at Cuesta and it's very easy. My history of popular American music class has all tests open book and open note and it's super easy and boring. My American Sign Language class is pretty cool and interesting. I have a burning desire to learn more but I don't really want to take more classes in it. Maybe Cal Poly has something to offer. I'll see. Summer is definately not going to be as bad as last summer, that's for sure. Last summer was hell. Literal hell. But Bed Bath & Beyond is giving me as many hours as I can handle (=money=good) and school is keeping me busy during the day and giving me some purpose. I actually have been calling up old friends I haven't gone out with in a while and so it's nice to catch up with them. Otherwise, as my friends know, thnigs arent going so well in other areas and I'm crushed and I ahte it and nights alone are so bad and I just want to knock myself out so I can go to sleep. Last night I was so miserable I stayed up way late just balling, and then I got a phone call at 4am so that kept me up another while... and then wake up for my 7:30am class. So yeah, I've had lack of sleep and I'm pretty exhausted and confused and yeah. I also am having problems with my phone (I had to get a new one because mine randomly died) and there was problems getting cable... I don't know. Like my dad said, when I'm sad and depressed small problems seem larger than they are. Anyway, the internet is limited for me and especially updating this so I'll try my hardest. But, calling me is the best route by far to me getting in touch with people! (I dont have many people's phone numbers since my phone died and numbers didnt transfer over so I cant call as many people asI'd like) Anyway, I am going to go, but keep in touch!
June 13, 2005- So since I officially checked out this morning, I have changed it to "My thoughts from the Boondocks." I was going to make today my big Wal Mart/Costco shopping trip but that'll have to wait for alter since I am going to go to work early and check out ran late. I'll do it Tuesday or Wednesday, some time some day. I got my grades for 2 classes, and they're good, so I won't knock 'em. I know a B isn't failing, I'm not like that. But when you were so close to something, it's hard for me to accept that I just didnt quite make it to my ultimate goal. I got a B+ in 429 which is all I can really ask for. I failed the final (like 59%) so I guess getting knocked from a solid A down is all I can expect. In 322, I'm a lucky SOB because I got an A-. In reality, my raw grade was probably a solid. But his curve was 85%=A/B break. I think I had an 84% after the final, so he gave me an A, with that little minus attached. He does that when he gives you an A but you didn't super earn it all teh way with your grades. So I am happy. I have yet to hear from tax and int'l finance, but I'm hoping 2 A's?? I tried so hard.
June 11, 2005- I am moving this weekend. How tiresome. I am so sick of moving you guys have no idea. My room is justa bout packed except for my computer. I've been speding a ton of time cleaning the living room and kitchen and bathroom and I haven't even tackled my own room yet. I think the only one who did some full blown cleaning is christina, but I don't understand why I'm always picking up after everyone. I don't get why it couldn't have been equal on cleaning. People suck sometimes. I am hoping to finish moving all my stuff over today, work tomorrow, Monday to go shopping for food and so forth and hang out with Joseph before he leaves, and then Tuesday after my first day at Cuesta, to come backa nd just unpack for the rest of the evening. I am so glad I gave away my hours on Friday because I am just getting by with everything I need to do. Oh, but all on the bright sde, I'm going to Olive Garden tonight! Whee!
June 7, 2005- It all could be over! But, it's not. :( I moved my international finace final up to thursday noight since I really need time to study, instead of taking it Monday. Well, I really could have found the time this weekend and it would all be over, but instead I am just waiting until Thursday night. I at least have 3 done, out of the way, and over! That aint bad. My 429 final went horribly, but maybe I'll still get an A if the class on average sucked it. I had an A going into it. My 322 final went well, but not as well as I'd hoped. I needed a certain score to get a guaranteed A, but I am just minor points away. I am hoping he takes pity on my poor soul and gives me an A anyway. I gave him a pie last quarter, after all. My tax one went well, I in fact think I aced it. I hope so, because if I get an A on it, I get an A for the class. She loves me (I think) so maybe if I'm borderlined she'll bump it up. I guess that's what most of my classes are coming down to, borderlines and hoping my teachers like me. I guess this stuff only happens in small bus classes because crazy lecture halls, the teachers wouldn't give a shit I'm sure.
June 3, 2005- So I don't know what else to say, but I am glad classes are finally over. OVER. I even had my first final today. I went downtown to my tax prof's office and took it there early to allieviate some of the pressure for next week. I honestly think I aced it, and if I did, it would be a happy day for the world of Yellie. that mean I'll get an A in the class. I studied so much for that final I might have broken a World's Record. I even started studying last weekend. If that isn't determination, I don't know what is! It's also a great step for me to start my finals extravaganza on. Hey, I may even get a 4.0 this quarter. And if I do, especially with my midterm grades, the hectic-ness of WOW, starting up a job, and the stress of life, well then shit I am a super stud. I'd be super happy with 2 As, 3 would be a marvelous day, and 4 would be the taste of sweet victory. But tangent, I've made myself curious, is there a world' record for studying time? (20 min of google searches later) Can't find anything to do with school, but this is neat: "The greatest height from which fresh eggs have been dropped to earth and remained intact is 213 m (700 ft). This was achieved by David Donoghue from a helicopter on August 22, 1994. David threw the eggs onto a golf course in Blackpool, Lancashire, UK. Getting the physics right is a vital part of the record. "You have to get the forward velocity equal to the downward velocity, then get the egg to land nearly perpendicular on a steep slope," says David."
June 1, 2005- June already? Wow. But I'm glad, I've had enough of my classes. I really just want to relax and sleep, esp after getting 2-3 hours of sleep last night working on a dumb project... but I have work 5-10. I put down I could work this day thinking it was last Wednesday, but that's so wrong. I really want to nap and brush up on tax some mroe for my Friday final. I am not going to international finance since it's just review and I'll use that time to study all day for tax. I have to go to a CPAC Fall Symposium meeting tomorrow and then go to a WOW closing ceremony... just to work on tax some more. I tihnk it'll all work out for my tax final, I've got enough time to study!
May 29, 2005- So I've had all the time in the world this weekend to catch up and pull out all the stops for an awesome finals week... but I've done nothing. I have been just so tired I wanted a break so bad. The race is going on right now and won't end up until 8 ish, and then I'm going to Rachel's to see movies afterwards. Tomorrow I work but until 11am, so I am hoping I'll be in an upbeat, productive mood. I'll camp out at the library and pull out all the stops. Oh! I hope it isn't closed... I just thought about that. Why would you close the library during dead week, even if it is a national holiday.... ahhhhh
May 25, 2005- Today my only class was cancelled (10-12) so I got to sleep in this morning! I ahve nothing due tomorrow except some homeowrk and I tihnk in a few hours I'll catch up on some studying. I have to do super well on my finals to get an A. And my classes are all amjor classes and striaht Bs in all of them will totally screw up my GPA. Especially since right now I ahve a 4.0 accounting GPA. Graah. I ahte grades. I don't ahve much going on except for finals, so that's not too bad. I have to get on the ball to arrange to sign my lease (I already paid the deposit and first month's rent) so hopefully everything will work out Off to watch some TV and relax in my PJs since I don't get the chance very often...
May 23, 2005- Exciting stuff.. so my computer finally died. Whee. So my lovely computer engineer boyfriend built me a newer, faster, more awesome one! Yay! I had to spend 70 bucks on a case, but then Joseph took some of my old parts and some of his spare high quality parts laying around and made me a new computer. I supposedly won't lose any of my stuff, either. But right now I don't have anything on here and I can't help but to be freaked out. I love my pictures and music... boo hooo... Anyway. I am just about done with crap I need to do for the quarter, besides studying for finals. Two reposrts are due this week but they're done. So yay. I'll definately have to call up some people and relieve a ton of this spring quarter stress...
May 20, 2005- So I have a new job at Bed Bath and Beyond. It seems like it'll work out okay, but one of the managers training us was really a big bitch at heart. Not a very friendly person. But anyway, things should work out and they'll comply with my funky schedule for now until summer starts so I shouldn't have any problem with work conflicting with school. Exciting, huh? Not much else to report, just had a midterm, 2 projects due next week.. and that takes me into the home stretch before finals! Whee!
May 15, 2005- I had a good day yesterday. It was all accounting all day... pre-interview brunch at Apple Farm, free BBQ at Day in the Park where we mingle with recruiters and firm reps, then an interivew with PwC about their summer program which I tihnk went REALLY well... or so I hope... and then the dinner banquet. I had a super good time and I really enjoyed my day and meeting all new people. I have so many business cards it's rediculous! Anyway, I have a lot lined up this week... working on stuff Monday I have an interivew with EY for ccounting and then a simple interivew with Bed Bath & Beyond for PT work in SLO. Whee. I am going to be so burned out Monday night and I should get a lot done now, but I need an hour nap or so to recoup from my busy-busy weekend.
May 13, 2005- My only day to kind of sleep in and it's been taken away by errands! AGH! Oh well. Drop off rental app then Pottery barn interview... work on my tax project with the group for a few hours... then a date with Joseph... Can't complain.
May 11, 2005- No midterms or essays or projects due this week! It's a nice brain relaxer. However, I still manage to keep quite busy with things to do and places to go and resumes to submit. I have an interview scheduled with not only EY but PricewaterhouseCooper for Saturday. I really hope I don't strike out on both of those, like with KPMG. I have been hearing that these sophomore retreats are more competitive than the internship process. Anyway, I ahve a regular interivew with Pottery Barn on Friday at 10am. Exciting... I also got into 3 classes at Cuesta, and I go from 7:30-4:30 straight 3 days a week. But I'm taking Art Appreciation, History of Pop Culture Music, and Beginning Sign Language. And those will all count over for GEs! I am so glad I can take sign language over great books... I mean reading is not my strong point, that's for sure! Anywho, off to take care of some more errands. Oh, btw, my hiar is awesome relaxed, I am so happy with it!
May 8, 2005- I am finally finished with living at the library. THese past 2 weeks were hell. I even woke up at 7:10am for my midterm that started at... you guessed... 7:10am. That's just how shitty things went. And I didn't do as great as I could have on any of them. MAybe my tax one went okay but I won't know until Tuesday. I am at my mom's in San Bruno now, even though it's Sunday night. I only have one class and it's way lame and I turned in everytihn that was due before I left. Igot it all wrong since I had to rush it all friday morning before I left, but I could go on about that, so I won't Let me just say she should stick to a schedule and not move up deadlines. Anywho, I am really bored because I'm here alone with the cats. My mom won't be back until tomorrow morning. I am getting my hair relaxed tomorrow and that should be nice. Maybe I'll be able to wear it down! It'll be great timing too because in the next few weeks I have 2 interviews (one for a PT job at Pottery Barn in downtown, and one for Ernst & Young's summer program thing) so we'll see how that goes. I did not get the KPMG position to get to know the company, which was kind fo sad. I don't know what else I could ahve done. The interview was only 30 minutes, so how bad could it have gone. I guess if they interview more people than they have spots, someone is bound to not get it. Oh well. I also have some other things going on with school so it'll keep me busy. Thankfully I'm about done with midterms so I don't have to deal with living at hte library anymore. So all in all.. I have nothing to report... just petting my cats.
May 2, 2005- Wow I haven't updated in a while. Probably because I have had no luck with ime. Everything has bene piling up and I have midterm after project after midterm. Last week I lived at the library. I ahve 2 midterms on Thursday so that's kind of a challenging thing to balance. I have class 10-12 so the rest of the day will be spent on lovely studying. I am really nervous about them. But It hink after studying life will be pleasent. I am going to Davis this weekend to host my mom's open house to get her place rented after the sucky girls move out. She can't do it so she's telling them she is going up so they clean the house, but then I'll show up and what can they do. We don't think they'll clean for me. So yeah, then on Monday I am getting my hair chemically relaxed so I should have pretty hair I can wear down. It should make for anice relaxing weekend, but we'll see. Since I won't be back until Monday night, I decided missing my one Monday class was no big deal since nothing was due. However, she moved deadlines for things so in fact something major is due... which I now have ot have done by Friday. I guess it's alla bout time management, but it's still exhausting. OH, I went rafting this past weekend too! How could that have slipped my mind?? It was crazy fun. wE surfed some holes and got cought up on rocks and lost members and tipped our raft and all sorts of craziness. My legs are starting to recover so that's a plus. I got bug bitten and sunburned quite heavily, but all in the name of good fun.
April 27, 2005- Yesterday sucked so much ass. From 6am to 4pm, I was busy and had no breaks. I didn't even really eat since the sanwich I grabbed was veggie only, which was LAME and gross. So then I got a chance to eat after 4, but then WOW was 7-10 and that was a nightmare. It was just skits, no information, really long, and sucky. I made a comment to my WOW FAC and she was pissed. So that was nice. I then came home and worked on homework until 3am. I had more stuff to but I called it a night. Today isn't so bad. I had my interview with KPMG (summer leadership program, not an internship) and that went well. It was pretty easy so I don't know how much it's worth. My GPA and resume is good, so who knows. I guess I won't hear for a long while, and so that's lame because I wont know if I should have heard back from them by now. I have class 2-4 since I blew it and scheduled the KPMG interview during my normal section, so that adds stuff to my afternoon. I have a major midterm tomorrow in accounting and I want to do well, but it will take a lot of working on my cheat sheet. I am so glad we get those. That's the difference between 8 hours of studying and 20. Seriously.
April 25, 2005- This week is going to be crazy. I spent most of yesterday inthe livrary studying for this garbage of a class, Accounting Information Processes. It's so dumb. Lots of flowcharting and decision making tools, aka bull shit. I got my tar return back, that's exciting. I'm not even going to tell my parents how much the glasses cost. I spent $290 out of pocket (the insurance doesn't cover a lot) and I got some really expensive frames. I tihnk I went to a super trendy place because I remember my current frames being 125, and these Iicked were one of the cheapest ones there, at 270 or something. They're titanium, so hopefully they last. These have beens tepped on far to many times and don't sit right anymore on my face. I need a new pair. Today I have a midterm and then I will be spending the rest of the day doing homework, and working on a project. Hopefully I'll hear about the studio I saw on Friday. It was a crappy run down little thing but the guy who lived there obviously didn't take much effort to clean. I'm really excited to get that place and the more I think about what I'd do, the happier I get. I could put in shelves and things of the sort, unlike the last few years in the dorms, which is super exciting to me. I really hope I get this place. Apparently a ton of people saw it and applied for it (ok, maybe 4) so I don't know how my chances look. We'll see. Oh, I ahve another big midterm on Thursday for real material so that's my big Wednesday project. This weekend I get to go rafting and I'm super excited about that.
April 22, 2005- Okay, so I updated a few days ago but I guess it didn't save. This week went by fast. I am looking for housing and a WOW leader co and I have a midterm on Monday. A pretty big one, actually. Accounting processes is a bunch of crap. I got an interview with KPMG though for a summer leadership program. That's exciting. I am unsure if I can do more than one of these programs. They're unpaid and you just learn about the company, but maybe they will still make me sign something where I can't do it with the other companies. That would be dumb. Let's see.. I saw a studio today. It's 625/month including basic utils and free parking. It was kind of drab and shitty looking and it was on the corner of a busy intersection. But the noise wasn't bad and things could be cosmetically fixed. She's going to paint and clean, but I'm sure I'll spend an extra 100 bucks doing things I would want to make it a nicer place to live. The lease starts July 1 and is a year long, ideal for what I am wanting to do. I hope I get it. Many people saw it and are interested, so I guess I'll know on Monday if I get it. I hope so, because then I won't have to worry about housing until Fall 2006. Sounds nice. I figure it's actually cheaper than living with Scott and Mike. I'd ahve to had paid 300 bucks for 9 months of parking (really a year but I'd only use it for 9months)... plus it was already about 540/month plus a part of utilites... and THEN, I'd eat 3 motnhs rent because I'd get an internship next summer. So if you think about it, it's cheaper! Okay, so I'd rather have lived in Mustang, but I accept it and I'm moving on. So not much else, I have to study tomorrow and watch the night race! Hooray!
April 17, 2005- Open House weekend ws pretty cool. From volunteering at the WOW event to BBQing at the FMA booth, I consumed enough beer and pizza to hold me over for a month. I made this sweet pasta chicken vegie dinner with a great 1/2 white sauce, 1/2 red sauce sauce (make sense?) that was to die for. I am awesome. Did laundry and wathced the race too... all to complete a nice weekend. You know what booth had some awesome food? The deep fried artichoke heart booth. That was killer. Anyweay, I'm in pretty high spirits right now. I had just the best weekend and got a 3 hour nap in today, so I am refreshed any ready for the week. No midterms this week either, but lots the week after. I'm going to start my new housing search and finish applying for Cuesta summer school this week as well. My parents are moving out at the end of the month I hear so it turns out I won't get to visit the house one last time. Kind of a bummer, but I am glad they are getting stuff done. My dad is working very hard on the condo for that to be move in ready soon. I guess they put an offer up on a house (still being built) up past Auburn and they'll know Tuesday if that goes through. Everytihng is just kind of coming together and I'm feeling good about it all (except housing, which we already know sucks)! Off to frost a cake and eat it too...
April 15, 2005- Last night was the night of business and that was fun. I showed people the bus schoola nd the dorms. I went back for pizza and bowling, which I should have ditched out from and should ahve gone to my WOW social BBQ. But, I stayed talking to some people. I liked the people who weren't too cool to go on the tour and ask questions. I hope my WOW experience goes well. Today I am suppoosed to go shop for open house food and volunteer for WOW with open house stuff. Off to take a shower...
April 13, 2005- I am so cold it's sad. I wore a skirt yesterday because the weather said it was going to be 69, but I tihnk they were wrong. It's been very cold lately. I have a million things to do between now and Sunday. Today I am signing up to go rafting with Poly Escapes! I a not sure where, but they leave on a Friday night and get back on Sunday. All the equipment and stuf is provided and it's only 55 bucks for the weekend! Isn't that nice? I have class 10-12 today, but I have 800 little errands to run. So, I hopefully shall have a good day, and I hope you do too!
April 9, 2005- I feel really dizzy and stuff this morning. Weird. I didn't really do anything last night except stay up later than usual. Anyway. The big news of this weekend is that Mike and Scott's 3rd roommmante, Ben... well I need permission from everyone's parents to live there and they refuse. So unless I figure out why they don't want me there and try to make them at ease, well, I'm out of a house for next year. Lovely timing, aint it? I was so crushed yesterday. I was SUPER looking forward to it and it just got taken away... from parents? I honestly can't remember the last time I wanted to do something and couldn't because my dad said no. Probably before I got my driver's license I would think? I don't know, but I am kind of over my depression and now I am really puzzled and frustrated. I want to talk to bEn and see what's going on, but Mike and Scott went out for the weekend so I can't do anything for a bit. I feel like for the first time I am going to have good living arrangements and now it's just taken away... it's really unfair. I hate how someoen is deciding something important for me, and they don't even know me? I mean I guess if Ben barely knows me, and his parents are against it, I could see why he wouldn't put up a fight. Plus, I don't htink I made a good impression on him. The first tie we talked I was cleaning out the fridge and was making fun of everyone's moldy trash. So, who knows. I just hope this all gets resolved, and once I get over my sadness, I need to get on to the next issue, which would be finding a new place to live. Just one more thing to add on to my schedule...
April 7, 2005- It is hard for me to update during the week. I am so busy now it's insane. I'm glad I didn't pick up a job. I would go out of my mind. I have class 7-11, FMA 11-12, Class 12-2, elem kids 2-4, and then a WOW social 4-6 Today. Where is nap time? Tomorrow is my big errand day- signing the lease, go to the bank, grocery store, all that good stuff. I am so hungry and it's not even 7am yet, I think that's a bad way to start the day. Our first FMA meeting is today and I hope that goes well. I worked hard to get all the flyers up (which kept being taken down) and made a giant poster. Hopefully all goes well and I'll stock up on free pizza!
April 2, 2005- Sin City was so awesome. We went lsat night and it was sold out, we went tonight for the 8:30 showing and saw it at 10. We went to Woodstocks in the meantime and that was fun. Today I went kayaking at Morro Bay and then rock climbing (*on actual rock faces) up in the hills. It was crazy fun. I didn't make it up the face, I was really scared. After I fell the first time I was much more comfortable, but I didn't feel like attempting it again. We were then supposed to go on a 2 mile hike but we cut out early. I think we were all getting tired, at least my little group I drove with. I definately want to go to Poly Escape things more often. I think I'm going to go on a rafting trip before the end of the quarter. How exiting!
April 1, 2005- What a waste of an April Fool's. Nothing really exciting happened today. I spent the better half of my day playing video games... because that's what cool people do. Then we went downtown to seee Sin City but it was sold out for the night. I got Jamba Juice out of the deal so it's not so bad. Tomorrow I am going kayaking and on a hike in Morro Bay with Poly Escapes. My friend from philosophy 2 quarters ago told me about it and it seems like fun so I signed up. It's time for me to go out in the sun and stuff. It should be exciting. Except I'm supposed to pack a lunch.... Yeah I don't do that. But I need to!
March 30, 2005- I am starting to realize I don't have lunch food or breakfast food to eat. Yes, I could meake eggs in the morning, but do I have time? Especially with 7am classes? No. Plus I'm hungry now in the afternoon, not eating breaskfast, and I only have dinner food around. I guess pasta and redsauce is what I'll have... like always.. for lunch. I guess we're going to Firestones tonight, so that should be yummy. The cleaning people are here right now and so I don't feel comfortable getting food from the kitchen right now. I am kind of embarassed, the place is kind of messy and there is crap all over the floor. I don't like facing the cleaning staff. I said hi though. Oh, so I did successfully crash the accounting class so I am glad the pie worked well. He had already decided who on the waitlist he was going to let in. In fact, he didn't let even the second person on the list in. But me, number 16, I got on!
March 29, 2005- So I just found out that we have Thursday off and since I don't have school on Friday.. and I only have class tomorrow 10-12, I am done at noon! I love being a business major! I have a lot of errands left still to accomplish so I'll take care of all the Thursday. I am saving a bundle this quarter on books, but that's because they're so expnive where saving 20% means major bucks. I am buying all books from 1/2 to 2/3 of the bookstore price off people from screwthebookstores.com. I need this one book that's new only and it's $145, so I went online and I am buying it blacka nd white soft cover for $20, plus $10 shipping. Isn't that uber sweet? I never bought anything from ebay before, but this is just too big to pass up. That's $110! If I bought everythign at the bookstore, even used, I should be spending $465 plus tax (=$500)!!! But, I am spending a flat $256. Call me crazy but that's awesome.
March 28, 2005- School, school, I love school. SCHOOL SCHOOL I LOVE SCHOOL! Think South Park people. And no, I don't love school. This quarter is ass. I stayed in a million classes trying to crash and my luck is failing. Last quarter was cake too crashing-wise. I don't get it. Stupid graduating seniors trumping me on the waitlists. So the end of Spring Break went well. I took Anne out since it was her birthday on Saturday and she had a good time. I like seeing people I don't get to see too often. I also went by the karate school which was nice. I see them often enough for people to remember what's happening but not often enough where people are sick of me. So yeah, I don't have much to say about the quarter until I figure out what I'm doing. So....Tomorrow is the big moment of truth: does my pie bribe pay off? Will Keller put me above 10 people on the waitlst to get into 322? We'll find out tomorrow on Yellie's Website!
March 24, 2005- So I'm kind of ready to go back to SLO. actually, I'm ready to fully lay down on the couch in front of TiVo. It's the great part of my break, jsut being able to stretch out and relax.. especially since I don't have a real couch in Cerro! But my brother has actually been home during the break which is fine, but I don't get to fully enjoy TiVo in silence and take naps and fall asleep at night ont he couch. I know it's selfish, but I'm jsut not used to sharing the loft at my house. It's been since like brother moved out from college since we did that.. maybe 3 years ago? Anyway, I doubt I'll hang out in the loft too much ever agin since it looks liek the house is sold. The people want the place August 1st, so that means I will defiantely be in SLO this summer. I need too just get summer housing on track and all will be well in the world of Yellie. I am super happy about my grades and am glad the new quarter is starting soon. I miss the elem school kids and next quarter I'll be an offical FMA board member... I'll also be doing WOW and maybe even get an on campus job. So, things are looking up (not like they're down) and I tihnk it'llb e a good end to the second year.
March 23, 2005- Yay me! 3.75 GPA! I got an A in all ym classes, even my icky finance class, but a B in history. I am so glad I got a solid B in that class. That means I got at least a high B on my essay final that took me forever. Yay me. I am happy! I went shpping yesterday and I am done spending money. I'll get an on campus job next quarter to try to offest some of these costs. Welps, not much to report, I'll probably go home Friday or Saturday. I'm running out of things to do, so I should get back, buy some books, and clean up my VERY messy room.
March 19, 2005- Why haven't I posted ina while? Because it was freaking finals week and I had a really tough week. I studied forever for my econ one and it was super-simple, studied not enough for my finance one and probably did poorly on it, studied a lot on my history one and most likely got at least a 80% needed to get an 80% in the class, and studied really hard for my accounting final which happened to be super simplified. So all in all, "eh." I am at my mom's place in the bay area now and willb e going to Woodland tomorrow. I don't have much planned, but not doing school is a plus. I think next quarter I'm going to get an on-campus job. I also am clueless about housing, I have no idea what to do. Confusing confusing... I have to talk to my dad and see what I can afford, what my dad's take on all of it is... I just don't know... But I wish I did!!
March 11, 2005- So I am in Woodland taking care of Chipper. He seems happy. The weather is gorgeous too! I went shopping today to get that out of the way. I have some major buckling down to do for my finals. I can get all As but a B in history, but that requires studying. I bought some groceries to make some dinner. I'm going to make lasagna tonight in the hopes of having leftovers tomorrow. Hooray!
March 8, 2005- So I tihnk I have learned everything there is to know this quarter. Tomorrow and Thursday are review sessions in all my classes., except history. And damn me, I didn't amke it to history on time. I mistimed something I had to do and I didn't feel like showing up 10 minutes late. But since I need at least an 80% on the final to get a B- in the class, I really need to go to lecture. So, it turnd out I';m going to his section at 5pm, in 30 minutes. Lame. IO thought it was going to be the hour after my class or something, not freaking evening time. Who schedules theri class at 5pm. Yeah yeah.. I used to take late classes, but that was dumb. I'm smart now and don't need that. One night isn't bad I suppose. I'm seeing another place tomorrow, I tihnk it's a house with a young adult renting it out to students and he lives there too? I didn't catch all of it, it was a short e-mail he shot me. So, we'll see. I'm going home Thursday and I wish I could just miss finals.... too bad for me... poo
March 7, 2005- I keep thinking it's Tuesday. I think of am classes and they seem like 2 days ago. I also opted to take a shower after classes becuase I was lazy this morning, so maybe that's why I feel like they were another day ago. I usually start my mornings with a shower. So yeah, I got yet another e-mail about housing today. I am so glad I put that ad up. It's so nice to just have people find me. And it was free and only took 2 minutes to set up! Sweet. Anyway, FMA transitions were today and my person I am taking over for wasn't there so it was kind of pointless. I got to enjoy a beer and a 1/2 burned, 1/2 raw burger though. And cake. Love the cake.
March 6, 2005- So I didn't do an ounce of homework over the weekend. Is that bad? I actually think not. Oh, well actually I worked on a group project for 2 hours on Saturday, but that's all. There wasn't even a NASCAR race (Nextel anyway) this weekend. I just did a whole lot of nothing and watched more than enough "Project Runway." That show makes me think I could be a designer. I swear, the key is taking 2 different shirts, sewing them together in a funky way, and calling it a piece of your own. Anyway, this is the last week until finals and suprisingly I'm not feeling any pressure. I'm leaving Thursday afternoon, right after class, to go home for the weekend until Monday. I know spring break is right around the corner, but my parents are leaving Wednesday evening to Las Vegas for the race and I need to dog sit. I think it will be good because I'll get a ton of studying done since I'll truly have nothing to do except for TiVo. Absolutely no friends (as far as I know) will be around, no family, no nothing. NOTHING. So I should be able to get my ass in gear and get an oil change and finals studying done. I think I'll eescape with at elas 2, maybe 3 As this quarter. I know I have a definate B in history 207, but I'mk not sure about my econ class, I should get an A. I'll get an A in finance if I study hard, and I'll get an A in accounting if I study SUPER hard. I think I'll do it. In other news, if you're still reading, my house hunting is going well. I saw my second place today and I liked it a lot. They had no furniture or decoration, but that's just easily changalbe cosmetic stuff. It's 2 bedroom, 1 full bath, a small kitchen and a living room/dining room. Very small but the room is a nice size. Lots of closets! They are going to be 4th years in science related majors and the 2 girls share a bedroom and I'd have the private. The complex is relatively cute and the price is a steal: $425 for almost all the utils it seems. Oh man, what a deal. The girls seem down to earth and have a big no party atmosphere which is what I think I need to live in. Anyway, I'll stop blabbing and finish my mango rum/Tampico/Sprite drink think I made. Yum...
March 4, 2005- Good thing the school e-mailed me (bulk e-mail I'm sure) about today is the first day to register for your 4th class. I had no idea. Right now, my schedule tenatively sucks, where I have class 8-2 straight on MW, and only one class TR. Hopefully I should be able to crash BUS 322, which I think is likely. However, I am going to treat it like I don't think I will and try to crash other classes until it comes to that time. I have a class that is still open now, so I definately should have put that off until now, so I'd have a solid 4 classes. Well, hopefully things will work out and I'll do well on my 321 final and get that class... Yep yep. Okay, so not much going on this weekend. I have to go to the bank and work on a group paper at 3. THere's a finance club/accounting keg off but now I am unsure if I want to go. I really don't feel like being pressured to drink until I throw up.... especially with people I barely know. I just don't have the urge to drink very much lately... and doing that isn't very appealing. So, yeah...
March 3, 2005- It's already March? Crazy! After today, there is just one last week before finals. That's a nice piece of information. I am glad we don'thave a true "dead week" where you actually get time off before finals. I would just go and do other non-studying stuff for a week and come back not remembering anything I had done. I am working on housing for next year and I don't like it. It's too much to deal with.. well not really, but I just don't feel like doing it. I saw aplace yesterday and it's one room, a flat 550/month month-to-month in a super nice house close to campus. However, even though it seemed nice, I don't reallt just want to chill in the evenings with her and I don't really want to feel restricted in my own place because everything is really not mine. But, it definately has its upsides too.. so we'll see! There's the option of living with Mikey and Scott too, but I've already kind of pushed that enough and I don't want to get annoying, so I'm just going to chill out about it until they tell me what's going on. So yep yep, just a few more classes today and then weekend!
February 28, 2005- This weekend was great! Friday night was the FMA formal and that was alright, but more could ahve been done to amke it a better night. That board doesn't plan very well and figure things out with percision. So I hope that it'll be even better next year on the board. But the race on sunday! All things considered, it was pretty good! It was really exciting at the endAs Jimmie made the pass for second, but he needed like another 2 laps to catch up to Biffle. Stupid Biffle. We were lost in traffic for hours... it took almost 3 hours to go ten miles, 2 hours to go the first 1.5 miles. I was really frustrated at the time. Thankfully we were not hit or anything. But the race was really enjoyabe and I believe Becca and Joseph had a good time too. Jeff Gordon had some problems at theend and that amde me sad, but at least all is in order with Jimmie. Okay, off to school...
February 23, 2005- I still want to keep writing 2004. I'm not current I suppose. Today was pretty sucky, actually. I forgot to mail my mom's birthday card, AGAIN, and her birthday is tomorrow. Oops. but that is a current thought, not the root of my somewhat awful day. I knew nothing about this finaince quiz we had this morning so I woke up early to study for it. Unfortunately, I was about to have it pay off except that I misread the last question, giving me an 80% rather than my much deserving 100%. It doesn't do much to my grade, but it jsut pisses me off. And then I had econ and that was just boring, as always. I was really hungry at this point but I decded not to walk back to cerro because it was going to be too long of a cold walk so I just looked on POWER for an hour at the library. I feel like I have no chance for a good schedule next quarter. I'm on like 8 different wait lists. But then I go to history and I spent so much time doing all these damn readings. Granted I didn't study much before the test because I was up all night doing my accounting midterm stuff, I got a 78%, only 4% higher than my last score. So I may, for the first time in my ENTIRE LIFE be locked into a C for a class. I knwo what you guys are tihnking, oh man, Cs are normal and blah blah blah and if this was like quantum physics (which I can't even spell) I'd be okay with it. I might be slightly peeved, but it'd be alright. But NO. This is like super easy watered down 20th century American histry/ I took AP US History and got a 680 on my American History SAT IIs for God's sake. This is retarded. I went to his office hour today and it helped my ego a little bit explaining to him I am not dumb, but I can only pray I get a solid B on the final to get me a B- in the class. I definately want to take the rest of my GEs over sumer because I think what I am learning is that not only am I getting harder major classes where I ahve little time for this history crap and therefore don't want to do it, I should just get it all out of the way so I can just focus on finance and acounting. Sigh...
February 22, 2005- I have lots to do today! I registered and that went okay. I got a good schedule, but we'll see how this fourth class will fit in. I've basically commited to a double concentration with the classes I'm going to take. I am taking 2 finane classes and 1 accounting class, and perhaps myt last class will be accounting also. I have to beg my current account prof to accept me in for his next class. I am 15th on the wait list and I knwo he is only accepting 6 people. He said depending on how I do on this last midterm and if I beg real hard, I could get in. I got a 89% on the midterm ( 85 is the A/B breakoff for him) and the class avera ge was a 68%, with about a third getting under a 60%. So I did relatively well, I am just unsure if that locks me in with good evidence to protest getting into his class. I'm going to his office hour tomorrow and bringing him an apple and an accounting joke. Hopefully that'll work. I have an FMA board meeting to go to tonight, I'm going out with a friend grocery shopping,a nd somewhere inbetween I need to study for a quiz tomorrow. Yippee...
February 21, 2005- Suprise, suprise, but no one came to my Daytona party. You losers. I barely even drank because I refuse to get drunk by myself. I reigster tomorrow and I'm more confused than ever. I guess since it's spring, everyone took a priority and there is little left, even though I'm 4th! (out of 12) This quarter is basically deciding that I'm going to double concentrate. I won't be back tracking by any means, but if I decide to just stick with finance, then I just won't have taken the classes that are really interesting. I guess the problem is is that I know what I want to do in the fact that I'm circling around the enterprise accounting/finance/real estate/banking area (all generally related) but I have NO idea what specifically in there I want to do. I suppose then taking it all will allow me to have options. Also in breakin news, I got an e-mail from this woman who has a room for rent. Since I have no idea where or with whom I will be living with next year, I put out a free ad just describing me and saying I need a place. I've been contacted 3 times so far and this one sounds like a good deal. She's 58 and has a house where I'd have my own room and bathroom really close to Poly all for a flat 550/month, utils and all included. I think I would like this because I can always go over to people's places but I really want my home to be quiet and laid back. I don't crazy roommates like last summer and I dont' really have any friends to live with. OOPS! I was just watching my hermit crab crawl around and he fell backwards onto his back.... okay good he's moving. Poor Pierre. Anyway, so yeah I'm going to check out this room some time soon I hope.
February 19, 2005- Okay, so my last 2 days have been deemed wasted. I decided not to go home this weekend since Will was thinking about leaving on Sunday.. a big non no for Daytona viewing, and so yeah. I have been playing FF9 on Joseph's Playstation for the past 2 days. Seriously, that's all I've been doing. Think I'm exagerating? I started Friday early afternoon and It's 11pm on Sat night, and I've put close to 22 hours on the game. Granted I left it on while I cooked and ate dinner and things like that, that's all I've been doing. Im not proud, and I'm ashamed because I jsut made fun of Brandon and Joseph going to some dumb LAN party where they play Halo and stuff for 24 hours in a bunch of tournaments... But yeah. Dumb. So As I finish my beer, I realize I feel like going to the groacery store to buy some stuff for the race tomorrow. But, that;s the thing... I just drank a beer. Why couldn't I have gotten the urge to go earlier? Poo. DAYTONA 500 TOMORROW, BE AT MY PLACE
February 17, 2005- I'm not sure how to evaluate my day today. I went to bed super late last night. I had a midterm today and it was fair and had no suprises, but it was hard. I don;t know how I did. He cirves them so a 85% is the B/A break. I got a high A on the first midterm but I don't know how I did on this one. I finished it all and what I had made sense.. to me. Who knows it it was really right. But I was in the library from like 5 something to midnight just studying. AGH. And then afterwards, I had FMA elections. I didn't get VP, and then I decided to drop my name to a new spot, but there was kind of already a favorite for that spot, so I didn't get that either. Luckily, three times is a charm and I got the publicity one. I was glad I got something, but I hope I didn't make myself look like a loser. Everyone was saying that it was great that I was running even though I'm a second year. It's very dominated by soon to 4th years and 5th years. So yeah, I was glad that went relatively well. And then I had my history midterm, which who knows how that went. I think (hope) I got more than a B-, but I am not looking to optimistically aobut that test. Of course, the on reading of like 25 I didn't do was 10% of the questions. Sigh. At least I have a good weekend coming up. Four days of relaxation (too bad it's raining) and Daytona in the meanwhile. I hope it doesn't rain next weekend for the race...
February 15, 2005- I had a very nice Valentine's Day. I was suprised with a cute card and roses. I cooked a nice dinner we ate together and then we watched Beauty and the Beast. I love that movie. So, it was a nice evening. And today is Joseph's birthday but not much is going on. Perhaps we;ll do soemthing this weekend, but we both have a ton of homework to do (which I actaully should be doing right now instead of updating this....) I have an econ midterm tomorrow I've been studying for all day and then a HUGE accounting midterm Thursday. I don't really have much time to study for my history midterm, which is also on Thursday. Accounting takes a much higher priority but I did so bad on the first history midter, I ahve to do well on this one. It's just a matter of reading out of these pages in the text book, but I really am fishing for the time. The accounting midterm is going to be so hard. I'm really going to study my ass off! Maybe I might end up pulling a close to all nighter tomorrow. I really got to get shit done. Anyway, happy birthday to Joseph and I got to go eat and then study the rest of the night! Whee!
February 13, 2005- I need to say my little 2 cents about Valentines Day. People who have a date find the holiday nice and have a good time. Fine. But the single people, oh how they hate the holiday! They think it glorifies their singlehood and wish to daeath the calander would skip over the day. But it's the single people who dwell on it. It's not like Christmas where the holiday stuff is everywhere. And, no one really talks about it except for the single people to whine about it. No one really talks to people about their plans and whatever, and since it's a Monday, a lot of couples aren't even doing anything Monday night. It's just all a bit rediculous. Anyway, I have 3 midterms this week and all I will be doing this week is reading or doing problems. I have to memorize countries in the Middle East and all of Asia and South East Asia. Who cares where Turkmanistan is anyway. I don't. I have that econ midterm, a history one where I need to keep reading my stupid book, and then aa big accounting one. They're all worth a huge part of my grade, so I can't really prioritize them. So, I shall prepare well for all of them!
February 10, 2005- So I seem to ahve the rest of my quarter planned out, weekends and all until Spring Break. Tomorrow I am going to run errands and hopefully go to Costco with my brother. Saturday I plan on going to Santa Barbara with Joseph for a nice day out. The weekend after is a nice 3 day weekend and Daytona, the weekend after is the race in SoCal, I think I have to go home that next weekend to take care of the dog, then finals! So yeah, it's all moving pretty quickly. I am going to go to the FMA formal and run for a position next meeting. I am excited to be throwing myself into something. I need to get involved with things and need to get out and meet people. I am also really excited about my tutoring at the elementary school. The girls get really excited to see me and they all want to talk to me and get my help. It makes me feel accomplished and needed. Like an ego booster, but in a healthy "I'm doing good" kind of way. Not an egotistical way. Alright, so I'm off to do other things. Yay for weekend!
February 9, 2005- Today is my brother's 21st birthday. I cna only imagine how cool that would be. I'll be graduating around the time I turn 21. So sad. Anyway, I have a history test tomorrow and I have not done almost any of the reading. It's so sad becauswe the questions are SO simple, but you wuold have no idea of the answer unless you read. So I don't need to read for detail, I just have to do it. I got a 99/100 on my finance midterm. I missed 2 MC questions for a -6, but then got the plus 5 on the bonus question. Sweet. My head is starting to hurt again, and I have no idea why. I will need to go back to my homework and honey and maybe all my stressors will go away.
February 8, 2005- I feel like I update this every day but I guess I don't. Not too much is going on. I had a really bad headache today, perhaps a migraine? It felt like a vice clamp was squeezing on my brain and skull and I felt like throwing up. I took a nap and felt better afterwards, but I can still feel it. Egh. Hopefully it will all be away tomorrow morning. I had a finance midterm on Monday and I think that went well. I'm starting to entertain the idea of double concentrating at the moment, but I'm not sure. I'm going to enroll in the next accounting class for spring just in case to keep my options open. If I dont take the class in the spring, my next opportunity will be next fall. That's too far and I'd not want to wait almost a year to continue the sequence. So yeah, jsut leaving my options open. I am also antsy about housing next year. I talked to my dad so I am clam about the situation, but I don't know what to do. I want to live with some of my friends because I feel like I I need to, but after reflection, that would probably be a bad thing. I may take out an ad or something looking for other "peaceful" people who want to find housing with me. Agh, who knows. Anyway, I ahve a quiz on Thursday and I have no idea what it's on. I am so behind in my reading because it's a dumb GE. I hate classes that quiz on reading. I got a solid C on the first midterm because I didn't pay enough attention to the reading. Since it was worth a quarter of my grade, I feel like I'm in this hole that I can't get out of. I'm sure I'll end up with a B in the class because things alway work themselves out, but I just don't feel like reading!! Okay, off to watch more Law and Order and eat popsicles! Because that's much better than reading dumb history.
February 4, 2005- I cannot believe how over the top the city went to crack dow on MArdi Gras. I was haivng a good day too, really. Went shopping, spent a few bucks, all was alright. But then man, we went walking, sober and all, to see the riots getting broken down and people getting arrested. Man, I bet NO ONE will get arrested this weekend. It's just too absurd. There were literally a group of policeman from 3-7 people every 20 feet or so. Cop cars ran amock and motorcycle police were everywhere. They had ATV cops riding on the train tracks too. Some people were out , but people were walking with their friends. There were no crowds formings or anything. If you stoppped, the police would walk up to you. It's just so dumb and over the top. I went through 2 DUI check points and they were dumb too. Just a lot of traffic. I think Niikki and I ate some bad food or something because both of our stomachs were going crazy tonight. I feel really not good and I'm completely sober. I can't remember the last time I threw up from something non alcohol related. Like the flu or something. I've only thrown up twice from drinking anyway, which brings me to my whole other point. My dad claims some sercet source told him they were out with me and that I went crazy and drank way too much until I threw up and he wanted to talk to me about limits. A) That has never happened and B) I have no idea where that came from. I was so mad and offended. I still am, actually. Since it's a complete LIE, I think my dad made it up to talk to me about it. But I don't get why he just wouldn't ask then, instead of amking up a story. I'm really offended wither way. My dad won't talk to me straight or someone is ruining my name to my father. I am not pleased in either case. So as this is turning out to be one bummer weekend, I'm going to go lay down and hope my tummy will feel better. I hope everyone is doing well out there, have a good night, or day, depending on when you are reading this!
February 3, 2005- I hoped I spelled that right. Today was a productive day. I took a history quiz and I am so glad I actually studies and put in the time because I'm sure I did super well on it. I am going to maybe get an A in the class after all if I keep all this up. I also went to the bnak and got my IHOP paychacks and W2. I guess my GAP W2 came into my house in Woodland so I still need that. The Levi's people are trying to find a phone number for me to call so I can get a copy of my W2 so hopefully all of that willb e squared away. Last night I talked to my mom on the phone for an hour and a half or so telling me all about my parents' Israeli kibbutz days. I needed to know for a paper and a presentation but it was very intersting though. There's some other things going on, nothing major, but I'll talk about them later. I got to go do stuff now.
January 31, 2005- Wasn't New Years Eve like just the other day? It's insane to think of how much we've done this month. If you think about all you have learned since the start of the quarter, or this month, that's a lot. I can't beleive how much I will know by the end of my college years. I am in this "ooh I am so smart" mode because I've just done hours of studying. Good for me! I have a midterm on Wednesday in econ and a quiz on Thursday for histry. Next Monday is my HUGE finance midterm and I want to start studying for that as early as possible. I am nervous but really want an A. I don't think I can pull off an A in History because of my bad first midterm, but I am on track to getting a good grade in that class with all my reading and stuff. I can make an A in econ, but I tihnk it'll be more apparent after this second midterm. I'm studying pretty hard! Anyway, off to do more homework. I am glad I volunteer at the elem school on a regualr basis now. The kids are starting to really like me and it gives me a sense of accomplishment for my day. Yay me.
January 30, 2005- The SF trip was fun. I met some cool people and I always love going to SF. It was so ill-planned and I could not believe that this was a professional club. But it was still really fun and I am glad I went. I went out with Joseph last night. We went mini golfing and out to eat. I am happy I got to hang out with him. I made kabobs tonight for dinner and that was REALLY good. I was sad I didn't get to share compant for just 10 minutes for dinner, but I guess boys and they're computer games is jsut so important... anyway, I'm just going to make myself mad. I had no idea I'd love peppers so much. Well maybe not love, but like. That was good kabob-ing. I can't believe there was once life before George Foreman. Anyway, my room is CRAZY messy and I have yet to unpack from SF, let alone do all this laundry and finsih homework. Great...
January 27, 2005- Very random, but off to SF with FMA (the finance club) to hang out and go on the corporate tours. It should be fun!
January 26, 2005- I'm over the spent 4 grand. School is school, right? Plus, most if it wasn't mine anyway. I still need to get all my W2s, I' waiting to take action at the start of Feb. I hope I get a tax return to some amount. I know I've made more that the amount necessary to pay taxes, but usually they take out so much, I get refund. With the waitressing and tips, I don't know how it'll all work out. Sadly, 2 winterbreaks ago (during my first year at coillege) I worked at Levi's in Vacaville and that went onto my W2 this year. I worked there over the summer so at least it's not like whole other company to get a W2 from, I just think it's silly. I had a history midterm yesterday and I tihnk I did kind of poorly. I read the readings very fast and missed a lecture, and the test is just SO easy it hurt that I didn't know some of the answers. I narrowed a lot of them down to 50/50, so hopefully I guessed some right. I wish tests were like the Price is Right. THey could tell you "right now" how many you had wrong, and you could do your best to change them. I wonder if you could do that if you'd end up better off or worse. It probably depends the maount wrong and how aure you are on the right ones you have. Anyway, that's my thought for the day. Off to class, elem kid tutoring, and then accouning homework. Oh, then the gym too. Yeah buddy!
January 25, 2005- So the dish thing all played out and it's old news. I talked to Crystal and we agreed we didn't know each ohter and we'd be out of each other's business. That's old news. I got my accounting midterm back, 95% bitches! Someone got a 48/150 for the low. Granted it's an intermediate class and you may have forgotten all the previsou stuff, but DAMN. The mean was 112 or something, which still sucks. when all the problems were worth like 5 points each part, you still got to suck it. He's making an 85% the break off for an A, so I think I'm pretty locked into A-dom for that class if I keep trying. I got a 86% on my econ midterm, but I really want an A in that class. I'll just have to get a higher grade on the next one. History is proving to suck. I hate dumb GEs because I ahve better things to do than study. I crammed the reading and apparently I didn't remember as much as I should have. I'll at elast get a B in that class. It's sad that about a third of the way through the quarter I can already predict my GPA for the quarter. I register in less than month, so I have to figure out what to take. Everything is going so fast! I spent a mere $4000 today too. FOUR THOUSAND. Okay, so most of it was my parents' money, but it had been in my account for a while waiting for me to pay off the school for the rest of my housing and spring tuition. But damn. I also had to pay a dentist bill and the health center off. I know only my female friends read this so let me tell you ladies, I HATE annual exams! At least I won't have to get that done for another year. Off to study!
January 22, 2005- The following is from an e-mail I wrote today so I don't have to retype it all! -- There's more going on, but those are the fun things. One roommate who I never see pissed me off to no end because she took one of my big plastic cups and puffy-painted her sorority letters on it. That was the last straw in my book. These people just abuse my stuff and take it all for granted. I'm not even here cooking to use it and this shit has so much tear on it. I don't know her and she just takes stuff like it's hers! So, I decided that I would take all that is mine, and pack it up on my room. So, that's what I did. In the process, there's a missing plate and a missing pot lid. At least tell em if you break my lid, come on! So that drove me even further to take it all. It's sad because everything in the kitchen is mine so now the kitchen is super-empty. But yeah, I talked to my one new roommate because she cooks a lot and I told her what happened and she's way cool about it. She is ordering her own stuff anyway because she felt bad for using my stuff, so it all kind of works out. I feel a lot better that I took my stuff away because I'd rather have my things protected than leave it out there and me misreable the rest of the year.
January 18, 2005- Oh man, so this was the last night of IHOP! Yay! I thought it was an hour ahead of the actual time the entire night and I basically closed an hour early... but thankfully no one came in between 9 and 10 anyway. I got out of a lot of trouble! What would they do though, fire me? It was an honest mistake, not because it was my last shift. I also called up the health center and have that squared away. I called the Poly Reps person too because I've yet to hear a yes or no and she said they were taking longer than expected and would be calling people Thursday or Friday. So there is no need to panic! The NASCAR race tickets came to my dad's house (finally) and so he's going to try to find a secure way to get them to me, something where I'd have to sign for them. So that's good. I had an accounting midterm today and that went well. You can tell if things are right or wrong because it's all balanced equations. So if it doesnt equal up, you're wrong! It's a nice way to know if you got the right answer. I have 2 tests tomorrow too and I'm just sick of studying. I have to memorize the top 2 chiefs of state for like 10 countries. I also have to memorize a bunch of bs about capitalism and socialism. It's an interesting class, comparitive economic systems, but I have to memorize a bunch of crap for the class. Oh well . Ok, so off to do a ton of homework! Yay! And class start in 10 hours (but I have to sleep and shower in the meantime.)
January 15, 2005- I'm still not used tot he whole 2005 thing. Anyway, not much is going on. I don't have too much to do this weekend, it just seems like everyone is home or has plans this weekend. I made some good dinner last night and made white sauce. Mmmm. I may be working tomorrow for a few hours as well, I know I'm quitting but I guess they need extra coverage and I said I'd go in, but like for 3 hours. No way am I going to be there all night. They wanted me to be there 5-10, and I said NO. Good for me. So Tuesday will be my last day. The sun has been out these past few days and it's wonderful! I think tomorrow if it's the same I will go to the beach and do some homework. I would like to get some reading done for my classes and that would be the perfect place to go! I have a lot of text reading for some tests coming up, I have some finance homework to do, and a few other things. I went to the library today to study with someone for accounting, but we didn't stay as long as we hoped to because the library closed at 5. That's sad, considering there were a lot of people in there when they were closing. Oh well. At elast I wrote up my cheat sheet. Tonight we may go see Racing Stripes, but now that I've thought about all this homework, I think I might get a start on it. All I really want to do is play Roller Coaster Park Tycoon 3. My favorite...
January 14, 2005- I update this thing every day and everyday it doesn't save. So short update, if this won't save. Short update: one shift left at IHOP and then I'm done. Classes are going well. I like my new roommate Megan. I also applied to Poly Reps and am waiting for a call. I went to FMA for the first meeting of the quarter and it seemed like a lot of fun and good speakers. I'm excited!
January 7, 2005- So my internet is finally working again. The first week of school was alright. I got a good schedule after craziness dealing with crashing. I am taking comparative economic systems, corporate finance, intermediate accounting 1, and some dumb US history GE. I think it will all be alright. I am now officially 19 years old and I don't feel any older. In fact, I feel like I should be 20 or 21 by now. Everyone else around me is. 20 seems old for some reason. Not OLD, but just is a new set of decades I guesss. My mom visited SLO for a few hours so it was nice to see her. I don't know what I'm doing this weekend. I don't really feel like going out, actually. I am still sick and I'm just not up to it. I have to put in my 2 weeks at IHOP this weekend. I do just want to QUIT, but I can't morally just leave without a 2 week notice. If I ever need them as a reference or mark them down for experience, I really should give 2 weeks notice. Bleh. I'll do it tomorrow. Also, Becca moved out this week due to financial problems so this new girl Megan moved in. Meghan? Meagen? I'll find out. She seems really nice and she si new to Cal Poly. I guess she's a transfer student from Montana and didn't like North Mountain. Okay, so I'm going to do soem homework even though it's Friday...
January 4, 2004- Second day of school and I'm sick as a dog. I was hoping today would me my last day at IHOP but I called in sick. I'll give my 2 weeks on Sunday so it doesn't look too suspicious, work a shift or 2, and then be done. I really am sick though. I had a nightmare of a day crashing classes. yesterday. I was in class straight (NO BREAKS) from 7am to 2pm. I had to go to all the classes I enrolled in AND the ones I really did want to take. I had to almost beg a professor to let me in but I got in... So I successfully crashed all the classes I wanted. I unexpectedly decided to drop my Medievil Philosophy class after the first lecture... not my thing, it is "The hardest class in the philosophy department" and I don't need to do that for a stupid GE requirement. So yeah, I picked up an econ class I needed instead. So everything is peachykeen! Except for the fact I'm still sick. COUGH
January 1, 2005- I wrote the right year on the first try! Yay! Last night was alright, much better than sitting home. I did find it funny that everytime I asked for the remote because no one was watching television, I didn't get it... and it got changed to stupid chick flicks... hmm. These dumb ass movies have ruined the TNT schedule becuase that's all they are playing today-- no Law and Order!! Well, because of the lack of quality sleep and the fact that Joseph isn't going back tonight AND the fact I do not feel like packing, I'll be leaving tomorrow after all. It's probably a bad decision becuase I just want to get there, but I am too lazy and tired. I'l probably go out with Joseph or something tonight instead, which is alright with me. I got some clothes from my brother and I'll go try to sell them along with the clothes I took away to sell. He has some nice Hawaiian shirts, so maybe I can get a few more dollars.
December 30, 2004- Yum, left over Olive Garden! It's sad to think I have nothing to do here, but the break is almost over. New Years eve is soon and then I leave the next day, so all is good. I want more food.
December 28, 2004- I am starting to think that the holidays are a bit overrated. Crazy idea, huh? I mean everyone just spent all this money and effort to be with each other and give lots of presents, and then *poof* it's all over. I mean our Christmas tree was down by the end of Dec 26th, everyone is gone, and all that remains is our fridge if leftovers and pictures. I mean of course I had fun, but it sure is an expensive holiday. Last night I went out to dinner with Joseph and that was some much needed time. I haven't seen anyone from San Luis since the very start of break and so I need to see more familiar faces. I'm glad I'm going back in a few days. I'm not bored, in fact I've been keeping myself busy and entertained, I'm just anxious to get back to my home. Sad thing is is that I don't even really like my apartment.
December 26, 2004- I got a bit busy with the holidays-- which went super, just to let you all know. Actually, in the whole gift department, I kicked ass. I got a bad ass George Foreman grill, not even measures by burger size. It's so new and high tech it's called "The Next Grilleration." It can have the temperature adjusted inside and has a self timer and came with a cook book and stuff. I am so excited. I also got another DVD player, so hopefully this one won't get stolen. I got a porcelain Jimmie Johnson car cookie jar and it is way cool too. It's an excuse to get myself cookies!! I got a lot of other Jimmie Johnson things from my aunt in the outside family gift exchange and a cool leather bracelet. I am just way excited. I got a bunch of scratchers in the $10 "White Elephant" gift exchange and won myself another ticket. Maybe that'll have the money! Still no definate plans for New Years, but Joseph and Will don't have anything to do, and if other people don't come up with plans, maybe we can have our own thing. I'm starting to think that New Year's Eve when under the age of 21 is highly overrated.
December 22, 2004- So today was massive clean-out day for my room. I went through every box I had stuffed in my closet or under the bed and decided what I really wanted to keep, throw away, and donate. I got rid of a LOT of shit. I am going to try to sell some clothes at the conseignment store in Davis and the rest I can hopefully just leave for a thrift store. I watched more DVDs this morning too. I keep getting cancelled plans but next week should be better. Actually, starting Christmas eve, I should be having more fun then. I'm not complaining though, I have enough stuff to get done around here.
December 21, 2004- I finished my Christmas shopping! It's hard to pick out jewelry for someone else, so hopefully it all goes well. I have a deadline to clean up my room and pack shit away into boxes by tonight or tomorrow and I haven't started. There are clothes everywhere and it's just a mess. I don't like these breaks anymore, I don't do anything with anyone that I'd really like to spend my time with and it's not a very productive time. I want to be back in SLO and with my friends and Joseph. I would much prefer to just have a 5 day weekend over Christmas to be with my family and then go back to SLO. I should be learning something or doing something.
December 19, 2004- So I spent the weekend in San Bruno helping my mom fix up her new condo. It's coming along very well, but she still has a lot of work to do. We got a lot done though and she has the rest of forever to fix it up. My neck realy hurts from all the paint work though. I still have to finish up my Xmas shopping and clean my room all by like Wednesday. Yippee! It'll keep me busy anyway. Not much else to report...
December 15, 2004- I got 3 B+s and one A. I got the A in that terrible managerial acocunting class which makes me happy. That was a terrible class with a terrible professor. The class was about wishy washy areas too, like internal cost analysis not for public use, but you know, managers. Hence, the name of the course, "managerial accounting." Anywho, I got a B+ in psychology which meant I totally bombed the final. I think that's alright considering I never went to class. But, because I often didnt do reading for my classes and slacked off some, even though I got great grades (a B+ is nothing to bitch about), it's like a slap on the face that I could have gotten an A, but didn't. Like if I jsut applied myself more, I could have easily done it. It's not to say I didn't try, because it's obvious that I did. But I could have gotten As. It was definately in reach. Anywho, off to another great quarter next quarter. I'm going out of town to hepl my mom with ner new place over the weekend. She bought a 1 bedroom condo near SFO so an have a place of her own near her work. Makes sense. So I got to help pick out thrift finds, paint walls, the whole HGTV-Trading Spaces thing. Should make for an interesting weekend.
December 13, 2004- No one is back home yet and I have little to do in the mean time. I started on my Christmas shopping and that's going to be hard. I also have this new found hate of people not taking me serisouly when I'm looking at jewelry. I was dressed nicely today and was looking at cased jewelry... not FINE jewelry, just over $30. And God forbid people think I am capable of affording it. I hate people, that's how I was treated last year when I was shopping for watches. No one thought I could afford anything other than the clearance rack. I hate sales people somtimes. I was in retail for long enough and I just think that's mean. Anyway, this season won't be as expensive as last's but I am still putting down the dollars. I also have gone through TiVo and made some lists of things for me to be able to watch. I love TiVo. I don't see why everyone doesn't have TiVo. Speaking of TiVo, which I did a long ass report on in marketing, I got a B+ in marketing, a B+ in philosophy, and an A- in my dumbasss managerial accounting class. I actually got a B on the final, which suprised me considering I thought that was super-easy. I still haven't heard from psychology yet, but that's either a B or B+. I am glad that I got a B+ in my classes over a stright B, but it makes me sad to think of all the small things I could ahve done to have received an A-. It's like so close but not really. And a B+ is worth a 3.3 rathan than a 3.0, so that's alright with me. Anywho, I don't have much planned besides more room cleaning tomorrow and picking up some cookies Anne made. I want many, but have felt overweight lately. I need to stop watching The Swan and shit like that. It's warping my fragile little mind.
December 11, 2004- Yay so I am home and in record time too. 4 hours 5 minutes. Bitch. I don't have too much to do besides sort theough all the old clothes I brought home and try to sell them at some conseignment store. I forgot to take backa movie before leaving so I called Blockbuster and they basically are going to charge me for the movie-- no late fees, and then when I get back I can return the movie and get the balance cleared. Isn't that nice? And I also forgot my old accounting notes to look over to refresh myself before my intermediate accounting class. I am looking forward to next quarter. My final for 215, the impossible teacher class, went well so I expect an A for that class. My psych final went terrible, as expected, so I should get a B or B+ for that. For never going to class, I shouldn't complain.
December 9, 2004- Yeah, so 2 finals down, 2 tomorrow. I have a hell of a lot of studying to do for both of them. I think my final went really well in marketing but I just don't want to study any more. I am hoping for 3 As and a B, but we'll see how it goes. I want to do well on my psych final, I really do. I got a 39 on the first 2 and I need a 41 (out of 50) to get a 90%. It's definately doable, but I can't seem to get my score up there! Agh!
December 6, 2004- One final down and my next one isn't until Thursday. I liked getting one out of the way. I studied so much on Sunday and having the option to take it on Monday was just the smart thing to do. I tihnk did well... it was my philosophy exam. One essay comparing Plato and Mill and one about Locke and Mill. Anyway, I looked ay my books for enxt quarter and I think I will be under $200. Not much else to report.. all I ahve done today is watch TV, pick up some mail, and play video games. Wheee.
December 4, 2004- So it's Sat evening and I should be studying some for finals, but I'm not. I'm really okay though. I have them all at the end of the week and it's just not going to stick. Today I did laundry, cleaned my room, fuond my long-lost glasses so I can see once more, and cooked waffles. We're trying to get this game on my computer to work so we can play on the network, but I don't know if we're going to get it to work. Anyway, yay, off to play gmaes and maybe eat pizza and watch a movie tonight! Hooray!
December 2, 2004- No more classes! Four finals and I'm done, baby. Oh yeah. And the bookstore 30% sale is today so I'll be walking down there in a bit. I also picked up my PolyReps application today. I hope I get to do that. I have my first final next Wednesday, so I'll take a break these next 2 days and start my studying on Saturday. Sweet. Oh, and like the new upgrade to the site?
December 1, 2004- This has been my most productive day in quite some time.I went to my classes (not psych) and afterwards I spent an hour and a half finishing up the report due tomorrow in marketing. Then, I made some kickass rice-chicken-broccolli thing that was soooo good. I watched TV for a half hour or so then did my psych paper which will score me mucho extra credit. I rarely go to that class and I think I will get an A. Definately a minimum of a solid B. GEs are dumb. Tomorrow I am going to go pick up a PolyRep application too. Oooh, I also put up some Xmas lights in my room around my door frame. They produce a lot of light, actually. I am pleased. :) Happy times for Yellie! I've got to go to the bank too today. It's not even 4 and I have all this stuff done! Who knows, I may go to the gym tonight or something like that. I'm behind in my phil class, which is strange since that is the only class I like. Ah well. No more managerial accounting though, hooray!
November 30, 2004- The end is near! Only 2 more days of classes! So you know how last post I said I woke up at 5am to study? Well, that test got postponed until Wednesday. AGH He should just mkae up his mind! Anyway, I got a 26/40 on the other part of the test that won't be made up, and a 14/20 on the group problem. This blows. I have a C+ in the class right now and hopefully I can get a B or B+ even after some sort of curve he puts into place. I had an A after his old mid quarter curve, so who knows. Anyway, work for the last time in a while tonight... and hopefully it'll be faster because I barely had ANY business last night. Poo. Just a 10 page report to finalize for Thursday, a 2 page assignment for Thursday, some reading, and that's all for the rest of this quarter. Yay for finals.... poo.
November 29, 2004- So it's freaking 6am and I've been up for an hour now. I just have no desire to do work for my classes. Yes, I'll do papers and things that are due. But the busy work, readings, and studying? Things that don't have actual guidelines? For these classes, I'm just not interested. Whether it be the material or teacher, I can't stand it. I did a lot of studying this morning... hence the earliness of this post, but I am just sick of it. Next quarter should be better because I'll have a lot more work and interesting classes and I'll be a lot more motivated to do well in those classes. I could get straight Cs in all my classes this quarter and I wouldn't think too bad upon it all. I won't get Cs, but that's how I feel. I have let go of the stright A theory, but I'll still try. Somewhat. Oh, the quesidilla maker I got for Will for his birthday is awesome! We made some last night and I could die.
November 27, 2004- I really thought I have updated sicne. Oh well. Now I am. Thanksgiving was really good and I'm enjoying my stay home. I had wonderful food and I am glad I was able to stay in Woodland and not have to drive up to Tahoe. So yeah, all is well. I went shopping the day after Thanksgiving and I picked up a few things for myself and Will's birthday present. I also went to go see The Incredibles and I really enjoyed that. However, I cannot believe it costs 7.75 for a student ticket to the movies. It's 6.50 in SLO. Anyway, I also was pleased to return this sweater I bought at GAP.com. I spent 20 bucks on it, went to return it and found out that the store price differed than online, so I am getting a check for $38 in the mail. Real money too, not store credit. I can make a business out of this! I also helped my dad string Xmas lights today and the house looks good. I messed up setting the timer for the lights because they didnt go off when they were supposed to. So we are leaving tomorrow morning so I can get some homework done and eat dinner without a rush. I work Monday and Tuesday and that will be it for a long time. I am excited and glad to be getting the quarter almost done away with!
November 22, 2004- My back has been haivng this terrible sharp pain through my spine and spazzing out so I went to the health center. They gave me some crap I can take but who knows if it'll feel better. I hope it goes away in 3 days like she said. Oh well. I got a B on my Locke test which I think was fair, I just hoped for an A. Many others got an A and that's what I wanted. However, I am satisfied with a B. Work tonight to cover for someoen so I can leave for my house tomorrow instead of Wednesday! Yay!
November 21, 2004- I hate 8. I hate Junior and today Jimmie lost the championship by 8 points. I hate 8! I like Kurt Busch, and I did meet him, but oh man, I wanted Jimmie to win so badly. Poo. Huge poo! I have to meet with my TiVo group today and hopefully that willt ake under 3 hours to make our paper and powerpoint. I have a 215 (accounting) midterm tomorrow I am clueless about. Present values, a chapter I don't even remember what it was on... great. I also must watch My Big fat Obnoxious Boss tonight. I saw Ryan's play last night and it was REALLY good. I was muy impressed. I would tell everyone to see it but it was the last performance at Cal Poly. Okay, off to do group work!
November 20, 2004- Nothing like a morning of puking and sickness to end a night of too much beer. Last night was really fun. I went with my cousin and there were plenty of people there. I had a good time. I brought a Corona to start off and that became the official beer bong of the night. They had some hose thing they hooked up to it. I wasn't any part of that. I actually remember omst of the night and I know I had some fucked up dreams last night. I feel better now (it's 4pm) but I have this icky stomach feel... like I am beyond hunger it hurts. I am eating, but I don't know. I probably need something in there to absorb the crap in my stomach.
November 19, 2004- I rock. I rock my socks, that's how much I rock. I got my essay for psych churned out yesterday afternoon and it kicked ass. It was such bullshit. You had to talk about "what factors influence marital relationships for the better or the worse?" It was so dumb. I used some psych terms and crap and BAM I had a good essay that took under an hour. I also went to the gym yesterday and saw Dat Phan at the Chumash. I arrived alone because no one would go with me (everyone was busy) and I ended up sitting with Meghan Crawley and her friend. I met him after the show and shook hands with him. He signed a dollar bill for me because that's all I had for him to sign. He was really funny. He did some fo the jokes that everyone has seen again, but he went for a long time and he was really good. I enjoyed myself. Today I just finished my marketing report page about TiVo this afternoon. I am just on a role. I tihnk I'll go to the gym again soon and then hang out until the party. This party is going to be so much fun. I am taking my cousin and her friends, and Becca and Jamie are going, and of course Nikki will be there, and my brother may even come. How crazy is that. I am excited. I also registered for my fourth class today and I really hope I can crash something better. I have so many odd hour breaks I'l die. At least no mroe Friday classes again!
November 17, 2004- I haven't felt quite good about things lately. I just slip into this mood of depression and just feel overall shitty. I missed psych today to work on some things for my midterm tomorrow. I had to get it done by a certain time so I could go into office hours and ask some questions. I was feeling really good and up on stuff, but then just tonight I feel bad. I think everyone is on edge (not just me) and I don't know why. Maybe it's the end of the quarter stress? Perhaps people are antsy to go home? I don't know. But I'm going to get drunk Friday night, do homework and see Ryan's play on Saturday, and on Sunday I will see the last NASCAR race of the season, work on a group project for 3 hours, and then watch "My Big Fat Obnoxious Boss." Oh man, I've never laughed so hard in my life. I love that show. Maybe I appreciate it more being a business major, but man, it's great. Watch it. Okay, so anyway I have to memorize more key differences between Plato and Locke. Good stuff, huh?
November 15, 2004- I am really done with this quarter. I have two midterms left, a project, an essay, a presentation, and 4 finals. I have 2 Friday finals, actually. But, I'm in no rush to get home so it's alright. I think my only plan is to go sledding.. one day. It looks like I'll get an A in managerial accounting.. the class that has a D class average. He's doing a nice little curve for us. I also like to think I'll get an A in philosophy. I really want it. I am not trying as hard as I could though. I didn't do the readings last week due to my insane amount of midterms and ended up getting a C on the weekly quiz I always get an A on. Poo. I am just hoping I do well on the midterm Thursday. It'll be har,d you have to compare certain topics about Plato with Locke, and I am having trouble with the Locke book. It just doesn't click in my head for some reason. Oh well. Anyway, I have work tonight, tomorrow, and then lots of homework to do for the rest of the week. Hurray!
November 13, 2004- I need TiVo! It's not a want, it's a need. I must have it. Anyway, I shopped for things I don't need and am just finishing up some stuff before I head back tomorrow. My room here is a mess, and I really need to clean it. It's jsut I leave it a tad messier than when I came, and after 6 or 7 visits it's just a little cluttered. Not with clothes, obviously, but like some trash and things that just need to be put away. This long weekend went by fast, but I'm excited to get back to SLO. I miss Joseph and video games and my room.
November 12, 2004- So I made about $100 worth of purchases today and I think I did really well! I bought 2 turtleneck sweaters, a suede jacket, a neckalce, earrings, a hoodie, and 3 shirts for Joseph. I am such the savvy shopper it hurts. I'm going to find something else to do tomorrow, perhaps visit the bay area! Who knows, life is nice away from SLO.
November 11, 2004- It's always nice to come home, even I do nothing but sit around and TiVo Law and Order. It's important stuff, really. I am so glad for TiVo. In my marketing report about TiVo, 45% of subscribers claim they would rather cut their cell phones off than their TiVo. Take them apples. Anywho, I believe tomorroe I will go shopping for clothes I don't need nor want. I just don't get the chance to window shop in San Luis. It's not too terribly enthralling to go to Mervyns. Anyway, I had my dentist appointment with my dad today to discuss my tooth. I guess the impant thing isn't an immediate need, but my tooth is really starting to hurt. My biggest fear is it falling out during class or something. Wouldn't that be sad? A college student having to excuse herself because she lost a tooth. I just had a flashback to elementry school when that happened... right. So yes, home is nice and I'm helping with the cleaning since TG and Xmas will both be held here. I suppose no one in my family wants to make the drive up to South Lake Tahoe (my uncle's vacation home) and my aunt's place in Oakdale, the usual holiday host, is having her home remodeled. Remodelled? Hmmm, I hate being stupid. Back on track. Yes. I am also quite worried about regsistration. The fourth class I need doesn't seem to be in sight. I'm on waiting lists, but I seem to be like 5th on all of them I have pleaded my case to professors via e-mail, but I am unsure how it will all pan out. Watch me get 7am classes, have crazy hour spuratic hour long breaks, and tons of other jibberish. Okay, as much as I complain, I am happy to be home and am glad I don't really have any homework to do, besides catching up on some Locke readings. OH! Good news! I got a solid A on my crazy managerial accounting midterm, so I have a raw score of a B- in that class now. So after the curve, hopfulle I'll have some respectable grade! Okay, I shall end here on a positive note! Happy night, everyone!
November 8, 2004- I wonder if I feel stressed because I just read a ton of psych pages about emotion and stress or I just really am. It's okay when I have 3 midterms in a row, I can accept that. But when people around me being to bother me and I just do certain things to get back, and then I think about it all the time, and then things at work go astray... AGH I just need to get away. Thankfully, I am going home Wednesday afternoon so I can get my teeth checked out, relax, and get away. I spent a lot of time today by myself and that is good. MAybe I just need to seperate myself and clock in more "me-time." Who knows. I'm just a priveledged college student that bitches about unimportant details.
November 6, 2004- Covered a shift at IHOP... I hate working for someone who isn't your boss. Anyway, I have 2 midterms on Monday still and one on Tuesday... so I have a lot of studying tomorrow to do! NASCAR is a given though. Can't miss that... life isn't worth living without my Sunday ritual. Only 3 more weeks of it left... sniffles...
November 5, 2004- Yeah, so I am in an okay mood. I want to go do something, but I don't know what. I jsut hate being in the house all day, especially when it's sunny. I need to read some psych considering I have 2 midterms on Monday and 1 on Tuesday. I ahve to start reading and stuff now. Poo. I want to go and see the Incredibles.
Later November 3, 2004- Oh fuck. Fuck. FUCK! Do you know how bad these next 4 years will get? I've been depressed all afternoon thinking of how terrible it will be when Dubya gets to appoint the next Supreme Court justice, send MORE people to pointless attacks.... it's just going to be all downhill. I feel so bad for Kerry, too. His speech was so sad, at least I thought. I just feel like the next four years will be this slow motion train wreck scene in a movie.
November 3, 2004- I voted! I was so proud of myself. I didn't wait in any lines because I voted right after my 7am class at 8am. I was so proud to wear my "I Voted" sticker. I even wore it on my apron at work. I figured it could help me in my tips too, you never know. But oh man, I really don't like how this is looking. I just can't have Bush again, it's too terrible. Could you imagine if he got assassinated, having Cheney as the president? Oh man... the thing that sucks about it al is that if he gets reelected, it's like saying everything he's done has been okay and we approve. I am just really glad I voted so I know my vote counts, even if it is .000049% or whatever it comes out to be. My midterm that I had 0 time to study for today got pushed back to be on next Monday, so that's good news. I just have an assignment due at the end of this week, 3 midterms early next week, and then I go home for 5 days! Yippee!
November 1, 2004- So, I didn't end up going out last night. I had WAY too much stuff to do around my room and homework wise. I cought up on my Locke reading and hopefully if I get that new assignment done, I can still be opn track! I was stressing out about my midterm on Wednesday since I don't know the material and had no time to study for it. I was planning on asking someone to cover my shift tomorrow so I could study and watch the election, but then my midterm got moved to next Monday. I got my heart set on having tomorrow off so I think I will see if someone can cover. I got my filling in my tooth today and that was an unpleasent experience. I have this giant heap of silver in my mouth now. Great, huh? My lip is still droopy from all the novacaine, hopefully it will wear out by work time! I think it's starting to come around. I have 2 midterms now on Monday and another one on Tuesday, so hopefully I can be really productive this week. I register on Monday and I'm unsure what I will get since I reject the idea of Friday classes and can only register for 3 of my 4 classes right now. I CANT take 12 units, but I am afriad of not having a class left to take after everyone registers.
October 31, 2004- I have had a very good weekend! I got to go out with Ryan and Robyn on friday night, I saw the Grudge with Mikey and ate lunch with him, I saw Team America and had dinner with Joseph and his roommate Brandon, I got to see Jimmie win the race this afternoon... life is pretty spiffy! I have a ton of homeowrk to do and a disaster of a room to clean in the meantime before I go out tonight. I'm almost thinking about not going out tonight if I don't get all my shit done. I might go for a bit and come back before 12:30 or 1. Tomorrow I must be alright for my 7am class and I have a 1 in 3 chance of giving a presentation at 8am in BUS 215. I also have to get a cavity filled at 1:30, go to work at 5:30, and all sorts of stuff like that. Isn't that wonderful? Lots to do and I'm hungry!
October 27, 2004- Mother fucker, people need to stop fucking with my money. I am so pissed. So I guess my boss at IHOP totally punched in the wrong amount on how much in tips I earned and since your paycheck gets loweres as you amke more tips, I don't ahve a paycheck for this last period. Grnated it was only likefor 24 hours at min wage, that's still my money. That damn graveyard I worked was included an dI damn well want to get paid for that. Also, I just checked my account with the school and they chargerd me a late fee for a housing payment I paid. I guess there are 2 different payment options and they thought I was on the less payment but each one is more expensive plan... so On my last payment I basically paid 800 dollars less than what the school expected from me. So, I have to go down to thier office and figure it out. Bull shit. AGH! And then I missed one class of amrketing yesterday for long reasons... but I am like so particpant in this class it's crazy. I go to office ours and all sorts of crap. And this is like one of four days she hands out a major in class actiivity and assigns points to it. So I just e-mailed her pleading to make it up since I do have regular attendance. People fucking piss me off....
October 25, 2004- So I feel like I have been relieved from my nonsocial little hole. I went over to Staci's to help her with a 214 project. Then, since Mikey and Scott happened to live like 10 feet away, I went over there to visit. Mikey wasn't there but I cought up with Scott. It seems like a lot of people I know are doing the whole study abroad thing. Or at least REALLY want to. Then, I went grocery shopping with Nikki and hung out with her. I am now back and I feel slightly sick and want to nap. Considering I only slept last night for about an hour, I could use some sleep. I cou;dn't go to sleep until real late and then I woke up very early to give Becca a ride to the airport. So yes, in conclusion, I am tired. I have been working a ton on editing my marketing plan research paper that the rest of my group formulated. I am kind of glad I'm just editing, it requires a lot les reserch. I have to be careful because since multiple wrote it, a lot of fact and things are repetitive. So yeah, I also have a lot of projects going on this week and work tomorrow, so I should round out the week with a tight schedule and Halloween fun.
October 23, 2004- When will the fighting stop, Mommy? Oh man, so let me tell you a little something about the girls below us. They must have UBER sensitive ears because I have done all of nothing... maybe tapped my foot on the ground and moved my chair around, and they started banging on the ceiling (my floor)! So I got pissed and slammed the chair down a few times to express myself, and they kept hitting the ceiling and shouted out the window "Shut up!" What poo heads. Later they started to slam it again, but I seriously don't know for what. I didn't do anything, and then they turned their bass up way loud. They are so dumb. I guess they annoyed themselves because I didn't do anything and they turned it off within 5 min. Joseph and I heard more banging, but like maybe from 2 floors below. So I think this middle floor is not too popular. I just wrote a message on our white board on the fridge telling my roommates not to open the door for those girls. So yep, but in other news, I successfully turned down a graveyard shift (a big accomplishment for me to say no to work) and am going to have a happy night's sleep in my own bed. Yay! Bye......
October 21, 2004- Yeah, so my philospohy midterm went well. I picked a harder question, one that had to do with more analysis than fact regurgitation. I wrote corret statements, but who knows if I left soem important part out. Anyway, we rented the Ladykillers and I have a nice relaxing weekend up ahead. I also have to say I really love thefacebook.com. It's so cool to talk to people I haven't talked to in a while. I wanted to join a NASCAR themed group but there wasn't any, so I created "NASCAR is My Church." And someone already wants to join! So yep, movie movie...
October 20, 2004- So my Plato midterm is tomorrow and I'm kind of worried. We get our choice of 3 essay questions to write about, but still. I just haven't studied something like this before and I'm used to equations and facts. I am so glad for diverse classes because it exposes you to things you'd never take in the normal major cirriculum. I think out of all the majors, engineers get the most well rounded education. Not only do they learn their major, but they get sciences and math as well. Plus with the large amouint of English everyone must take (writing to literature to philosophy), I think they by far get the most exposure to things. My opinion. Anyway, I bought a cheap pair of new sneakers at Payless today so I can walk in the rain without my feet being soaked. The only pair of shoes I ahve without holes in the bottom have cloth on the sides, so my feet still get wet. I was miserable in 3 hours of class with wet feet this morning. I also did some grocery shopping, watched the Red Sox Yankee game (way interesting) and studied Plato. This weekend should be relaxing since I have no homework, midterms, or places to go. I almost was going to go home just out of something to do, but I'm going home soon enough and I could use a weekend to relax here.
October 19, 2004- Yeah, so I went back and read some of my entries from high school and oh man, those are crazy. You can too if you click to the main page nd get the link. I think I am going to start a new blog page at the year end. Tuesdays are bittersweet for me. I have to wake up at 6am for class 7-8am, but then my next class is 12-2. I wish I could just sleep in until 11, but I have to come backa dn take a nap. Last night at work wasn't so bad, there wasn't much people so I only took home about 40 bucks. But it was so embarassing because the cook was busy with a party of 30 in the back so it looked slow out front and 3 parties had to wait almost 40 minutes for their food. It's so terrible. Luckily I had the nice understanding people and the other waitress had hte crabby mean people. I think I'd be crabby if I waited that long for a damn omlette. Anywho, off to philosophy and then nappy time!
October 18, 2004- Okay, long time no update. I was gone for the weekend to Irvine and that was prety fun. It was much better than milling around SLO playing Mario Kart or whatever I would have wasted my time on. I'm so glad I got to go to IKEA. Our few decorations and small rug makes the alrgest difference in our place. It makes it seem somewhat nice.... who could imagine. The pictures keep falling down I guess because the humidity makes the tape less sticky. Anyway, Six Flags was pretty nifty but I couldn't believe the line lengths. I bailed out so early at 8pm, but the lines were too long. Either one or 2 rides and then leave, or I could already be home! I am glad I left SAt night because it was nice to still have all Sunday here to do stuff. Oh, I also realized that Ralph's meat tastes like 50 times better than Food 4 Less meat. Go figure.
October 13, 2004- I am sooo tired. It's stupid 6am and I'm waiting for the shower. I can't wait for this weekend. I'm going to go to Irvine and that will be fun. I need to get out of this town and not worry about homework or pothead roommates or stolen DVDs or Plato or anything that had concerned me in the past 4 months. I have been really trying to catch up on my sleep, too. Two days ago I took a 3 hour nap on Joseph's comfy couch. Yesterday, I fell asleep between my 7am class and noon class. Becca went back to sleep and it seemed like such a good idea. Anyway, I had midterms on Monday and I hopefully will get the managerial accounting one back. I don't think I did so hot. I feel like Cal Poly has ripped me off this quarter by providing 2 bull shit business teachers.
October 11, 2004- It's been over a week since my internet stopped working at my place. Well, rather for my computer. So this weekend was pretty lame. It was just a bunch of studying and I ended up working graveyard. I suppose these 2 new girls I was going to train decided they didn't want the job afterall, because no one came. So I was left by my lonesome to work, but it was dumb. I made the second highest on tips from any shift to date, so I guess it was worth it. But damn, I don't want to do graveyard on a weekend, especially the weekend before 2 of my midterms! My managerial midterm was BULL SHIT. I can't believe he didn't give us all the complete information for problems and stuff. What a dumb ass. And my psychology went alright, I got no less than a B. I am going to see Anne in Irvine this weekend and go to Six Flags with her and a few of her friends. I was just asked to work Thursday for someone, but I'd much rather leave Thursday at 2 when I get out of class. Anywho, I'm off to eat din din..
October 8, 2004- I really like spending time at Joseph's. His roommates are so nice and there is so much to do here. Between movies, video games, a neat computer, food and talking, I can fill my time easily. I believe as long as I keep cooking for them, I will be welcome here. I'm not sure if thier 4th roommate, the CA is too fond of me though. But he's not here often and doesn't fraternize with the other 3 too much anyway, let alone me. I am sad my apartment isn't a fun place to hang out. It's not cozy or comfortable, welcoming or pretty. It's sad, but ok. I am glad my room is decorated and nice so I feel okay when I am in my room. I'm over there enough. Anyway, tonight was fun. We ordered pizza and watched Farenheit 9/11.. which was pretty interesting. Especially after watching teh town hall debate right before hand. I've been watching a lot of news lately and I'm really glad. I know about things and I feel informed. I also decided I am going to apply for Poly Reps, like for certain. I want to get involved with the school and branch out and meet new people. I feel like the circle of people I know is limited, and I feel sort of disconnected from some of my dorm friends because I no long live down the hall from them. Oh well... I guess not being on AIM anymore too much hinders my communication with others. I have 2 midterms on Monday and either of which I'd fail if I took at this moment. So, it's time for major studying tomorrow. I also have to train people tomorrow night graveyard so my schedule for Sunday will be all screwy. I have a marketing meeting 5-6 on Sudnay so that also cuts away from much needed studying time. I also need to figure out my plans for the next few weekends. I want to go home as a jumping point to be able to go to IKEA and SF, and I also want to go see Anne in Irvine (although I haven't talked to her recently... if you read this Anne, I want to come!) and I still need to decide what to do on my 5 and a half day weekend in November. I also got to find out from my dad when my dentist appointment is with him so he can hear about my non-insurance-covered $3000 tooth implant and see what to do about that. I guess none of this is too important, except my 2 midterms on Monday. This quarter is really blowing. I've given up on the concept of As and 4.0s. I am seriously happy with a B. The teacher in my classes meke such a difference. I am also taking bus classes this quarter that don't deal with my concentration of choice (marketing and management) so I hope my finance class won't blow next quarter. If it does, I'll pursue accounting. Anyway, I am just rambling because I haven't fully updated in a while. It's just nice to write about what's going on, even if this is slightly censored on my part. I'd write about pet peeves and annoyances I have with people, but they may be glancing at this. Who knows. Maybe I give myself too much credit. Joseph doesn't even read this. Anyway, I guess I'll stop writing. Oh, by the way, I went to Olive Garden last night with Joseph and the Miked Grill was like the best food I've tasted in MONTHS. Okay, on that happy note, bye!
October 6, 2004- I am not getting enough sleep. I keep falling asleep in all my classes. When does daylight savings time end? Or start, I get confused. An yway, I have a quiz tomorrow and a lot of Plato to catch up on tonight. I also have an acounting midterm and psychology midterm on Monday too. I can't believe I already have midterms, especiall since I can't talka bout anything I've learned so far in any of my classes. Psychology is dumb. It really is intro, they spend an hour and a half discussing some basic stuff like "war" or "hate" or "love" and it's so dumb. They talk about stuff you already know, you just may not have thought too hard about. But there's a whole part about the brain and biology stuff I have to memorize (neurons and so forth). My marketing midterm is on Thursday and I don't know how well I'll do on that. I seriously haven't learned anything anyone couldn't have already learned. So how do you get tested on zero material? Anyway, I guess that's enough of that. I have to call people, I have'nt seen Mikey and Scott in a while, or Ryan, and I should call Anne sooner rather than later... I get very side tracked when it comes to these things.
October 4, 2004- Well, 2 nights ago I had crappy sleep because of the puke in the car and woke up early for work. Then I went to sleep late last night, had a bad night's sleep, and woke up for my 7am class. It's killing me, I tell you! I at least got off at 10:30 tonight, which is a big difference from 11 or 11:10. It was pretty slow today, but that's ok. We had a group presentation today in business and he calls a team member at random to present and he chose our weakest team member. I suppose that's okay because we have 3 more projects to do and they will only get more complex and harder to explain/present. So I guess it works out. I felt so good today, I went to the bank after 4 really good days of work at IHOP. I had my last paycheck, 175 ones, and another 130 or so in 5s and 20s. I am so glad I worked this weekend, even though it took a lot of energy and time. I don't need the money bad enough to work every weekend, but I'll definately work if someone wants to go out of town or something again!
October 3, 2004- This weekend went much faster than the other weekend. The other weekend I droned away at Sims2. This weekend, I covered 3 shifts for people at IHOP. Oh man, I did this Sunday morning and it was so crazy. It was so busy and I couldn't believe it. I made really good money, and it is definately worth the work, but compared to other shifts, it's not the greatest. I mean I made an extra 20 or 40, but it's SO much more difficult and more hassle. Anyway, last night was drama too. I was working so I didn't go to Kappa Chi. But, I called people there before I went to sleep if they needed a ride. Then I got woken up to take Nikki and Becca and company back, and this I really don't mind. I've called Ryan at odd hours and I know if I was stuck I'd call either Becca or Nikki. So, this I am okay with. Glad to do. BUT, Nikki decides to puke IN the car and it was really nasty. Bec and I went to the trailer at the dairy and cleaned it out the best we could, but it's still kind of nasty. I bought 409 and things at the store today. Anyway, my car is super trashed to begin with, but now I have super-motivation to get it cleaned up. I ran it through the Shell car wash and that helped it, but there is still bird crap pieces and dirt smudges on the car. Oh well.
October 1, 2004- Country night last night was fun! I wish I knew all the dances like Jamie does. Anywho, I picked up 2 shifts at IHOP, one tonight 5:30 to 10:30, so hopefully I will make some good money! Okay, not much to report, but I am going to go get something to eat and stuff. Okay, bye.
September 29, 2004- I didn't get off work until 11:10 last night. And, I was so hungry I picked up Joseph and we went to eat at Denny's afterwards. So, I didn't get to sleep until like quarter to 1. And that just killed me this morning. Only one more day of 7am, and then weekend! I picked up a shift Friday night and Saturday evening, so hopefully I'll make good money. I made about $75 in tips last night, and coupled with my paycheck, that's over $100! Isn't that groovy? Question.. Why does "savvy" have 2 v's and "groovy" has 1 v? Weird. Anywho, I have some homework to do before I meet with my BUS 215 group in the library at 4, so I leave now...
September 28, 2004- I am not on the internet too much anymore. It's kind of weird. Last year my IM was on all the time, e-mails and all going on. But this time, I enjoy being out and about and going over to people's places and going out at night... it's just so much better than IM. I didn't really use the internet over the summer for all sarts of reasons so I tihnk I just got used to not using it. Anywho, I guess there was a 5pointer earthquake in Paso today, but I didn't feel it. The only way I know is that Christina's mom called our apartment and asked if we felt it and were ok. So yeah, I'm sure someone would have said something soon enough. Also, in teeth news, I got my teeth cleaned and I have to get an implant to replace my baby tooth (no permanent tooth grew in under it) and this is going to cost around $3000... and get this, insurance doesn't cover this prcoess. I am also going to shoot for getting my wisdom teeth out in that 5 day weekened I have in mid November. Bleh... so much homework to do and I go to work tonight. I hope I don't get out at 11, AGAIN. Damn people won't leave me be.
September 26, 2004- Last night was pretty fun. Ryan and I went to the first show of the year for Smile and Nod,a nd then an afterparty thing afterwards. Both were pretty fun. I felt awkward at the party since I didn't know anyone, but as soon as I found my spot on the couch, I was set for the rest of the night playing a drinking game. Go figure. Anywho, the race was on this morning and I really think Mark has a shot for winning the championship. I hope Jimmie wins, but I think I may be secretly rooting for Mark more. I've always liked him because of my dad, but after seeing his interview after Richmond, I just wanted to give Mark a hug and tell him he's my hero. He has such a sad story... Aw, poor Marky! Anywho, Ihave more homework to do and I am meeting my marketing group at 5pm near Madonna. So, hopefully we'll figure out a good to market that will be somewhat interesting. Okay, off to do something (most likely Sims 2 since I'm at Joseph's now)!
September 24, 2004- Oh man, I am going to be addicted. Joseph got me the Sims 2 and we installed it on his computer. So I've been over there all night playing... and am going back to play in an hour... I will do my homework this afternoon so the rest of my weekend can be filled up with things like.. Sims 2!
September 22, 2004- My internet wasn't working until now, so I can finally get back to my daily regimine. Classes seem to have a lot of homework this quarter. I have a quarter long project in marketing, questions due in my accounting class, and all 4 classes require a chapter read per session I meet. So I am having to read like 1 or 2 chapters in total a day. I think this weekend I'll catch up on some of the reading (I delayed on getting my books so I am slightly behind schedule) and every weekend afterwards I'll read ahead to give myself a boost. Three of my four classes gave me the homework assigned for the rest of the quarter, so I pretty much know what I have to do. The 7am thing is really rough in the mornings, but by the time I get to class, I'm really okay. My philosphy teacher is a good person to have at 7am because he's interesting and funny. I really like that class, I just wish Plato's "The Republic" wasn't as confusing as it is. Yeah, but my weekend starts tomorrow at 2pm, so I have plenty of time to work on stuff. It's getting late and Will, Joseph, Brandon (their non CA roommate) and I all had a wonderful dinner and yummy cake. So yes, off to read and bed! More to update about later!
September 17, 2004- So apparently a virus ate away at my internet connection over the summer and until Joseph and my computer have a serious discussion, I am using Joseph's computer! I made some progress in my room, but it's just so impossible. If I just worked on it real hard with no distractions, it would probably take a solid hour. But I'm not like that. So yeah, I still have to get a few books from screwthebookstores.com and take my cousin to Wal Mart this weekend. There's a big party tomorrow night so that shall be mucho fun!
September 16, 2004- I love my new apartment! I've spent close to 400 bucks on things for it, and another 270 bucks for parking... and books are coming up... but oh well. At least I have a job. Anywho, my room is STILL a tornado, but I have nothing to do tomorrow until 4pm (last shift at Levi's!!) so I will just push through it. NO ONE's room is as bad or as packed as mine. Why am I so special to be so inherently messy? Tonight was good, we all had our little meeting about pet peeves of the apartment. Scott and Mikey also came to join us for dinner, which was super fun. I really do think this will be a great year! I am so excited!!!
September 11, 2004- What a bad date, huh? It is interesting how everyone remembers where they were and what happened that day, like when JFK was shot. Of course, that's for our parents because I sure as hell wasn't born then. Yeah, I'm just thankful my mom wasnt flying, because I don't know when I'd get in touch with her and I'd be so freaked out until I heard from her. I was actually the one to wake her up that morning to come down stairs to watch TV. Anyway, it was a carzy day, and I remember seeing all the stuff happen live on TV because I had school start that day at like 10 but I woke up way early to get a ride with my dad. So, I was watching what I thought would be news and stocks... So yes, just thought I'd share. But I'm not too concerned with that right now, I'm actually very tired. I didn't get home until 4am, and I just woke up via alarm (10:30am). I have to help people move today, which will be interesting and exhausting. I'm just about packed, I just have a few odds and my blankets out. My car is so filled with junk though, I need to clear a spot in it to help myself. My brother is helping me move so I think between his truck bed and my Echo space, I'll amke one trip. I really don't havethat much crap, I kept taking things back home throughout the summer. I went through my clothes too.
September 9, 2004- Ok, I updated and it got lost, so in short here are my main points. 1. I am excited for this weekend and to move in and out of here! 2. I can't wait for everyone to be back! 3. Only THREE more shifts at Levi's to go, including tomorrow! 4. I might pick up a shift at IHOP on Monday 5:30-10:30pm so I'd have wonderful pay! 5. I got my dental insurance info so I can go ahead and get my teeth cleaned (long overdue)... I probably won't update until Sunday.. so until then!
September 8, 2004- So it's Wednesday morning and my mom is still hanging around. It's nice to have company and not feel so alone. We went to Santa Barbara on Monday to do mucho shopping. I bought a pot set, on sale for only 50 bucks! I also got some on sale earrings, VS underwear.... oh some shoes on sale! Yes, good times. My mom also just came back from a layover in Bangkok and she brought me back about 5 or 6 real Coach and Gucci purses! They are very pretty and when we went shopping, we saw similar ones going for over 150 or 200 dollars. I can't believe it. They're real too! Anywho, I worked yesterday at Levi's and then IHOP, and my mom just hung around (actually what she did during the day is a rather long story) and today I get to cover someone's shift at IHOP 2:30-8. I LOVE working at IHOP, so much money! Yay! I had the opportunity to work on Monday, but I was out with my mom. Oh well. I'd rather have been out anyway. So yes, today I hope to pack much more and then make money at work!
September 5, 2004- Sweet, the last weekend of hell I have to do! No more wor all day, work all night, work all day, work all night work all day (literally) weekends anymore. Friday morning through Sunday evening is hell. But I requested next weekend off at Levi's for moving and it's my last graveyard weekend. Then, my last day at Levi's is a Friday so I won't work that weekend. How nice. The weekend before school starts will be one of the best weekends ever. I was talking to the girl I am taking the Tuesday dinner shift froma nd she said she MAY give up her Thursday 3-8 shift. Oh man, I'd mkae hella money, still be able to go to school AND have my evenings for country night and stuff. But she doesn't know yet. Anywho, I tlaked to my dad on my lunch and this is basically the weekend breakdown: Friday my brother moves and I'll go help him move over some of the stuff I have here that is his (then work Fri night at IHOP), Saturday my dad comes down with the rest of my brother's stuff and my cousin moves into the dorms. I'll help her out and then my dad some, and then we'll all go out to dinner Sat night (then work Sat night at IHOP), Sunday I move myself in and get all unpacked... and probably pack some down with Becca and Nikki! I'm so excited!!!
September 3, 2004- YAY! Two week notice! I jsut said I got my schedule finalized and with taking 20 units, my availability would be messed up. Also, and this part is true, I want the next bunch of weekends off and I know that isn't friendly with retail jobs. So, I gave it. No big deal. They're conducting a bunch of interviews now anyway, so they will just end up hiring one more person than planned. Whoop-dee-do. Work tonight at IHOP, and hopefully I can make bank because it's a holiday weekend and the other girl won't be there. Maybe someone new will be there... but until then...
September 2, 2004- Ah, the girls being back is mucho fun. We got Nikki's roommate, who've we met once and Nikki has known for 4 days, to buy for us all the other night. How sad. I can't wait for move in day! I'm putting in my 2 weeks at Levi's tomorrow. I made a comment today to someone I was joking around with that was a bad choice of words... and she got mad and ratted on me and I got guilt trip. They must think I'd be a joke as an assistant manager. But in all reality, if I knew I was going to get it, or was hired as it from the get-go, I'd act a totally different way. Anywho, I'll be glad to put in my 2 weeks. I got pissed off, I got schedule on Sat Sept 11th from 9am to 1:30pm. First of all, I do graveyard the night before. Second of all, my availability says I can't work before noon on Sat or Sunday. Thirdly, I requested this moving weeked OFF back in JULY, the day I started working there. Bastards. I don't need them. Anywho, I have a shitload of stuff to pack and clean tonight but I can't seem to force myself to do any of it. My mom is visting on that Monday, so I need a bulk of it done so I'm not embarrassed. Plus it needs to be done pretty soon, anyway.
August 31, 2004- So, summer is almost over and I am so excited! I got to hang out with Nikki and Becca the toher day and that was nice. I came home to Woodland yesterday, and I'm glad to be home for a bit. Joseph came by, so that fixed a lot of things. I'm going out to dinner with him tonight too. I have work thursday morning, and I want to go out with Becca and Nikki Wednesday night, so I will be leaving here just after noon or so tomorrow. I'm really glad too that things at IHOP went okay. I went to talk to my manager about not working graveyard when school starts. He wasn't mad or anything... I mean it was news he didint want to hear but I mean he wasn't mad. So now that I know I can just work Tuesday nights, I will be putting my 2 weeks in at Levi's on Friday. I do not want to work the weekend before school starts and I'm so glad I won't have work at either place! Hooray! It's too bad I'll have to work graveyard the weekend I move, but I can deal iwth one last weekend of no sleep. Yay... It's almost school!!!
August 28, 2004- I am starting to not like it here. With all the kids back, this house is completely uninviting for someone like me. I suppose if I had more going on or more tihngs to do at the moment, this feeling would go unnoticed. But I feel like I'm used here. Like I pay rent but I don't get some of the things I'd expect from paying rent. I mean the kids take over the house and I feel like I'm intruding even if I go to the bathroom. And I've noticed that my shampoo has been used and the son took my shave gel out of the shower and left it on the sink because he used it to shave! And on top of that, he left a mess from shaving! Dude... I could go home and live for free with my brother if I wanted to experience all this again. I am so glad I'm not living here anymore because this is not living on my own. Anyway, I have work 1-9 today at Levi's and IHOP afterwards. I made some decent money last night, although a table with 2 parents and 3 kids who ate a full dinner left no tip. I did NOTHING wrong... bastards.
August 27, 2004- Oh man, I already went to work for 8 hours.... why longer? WHY?? I got off at 7 so I had a nice chance to sit down before work at 10. I can't believe it's already been a week since Anne visited. This week went by fast, esp since I didn't do much. I got 2 days off in a row (Tues and Wed) and Iget off work at 1:30 on Monday. So I am going to go home. That'll eat some more time on my countdown to school. I'm so glad it's almost September!
August 26, 2004- AGGGGGGGGGGH! I had no work all yesterday and just a meeting at 4 today at IHOP. I'm not too fond of this place. It's not bad and I'm not seriously complaining, I jsut wouldn't wnat to live here during school. All the kids are back from their vacation so it's like living in someone else's house. I mean they completely take up the house... stuff, noise, music and all. They leave their stuff all over hte bathroom and kitchen and the music just blasts from the kitchen and I feel even more compelled to hide in my little living room. I mean who am I to say anything... it's their own house! But I just feel like an intruder and not very welcome. Anywho, I went grocery shopping, even though I could ahve lasted a lot longer. I jsut have nothing to do and am sick of leftovers. I wanted some cereal anyway. Hooray for malt-o-meal frosted wheaties!
August 24, 2004- I am so bothered by the date. Yesterday I kept thinking something important was going on on the 23rd, perhaps the 24th.. and it's been bothering me ALL DAY what is so important about today. I believe it was the 24th last year that Anne and I went to Hawaii, so maybe that's why the date is burned into my brain. That's the only thing I can think of. Hmmm... Anywho. Today I did nothing until 5, when I worked until 9 at Levi's. Then I went straight to IHOP and someone showed me what to do to close up the restaurant. So, that's nice. I am getting my hair cut tomorrow at a salon and I am so nervous. All my experiences have been poor. Well, not my last one but it was just to even stuff up and get a trim. I know I need some length off because my ends are dead, but I am so afraid of it getting too short and then I won't be able to wear it down. That's the goal, even though all I do is wear pony tails. I am hoping I got it long enough where he can make it so I can wear it down. So we'll see... That's the drama for tomorrow! I have Wed off and Thursday I did have off but I found out about an important store meeting at IHOP Thursday at 4. Who knows how long that will last though. It's about our new specials... popcorn shrimp and something else. Anywho, enough blabbing about all that. I am just so excited for people to be moving back. I guess Nikki will be here within a week, and then it's just a few short weeks until everyone else is back! Yay!
August 23 2004- How nice is it to know I haven't updated in a while because I have been busy with fun things? Thursday night I went to farmer's with Becca and hung out at her place. then Friday was a day of work with IHOP being steady but a tad slow. Anne came up saturday afternoon and we went to Pismo, where I actually didn't get sunburned! We went to Becca's for tacos and then off to IHOP for work. I thought I wouldn't have Anne do too much besides help me clean, but around 1:30 or so we got a mad rush. Oh amn it was insane for that hour. It would have been okay if the busser was still there, but I couldn't ring people up and do all that stuff too. So Anne quickly had to learn how to ring up people. Haha... at elast I made some decent money out of the night. We went to Santa Barbara on Sunday.. to go shopping. Okay, whoever told me States St. was like awesome shopping needs to be killed. We drove one way longer than the amount of time we stayed. It was like less shopping than Arden Mall in Sac. I couldn't believe it. But, we got back into downtown SLO early enough to get dinner and Balis. Ah well. Yeah, so it was a fun past few days. Anne left bright and early this morning, and I did pretty much nothing besides talk to my roommate and her friend, watch the taped race (Jimmie didn't finish for the thrid week in a row!!!!) and went to work for 4 hours. Not too eventful.. and tomorrow will be the same. Ah well, it's not too far from Sept 12th and I'll be insanely happy as soon as it turns Sept 1st. I'll at least be in the right month. Oh, I also made a solid decision to put my 2 week notice in for Levi's on Sept 3rd. That way I don't work the weekend before school starts. Sweet.
August 20, 2004- So, Becca and I went to check out our new apartment and the location of Joseph and Will's place and Ryan's. Our apartment is nicely located at the end, so no worries of neighbors. It is also right next to an elevator. We all get a view of the beef unit.... all the cows and ag fields and stuff. It's quite nice. Then we found Will and Joseph's place, which is on the same floor just in the next building over. They could actually see into our windows. It's kind of creepy. And Ryan is way the hell on the other side from us. Oh well, it may be more than a few steps but it's still close by. The fourth girl is some AgSci chick and Becca and her roommate strongly recognize the name. It'll be interesting I suppose. I e-mailed her this morning, so we'll see if shen e-mails me back. So yeah, that was exciting to see our places. I am glad we don't have a view of the street. Lots of work tonight... but then Anne will be here and we'll go do fun things! This has been a pretty fun week, actually. Oh, and I invested $500 into Washington Mutual this afternoon. How nice.
August 19, 2004- What a pleasent past 2 days. Yesterday, I went to work for a full 8hr shift and came home. This guy Eric was here and asked if I wanted to go see a movie or something since we both didnt have anything to do that night. So he took me to see I,Robot which was pretty good. It's funny because he's like in his 50s and he kept introducing me to all the sales people and stuff as his daughter. It was pretty funny. Today, I came across a lot of money, which is also nice! The insurance guy from that car accident I was in July 7th called... I am getting a check for $100 in the mail! How nice is that? It cost $30 worth of medical things to see the doctor and get medicine to look like I was sick. So it's like a profit of $70. The sad thing was is that my neck hurt before the accident, it just got slightly worse. So yeah, I'm happy with that. And then I got a call from a guy for screwthebookstores.com and sold my calc book for $35. How nice is that. I evne went to do some shopping but I couldn't bring myself to buy anything. I even drove allt he way out to Target. I went to Farmer's with Becca tonight too. That was fun. I'm glad I got to see her, I haven't seen her in a few weeks. We're going at noon to check out where our apartment is exactly. How exciting. I hope we have a good spot. But yep, this weekend should be exciting too. I go to work tomorrow at Levis 4-8:30pm, then go to IHOP 10:30pm to 4ish am, and then when I wake up, anne should be pretty close to getting here. How nice. What a fun weekend ahead!
August 17, 2004- I bought a white shirt and black pants for IHOP today. My asst manager thought I was going on a job interview. I made some BS story about a club function, but I think he saw through it. Everyone is wanting to quit and it's become a very negative working environment. I will quit for IHOP, even if I only work there once a week. It'll be enough. And if not, I'll get a job at Sandwich Factory or something. Whatever. Anywho, I also went to WalMart and spent a whopping 16 bucks on random stuff I probably didn't need. I boguht canned asparagus which was NASTY, and I plan on never doing that again. Egh.. so salty, thankfully, I tasted it before mixing it in with my good dinner. Anywho, not much to report... I still need to clean my room. But it's to a point where I should just clean and pack at the same time, not jsut straighten. I don't know, when I just fold and clean all day everyday at work, I am not compelled to do it in my free time. Go figure.
August 16, 2004- Yay, less than a month to fall! I am so excited, you all have no idea. I also have the appetite of a pregnant woman. I can't stop eating, I can't get full, and all I want is sugar. I went to the store to buy frosting for cupcakes and made those... I ate some cookies... It's bad. Anywho, it was my day off today. So besides the cooking, I painted a painting too! I like it. It's a beachy scene. I also finally got around to going to the post office and got me a PO Box. Just e-mail me for that if you want it. Also, I went to the bank and I bought a tie at Mervyns. I have to wear a button down shirt and tie at IHOP now. I'll buy the slacks and shirt at Levi's. But yeah, the girl showed me how to tie it so I just need practice now. Wheeeeeeee....
August 15, 2004- I never update on the weekends because I am NOT home. I work both jobs and I literally am here only to sleep and shower. Anyway, there was NO ONE in the restaurant this weekend, which is quite odd. Every hotel between here and Santa Maria (35 miles away) was booked. Go figure. But yeah, my goal is at least $80 for the 2 nights, and I made $37 and change. Levi's is really sucking too. I am so unmotivated and the girls there are really bratty and know it alls. Since I am new to the store, even though they've been told I have mucho experience, they all think I am dumb and so people who have been there no more than 2 months are trying to boss me around. It's so dumb. I'm getting a Tuesday night dinner shift at IHOP, and hopefully Monday night as well. If I get 2 shifts at IHOP, I'm saying godbye to Levi's. I've put in a lot for that company and they mistreat me and mislead me about the whole asst manager thing. I don't really want it anymore, but still. I am glad I don't ahve it so I can leave them for IHOP guilt-free. Anywho, despite my tone here, I am in a good mood now. I had my VCR working and so the entire race got taped and I watched it... yay! So yep, not much to report. Tomorrow is my day off where I got to the bank, the post office (finally getting my PO BOX!).. hmm... perhaps I will go to the beach or finally get around to painting. Who knows... oh, the joys of having a day off..
August 12, 2004- What a date... Exactly one month until I move and Amber's birthday! I got my schedule for work for next week. I got my 5 days of work still... but I have 21 hours. I'm not going to complain... but I mean come on. All my shifts are so short. If I lived 5 minutes away it wouldn't be such an issue. Someone else did the schedule this week since our manager is out on vacation so maybe it won't be a happening thing. I am watching Extreme Makeover now. It makes me feel fat as I eat my mac n cheese and forsted shredded wheaties. I wonder what I would look like with a nose job and a toned up body. I'm not really complaining, I still fit clothes and I have a boyfriend who thinks I am beautiful. So yeah, not much else to report... One month until move out! Yay!
August 11, 2004- So I left around 3:10 today and just shot home... no stops. I can't believe gas is 1.91 in Woodland. It's 2.13 here and that's the lowest it has been all summer. I'm used to 2.27. Anywho, I went to Food 4 Less before home because I figured once I came back, I would not want to get out again. I am glad I am so smart to think ahead. Anywho, I saw my good friend Anna today. we e-mail each other constantly but I think the last time I actually saw her was... Christmas Break at Crepeville? Hmmm... But it was nice to see her and her dredlock progress. I also bought a scratcher after seeing her with my ICEE but I lost. Poo. What a suprise. I am glad I'm back tonight though, I really wouldn't want to leave at like 5am tomorrow morning. I can't stay awake really early in the morning. The Rockstar drinks can't even help me with it. I'd type more but this moniter isn't clear, it's blurry and I keep trying to clear my glasses but it's really not me... so I am going to get away from this madness. Happy days ahead!
August 10, 2004- Holy moley, it's already a third of the way into August! I'm home for 2 days, well it's been 2 days,s o I am leaving tomorrow. My dad wants me home before it gets dark, so it looks like I'm leaving at around 3pm... I will probably see Joseph for lunch so I will probably just leave from Roseville. We'll see. Seeing Joseph was so nice... we ate and he got me a rose... he's so adorable. I am so happy summer is approaching its end. I am looking forward to the fall so much. Especially now that I registered, I feel very ready. I even have done my school shopping so I am all set in all regards. It's so nice being in the new house. Ten days has really made a difference. All my family can tell and this visit back home doesn't seem as needed as the ones before. YES, it was nice and I am enjoying myself, but I'm not fearing going back home. yay, so only a month and 2 days to Cerro and I couldn't be happier. Hooray!
August 8, 2004- I wanted to check out my schedule some more this morning but the website is closed until 1pm. How terrible! Last night at work wasn't too bad, it was quite slow really. I left by 4am so I could get some sleep. I actually had a bad dream, and it was about working at IHOP when it was really busy and things were going wrong left and right and it was bad. I have had dreams along those lines before. I can't believe those are my new nightmares, terrible nights at IHOP. so I woke up at 10, and I have work ata 2:30... so not much to do. The race will be on shortly. That's a plus. I also have to pack up bcause I'm going home right after I get off of work this evening at 7pm. Tomorrow when I register, I am going to go my dad's office since my brother will be trying to register at home, and then my dad said he'd take me out to lunch afterwards. That'll be nice. Okay, off to find food...
August 7, 2004- Yesterday was madness. At Levi's the lock to the front doors decided to be stuck so we didn't get into the store until 11:30. We were supposed to be in by 9, and open for 10. So it became my job to explain to customers every 2 minutes why we weren't open. And it was so dumb too, it made me feel like the guy who says "here's your sign" because people would see the gates locked.... peer in, walk a bit confused, and then ask if we're closed. Oh man. And then as soon as we opened up, people flooded in and there was a line for the register before I even hadmy till set up. It was so infuriating. Then I went to work at 5:30pm to cover someone's dinner shift. It was steady and busy.. and I was by myself. It was SO hard. But, I made a whopping 83 dollars... after tipping the bus boy $6! I couldn't believe it. I left by 1am, so I was able to get enough sleep to work today at 12:30. Today at work was easy, since we were overstaffed and really slow. So, I just worked on stock and really impressed my bosses. :) I ate lots of scraps around the house today for dinner, and then I am going to work in an hour. Alright well, it's time for me to get ready. Hooray....
August 6, 2004- Quick update before work... The girl I subleased from deposited my June rent check and my 150 dollar deposit. I hope to get some of that back. I am below where I would like to be money wise. I am kind of pissed off aobut it now, but today I work te dinner and night shift at IHOP, which will not only be lots of tips, but a bit of overtime pay. I just hope to get that insurance guy to call me back a bout my neck. I'll get somewhere between 100 and 225 dollars for that... which would be quite useful. I'm going home Monday and Tuesday, so that will relieve the grocery shopping and stuff. I'm done with unneccessary shopping for now. Oops, off to Levi's 9-2, then IHOP 5:30pm-4am!
August 4, 2004- I had some crazy ass dreams last night. I dreamed that 2 friends of mine that I don't talk to anymore commited suicide. I was able to go back into time like an hour and prevent one of the from happening completely. I fought her for the box cutter knife thing she had, and she cut me in our struggle, but she hit her head hard against the floor and blacked out. When she came to, she didnt want to kill herself afterwards. The other one killed herself and when I found out about it and got to go back an hour to try to save her.. she really didn't want help. She had tried to use pills and when I came into the room, I was able to smack them out of her hand. But she took a block of concrete and smashedher own head in, killing herself. It was really creepy, and since I know the people in my dream, but don't talk to them anymore, it makes me wonder if they're doing okay. It may sound weird and gross but it was scary and movie-like in my dream. Anyway, today has been a whole lot of nothing. My brother should be here in a few hours, and all I've done so far today is clean up some and eat ice cream. Apparently my dad gave him some money for our dinner tonight, so I won't have to cook! Yay! I also looked at Power for an hour, and I figured out some likely schedules. I'll have some 7am classes, but the daylight savings time will save me some. I'll ge out no later than noon or 2:30 too. Also, it means I basically have 3 days of school Monday through Wed and one 7-9am class on Thursday. How nice would that be, to start my weekend Thursday at 9am. They are all with great or good teachers (according to Polyratings) so I should be set and ready. Off to find something to do (or eat)!
August 3, 2004- Yesterday I had the entire day off and I spent the entire day doing nothing. I can't believe it. I had so many things to do and NOTHING. But, it was my frist day off in a while, that didn't involve a houseful of stress or moving, so I thuroughly enjoyed it. Today I had work until 1:30pm, and so I did all my errands and things after work when I was already dressed and awake and out of the house. I got my oil changed (finally.. it's been 7k miles) and bought 35 bucks worth of crap at WalMart. I needed a floor lamp, door mirror, extension cord... so yeah. Plus the oil change was another 15 bucks, so I spent 50 bucks at WalMart. Exactly what I need. But I should have nothing I need for Cerro Vista in the fall, at least roomwise. I'll need a lot of kitchen food items like spices, but that won't be so bad. Today I went to the bank and deposited 2 paychecks (both jobs pay on Friday) plus my weekend tip money, so that was some good relief. Anywho, things are going swimmingly and Nikki is in town, so I'll see if she wants to do stuff tomorrow. Her boy toy is in town so I may not see her... ah well. Speaking of such things, I saw a sneak peak of my schedule next week and I'll be able to leave here Sunday at 7pm and I won't have work until Wednesday at 1pm. Si I'll jsut leave at like 7am Wednesday morning. I sure miss Joseph and my family. It's alright, next week!
August 1, 2004- I messed up the dates and just changed them. Whee. Work went well at both places this weekend. I made my personal goal for tips over the weekend and Levi's wasn't that bad. This house is turning out to be the best decision I could make for myself. It's so nice here. I read Cooking for Dummies the other day in the bookstore and have made a few things that tasted very good. It's just nice. I feel so much happier. I used to cry everyday on the phone to Joseph, but now I am happier and smiling! Yay! My brother is coming on Wednesday to bring down some stuff for my room and then he'll visit his friends. It'll be nice to have someone over. I hope more people will visit me. I just need a bit of notice to get time off, and then people can come! Yep yep... so I have the day off tomorrow. I will either go to the Midstate Fair in Paso with Becca (if she'll ever call me back) or just do a ton of errands. I need to get my oil changed, go to the bank, unpack some more....
July 31, 2004- I know, no updates in a while but I had to move out ASAP. They had a party of the century and my other roommate was just itching for blood... they were going to have another party that night... I just had to get out of there. So I just quickly packed up all my stuff and left without saying anything. I had 2 nights to kill, and because I have 2 friends in town, I spent one night at each person's place! Will let me stay in an empty dorm room, which felt nice and safe since I love Yosemite so much. It was familiar. It made me happy. The next night, I spent it at Becca's. She was called into work, and so I had to go with her. Milking cows sucks ASS. I cannot explain to you how much I'd hate doing that. And Becca only gets minimum wage! How crazy. Anyway, that was 2 nights ago. Last night, after working gravbeyard, I came back to my wonderful new room and slept in. The room has no windows and so I can sleep until the good afternoon with no disturbances! It was great. I love my room and I love this house and I love the scenery. This is what I needed from the start. Too bad, but at least I get the whole rest of summer here. I'm so much happier. Tonight I work 4-9 at Levi's and hten graveyard at IHOP. I guess there are 3 people scheduled for server, which makes for NO MONEY splitting tables 3 ways... so we'll see. Anywho, I have to get ready for work!
July 27, 2004- I am so excited to move into that room on Friday. I took a car load over today and took a good look at the room to see what I need. So I went thrift store hunting, and the only thing I bought was this stool. It had a gold metal bottom and primary color yellow for a top. The top is vynil so once I scrubbed it, it's brand new looking. I went to Home Depot and spray painted the bottom black. Now it looks pretty good. Also, I went and got a new car stereo today. It's neat, and it plays the MP3s so I can put like 200 songs on a CD and use that. So that's my project for the rest of the night. Make themed CDs. So yeah, a nice produvtive day for Yellie. Things aren't awkward in the house with the girl knowing I'm not leaving rent. But I think she thinks I'm going to pay if I don't get in touch with Kristin. Anywho, not much else to report, I work tomorrow (not today) and I'll try to look around some more for my room. Once I move in, I'll go get more things I need. I'm not trying to jump the gun too much on what I need.
July 26, 2004- So, I found a palce to stay. It's a quaint private room attatched to a seperate private living room all for $450/month, utils and all included. I'll have my own room and basiaclly the entire downstairs of this house to myself. It's in Los Osos, 15 miles away from SLO, in the opposite direction as Pismo. So Levi's will be a commute now, but it's alright. It's so temporary. Anyway, it should be fun to set that place up and get situated. I want to make it homey, even if it's only for a short time. I also have had a ton of drama with notifying the girl I sublease from and the girl who pays rent... I can't tell you how many hours I've spent on the phone dealing with looking for places, with these lease girls, with my dad.... oh man. The stress involved with this summer. is way too much. I'm glad it's ending. The horrible slut person who causes the chaos in the house went out of town for a days, so it's nice to have the house calm for these past few days. You can really tell the difference with her gone too. So sad. Anyway, just thought I'd update, especiialy since my situation is updated. Work is still good at both places. I made about $100 over the weekend on tips. That's way good. Business on Friday was INSANE and I was by myself. It was so stressful. I was ready to cry. I had a ton of business so I made a lot of tips, but my percentage on tables was low for me. I couldn't give as good as service as I wanted because I was so busy. Will came in and gave me 10%.. exactly... Yeah. Well, anyway, it's over and I made my money, so it's okay. Adios!
July 23, 2004- How much worse can things get. I am depserately trying to find an alternative place to live for the remainder of the summer. I despise this place. I even have asked Nikki for her place, but she's moving in at the end of August. I saw a woman last night and that seemed promising, but she changed her mind overnight about renting the room out. I have been desperately calling any ad or hotel that I tihnk can help, but no one knows of an extended stay place. I am going to see a woman in Atascadero about her room for rent. They're both in their 30s and one is home often and they have a room for rent. I guess they'd actually like to rent the room out for just that long. It's just getting so difficult to find some place to go, I am frustrated with the house, and I am packing up too. And I had work during the day and I have work tonight. I called the girl Cassie subleases from to complain and stuff. That girl is going to call the landlord and the landlord is going to call Cassie. But shit, unless Cassie is evicted ASAP, she's going to tear me apart for calling the landlord. I don't really care what she thinks of me, I jsut don't want my stuff stolen or whatever. This is just all insane. I need an out badly, and I need to move out tonight if possible. I need a place to stay!!
July 22, 2004- Today was good, but it's only 5pm. Last night, I fell asleep on the couch and I was rudely awakened when a bunch of Cassie's friends stormed in and decieded to ahve a party. Haleigh came in and complained to me and it jsut made me really made this was all going on and I'm not going to take it anymore. I was so close to calling the cops. I called one fo the lease people, the girl who has Cassie subleasing from, and I told her I'm ready to call the landlord. She is going to give me a call tomorrow and tru to figure out what to do. I'm just sick of this bull shit. Yay I just got in a n argument with that slutty terrible person and I am so sick of it... I need to call my dad and calm down.
July 21, 2004- I'm HAPPY! Wheee! I had a good visit home, I had a good day at my new job, and my aunt and uncle took me out to dinner! And, I get to go to the beach tomorrow and see Becca! I am just excited my little world doesn't seem so bleek. Oh, and my dad settled the car thing for me and I got $550 for the car damage itself. I basically get a car stereo (finally!) and my stepmom who owns the car will get the change. Hey, it works for me! And, I still get something for my neck injury too. The guy is going to call me to settle soon. Even if I get like $50 bucks, that's still a lot to me. So yeah, I'll be crazy busy this weekend at work but it'll be worth it. I'll get some pay and I will have something to sleep off the rest of the week. Tomorrow I need to get my final week's schedulke at Gap to see if I was even scheduled any hours. I doubt it, since when I wasn't about to quit I got 5, so I think I got zero for my last week. I hope at least. I also get my schedule for Levi's and get to pick up my IHOP paycheck... yay! Everything just seems managable and alright now. Cassie even took more stuff (pictures, things on her desk) out of here and into her room. It's becoming more and more seperated. The only thing she has in here left are her clothes, and I dont see why she doesn't move that too. She hates me, but not as much as I despise her. Anyway, happy thoughts, I am excited for the next few days and the weekend... Yay for being happy!
July 20, 2004- Ah, home. The drive did, well, suck as I thought it would. But, Being home for 2 days seems like a whole week of rest. I see Joseph and my family and Chipper, it makes me feel relieved from stress. I did some shopping, which is bad but I wanted to use up some of my employee discount before it goes away. I also went to Michaels and bouht some painting supplies so I can paint on some of my free time. I'll have to look though some photos and the internet for inspiration of what to paint. Something to go in my room for the fall... something to match my tropical/vintage feel. Hm, stuff to take up my time! Yeah, so my first day of work at Levi's is tomorrow so I will leave here at 6 or 7am. I wouldn't want to be late for that! I work Fri and Sat nights at IHOP, and for sure tomorrow and Saturday at Levi's... I'm not sure beyond that. On Thursday I'll see at Gap if I ahve any shifts on my last week there... and that will be the end of that. I need to pick up my IHOP paycheck too and do a few things around the house... Alright! Now that I am organized, I will stop blabbing.
July 18, 2004- I truly don't feel like driving, but I have nothing to do until work on Wednesday. My dad is taking my brother and I out to dinnertonight as well. It's about 11:30 and I woke up not too long ago. I have to pack, load my car with all that extra stuff, and do a few other things around the house before I leave. Last night was so lame at work. I didn't mind working so much, especially since I'll get OT. But we were packed (for night at least) until 12:30, and I thought I'd make bank. Well, after 12:30, NO ONE came in the rest of the night... until 5am. And this couple was nice and I talked with them and stuff.... but they didn't tip! Bastards! Oh, but there were these 2 guys I talked to for just a few minutes and they said they were going to be coming in a lot. Well, they left me a $15 tip, when there bill was $15 and change. When I realized what they gave me, I cought them before they reached their car outside and told them a sincere thank you. How nice of them. Some people are just good hearted people. Not Cassie or whoever stole my DVD player though. Bitch. :)
July 17, 2004- Now this house sucks more than EVER. So when we first were here, Cassie took my DVDs to watch without asking. Oh, sorry, she asked after she took them. Then, she took my VCR from my room and hooked that up to the main TV without asking. Oh, sorry, she asked afterwards. This morning, I woke up to have my TV missing from my room and oh, guess who is watching TV in thier room. I finally said something, thankfully, and told her just because we live in the same house does not mean everything that's mine is hers and she is not respectful. I also went on a hunt for my DVD player, and I can't find it anywhere. I have a few days off and I wasn't going to go home since I was just there, but now I have to. I am taking anything valuable and nice home. I also want to search for that DVD player because my mind won't be at ease until I know if it's really gone or just "misplaced." UGH, I hate roommates! If Cerro turns out to be a bummer, I am going to pay whatever to have my own place. I doubt it though, because I know 2 of my 3 roommates are very cool people. Why does this all ahve to be so frustrating???
July 16, 2004- So. Today, I accomplished a lot. I cleaned a ton around the house. My roommate is so messy. She has her shit everywhere on the floor and I can't stand it. You all may be thinking I am a hypocrite, but no! Because I actually share my living space with others now, I am on top of everything and clean up after myself, not leaving messes. I wish Cassie would move all her stuff into the other room, not just half of it. She sleeps and stuff in the other room, but it still appears there is a ton of laundry she likes to leave on the floor in here. I cleaned the bathroom too and no one said thank you. I also cleaned up after her friend who made a huge ass mess in the living room and no one said anything. I am the type of person to jsut expect people to think straight and hope if I do something, it wll serve as a signal to others to follow my lead. But no. I'm going to ask her about the mess in the room tongiht or whenever I see her because it needs to be contained. Anyway, so I went to Gap and put in my 2 weeks notice. I felt kind of bad about it, but what can you do. My manager completely understood and told me I was welcome to come back. I start Levi's on Wednesday and have a definite shift Saturday. She said on Wed she'll talk to me about putting me in on Thursday and Friday. So yeah. I work at IHOP tonight, and I think I will take a nap before hand since I am already so tired. I'm not going to Alan's party tomorrow either. I'll work and see what is going on. Nikki and Becca both aren't going and I dont want to make the drive anymore. Anywho, I'm getting sleepy and need to nap before work! I Love the 90s has taken over the rest of my day and it's just way too addicting.
July 15, 2004- I am in SLO once more and have figured out what is going on with my life... at least for the next week and a half. So IHOP is open only Friday and Sat nights, which I will be working. Gap scheduled me a whopping 5 hours, yes, count them, 5 hours. Thankfully, the shift is Saturday day. So, I worked tonight until 9pm, and then I decided to go by myself to see Spiderman 2. Parking would have cost me over 5 bucks, and if I were to wait 2 hours, I could get out free. So, I spent the 5 I was going to spend, along with an extra buck, to see a movie. It was quite good and entertaining. I thought it was going to be a trilogy, but the second movie seemed to wrap everything up quite nicely. I might have been wrong. So yes, anyway, I had a good time home. I didn't do much except see Joseph and eat with the folks, which is more than enough for me. So, I work tomorrow night and the night after. And, I have to call Levi's since the manager will be in town. But after Sunday monring, I don't have work until Friday, 10pm! So, I may go home once more. It seems silly to have spent all this money on rent on a place I don't want to be at working jobs I hate. But, if I stayed home and never did this, I'd never know and cry myself to sleep, bored and miserable, being in Davis all summer. I'd have wished I just stayed here. So I am leanring and I appreciate the meaning of home more than ever. That must be worth something.
July 14, 2004- So under any other circumstance, going home once again would be really unhealthy. I would never have gone home this many times during school. But, because of this summer's supreme level of suckiness, I have found myself home once more. It refreshes me and makes me feel renewed and ready to take on the horrors of my SLO work spiral of doom. IHOP closed down, AGAIN, so I don't know when I work besides Friday night. I think I'll be working Friday, Saturday, and Sunday nights but I'm not sure. I am going to see the manager tomorrow. He's so lame. I was supposed to talk to him today but I went home Monday night so I called instead. He said there was a store meeting in Grover Beach today at 3 I didn't know about. I told him I had work at my other job and couldn't make it. I don't think I'll make it to Alan's party Saturday night, either. I think I'll just go and see a movie or something. It's a longer drive just to get drunk, and that's lame. He's having this tower reunion party and he lives about an hour away from SLO. A lot of people I'd want to see are in the San Diego area too and I doubt they'd make it up. Anyway, I have work tomorrow at 2pm at Gap and I have to see my IHOP manager so I'll try leaving the house around 7am. Sigh.. Oh well. I got to come home for a bit, see Joseph, see my parents, and all is well once more. As long as I have a full day here, I don't mind the drive. At least, not this summer. I can't wait until fall, when everyone is back in town and there will be tons of places to go. I've made a point to call a lot of people and keep in touch so I don't lose contact with people. I want to keep my friends close! Also, being in school will be good for my brain too because I feel it is being wasted away working at Gap and being fried in the sun. Alright, I think I am done rambling now. Off to do *important* things!
July 11, 2004- I have been way too busy to update. I had so much work and I was up for over 27 hours at one point. I slept ALL day yesterday and into this morning. I can still use another good amount of sleep. Levi's hasn't called me yet so I haven't put in my 2 weeks notice at Gap. I am just waitingg. I suppose I will call them tomorrow. I made me some real food over the past few days and I was proud of myself for doing so. I am going to cook up some broccoli and noodles and have a nice dish tonight as well. I need another break, or at least to do something fun. This upcoming weekend, someone from the dorms is having a huge party and I will probably dirve there (about an hour away from me). Depends if Nikki or Becca will go too. Yeah, if not, I'll work a bit and go to the beach or something. I want to go to the beach at some point and just chillax. I am ready to go home for another weekend, too.
July 8, 2004- So, yesterday my car was rear ended on Marsh St. downtown by some chick. She failed to stop at the same stoplight I stopped at. The car is fine, the trunk opens... all that is fine, or so it seems. The bumper is screwed up, however. There's no big dents, but my license plate got smashed off and we couldn't find it so I have no back plate. Also, the light above the plate got knocked out. There's a lot of scratches and things on it too. I got all of her information and stuff and went to Longs and took pictures. My neck which was somewhat messed up before got really fucked up, so I went to the health center. He is going to give me some muscle relaxers and things to take. It hurts bad. I also tried to go to the DMV to get new plates ordered but they wouldn't let me do it, only my dad, the registered owner. I also went grocery shopping and made some real dinner. Something along the lines of hamburgrer helper with potatoes, but no box or anything. It was good, actually. Anyway, so I went into Gap and got my schedule for next week. It's another whopping 10.5 hours for next week. Woo hoo. Levi's didnt call tonight so I will just keep waiting until they do before I put in my 2 weeks. That would be very dumb. Last night Will and 2 of his friends came into IHOP and I was pretty steady with customers until about 3:30am. I made $50 in tips!! MY highest before last night was $34, and that's when I started 2 hours earlier than normal. So that was excellent. Time flew, I had things to do, I amde a lot of money, and everytihng was peachykeen! Yep, so work at 10:30pm tonight (an hour and a half). I still have a lot of things to do with my online banking and tracking stuff from when I was gone and all of this week, but I haven't done any of it. It's just building and then I don't want to do it even more... agh. My neck hurts, I can't wait to get my pills tomorrow at the pharmacy.
July 7, 2004- Work is complex and complicated. I went to my interview at 2, and it lasted about an hour and a half/. IT went well and they liked me, but with no experience and never working with that manager before, I have to be a sales associate and do an internal position change. I'd get more money that way and that way they can see if I am good enough. I understand it's just somewhat of a bummer. But, they'll hire me back at 7.75/hr and I'll have a solid amount of hours, somewhere between 20-28. If I never get asst manager, it's still better than a Gap sales associate. Gap is really getting on my nerves and I can't handle it for much longer. Janni, the manager at Levi's will call me tomorrow and I'll start working there soon enough. I want to mkae sure I'm on the schedule first before I give my 2 weeks notice at Gap. That would be dumb to be out of a job after all this. Anyway, the crink in my neck is still there and it hurts badly, this is the second day it's been there. I can't move my head to behind me and left. It hurts. Um, what else, I have to go grocer shopping still and do some other things around the house... fun stuff... I'm going now! Bye!
July 6, 2004- Last night I once again endured late night work. Whee, I missed that. It's good money and that's the only reason why I love it. After waking up, I went to Pismo Levi's to talk to the store manager. I have an interview at 2pm there. I want that job so badly. I might try to work at IHOP like 2 or 3 nights a week. But not 5 nights. And if 3 nights doesn't work for him, I'll just quit. I love to have the bargaining power. I went aroudn to the other outlets and they are ALL hiring. Bull shit therre aren't any jobs out there... agh my roommates make me sick. Not really, I'm over it, actually. I jsut like to complain about them on here. I also went to the bank, post office, Balis, Wal Mart, picked up my IHOP paycheck, and some other things. All in 3 hours! Yay for productive me. I'll rest a bit, go grocery shopping, cook and take a nap before 10:30pm tonight when I work.
July 5, 2004- Back to the SLO life. The fourth girl in the house moved in on the 1st so I met her. She's looking for a job (really, unlike Haleigh and Cassie) and almost done at Cal Poly. Finally somoene a bit more mature. Cassie will be back late tonight and Haleigh is gone for who knows how long. They're not even here and I'm mad at Haleigh. They used my computer for IM and stuff and left it running. It just shows some disrespect. I put my passwords back onto my computer and I won't leave it for them to use ever again. I got someone to cover my shift at Gap on Friday, the one that starts at 5am, so I am good with work schedules. I have a ton of errands to do tomorrow and wrote down all of them on my white board. It includes going to Levi's tomorrow and begging for an interview in a nice way. I found my old employee evaluation and I maed a copy of it for them. I hope they will talk to me! I also have to go to the bank, go grocery shopping, go to the post office, do some things online, and some other stuff. Wheeee.... fun stuff. I am hungry, I need to find something to eat! I have another 3 and a half hours until work, so I get some more relax time. I got in around 5:45pm so it's enough time to unpack, eat, lounge, shower and so forth. Yay!
July 4, 2004- I am somehwat glad to be going home tomorrow (to SLO). I had a wonderful time at home, but if I were here a few more days, I'd run out of things to do. Well, I already have so leaving is a good thing. I do not want to be in SLO, wishing to come back to Woodland but somewhat regretting it because of how "boring" it is. I saw Anne and Joseph, went shopping, visited, ATE, talked to my family, saw my cats and dog, just an overall good rest. I do want to get back to talk to Levi's and go to the bank and that sort of thing. I had a decent day today as well. I went into Davis and spent a lot of the day at Anne's house. We'd check the park but it wasn't crowded until much later in the evening. I walked around to try to run into familiar faces, but I had little luck. It's alright, I guess I just hoped to give a few people hugs and have a 3 minute conversation with people. I haven't seen a lot of people since graduation. I guess more and more people aren't going to be around Davis any longer. I mean hell, I was almost going to be in SLO for today if I had work. But the firework display was good and long, and I had fun watching it. I love the Fourth, it's just some nice time. Oh, but it is F-ING HOT in Sactown. I forgot how truly miserable heat is. and it was only mid 90s. I lost my heat tolerance. I am a disgrace to NorCal. Off to pack so I can leave after I wake up tomorrow!
July 3, 2004- AGH! I worte a ton and it deleted. Well, I guess to recap, I hate work. I finally spoke to someone at IHOP and I do work Monday though Friday still. I have about 16 hours at Gap this week but one shift starts at 5am, which is impossible since I get off work at 5:30am. No one seems to be able to take this shift, however. I left a ton of messages for people though. Anywho, I am going to call Levi's and beg for an interivew (in a tactful way, of course). I'd much rather take a pay cut and work a steady DAY job. I decided I won't save this summer so I mgiht as well enjoy my week off. So, not only did I not earn income, I spent somewhere between 160 and 200 bucks. That includes some shopping, gas for the round trip and around town, and some other things. I don't care and had fun. I actually had a lot of fun. Thursday night, Amber, Anne, my dad, and I went to the Rivercats game. We CREAMED the Sidewinders, 14 to 1! I spent a lot of high quality time with Joseph, too. He makes me feel so much better about so many things. I am just so happy around him! We even finally went mini-golfing, where we actually tied! I also scrounged around the arcade to find enough token and coupins to play some games. I bought a nifty harmonica too with all my tickets. Woo hoo! Tomorrow I'll walk around D-town for the Fourth with Anne and I know I will run into 1000 familiar faces. How nice that will be. :) I leave for hell, I mean, my crappy-ass house, Monday morning.
June 30, 2004- Crap crap crap. So much has happened since I last updated, I don't know what to say. Basically, I have no idea what I am savinog for, I don't know why my personality mkaes me work so hard for barely anything and I don't know if something is wrong with me or I just need to learn how to relax. I have an issue with money. I also found out Monday IHOP won't be 24 hours, so I don't know where that leaves me in the way of job-wise. I need to call my bad Englsih speaking manager and see if I still ahve a job. Tomorrow I get my schedule for the next calander week (starting Sun July 4) at Gap, so I'll see when the next day I have to be back in SLO is. I may quit both jobs and beg Levi's for an interview. I just don't know. I do know I have to figure out what my goals are for working, figure out what I am saving my money for, and how I can make it through the next 10 weeks with a snae head. I also know I am learning more about ymself, my limits, and more real world stuff than I ever would sitting around home. I just need home to realize that statement is true. :)
June 27, 2004- Today was exactly what I needed. I worked 8 to 11 in the morning, so I basically had the day off. But I did some earn some money! I took a nap, ran an errand, did laundry, washed a million dishes, cleaned our bathroom, watched the NASCAR race (A Jeff win! Whee!) and basically just relaxed. I got off work around 7pm last night and I came home and I watched 50 First Dates because my roommmate rented it. I guess sappy movies shouldn't be seen when you imss your family and boyfriend and are going home soon but not quite yet... I got very homesick. I even fell asleep on the phone with Joseph last night. I woke up this morning not remembering hanging up and my cell phone was still flipped open in my hand! Oh man, but it was so nice to talk to him and get stuff done today. I don't have work until Monday night at 10:30pm, so I might make it to the beach tomorrow. I leave Tuesday afternoon to the bay area to see my mom and cats. I'll be in D-town Wednesdxay afternoon until.. well, when I have to work! Latest is IHOP Monday night. I got a bunch of numbers of Gap coworkers so amybe I can find someone to take my shift on the 4th if I get scheduled. I feel much better and have eaten a TON today, and I am still hungry! I feel like a binge eater/anorexic. No good.
June 26, 2004- I think I am getting sick. I got 3 hours of sleep the last two nights in a row, I worked the last 72 hours straight basically. Last night I got a random nose bleed (small, but scary nonetheless) and today I jsut looked like shit. I have giant circles under my eyes and my skin is so pale. I have this crazy swell on my upper lip where it's just purple and chapped. My boss asked me how I was REALLY doing yesterday and I just broke down for like 2 seconds, I felt so bad. I'm not really eating and I know I'm going to get sick really soon if I don't change something. I'm going home Tuesday afternoon and hopefully will spend through next Monday afternoon there. I wouldn't want to live at home for the summer but it is SO nice to go somewhere where I feel loved and get well fed and have no obligations. I am going to find something to eat and not fall over. I have work 8-11am tomorrow morning at Gap. I'll watch the race, and then I can bum around the house all day. I got off Gap at 6:45 today (it's 7:20 now) and I have the rest of the evening to relax. Ahhhh, relaxation.... yay!
June 25, 2004- I am running on empty. Yesterday, I woke up at 2pm, went to Gap 3:30pm to 10:15pm, went working at IHOP 10:30pm to 5:30am this morning, and I just worked at Gap 11-6:30. And now I have work at IHOP in a few hours. Everyone at Gap keeps asking how I'm doing and my boss had a talk with me today about how I was doing and that she doesn't want my fatigue at work to become a problem. Oh man, I just want to SLEEP and then go home and see Joseph and my cats. I work tonight at IHOP like I said and then I have Gap tomorrow at 1. At least I can sleep normally at that time. I wish my home was different here. I had to wash a few dishes to be able to eat tonight. I can't believe they yelled at me (literally yelled) for not washing 2 dishes. My room is messy on her side and I keep tripping ove3r her dumb laundry. Yeah, we all saw what a slob I was in the dorms and stuff but that was my mess. And now that I live with people, I don't leave messes because they are not for other people to deal with. Ugh... I am unsure I can keep this up for 2.5 months.
June 23, 2004- Awww, my R2 parking lot pass expires today. I am completely disjointed from the dorms now. I don't work at Gap today, so these past 2 days have been nice. I can do all my errands during the day and not worry. I had lunch with Will and talked to him. I was glad to see someone I knew besides my dumb roommates. I was supposed to see Becca yesterday, but she slept. Poor girl. We're both so tired. I think I am off to take a nap. Tonight I want to sort all my receipts (I have a TON just collecting) and figure out how I want to keep track of some expenses. It's hard now that a lot of my money is coming in cash form every night. Oh! Becca just called, off to get an oil change in the car.. whee!
June 22, 2004- Last night at IHOP was slow, but good. I only got 3 tables and they were all GREAT tippers. I made conversation and talked with them, which is fu for me and them, passes the time, and results in a larger tip! Plus, they were all people who live off of tips too so I suppose they understand. No work at Gap today or tomorrow. So I went to the bank, finally and deposited my paycheck and a huge ass stack of ones from tips. I felt like a crack dealer. I guess crack dealers wouldn't have bank accounts though. Anyway, I am excited to go home next week. I have some fun plans and get to see the baseball game and see my parents and Joseph... wheee! And sleep normally! The weekend going home made me resort back to normal sleeping hours so I have to relearn how to stay awake. Mikey called me today, and it made me think of other people I should call to keep in touch with. Internet sucks, especially over summer. At least when I sign on, no one else is there. Ah well, maybe everyone is on when I'm not. I guess I'm just not cool like that.
June 21, 2004- What a good weekend. I really needed to go home and feel better about everything and realize summer at Davis would not be better. Plus, I could not imagine hanging aorund here for 3 days when all my roommates did was drink all day. What lame asses. They need jobs. Cassie is having her friends coming up again on Friday, and she told me in advance. I told her I have work and that as long as it is quiet so I can sleep afterwards, whatever. I am thinking about taking a bunch of my stuff home that's out. They "borrowed" one of my DVDs while I was gone, and my VCR, and it just makes me wonder. I put a password on my computer and I think I am going to take all my CDs and thingts home. I'm afraid. Especially if I'm not here at night and her friends are. Poo. I am going to go home or to Nikki's or SOMEWHERE every chance I get, this is just kind of bull shit. But I got some things straightened out this weekend, had long talks with ym dad about this summer and my whole money situation. I know I'll be SO proud of myself years down knowing I apid for everything this summer, but it's just hard when it's going on. I really don't know what I'm going to do, so I am just going to wait a few more weeks beofre I make any decisions. Sigh. I am glad I went home and I am going home again for a longer period of time ina weeka nd a half. I'll see a Rivercats game, go out, have dinner.... Home is nice. But, I wouldn't appreciate it as much if I wasn't down here. On my way down I almost died, literally. I had to swerve into the median because a semi decided I was a small Echo and he wanted my lane space. It was the scariest moment of my life and I had to pull over and I was hyperventalating and it was terrible. It took 30-45min to pull myself together to be able to drive back. Now to unpack and take a shower before work 10:30pm to 5:30am... I get to see Becca tomorrow! That's exciting!
June 20, 2004- So I am home. I made it in 4 hours including a gas stop, thank you very much. Becca's shortcut and open highway sure make up for time. Today my dad and Amber will be home by 3 or 4, and we'll watch the race together and go out to dinner and maybe see a movie tonight. My dad is taking the morning off tomorrow so I'll see him then before I leave. I am kind of worried about the race. I know my dad TiVOs it... but I played around with the TV and I changed channels and I don't know what to do. But I found the race and left it on that channel and I see the record button still on the thing... so hopefully it'll all be alright.... agh! I'm scared. I will die if the race ins't taped. So, I am very glad to be home. I am starting to think staying at SLO was a mistake. But if I were to have coem home, I'd already be hating this summer more than anything. I just have to remember how miserable I was winter break. It's not that I hate my life or anything to that extent, I just had high expectations and hoped for my house and roommates and they got shot down. And I am definately going to destress about the lack of Gap hours. I am making enough at IHOP where my Gap paycheck will be just side money. Shopping money I suppose. Working for 3 hours last night was the best money. I got 23.97 in tips within 3 hours, and I didn't even take that many tables. I am new and so I couldn't take more than 3 at a time. That was hard. The hardest thing is that I don't know the menu, so it's like I have to go back and ask how they want their eggs and go back to the register... it's hard! Agh. But, good money all the same. so yay, a day with my dad! I wanted to see Joseph this afternoon but it just won't work out. It's a bummer but I will see him when I come home for longer next week, so it really isn't the end of the world. Okay, so to end on a positive note, tell your fathers Happy Father's Day!
June 19, 2004- So, I am quite saddened. I figured out my schedule last night and I work graveyard Mon through Friday. And, Gap decided to cut my hours so so I don't work today. So I thought last night well shit, if I don't work until Monday night, why not go home for Father's Day? So I woke up this morning (afternoon, I worked last night) and packed up for the weekend. I went to IHOP before I hit the highway to confirm my schedule.... and I have to work tonight. 5pm to 9pm. Some chick called in sick and I told him I had plans, abut I just couldn't get out of it. I am new you know... but I am so bummed. If I had time to think, I would ahve said I had work at Gap so I really COULNDN'T... But since I already was set on going home for tomorrow, I still will and will leave right after work. I want to see my dad tomorrow. If I didn't plan it it would have been alright to stick around and work, I just got my hopes set on going home. My cousin who lives in Fremont was having a graduation party and I was going to go there and see my dad and aunts and people before going home.... poo. I should stoip writing about it before I get mad. But hey, last night I got 25 bucks in tips and tonight I should do quite well...
June 18, 2004- I have completely lost sense of the concept of today, tomorrow and yesterday. I have been wroking 6 or 8 hours at Gap and then going to IHOP right afterwards and working all night, waking up to go back to Gap again. It's insane. But those damn people at Gap gave me a whopping FOURTEEN POINT TWO FIVE (14.25) hours for next week. I just work Thurs and Saturday. I'm sorry, but that covers like my food bill for the week and a few extra bucks. That's way not cool. New managemtn plus new hires equals bad hours for sure.... But I'll get a ton more sleep and hours at IHOP. Like I've worked at IHOP two nights now and it's the best job ever. It's slow so I don't do much work, I am alone with the cook and a busser and we just chill playing cards or rotating taking naps. we can call anyone we want and eat anything we want... basically we can do anything as long as we don't leave the store and it isn't illegal. My first night wasn't busy at all and we made $26 in tips, but I was shadowing someone to learn and so we split that. And last night, I had 3 tables, and I still came out with 14 bucks. I love good tippers! But I mean that makes my hourly wage (min wage + avg tips/hr) come out to be like almost 9 bucks an hour. And it's like no one. Tonight it'll be busier and time will floy and I will be rollin'.... Thank goodness for tips! Tip a lot next time you go somewhere!
June 16, 2004- Bored I said? Haha.. so I went to IHOP this mornign and they hired me on the spot for the night shift and I start tonight! I am working at Gap 2pm-11pm and then I am going straight to work at IHOP and working until 5:30am. H-O-L-Y-S-H-I-T. I will sleep the weirdest hours and stuff, but it'll be okay. I won't work every night and I'll get Gap to schedule me at least after 3pm, so I can sleep, just at the worst hours. No worries, I'll quit the IHOP job before school starts. Hey, plus I get a free meal.
Later June 15, 2004- I am wondering if the summer in SLO was a great idea after all. After this week it'll be better. I am jsut so sick of the house smelling like pot. So one guy decided to stay another night from last night's party. So another one of his friends has been here the whole day. And all they do is smoke pot every few hours and watch TV. So they stink up the house with that foul smell, and as soon as the smell fades away, they go outside for another hit to resmell up the house. Peh. Cassie says she won't have friends up too often, which makes me feel better. I thought this was going to be an everyday thing. Good. I wouldn't let it be, I'm going to talk to her tomorrow about it anyway. I don't mind her friends over (even though I want to watch TV), it's just the damn pot smell. So anyway, I decided to get a second job, so I turned in an application to VONS and Bali's today. I talked to IHOP today and they are hiring for the grave yard shift and need people. I am going to talk to the manager tomorrow too. I also picked up another shift for tomorrow, so I can get some crap paid for! I can't wait for pay day on Friday, the best Friday ever! It should be pretty good pay, I worked a lot of hours dead week but not too many finals week, so it should be decent. I'm starting to wonder if I should have gone home. I guess I'd just be miserable and bored and wished I would have stayed. It really won't be so bad. I just need to fill my time.
June 15, 2004- It's 1am, and yeah... I am so "not with it." How dorky am I to be updating when there's a party going on at our house. So I came home from work and there were 4 people on the porch, and bout a dozen more in our living room. I guess both my roommates invited a bunch of people over... yeah. If I drink when I'm not expecting it, I get soooo sleepy. I got a call from Borders this evening and I am going to see if I can swing a second job with them. If not, oh well. I'll go to Bali's. Yeah, I'm so freakin' tired and my eye sight is shot, I've done so many typos but I keep correcting them. Ha, so you wouldn't have known if I didn't say! Yes, so I just heard from the back yard my roommate Cassie defending my cupboard of food from her friends that are over. I am happy. I call JUoseph but he ddint answer. I left a message and hopefully he'll get it soon enough. I have to go to bed. NOW.
June 14, 2004- Yeah, so they left this house looking like trash. TRASH! The one girl Haleigh mopped up the kitcken floor and her bathroom. Our bathroom looks like shit. Worse than the dorms. Tomorrow on my day off, I am going to clean it. I went grocery shopping at Food 4 Less this morning too. It was fun in its own way. I spent 29 bucks on groceries.. including 2 gallons of milk, eggs, and a block of mozerella cheese. I feel so self sufficient. Yay! I have work 4-9, and then I am going out with my new roommate and some of her friends that are coming down. Fun times..
June 13, 2004- First entry of Oceanaire sublet posts... I am anxious to see how this summer will play out. I can already tell I will lose a ton of weight. There is no food here except some milk and peanut butter stufff they left behind... great. I made some noodles and they didn't even leave any butter so I am eating it with Italian. Peh. I need to learn how to cook FAST. Oh man. Yeah, so this summer should be something to look forward to. Tomorrow is Victoria's Secret semi-annual sale, so I will hit that up and then no more spending this summer. The girls are nice here, and I should be alright... I miss home and I want to give Joseph a hug.
YOSEMITE 23H Thoughts
June 11, 2004- Last entry at Yosemite 23H. I am packing up the computer in a moment and I'll be getting my brother's help moving the monitor and fridge... all the things I couldn't do on my own. Poo. I was sweating bullets, I already took a full car load to the sublet and I am so tired.... Thank the lord for dollies. Well, I'll be working tonight, I'll spend the night in here, check out tomorrow morning, go to work all day, spend the night in Joseph's room and head to work Sunday morning. Sunday night I'll try to get some things unpacked. I have A LOT of time off, so I'll get a chance to relax and set up my computer and cook and stuff. Sigh... so much to do even though finals are over. Oh, and while on the subject, 7am finals suck ASS.
June 9, 2004- Time for some reflections... Watch out!
My room is looking much emptier and I had the music on... and it went to this 30 minute long rain storm audio that Joseph and I sleep to sometimes. It makes me want to cry. I loved everything about this year. I cannot explain how ready I was to move out and be at college. I am so happy here, in San Luis. I don't regret not going to UCSD.. being an economics major of all things... Egh. I talked to some girls on my floor I never really got a chance to before hand. They are definately all going to call me next year. I think next year will kick this year's ass. I can't imagine how fun it will be. So many people will have apartments to go to, I'll have money because I'll be working, and I'll have my own little island retreat room. I'll have my car all year so I can go out on the weekends, and I can go see Anne if I want to in Irvine. I grew up so much here. I wasn't very sheltered in the fact that I was ignorant about basic things, but growing up in Davis didn't expose me to too many "real world" type things. Plus, the girls I hung out with were really not into going out and doing much. I got to make up for that some here. Oh man, this year was a year of firsts. I'd list them, but who knows who reads this and not everyone needs to know everything... ;) I wrote my dad's card for Father's Day and I just wrote how much I appreciate his help and raising me right to have a successful year. He is just the greatest dad alive. I feel bad for my friends, well, old friends who are going to UC Davis. They didn't get to see as much as I did and meet a bunch of new friends. They hung out with the same people, did the same things, and went home all the time. That's not growing up. I don't know how much I can really say about the issue, since I really am full of myself, I just believe what I do and write it in here. I think the summer will pass quickly and it won't be so bad. I know I'll find a side activity, meet new people, and just have some great fun. Plus, I will amke enough trips to Nikki's and hang out with Will and Becca, visit home to see family and Joseph... This summer won't be bad. I know me, and I'll be itching to get back to school though by mid July. But ignore what I say then, because I need a break. A working relaxing break. I am really proud of my accomplishments here. I tihnk I did an extremely good job of not screwing up and my dad never had to bail me out of jail. I know I make my mom, dad and Amber proud and I can't wait to start life. I feel like I am one step closer to my yacht and vacation home in France... I can feel it... I just need my really awesome truck and "toys" for mountain and lake fun... and damn, I'll be set. I will work for it to, no matter what it takes. I love knowing that even though I got help from friends and family, I am where I am because of me. No one made me go to class everyday, no one told me to do my homework... I am so proud of myself. This summer may get lonely, but it's only 3 months and next fall is MOST DEFINATELY worth waiting for.
June 8, 2004- Yay! Hardest final is knocked out of my way. Booyah. I think I did well enough on my financial accounting midterm to get an A in the class. I knew mostly everything, and I had a good guess on the remaining stuff. I need an 85% or higher to get a 90% for the class. I am so happy I got that one done and squared away. No work today or tomorrow. That's nice. Tonight I have to study for business law (impossible) and pack up at least one more box. That is my goal. I may pack more. Oh, and clean out my fish tank. It still has water from when Squishy lived there. But now it's getting moldy and ucky. Why do I always let things get moldy and ucky? I wash my sheets often, that should get me some points. Anyway, I guess I'm do for "My Opinions on My First Year of College," but that will come later. I don't want to write some huge thing right now.
June 7, 2004- Okay, so I: finished up the English report, got it bound, went to the bank and deposited my checks and got my address changed, went and got lunch at Avenue, went to the health center and got my third hep b shot (no more hold on registration!), sold one book for $26 (bought for 40, hell yes!), went to turn in the CD form of the Englsih report, wrote a memo evaluating my performance in the Englsih class, studied for accounting, went to VGs, and now I am here! Woo hoo! Must go off and study some mroe before I have work at 10pm-1am. I figure I can get some more studying done tonight, and then I can go to sleep by 2am and wake up around 10, still having an extra 2 hours to study. Fun times......
June 6, 2004- What a fantabulous weekend. Friday night I went to that party with Ryan and Bec. I was the DD and I would have had mroe fun drinking, because by the end no one was drunk and I had no one to talk to. It still had nice people. Very nice. I also got to see Ryan throw up red stuff! Woo hoo! Saturday I worked a full shift 10:30-7:30. I didn't want to pay for parking in the structure, so Becca and Ryan picked me up on the way to Applebee's. That was really good food and was a lot of fun. The power went out and it was spooky. People started yelling and screaming and such. Civilization goes down the tubes when the lights go out. It remminded me of Lord of the Flies. (Good book!) Then Ryan treated us special ladies to Bali's and it turned out to be a really great evening. Funny when you get Joseph and Will together, they always end up talking politics! Their apartment will be such a blast. Anyway, not the point. After coming back from all that good times, Becca called me and we went out to KX and had fun! I had work at 8am and so I didnt get "too" drunk, and the most wonderful person ever (Ryan) picked me up. Yay for Ryan! I could have gotten other rides back, but I didnt' learn that until this morning. TOO late. Very nice of him. Today I felt pretty sick (didn't throw up) and was fine after I ate lunch. I had a good day at work, opened another Gap Card, and am looking forward to next weekend! It couldn't come any sooner! Good times, good times, tons of fun this whole weekend, couldn't be better! Well, I need to go get dinner because I am starving but otherwise, yes.
June 4, 2004- Day off and oh so nice... Yay! So I am going to a "costume party" with Ryan and Becca... it better be costume, I dressed up! Anywho, I got to pull out my wig, seen on my old Bogus Ball pictures. It's so funny, the girls across the hall or going out and they look so cute and slutty, which is funny because these are the ones the do or did bible study. Girls gone wild! No, they're not that bad. They're just being fun. I should hang out with them next year. Yes, so today I am done with classes, 3 finals to go, and I'm DONE baby! I worked on my English report today with Scott and everything is looking good. I have to get help trying to compile our many saved documents into one because we have to turn it in via CD. I wonder if we turn it in on Monday if any of the other group members will know. What if we both got hit by a car tomorrow, how screwed would they be.... Anyway. I don't plan on being hit by a car. Knock on wood... work tomorrow!
Later June 3, 2004- I forgot I posted today, that was like at 10am. Now it's 11pm. I love my job. I really analyzed the environment today because IO turned down Levi's this morning, and I swear it's like they knoew. People gave me all these compliments and kept telling me how great I was doing and all sorts of things. It was just so great. I am so excited! I got my schedule and I have 30 hours next week (finals week). About 20 of them is on the weekend. So I mean only 10 during the week. Not bad. I got scheduled to 1am on Thursday, when I want to go to country night and leave early to get enough sleep for my 7am final. So, I switched schedules on that day with someone. YAY! So yes, my schedule is a bit shorter but exactly what I need on finals week.I met another person today. I swear, so many people work there I'll never stop meeting people. But yes, very good day and I am glad the parking structure people left early so getting out fo work early worked out afterall. Okay, off to go do pre-bed activities (and that's not meant to sound sexual).
June 3, 2004- 30% off sale at the bookstore! Yippee! I bought a belated mother's day present (a stuffed cat that looks exactly like old cute Spike) and a father's day present (a Cal Poly dad hat). I need something else though that's cool and clever for my dad for father's day. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm He says he wants something clever and funny for his shelves up in the loft. But I am not clever nor funny. I guess it's up to Zach again to come up with the game plan... If I got a Petco pet tag for this stuffed cat I got for my mom and put Spike on it, she would cry. So I don't think I will do that. Yesterday, Levi's called and they want an interivew for Tuesday. If they just got off their butts and called me two weeks ago, a week after I talked with them, I'd be estatic. But I like the Gap job, it'll be better for my schedule and this summer, and I think I will enjoy it a lot more. So I called the Levi's manager this mornign and she was bummed to hear I won't do the interview, but that's okay. All I can think about is "No! You can't have the Mango!" Haha, old SNL, how great. To know you have more bargaining power than the rest of the world is pretty nice. Being in demand is cool. But the best lesson of it all is that sometimes a title and a pay raise isn't everything there is to a job.
June 2, 2004- One time a few years ago a bee was chillaxing on my head and I just randomly scratched my heead and it stung me. tHat it hurt so bad and I didn't even know there was a bee there. That's like this cramp I just got. I am just chillaxing and doing English and BAM. Ugh. Anyway, I have realized that most of my posts are really choppy and don't flow and read well. But, ah well. I love going back and re-reading my old things. I feel like a dork. If you must, you can link to my old inputs from the main site. I want to packa few more boxes tonight. I realized I don't have any other available time this week. Also, for people who read this, Becca can't do dinner on Friday so tomorrow when I get my schedule for finals week, we can figure out some good times for this dinner. Poo. So hard to coordinate multiple schedules! I get off at 7:45 on Saturday if we want to do a later dinner... anywho. I get paid at the end of the week, so excited! I need money! I also figured out the best way to get people a 50% off GAP, but I will only do it for a select few. Mwa ha ha.. yeah I don't want to lose my job but I think this would work out just swimmingly.
June 1, 2004- Finally, a chance to sit down, even though it's 11:30pm. Englsih 8-9am has been cancelled all week except forour group meeting on Thursday. That's nice. So in math I got back my midterm and it was a pathetic 84. Considering that I got 100% on the first 2, this is quite disheartening. Okay, no shipment until 1am the night before tests! After that, I went to lunch at Veranda Cafe and I feel SO dumb for not going there beforehand. SOOO good. Oh man. I saw my brother there working too. He kept telling everyone I was his sister and it made me feel special. :) Yeah, then I went to class 12-2, paid for Cerro, waited an hour to get my hep b shot (whihc I didn't get since they were taking too long and I had to go to work), grabbed food for dinner, then RUSHED to work. I got there 2 min late (no one noticed) and just got back. Busy busy busy... no work tomorrow. They actually asked me if I could work, but I am already at almost 40 hours! So, none of that. Plus, I need time to do my homework for this week. I need to eat now.
May 31, 2004- It's a month and a day for Joseph and I... Wow. I think about everything I have done and what I am doing and I wonder if I would have believed it a year or two years ago. I felt that way when I got my balck belt. If you told me in 6 thgrade I'd have a black belt (before I starter karate), I would have laughed. I guess not believing you can do something is jsut truly wrong, because you enver really know. I am so happy to be working. Besides the constant pain of my feet, I feel so good about myself and what I'm doing. It is so positive there and everyone is just uber nice. I love getting to provide the level of customer service we do. I feel good about my work at the end of the day, and that's important. My dad pointed out that I've now seen two completely different corporate styles, and they both have their pros and cons, which is true. I hope Levi's calls sometime soon so I can tell them no. It will make me happy. I have one homework assignment this week, and have to work on the final draft of the English report. Oooh, we got a 91 on our PowerPoint too! Yeehaw! Anyway, I added a few more hours to my schedule tomorrow and get to learn the cash register, so that should be interesting enough. Yep yep, so it's 11pm and I must get set for bed. I put away 2 boxes of things.... Dresses, jackets, dress shoes, pictures, and posters. My room is looking more bare and it makes me sad. I like my room.
May 30, 2004- So hard to update when I'm never here! My Friday midterm went swell... not. Oh well. I got 100s on the first 2. I can get a C on this and a B on the final and still get an A in the class. Yesterday I worked 7 hours. I saw Christina downtown so she joined me for lunch and we cought up. That was nice. I have the most horrible shoes and my feet are in pain all the time, when I'm sleeping, the next morning, in hte shower... I took out my foot spa but it is only temporary relief. I need new GOOD shoes. Some sort of flat slides. I am wearing my boots today because they are pretty comfy and I cant handle any more blisters from my other shoes. I just can't. Anyway, I have to grab some food and then it's off to work, 10:30 to 7:30 today! Hopefull Joseph will figure out my VCR and record the race!! Ahhh I missed it last week....
May 28, 2004- Killer. So last night I worked until 1am. I'd MUCH rather work the sales floor than do shipment! Okay, have you ever thought about the censors on clothes? I didn't. Well, You and a group of a few others stand around a table and attatch censors on every garment for 2 and a half hours. Oh man, my feet were killing me, my back was killing me.... It wouldn't be too bad but I had a midterm at 9am! I think I did fairly well, I totally missed one of seven questions. That's like 15%, but I think I can score up some partial credit. Oh well, I got 100% on the last 2. I can handle a lower grade on this one. No worries... work 2-5, dinner, then Ryan's play! Act. Whatever. I have lots of cleaning to do, I want to get some things organized and cleaned up. I brought back some boxes from work so I can start packing some unimportant things.
May 27, 2004- Our English power point went very well. I wish one of the nonknowledgable members spoke about some important topics, but I think it went rather well. We'll know our grade tomorrow by e-mail, rather than waiting forever. We aren't meeting tomorrow, and next week we don't meet until our scheduled appointment with her on Thursday. So, more sleep in. Yay! My math midterm is tomorrow, and I don't know how well I'll do. My grades are slipping these past few weeks. I get a low grade on the bus law midterm the other week, an 86.5 on my accounting midterm (good grade but I really knew it well enough to get a higher score) and yeah. Now this midterm. I ahve to 100%s ont he earlier midterms. But I want a good score on this so I can just do average on the final and be okay. I work 8 hours plus an hour lunch, and I start at 4! So that means I have to be there until 1am. It will be 2 am by the time I get to sleep. I am going to do math homework during the lunch break. Shipment is tonight, so I can wear sneakers and things like that. How nice. No heels for too long...
May 26, 2004- So, I dropped off my availability schedule for finals week and yes, bought more things. I got $73 worth. I am SO done spending. I have spend about 250-300 dollars. Plus, I have incurred other expenses this week. I don't need any more clothes for a while and I am excited to just work and earn the money back. Yeah, so my first 3 weeks of pay are goignt o clothes, but you know what? That's until the end of summer. So I can start summer saving! Woo hoo! Okay, I know people are sick about reading all of these things about Gap, so I will talk about English!
This week in English we are doing powerpoint presentation on our group proposals (my group is the personality survey to better match rooommates.) Well, the people proposing to keep the bull test on site went on Monday. Housing is going to go into the place where the testing site is now. So, they did the presentation and it was good, but they skimmed over the opposing arguments fairly quickly. So I asked a question for them to expand upon the opposing argument, and this one girl went OFF. She said since I was a freshman, I don't know anything and I was inexperienced. She insulted me in front of the whole class and told me housing was a dumb idea. It was the most disrespectful and rude thing someone has ever done to me. Another group member covered her and tried to answer the question in a less hostile manner. On the peer review sheet, I wrote how terrible it was. Anyway, that pissed me off all day but I thought whatever. The next day, one of the group members apologized, which was very nice of her. So I bring this up because my professor worte me an e-mail apologzing for the incident, wanted to let me know she hopes I don't get discouraged from participating. She also transcribed my comments along with other students' comments about the incidednt on the grade sheet. she said she's going to ahve a meeting with the student too. That amde me so happy. I am glad the incident was noticed and other people are upset about it too. Anyway, my powerpoint is tomorrow and we are meeting at 5:30pm to prepare! Yay!
May 25, 2004- I finished my third day and I'm becoming "fluent in Gaponese." Don't ask. But we finished our orientation stuff, and I got to work on the floor today! For like an hour, but oh well. I was scheduled to get off at 11, but I gues whenever you're done you get off, so we got off at like 10:30. That's how Levi's worked. We were scheduled to 10, but there had to be something disasterous to hold us there past 9:20. (We closed at 9). Anywho, I really like my job and felt so nice in my new clothes today. I have a few more purchases to amke before the end of the month... and my 50s reset.... Yay!
Later May 24, 2004- Today was really hectic and insane. I had class 8-10, left for shopping at 11 and came back just in time for my 2-4 class. I spent a few dollars shy of $200 but I feel so good about it all. I spent $126 at GAP getting $226 worth of stuff, both figures including tax. I feel so good aoubt my buys. I don't have anything cute or happy or colorful. Now I fel so good about myself. And because things are cheap, you can get them in the colors that look good, but I would never buy. For example, I got this cardigan, regularly $44. Usually I'd never even think twice about it, but it was a special deal to employees to get it for $16! So I was able tog et this really pretty purple. I mean, If I even bought it at normal price, I'd definately would have gone with the typical black, white or khaki color. So I mean it just makes me so happy. I've showed the girls on my floor my purchases and talked to everyone about what I bought... So anyway, I spent the other amount of money on 4 pairs of shoes and 3 more shirts at Mervyn's. Even though GAP has a good discount, things like tanktops are still cheaper on sale at Mervyn's than with the discount at GAP. Anyway, I have enough things to get me through the week, but I will need more! I will but a few more items perhaps but then I am not going to buy much else until I see my first paycheck. I have given this much thought and I really like it there. Everyone is so friendly and cheerful and I feel so good about myself in my new clothes. Even though Levi's would be good experience and higher pay as an assistant manager, I wouldn't like it. I'd just be happy for my paycheck. I was first intimdiated by how nice everyone looked and didn't think I could fit in. But I can, and I feel so great about myself. Also, the GAP pulls in on an average Saturday what Levi's pulled in on the day after Thanksgiving. So everything is well organized, managed, and constant business. I HATE being bored! I am excited for my next shift, whihc is tomorrow! Isn't that great, to be excited for my shift?
May 24, 2004- So it's 1:35am on Sunday night/Monday morning, but I can't sleep. I keep thinking aobut this summer and money and buying things tomorrow and this new job and what if Levi's calls and how much I will save over summer and what to do about calling Borders and how will I get through these next three weeks of school! It's driving me insane. I'm not upset or anything like that, just I have so much on my mind it is keeping me awake. I I know I can't make any decisions about the Levi's assistant manager job until I get an offer, but I still wonder. And about getting through the next few weeks... Okay, I didn't say this in the toher post, but I am working 35 hours this week! I told them my availability because I thought I might get a shift or two during the first few weeks, but nope, they took it as "this is everytime Yaelle can and will work." Although I have a 3 hr shift on Friday, I am working every day this week except for Wednesday. It'll be awesome for summer, but right now? Man, I work until 11pm tomorrow and have class at 8am the next day! I work until 1am on Tuesday night, but thankfully I don't have class until 2 on Wednesday. Gosh, I just don't know how I'm going to do this! It's only for 3 weeks, and these three weeks of pay will recover all my costs to get a wardrobe and all other misc. costs AND still ahve some left over. I made my availability for finals week in the assumption that I will work every hour I say I can. So, I left me time for country night, studying, and dinner out with my favorite boyfriend before we depart for summer. Yay. Ugh, I should get some sleep, I really should, but I can't. Joseph is coming up in about 20 minutes, I'll just wait up for him. Sigh, so much to talk about. I'd call my dad, but it's way too late. I would have to be in non-stop tears or hospitalized for me to want to wake him up this late. It can all definately wait until tomorrow. Maybe once I convince myself I deserve to buy myself new things (it has been a LONG while for an actual shopping spree), I can use that as a relaxing indulgence. I need to buy gas tomorrow too. Crap. I will stop this post now. It's getting long and off topic. And, it is making the post from a few hours ago seem far away! Poo!
May 23, 2004- Oh man today was my first day at GAP. It was insane. so much information to go through and stuff. I could tell you all about the GAP card! Anyway, I also realize I barely have any clothes to wear, and I don't have a single pair of shoes besides my boots to wear. It'll be expensive to start there, but once I have some basics, it won't be so bad. I am shopping tomorrow inbetween classes. I need stuff! Plus, I want to get new things anyway. But shit, my first paycheck will be gone. I guess the extra hours will help. Like yesterday, I bought a bunch of things for my summer palce at WalMart (measuring cups, spatulas, some dishes, stuff like that) and that was $30. I basically worked that off today. Tomorrow I'll probably work off my shoes I'll buy, and then the rest of the week will be more clothes. I get 50% off six items per month, and 30% off everything else all the time. Not bad, but some of the things I can get a Ross for cheaper. :) Now off to do some homework since I will have no time later!
Later May 21, 2004- YAY! I got a job at GAP! I already have 25 hours scheduled for next week, and they want to hire me a the rate Levi's ended me with. $7.50/hr! Yay! YAY!!!!! I start Sunday!
May 21, 2004- La di da.. so tired... The girl who was supposed to print out the Englsih report was like 30 minutes late to class. We were going to run back to the dorms and print out a copy, but that would have SUCKED. Ugh. Group work. What a bitch. I am not going to do a SINGLE SHRED of homework this weekend. I had my Engl first draft due, my accounting project due, and match homework due. I have a math midterm next Friday, an English PowerPoint nest Thursday, and NOTHING ELSE until Finals. Okay, some math homework, but you know. Sigh... I want to sleeeeep. I ended up printing out my accounting report in navy since I remembered I still ahve colored ink. Weird thing was is that in Excel, you can make the lines a different color other than black. At least I didn't know how. So I printed what I could, and then I went to the printing place in the UU with a disk and got my other 6 pages out for $1.61. Not bad. Kinkos is 54 cents PER PAGE!!!! Oh man, no way, Jose. Anyway, it's over, I can relax... I am going to a business banquet that is semi formal/formal attire with Will tonight. It was five bucks, I ahve nothing else to do, and I get prime rib! Yay! Happiness pie.
May 20, 2004- KILL ME NOW! My day: class 8-10am, English work 10-11, ate lunch, OH, and studied 11-12, midterm 12-1:30, 2-6:30 English work, 6:30-7:15 dinner, 7:15-10pm English work. KILL ME NOW. It's 10:30pm and my eyes are strained and my head hurts. No way am I doing math homework for tomorrow. This basically ends everything until Finals. My accounting project is due tomorrow, and I need to find a place to print these like 12-15 pages. Maybe I'll run to Kinkos tonight... KILL ME NOW.
May 19, 2004- Yay, so many things happened today. I'll just walk you through it... Yay! So I went to my 10:30 doctor appointment, only to realize it was at 11:30! So I grabbed an early lunch and then went to my English prfofessor's office hour. I talked to her about our group project and I feel a lot better about what needs to be done. We will be appropriately credited! Went to the doctor, and I paid $39 in fees and things. Oh man, so expensive! I also talked to her aabout how easily I bruise. I got some blood drawn and they are going to test my platelet level and make sure I dont have something wrong with me. Ugh, blood be drawn.... AGH! Okay, so then I worked on English for 2 hours and got ready for my interview at 3:45. It was at GAP. I think I have an excellent shot. It was a group interview, and the other person said a few bad things and was late. Yay for me! Anyway, they loved my experience with jeans... they couldn't believe I was good at folding jeans and liked it! Hahaha.. Finally. A good interview. They start training on Sunday so I should know very soon if I got it or not. Yeah, so now I am taking a break from studying for my crazy accounting midterm. IT's hard because it's on 3 unrelated chapter (things dont build off now chapter to chapter, each chapter is different) so I have to really review the details from the older material. Poo. I got a 96 on my last midterm, so I have some room for error on this one, although I wouldn't like to. Okay, yep yep... Tomorrow will be insane with terrible amounts of work. AGH this week needs to be over! I'm actually in a good mood, despite my rantings. :)
May 18, 2004- Decisions decisions... Oh man. Sigh, lots of thinking to do. Anyway, enough of that. Englsih is a downward spiral of doom and gloom. I got a C on my midterm. I am not a C student. Agh, man all these assignments are getting Bs and Cs, even though we work so hard on them. I am afraid of getting a C in the class. I do NOT deserve a C in the class. I tihnk I'll get a B, the final project will really pull us up. I am hoping at least... AGH! I do more for this GE than my crazy 5 unit accounting class. I have a midterm on Thursday I must devote almost all Wednesday too, but this English project must get done! Agh! I am so stressed! I sense an all nighter on Thursday. Thank goodness for Homestarrunner.com. That saves me from insanity. Okay, off to do more homework. Why doesn't anyone else do as much homework as me? It gets frustrating. But, what would I really be doing if not homework... Theme Hospital? Crying? Talking to my dead fish? Yeah, I'll take homework, please...
May 17, 2004- It's 9pm and I can't stand all this English work. I worked probably 6-8 hours on my project today, I lost count. I had Becca print out some black and white copies for me for tomorrow. She doesn't like it. Well, Becca, this is some quality stuff! Hmph! Anyway, I have many things to do tonight. I worked on English all day, so I still ahve math and accounting homework to do. But all of this is what's going on at the current moment, bu is really insignificant to how I really feel inside. The cold cloudy weather today probably refelcted my mood. When you know one thing, but want something else, that's a really tough situation. I wrote another one of my personal letters this morning. It is really deep and really reflects how I feel. To kind of quote my own letter: "This morning when I woke up in bed, I felt like someone beat me up and left me laying to bleed to death. I got up and went to the mirror. My eyes were surrounded by black and my face was red and puffy. I was suprised there weren't scars on my chest because I felt like I had been cut and stabbed." I'm not a poet, I don't know how to express my emotions, but this is the best way I could describe my feelings this morning. This is was more than I ever like to post, so I will stop there and get bury myself in my studies once more. Oh, yeah, by the way, Borders called and wants to hire me in July. Woo hoo for me...
May 16, 2004- I feel like a dog that got rescued from the pound and now must be fixed up. Well, I believe I have my first cold sore on my mouth ever (I've never had one so I'm not sure, but I am sure) and my skin is really dry and so on. So I went to the gas station and Rite Aid. First of all, I've never bought gas at over 2.03, so 2.37 makes me want to cry. At least I have super car! But oh man... not even 5 gallons for 10 bucks? INSANE. I remember when I was happy to get over 3 gallons for 5 bucks. That made my day. I think that's around the 1.60/70 range. Do the math. Anyway. Rite Aid I got all sorts of lotion and shaving gel and mouthwash and cold sore things... it makes me feel better. So I am using my white strips and cold sore gel and put a lot of lotion on so I feel like this sick old puppy. All this gloop and glop... Egh. I don't know what my problem has been this past week. I tihnk the job hunting is wearing me down. I really think that's what it is. And the stress of my HUGE English report due on Friday... yeah, that doesn't help. I wanted to work on a lot of it today, but only got a bout a page of text done. Madness. Tonight and tomorrow will be big working opportunities. And then, I MUST MUST MUST study and do a lot of work to prepare for my accounting midterm on Thursday. Agh, very stressful times. Need a job... need English to be done with... need beach time!
May 15, 2004- Today was eventful and uneventful at the same time. I basically finished my crazy long accounting project. Just have half a dozen yes/no questions for office hours. I didn't get anything done on English today, but hopefully I will tomorrow! About 18 unwritten pages and graphics remain... due Friday! This class is not worth all this time and effort. It teaches some good skills, but this prject is extreme! Anyway, the night race was on and poo... Junior won... POO. I want to see Troy. I have to wait for Becco to come back because I know she said she wanted to see it... Yeah, so I don't think these Whitestrips are rally working. I think it's partly due to the package being close to the expiration date. Oh well. I'm on Day 5 or something, and I missed like 2 dosages. Oh well, it was worth a try. I'll finish the package. Hmm, what else... Oh last night I ended up going out with Nikki, but the town was dead so we sat on a wall out by Foothill and talked and stuff. Fun times. Anyway, don't know what to do tonight... and it's 9pm!
May 14, 2004- Yeah, wel Border's never called so I gues that's the end of that. I finally pulled my head out of my ass and called Levi's yesterday. I had an informal interview with the store manager. She seemed really nice and someone I could work well with. They are hiring for a part time asst manager and I think I got a shot. A real good shot. Sales associate is like a guarantee, if I can't get asst manager. I've given up, I just need a JOB. This is probably one of the most frustrating times I've had in a long time. It's a lot of rejection. I am also really stressed out with my Englsih class. We have this giant project due on Friday, and basically half our team is not going pull through. I don't think me and this other guy can make it. I want summer to come. The only thing that excites me about this quarter is financial accounting. But that excitement is over. I still love it, but I just need a break. I'm in a somewhat sour mood because I have ZERO to do on a Friday night... I mean everyone is doing something else. Also, today I looked for Squishy in the bowl and he was dead on the floor. He commited suicide! I didn't kill him! It is hard, I know it's just a fish, but it's just another fish dead.... and I was doing a really good job with Squishy. It's so sad for me because it is coming at a time of the rejection feeling. I am sad now, and for more reasons then I'd like to state. Poo.
May 13, 2004- Man, I totally failed the midterm for business law yesterday. No, this isn't a "oh, I got a B but that's horrible so I failed".... it is "wow I didn't know half the stuff on there and get a 50%." So, hopefully I can get a B in the class with the help of a curve. Also, my second interview for Borders was yesterday. It went OK, but I know I could have handled a few questions better. God damn, it's just more stress. I should hear back by tomorrow. But the fact that it's Thursday early afternoon worries me.. they called me back within an hour after my first interview! So, who knows. Gosh, I hope I get it. It'd be fun and good experience. And then I can focus more on things happening NOW, not my job for the summer. I mean this is taking up so much time and effort. I am going to call all the places that haven't called me for an interview tomorrow. I'll call Petco, Gap, Cost Plus, and Bed Bath & Beyond. Check on the "status of my application." What bull. Anyway, I will bhe so happy when I get a job. Monday is grocery store app day. If Borders doesn't come through, that is. Agh! At elast I know how to answer some questions that I missed at all my other interviews... Borders clued me in to the "right" answers. Now I know why Victoria's Secret didnt want me... Agh! Rejection = Bad! I have a ton of work this weekend. Fortunately, I can sleep in on Sunday again because this week the race is a night race on Saturday. I want to see Troy this weekend. I want next week to be OVER. So much to do... at least "I Will Survive" just came on my ITunes, I love it when the right music plays at the right time. Sorry for any typos in all that :)
May 12, 2004- I had some crazy dreams last night, especially considering I wasn't on codeine! My first dream had to do with Becca's freind Katie (who gives me lots of weird vibes anyway). She stole my wallet and somehow made copies of mycredit cards and drivers license and stuff and was doing all sorts of illegal things using my name and stuff. It was really stressful and crazy, so I found Ryan who made a short cameo in my dream. He flashed me my credit cards and said he had a copy of my room key and wanted to kill me! So I went down the hall to Becca's rooma nd she basically showed me the same thing and said she stole and crashed my car. It goes on, and although it doesn't seem that scary in writing, my dream was UBER scary. I woke up at around 2:30am and called Joseph and made him come up since I was very spooked. Then, my next dream had to do with Squishy! I got another fish and it kept having babies and I had to keep getting rid of them. It was way weird. I had to make all these trips to the pet store and they would inspect the fish and just throw away all the female fishies. It was really sad. Anyway, that dream was long and I remember it, but it's not that interesting. THEN, I had a dream about my second interview. So I have an interview at 1:30 today, and I kept missing it! The first time, I went to the cafe line to show good faith and buy a drink, but the line was GINORMOUS and I didn't get out of line until after 2. It was terrible. Then, I woke up in my dream thinking I dreamed missing the interview. But somehow I missed the interview, although I don't remember how. Something to do with forgetting it or transportation issues. Well, in my dream I wake up and think wow, I just keep dreaming I miss it! Well, So now as I tihnk for real I am going, me and someone else (I don't know who I am going with) get attacked. We have this crazy Kill Bill type showdown and it was erally scary and bloody. We finally won, but it was well past 3 by the time it was over. I don't remember much more, but that's a lot!
Second interview at 1:30, business midterm at 3, and it's 10:40 now! Afew hours to study... ahhh!
May 11, 2004- I have a midterm in business law. I should study, and I will, I just REALLY don't want to. I have my interview with Borders at 6pm, and then I have to go straight to Becca's banquet. At least I won't have to change because it's "business casual" there as well as my interview. If Borders and other Madonna places fall through, I am going to make some new resumes for grocery stores, and then June 1st is Levi's time. Or at least all Pismo stores. I'll apply to Pac Sun and those places too. Who knows, GAP may even call too. Just have to keep my hopes up. Right now I am doing my laundry, FINALLY, I've needed to do it forever. I'll have an odd amount on my card. I don't want to put more on it, but wasted money.. agh! The Jew in me is exposed! I have a lot of work to do between now and th 21st (next Friday). I'll have bus law, English, and financial accocunting midterms, my gigantic English report due, my acounting porject due, and lots of math homework. I actually had English cancelled today (jury duty for the prof) so I skipped math which was right after it. I deserve a sleep in! I didn't turn in the homework due, which is okay because I got another 100 on my second midterm and have turned in all my homeowrk thus far. Actually, in math, I could get an 80% on the third midterm and a 48% on the final and get a 90% in the class. Sweetness. Off to attend to laundry!
May 10, 2004- Drama drama drama.... Can't wait until summer! Anyway, I went to Madonna to put out some more applications. I went to (in this order): Borders, Petco, World Market/Cost Plus, and then Bed Bath and Beyond. When I was filling out my application to Bed Bath and Beyond, my phone rang, but I didnt answer it. Well, after I leave Bed Bath and Beyond, I get a call from Borders wanting an interview! How funny! So I called it a day after that, because all 4 places are hiring and I wouldn't want to work at Sears or Mervyn's. I'd go to Levi's in Pismo before that happened. That made me really happy. So my phone is on and I am awaiting any more calls! Unfortunately the interview overlaps plans with Becca, so hopefully she won't be too dissapointed when I tell her the news. We are still on for the Blake Shelton concert on Wednesday (which I still need to buy tickets for...) Doesn't get much better than buy one get one free! Poor Blake Shelton.... can't even sell out half the theater. Anyway, today is Day 2 of 14 for my Crest Whitestrip dealio. I think I saw some results last night... Who knows. They are on right now so that's why I am talking about it. I put them on wrong yesterday (don't ask how) and they were uncomfy and goopy and just plain gross. Now that they are on RIGHT, they are tolerable but not fun. Anyway, last night I drove to campus market and got some money for my laundry card. I MUST do laundry tonight! Ahh!
May 9, 2004- Okay, so after working on English for NINE hours, I was sp ready to get knocked out. I thought about taking some codeine and getting a great night's sleep since there is no race today (them rednecks like their mamas). I told my mom I got her something and hadn't mailed it, which is true, I got her a card. But I didn't get her a gift. But that's what it sounds like, so I need to go find something. I want to get her soemthing too, but I don't have the money. I feel so stressed from not having a job. I feel like summer is almost here (which it is) and I don't ahve anything lined up! Tomorrow I am going to Madonna and putting out a ton of applications. I've given up on getting what I want, because I tried that. It's now time to get a J-O-B. Last night, Becca and I went to IHOP and that was nice to get out of the dorm. With Nikki and Joseph gone, and I thought Becca was gone, I realized how little I have to do. This summer will be great because I'll make a lot more friends and get out a lot more. I know it. I need to get food, it's past 5 and I haven't eaten anything yet but an old package of Fruitos.
May 7, 2004- After enduring crazy amounts of stress last night, I feel much better this morning. I had such a terrible night's sleep. Today, in about an hour or so, I am going with Joseph downtown to Kinkos and then off to Pismo! He says he needs a lot of new shirts and pants, which he does. I am so glad I get to go shopping with him! Excitement! And I can drive! I need to put my Jimmie decal on the car ASAP too. Yep yep, today will be amusing, and tomorrow will be a ton of work for English. I didnt send the Mother's Day card out yet, even though I have it.... Blah! I meant to. I will mail it today I suppose. If I can find it. Oh well. I'm glad it's the weekend. How many more weeks do we have? I know it's going by so fast, but I feel like there is still so much more to go. Aren't we finished with week 6? Summer is almost here...
May 6, 2004- Busy busy... so I have a math midterm I ahve yet to study for, hours of homework ahead, and I have yet to do any of it. I went to this seminar tingh where they told us aobut this internship. I took it with a close ear because it was all hype and jazz. I even made the steps to say I was interested, keeping my options open. But now I realize that is bad, and I hope they don't actually contact people. The only names and numbers they have is for me and my parents. I just hope they don't bug us. Poo. I learned a lot though about business from how the people were recruiting and methods they used.... Anyway. Yes, amth midterm tomorrow and job searching tomorrow. After crazy times at AGR last night for Cinqo de Mayo (spelling?) I just want to sleep. For undisclosed reasons, Joseph has been nothing but an angel to me. I need to find a way to pay him back.
May 5, 2004- Check out my 2 part NASCAR photo section! It's quite nifty. The last picture on part 2 is my favorite.... Anyway, I did a lot of homework yesterday, but I am no where near done for the week. Damn. Last night I got a call from this guy I met and there is some summer internship they are interviewing people for (about 50 spots, 500 interviewed). He said it's for Cal Poly business majors and it build their leadership and business skills. He said the average pay is like $8200 for the summer. So I am not knowing what exactly it is.. it almost seems to be a scam if it pays that well. Anyway, I am bringing a resume and stuff to the informational meeting and I'll see. That's tomorrow at 3. I am still bummed VS didn't call. I will call them Friday again if they don't call by then. Why can't people tell you WE WON'T CALL YOU or NO YOU DIDN'T GET IT... not oh I'll get back to you and not. How lame. Anyway, I love Wednesdays. My only class is 2-4, so I get maximum sleep and a nice restful day. I am meeting my English group at 6 and then going out. I won't get too smashed since I have an 8am class. But yay!
May 4, 2004- Before I go into how AWESOME my weekend was, I have to talka bout how stressed my 17 units are making me. I can really tell that it's going to be really hard to get through the next 3 weeks. Especially with trying to put out applications. I never heard back from Victoria's Secret. They said on Friday when I called they were still trying to contact my references. But my references said they hadn't heard from anyone. How lame. I wish they could just say no if that's what they wanted. But this week I have to majorly catch up with this English project. It is just SO MUCH work. At elast I am done with a lot of accounting and stuff. But so much to do.... Bleh. Major bleh.
Okay, so this weekend kicked so much ass, I have no idea how to explain it. I went to dinner with Joseph last night and talked about my weekend the WHOLE night. Oh man, so without going into minute details (those are best explained in person).... we had dinner Saturday at Applebee's, and got to Riverside at around 11. Okay, you know how everyuthing can be related back to Seinfeld? Remember when Jerry had a car rental given away? Well, so we get to our Super 8 Motel (think Motel6) and they gave away our reservation! Even though they had our credit card number and all, they gave it away figuring since we weren't there by 8pm we weren't coming! Oh man did this make us angry. They found us this hole-in-the-wall love shack hotel 10 miles away (the wrong direction) where we stayed for about 5 hours. We went to the race, and I had so much fun walking around and getting souveniers and all sorts of things! Lots of stories and some pictures, which I'll post later this week. Oh oh oh, and we met Kurt Busch! You have to ask about that.... I feel so special! I can already tell how much of a chatter box I will be at dinner. Anyway, we saw the driver introduction and all sorts of things, and there was a fly-by and it was way awesome. But oh man, was it HOT. It was about 100, but when you ahve all those people and the heat reflecting off asphault and metal and absolutely NO shade.... yeah. You ahve to be a die hard fan to stay! A lot of people left and din't stay long, which is sad when you apy all that money and put in all the time to get there. But yeah,t he racfe was great, and I loved the finishing positions! Jeff 1st and Jimmie 2nd! AND, Junior was like 23rd or something. Oh man, there are so many things I loved aobut seeing the race it would be hard and take forever to type about it all.... but wow when a track is 2 miles around, you don't really understand how HUGE the track is until you are there. I mean it's a mile down.... It's really big!!! And loud! Wow, you also don't appreciate how loud 43 cars at 180mph with huge engines and no mufflers echoing around are. Anyway, that was great fun. I could go on forever... Anyway, we got to the car at 4:30pm and got to Davis at like 1:30am. Lots of traffic around the track. On the way back, we took the stereotypical "shortcut," wher eit was just SoCal desert for miles and no one in sight. It was kind of creepy. Lots of Joshua Trees. Yeah, but we didn't get lost... for long... Anyway. Monday I woke up around 10:30 am, and left the house at noon. I went into Davis and watered my mom's plants, saw my journalism teacher for a few minutes, and then I picked up a copy of the proof of insurance for the car. Then, taking the bay area route home (I was tired of 5), I stopped by Vacaville Levi's and talked to my 2 assistant managers. That was pretty cool. I told them I wasn't coming back. My manager isn't there anymore anyway. I got back at 6pm and yep! That was my weekend in a nutshell.... lots of stories! I am so excited to go again, whenever that would be!
May 1, 2004- May Day! I am coming, Jimmie!! Don't worry, Jeff! I will be there soon! I think I would be so happy to see the winning order top 5 be: Mark, Jimmie, Jeff, Kurt, and then a lot of people could be 5th.... Rusty, Kahne, Harvick... Yes, I do want to see a Jimmie win, don't get me wrong.... but a Mark Martin win? With my dad? At my first race?? YAY! Awww, I am so excited. I saw Kill Bill last night and it was FREAKING AWESOME. The second was so much better than the first, and I loved the first. Oh man, that was so good. Anyway, got to sleep late after these crazy seizure things.... and then I woke up early to help Becca with FFA. It was fun, just long and early. Anyway, I took a shower and I have to clean up my room and pack for the weekend. I got my parking pass, my Jimmie visor and toothpaste. I am ready! See y'all Monday night!
April 30, 2004- Almost May Day! Almost Jimmie Day! Yay! I haven't heard from Victoria's Secret today, but it's only 11am. I will call after my classes and I get my parking permit. I asked my English teacher if I should and she said so because there is a possibility she got busy or something or just hasn't gotten a hold of references. So I will call and ask if there is "any other information you needed" or something. That way, if I didn't get the job, I will know and can start looking on Tuesday (with the help of a car! yay!) Kill Bill vol.2 tonight, I'm so excited!
April 29, 2004- Stupid virus.... I guess almost everyone in my tower got a virus, and Joseph finally figured it out. He's so smart. No update yesterday because the website was down. How dumb is that. It's actually freakin' early right now... I got ready for what I thought was the last possible minute but it turns out that clock was ahead, but I'm "ready"... Oh well. I didn't hear from Victoria's Secret, but I figure she needs probably 2 days to contact references at least and then has to get back to me. Every female I've told wants to become my new best friend. How funny. So anyway, I will update later, but have a nice day! Hopefully it won't be THAT hot.
April 27, 2004- Ah, things went so well today. My financial acocunting midterm, worth 25% of my grade, went AWESOMELY. Not a word, but that's how it went. To back track, before I went to accounting, how awesome... I got a call from Victoria's Secret and she wanted an interview for later in the day! So I got excited for that, had it at four. On my way to accounting, I had this crazy thing with forgetting a calculator.. bleh... anyway. So I took the midterm, first one done.. cameb back to my dorm. I straightned up for my mom, took down the JD poster.... and then my mom came. We went to Scolari's and got some lunch and then drove downtown and I went to my interview at Victoria's Secret. It went super well, and I'll know in a day or two if I got it. I guess they don't ahve an office so we did the interview in the corner of the store. How weird was that. But they all seem super nice and I can't wait to get that job! Everyone looks so nice and professional. I even said that as a reason for me wanting to work there. Afterwards, my mom and I browsed in a few stores and then came back to my room. Soon afterwards, we went to teh house on Oceanaire and I signed a "lease" with the girl and my mom saw the place. She liked it and agreed the inside is a lot better than the outside!! So basically that's all taken care of. Then, we hung around Madonna for a bit and met my brother for dinner at Applebee's. We were there for over an hour, and then it got late. My mom went to a hotel, and my brother brought me back. My mom brought gifts for us from Australia too. I got mechanical pencils (inside joke) and a boomerang, and my brother got a didgereedoo! Dijeredo? Digerido? The long tube horn that you think of when you think of Survivor! Anyway. That was really funny. And yeah, he has a job, much to my disbelief. So, very nice day, and no, I did not hear from Home Depot. But I think they wanted me for stocking and crap like that now that I think about it, so I am not worried. I would much rather work at Victoria's Secret rather than with power tools. I am also looking at how great this is, 2 interviews from 5 applications? Hell yes!
April 26, 2004- Nothing gets me prepared for studying like some "I be taking care of business, every day! I've been taking care of business, every way!" MY dad used to sing this song all the time and so it's only natural I know all the words to this. "We love to work at nothing all day!" Yay.. okay so tomorrow is the big proudctive day. I am going to have mucho gradification at the end. Yep, so lots to study for financial accounting midterm... dinner at 6... and I have to clean my room. I think I'll be able to get it all done by tonight. I don't think I really have a choice! Wow, so my fish is so active now. I hope Squishy keeps growing so I have a huge goldfish! Anyway... lots to do.. I will do that all! Oh, I made a list for next Monday and one thing I am going to do is grab some firewood. The house I'm subletting has a fire place and there is always nice nights at Pismo. Yep, and there are a few things I have to grab from my room.
Later April 25, 2004- I am looking forward to summer. I cannot wait to employed and cooking for myself and living alone in a house... I mean yeah the dorms are living away from home but I mean I live next door to the RAs, share a bathroom with 12 others... I cannot wait to live really on my own! How exciting! This weekend will be so great. This week willbe insane. Tuesday is my financial accounting midterm, and then my mom is coming and then I am going to sign the lease later that night. I am also going to hear back from Home Depot on Tuesday too. Oh, I never wrote about that. It was 10 minutes long and all they asked were questions aobut my previous work experience. Nothing about my strengths or whatever. He said they were interviewing 300 people. That I doubt, but who knows how many. Who knows how many spots open there are? Anyway, if I don't get that job, I'll keep applying and get my name out to Madonna and more places downtown. After that, it is Pismo fun where I'll apply to Levi's. that's almost a guarantee... at least sales associate is. Anywho... on Friday I am going out to see Kill Bill vol2. On Saturday, my dad is coming and I get to have lunch with my dad and brother, and then my dad and I are off to the race! The hotel at least. Sunday is the race, which is ON FOX AT NOON- WATCH IT (AT LEAST THE END) SO I CAN SHARE MY EXPERIENCE WITH YOU ALL! and that'll be great fun. I'll go back to Davis with him Sunday night and leave Monday back for here with Fluffy! Yay Fluffy! I love that car! I miss it! I want to drive! I am glad the drive takes a while. I have the need, the need for speed! I already have a Cal Poly decal.. I need a Jimmie one. I'll get one from the race. Everyone can see my Jimmie pride. Yes yes... so I think on Monday I will take my time getting back. I'll clear out my room of anything I don't need (it's not like I am going back often). I'll see my journalism teacher, go by Levi's and tell them I am not coming back for the summer, and perhaps a few more errands. I don't want to get back too late. I am jsut really excited for this week. I should be busy and doing work and getting things done, and the weekend will be great. I had such a good time with Joseph this weekend, it has just refreshed me. I am excited! For everything! Someone give me a call!
April 25, 2005- Hey hey hey... It's Sunday! Let's go racing! Okay, I am not one to ramble about Joseph on this thing, but yesterday was one of the best days EVER! Yay! We went to the beach in the afternoon which was fun, despite it being foggy. Then we hung around and did stuff until dinner. I had this great dish at Applebees... screw riblets! Oh man, it was this alfredo chicken thing.. mmmmmmm. Its leftovers are my lunch today! Yay! Then we came back and borrowed Kill Bill from someone in the tower.... really bloddy movie. REALLY bloddy. But very very very good and I want to see volume 2! Yay I love my honey he is right here so I must write nice things. Oh, he is so handsome and strong and cute and smart and AGH mean for tickling me.... I leave now, I ahve to see race and study! Oh I almost forgot, I got a scratcher last night and won $3! Yay!
April 23, 2004- Becca and I are master Dusters. And Tush Pushers. And Cowboys. And Four Cornerers. And Barn Dancers.... ah, we know so much! Yay us! Country night was so much fun and I had a blast... We learned so much and we are so on top. I took the lead and Becca and I did almost all the couple dances. It was a lot of fun. Godd times, good music, oh how I love country night. I think next week we are going to hold Ryan and Joseph at gun point and force them to come and dance with us. So yeah, if either of you read this, BE WARNED! Anyway, I am so tired, we got in around 1:30 and I had a 8am class. I am going to lunch, class 12-1 then getting ready for my interview, take the #5 at 2pm and get to my interview about 20 min early. So I will probably post again after that, to tell you all about how it went. This weekend will be massive fun!
April 22, 2004- No call from GAP yet. I figured out ym dumb mistake in accounting and how to prevent it from happening on the midterm! Yay for learning! Also, I applied all my new hair things today and my hair is so much softer... What took me so long? Oh right, I am broke. I was reading some of my entries from around this time last year in high school. I think this is a typical post of what I was up to::
It was a crazy day. I actually took a shower, got ready for work, gassed up the car, drove to the Davis post office from Wood, waited in line and mailed out my taxes, drove to Vacaville for work in stop-and-go traffic all within 2 hours. Crazy!!! How did that happen? Anyway, this man in the store, being a crazy European, in his crazy European ways, stripped down to his orange thong and started to try on pants. No one should see that. I shouldn't have least. Why God, why?! My manager had to politely ask him to use the fitting room. He was in his 50s. He was scary. When I rang him up, I could make eye contact with him. Ha ha ha ha...
Yeah, just weird stories and work. Errands and work. I miss being employed. I miss having a car to run basic errands. I feel so self sufficient that way. Pay for gas, run to the post office. That's why I get so much satidfaction out of my bus trips. But still. I need this summer. Most people don't understand how working and living "alone" this summer can be fun, but I need it. I need to get my ass out and work. I don't know why I didn't get a job this year on campus. Well, I do, but it wasn't an option. Anyway, interview tomorrow and life will return to normal once I know if I am employed.
April 21, 2004- Wow, for not going to spend any money for the rest of the quarter, I made a $40 purchase today!t was $80 worth of hair products at 50% off... then I withdrew $10 for country night and stuff. Jeebus, I ned a job, because I am spending like I have one! Hm, I did my accounting homework and it balanced... but at the wrong number. Save me now. Good day, good day... Especially the tri tip at lighthouse! Soooooooo good!
April 20, 2004- Hm, after all that stress about the info meeting, I didn't go afterall. The info meeting about the peer advisors, that is. It was so great, as I was getting dressed today to go out and give applications, I got a mysterious phone call on my cell... I answer... and it's Home Depot! I sent an online application and it came through! And I have an interview Friday at 3pm! How great! I don't know exacly for what, sicne I checked cashiering and paint and some other things. Anyway... it seems like EVERYONE is hiring. I went downtown after my 12-2 class and first applied to Victoria's Secret. they're doing some hiring now and I hope I get a call! I think I have a chance. Even two people thought I worked there when I was filling out my application. Then I went to Express, and gave them an application, but who knows if they'll call. I didn't get a chance to talk with anyone because they were busy be understaffed. Good sign? Perhaps. Then I went in to Gap and gave them my application. The manager looked at it and asked me a few questions and basically alluded to me getting a call later this week to get an interview. So after already having an interview gfor one place and most likely another, I decided to quit there for the day. If I can't find anything or things don't go well, well.... I'll put out some more applications next week! I think things will go well with either Home Depot or Gap. I want to work at Victoria's Secret!
April 19, 2004- La di da... I wnet to English and had a productive meeting with my group, then I went to math and found out I got a 100% on the midterm (worth 20% of our grade) and then I took my business law midterm which wasn't bad at all. I just came back from Kinko's and I made lots of copies for my resumes and stuff. How exciting. I am so excited. Tomorrow is downtown resume distribution, and Wednesday is Madonna resume distribution, and Thursday is going to back to either place if I didn't get enough time for one of the two. How neat-o is that? Very neat-o. Last night I signed off for the deposit and my mom is coming on the 27th and we're signing the lease then. Things are just really coming together. It's so nice to get off my ass and accomplish stuff. As some people know, I am dealing with some hard personal things but I think sunny skies are up ahead and Saturday should make to be a great day. All I can hope is for good weather (literally). Yes, Saturday will be a great day. And the weekend after, Jimmie! Much to be excited about fo' sho'. Okay, I will never say that again (or type it). By the way Squishy is still alive and happy (or happy to be alive). I think my only bummer at the moment, besides my TERRIBLE night's sleep for undisclosed reasons is that I think it's official: I need to buy a $30 ink cartridge for my printer.
April 18, 2004- I just wrote the longest entry on my computer about how I feel. I saved it, put it in word, and there it is to stay. I like writing letters to myself about how I am feeling. It lets me organize my thoughts and I can tell what my decision must be, despite the hardships that come with making it. What a hard weekend. Anyway, I have homework to do and a midterm to study for. At 9pm I am going to the house off Madonna and giving her the deposit. Great, huh?
April 17, 2004- Crazy day! I went around to the booths and saw soem interesting things. Some guy in a scuba suit, smoe tangoing people, a Price is Right type thing with Plinko... very strange indeed. The tractor pull was pretty fun. I went by myself and saw Becca for the last third there, but I sat somewhere different than her. So, I was pretty much alone the entire time. But it was interesting and a new experience, but I don't think I'd do it again. I think it's a once is enough type of deal, but I am glad I went and I did have a good time. I was almost in tears being so cold without a jacket in the harsh wind..... until I finally ran to Will's booth and got his jacket. Then I was okay. That wind had such a bite to it in the field. You really don't feel it as much in the campus. Anyway, that ended around 4 and then didn't do much else. Hopefully I'll get into Smile and Nod tonight (no reservations for me but I'll try) and that's at 10pm. I'm doing alright, slightly sunburned but that's about it... I'm really frustrated with a few things but I'll take care of it. Sometimes I just don't know what to do. That's when I call my dad, but these aren't things I can talk to my dad about. Bummer.
April 16, 2004- Bleh! This morning I was half asleep as I pushed my way through tourists and tours to get to my early early classes. My acct teacher was 10 min late becuase of all the traffic. Interesting. but I felt like a stud answering people's questions about where things were and about the ATMs on campus and Cerro Vista and stuff. Yeah, me the stud-meister. Becca and I walked around campus to the boonies and then back to her car to go walk all around downtown. I bought a 2piece bathing suit, and for the 2 pieces was $15. How awesome is that? Then we came backa nd I did some laundry... clean towels and jeans for Yellie! Then I lost my phone (found under my bed... don't ask) and so I was unable to fully enjoy myself at Becco's. Another night. Too bad. I'm tired too. It's not even midnight, but these damn 8am classes are just slowly killing me for late night fun. I talked to Kristin, the girl who has th hosue, and we're going to meet Sunday evening to sign the terms of the deposit and I'll give her the check. Good stuff..... Oh, I had a math midterm today worth 20% of my grade and I think I got 100% and finished it in 20 minutes, so that was nice. Anyway, it's only 11:30pm on Friday night but with just a tad (literally) of alcohol in me and my weariness already set in, I should be off to bed.
April 15, 2004- Tax Day! I already have my refund. Yay. This quarter is really nice. Very quaint, quiet, not that stressful. I have a math midterm tomorrow. Can you believe that is the end of the thrid week? I can't. Time does fly. I don't think I should be left alone this ginormous amount of M&Ms... I ahve a giant bag and I keep eating them. For some reason it reminds me of this drama performance/assignment I had in drama.... I was reciting a Shakespeare thing and the person is talking about commiting suicide, like the final statements. Anyway, we got to set up the stage to make the passage modern and interpretit how we chose. So for mine, I was talking as I was writing the suicide note. Well, to commit suicide I got an old Rx bottle and filled it with a bunch of white Tic Tacs. So at the end of the performance I popped the entire bottle of "pills" and afterwards people were freaking out on what I took. It was great. Just "popping" all these M&Ms reminded me of that. Anyway, I'm fine, Squishy is healthy, and not too much else is going on. I haven't really seen anyone this week besides Joseph and Nikki, but that's okay. No stress and I've been getting so much done. With seeing houses and entertaining my cousin, I ahve enough on my plate. However, my phone actually does work (gasp) so feel free to call me.
April 14, 2004- Well, some of you met my cousin Allison. We walked ALL over, all around campus... twice! We stopped by and saw my brother (obviously my cousin knows Zach) and my aunt took us out to dinner. It was nice. I was glad to share my experiences with someone! I feel important! And she spent the night here, and left this morning. I don't have class until 2. She is choosing between here and Loyola, a private Catholic school. She liked Loyola but I guess a lot of people from her high school are going there and she wants to get away from that. Hopefully she was impressed by the campus. Oh well, doesn't affect me coming here! Yep yep... so today I will call the girl whose house I saw and tell her I want it. I am excited! A few other people e-mailed me back but they want like $500/month. Great, huh? No. Anyway, so I am excited and I'm going to go off and do homework now.... bye bye!
April 13, 2004- I have a philisophical question. Is that spelled right? Anyway. Almost no one truly believes in Egyptian, Roman, or Greek religions as their choice of religion. Why? Because we know the sun isn't pulled by a chariot and waves aren't created by a god of the sea. Well, the Egyptians, Romans, and Greeks died for their religion at the time because they had faith and believed it to be true. I wonder in a 1000 years if Christianity and Mormonism and all that good stuff will be disproven and just "wrong." Interesting. I think I should form my own religion. There would be 2 commandments and it would be "Don't screw this up" and "Stop fucking around." Profound, huh? Well, I think either of the 2 commandments are applicable to all of life's obstacles. And instead of hell, anyone who screwed up or fucked things up would be what my religion would call a "Dumbass."
Irrelevant, sad and stupid, but oh well. Yesterday, I saw the house and I really liked it. It'll equate to an extra $40/month, but I think the nice house and convenience of the lease bring the ENTIRE summer is worth while. I'll probably have my own room and there is plenty of storage and a washer/dryer and a big kitchen... and I could walk to Madonna and there is planty of street parking... I liked it a lot. The girls were very nice and quiet and the house will basically be empty. I think I am going to call her tonight and tell her I'm interested. The only flaw of the house is that it is RIGHT on a busy intersection, but the traffic noise in the house was barely noticable. Wouldn't buy it, but it's a good deal for the summer.
Another note, I tihnk it is sad that I can already predict my grades in my classes. I think it will be as follows: B in English 148, A in Math 221, A in Bus 207, and unknown in Bus 214. We'll see after the first exam, but it's a good class worth 5 units so I am going to really strive for the A.
My cousin and aunt are in town today and I will meet with them after my 12-2 class! Whee! Hopefully they will take me out to dinner and I will have some yummy food. Not icky food, but yummy food.
April 12, 2004- Sleep, want sleep.... Agh I am so tired... So I am going to see the Christian house at 4:30pm today and Nikki will take me since it's not walk/bike distance (out on Madonna) and that whould be interesting. Mikey else has a friend who is "depserate" for a summer person so he is going to give them my phone number and such tonight in band and hopefully she will call me tonight. I think if this house checks out, I may choose it over the Mustang place. It's just a flat $1K for all utilities and is the exact amount of time I need (whole summer) and it looks like it's a single room but I'll see. I'll definately look at it and see what the place is like and how she wants to do things. I'll also make my resume copies tomorrow and then pass them out Wednesday or Thursday, depends what my cousin wants to do with me or how long they're staying. I am so excited and feel muy productive. My parents are obvious help with some finance and advice (because after all I still am 18) but I am proud of myself for doing this by myself. I am very glad I didn't get that on campus job. I am looking forward to a house/townhouse and a kitchen and stuff. I need sleep. *YAWN* I need to do laundry and clean up my room some and read some homework too. Fun stuff!
April 11, 2004- Damn you, Easter! Why does today have to be the most lame holiday of the year? Why do you have to celebrate Easter? Soemthing aobut Christ? Well then what the hell is Christmas for? I am actually in a happy mood, I just know that things always are overdramtisized over the internet. So I could say, yeah, fucking Easter, and that would sound 100 times more terrible than what I meant. But seriously, the campus is so dead. I am the only female on the floor besides the RA and 2 guys are here. A few people on the first floor are here. I guess people will be coming in later tonight because they are probably having Easter lunch/brunch and then visiting and the leaving. I went to Backstage 2 nights in a row, and that's sad. It was so dead. Joseph and I spent the whole day together because (we wanted to) and NO ONE ELSE was here. That's why Easter is lame. So boring. I am going to put my bunny ears on.
So yesterday I did a lot of stuff. I saw a place in Mustang Village and it's so cheap and the place is so nice and I really liked it. I am going to call her tomorrow and tell her I want it. It was so great. I don't feel like typing out all the perks. But just know it is awesome and cheap. And maybe/maybe not a shared room, but same price either way and the room shared is not bad at all. The only downfall is that the lease ends Aug 28, and I can't move into Cerro Vista until Sept 12. So someone out in SLO must have a couch! Perhaps my brother will have a place starting Sept 1. Anyway, details for later. I am going to call her tomorrow on a non-Easter day, and tell her, like I said. I am very excited, and I can't wait to get a place! Also, yesterday, Joseph and I went to Madonna and I got resume paper and I went into Petco to get a new fish, but now I want a hermit crab! I am going to get one at the start of summer, don't want to move him. I have been going online finding out about caring for them. I can get him and set a really awesome place up for like $30, the way I want to do it. That's not bad. I'll wait till I am emplyed though. I am doing laundry, homework, and other things today, so I shall beat the boredom!
VISIT THE DISNEY PICTURES SITE! I got it to work and view. It is now complete! Go back to the main page and click on the link at the top.
April 9, 2004- I think this has been the most productive day to end the most productive week. I talked to my mom and decided that with her support, I am going to sublet here for the summer. We had a long talk and it's just what I want to do. I have a lot to take care of and a lot to make it happen, but it's worth it. This week has been so empowering to me. I've really done a lot for myself and really figured some things out. I feel so independent and like a true young adult. So after my nice talk with my mother, I went online and e-mailed about 5 people about their summer sublets. There is this one for $299/month, which will probably get kicked up to $350 after a share of the utilities. I am going to call her tomorrow and check it out, it's in Mustang Village I. I had no idea there were 2. Immaterial. Anyway, so the game plan is I'll check it out, and check out a few other places during the next few weeks. My target is under $400 after rent, parking, and utilities. I can't wait to see the place! I want to look at a few other ones so I get a better idea of the market and hwo it goes, but I talked to my dad and I have a better idea of what to expect and what kind of questions to ask. Yeah, so that's the housing aspect. I am also going to Kinko's this weekend and getting my resume copied and I'll be able to take care of that. During the weekdays, I'll go and turn in apps to all sorts of stores downtown, saying I can start after finals (or sooner if necessary). I purposely did not go to Levi's today because I wanted to make sure if I wanted to keep the option of sales associate in there. I figure I'll get 2 jobs. I'll get one as one shift and then work around that for another. I'm sure they're always hiring a graveshift Denny's waitress. Anyway. So that takes care of housing, job (=money), and now for transportation! Well, I figure if any place wants to give me an interview, if someone with a car doesn't want to be so gracious as to giving me a job, I'll be able to take the bus since it would be in SLO. So I am really not that worried. I'll take the bus during the week and turn in apps that way. So yeah. But, I guess the Mini Cooper is officially crossing the Atlantic from Europe as I type to get to my stepmom. As soon as that happens, I am free to take the Echo. And I guess my dad wnats us to come for a weekend in mid-late May and talk to us kids so Zach would drive me back and I would pick up the car. So that's another issue, go to Univ. Police and see how to go about a parking permit. So yes, as you can see it's been hours of planning and talking with parents today. But I feel so accomplished and so happy I am getting to do what I want and have a plan of action. No sense moping about this and that, having a crappy summer, and then bitching about it the entire time. I am very happy this is all getting taken care of, by yours truly, and I have the smarts and willpower to do something about it. It's so nice. I am glad I didn't get that job because I am learning so much by doing all this. And I wouldn't be if I got it. Maybe everything does happen for a reason. Yay yay yay.... fun times! I'm looking forward to seeing a place tomorrow!
April 8, 2004- Codiene really does make you have trippy dreams. I was coughing some last night and decided to kill any uprisings, so I took some. I had this dream that I had to carry my fish in that dumb cup through this giant planet of errupting volcanos and jungles and things and try to save him. Every now and then there would be a larger fishbowl I could dunk him in and let him rest and get food, but we had to keep going! Squishy would start to ffade on me, getting white and puffy and stuff but I didn't give up on him....It was really dramatic in my dream too. I don't know where I was headed or if we made it or why I wanted to save Squishy so much, but that was my dream. However, I felt so bad after waking up this morning, I was so groggy and just wanted to SLEEP. I am handling the 8am class thing okay, and I am so glad I don't go later than 2pm. It seems like dinner time and so much later.... At least I'm going to bed at a resonable time. Interesting stuff, huh. Well, this weekend won't be any more exciting because almost everyone I know is going home. I was almost thinking about hitching a ride with Joseph and just spending the night at my house, but it's just such a long drive to get there Saturday late afternoon and to leave Sunday morning. Hopefully I get to go to Levi's tomorrow and see if they're hiring. I need to buy resume paper at the bookstore beforehand though. Speaking of which, Nikki (down to $501 plus dollars now) bought me another poster. I tihnk 4 is enough because my room next year will be much smaller. But I like my little collection. It's cute. I'm hungry. Someone feed me. Why hasn't my snickerdoodles arrived yet???
April 7, 2004- It's my only day to sleep in, yet I wake up at 8:30 to turn in an assignment to offce hours before 9am. Great. Lovely. Well, I am quite produvtie. After I did that, I came back here to take a shower and then I went with my resume to my tech writing professor and asked her. I got some great advice! I went to Campus Market and picked up some office supplies and lunch. Then, I came back to my room and have completely revised my resume (yes, MORE) and made a new one for the OCOB peer helper position I want to apply for. I also wrote my "well written paragraph about why I would be an asset to the team" and all that good stuff. I organized My Documents so it's uncluttered and decided what I am going to take next fall. And it's only 1pm! You know, when you just cut bull and focus on what you need to do, you get so much done. Last night I did a ton of homework for the week and I jsut have a pre-propsal memo to do and reading, and that's it! I am really excited to go to Pismo on Friday and talk to a manager....
Later April 6, 2004- Hm, so I guess when I update at 10am, not only is my entry riddled with errors, but I also don't have much to say about how my day went. I can't explain how productive this day has been. Three classes, lunch, homework, and I revised my resume... a lot has been done! I am finding my accounting class to be the most interesting thing on the planet. It is so sad because half the class is asleep or just trying to work their way through it. But come on people, it's our major! Get excited! I was asking so many questions, and because it's a 2 hour class we had a break and I even talked to the professor during the break. It just makes me so elated. Also at the beginning of the class, this blond was talking aobut how they're hiring down at that Orfelea peer advisor place. That seems exciting and like good experience. That's the place I went to twice with help for scheduling. There is an informational meeting on April 20th. I have to bring a resume (hence the resume edits) and a "well written paragraph on why I would be an asset to the advising center." I shall give it a try and hope for the best. I am just so happy I am getting everything organized. When you have your head on straight and think, you get a lot more done. That's what I'm realizing. We all know it, but doing it is something else. Today has just been very productive. Now, off to do more homework!
April 6, 2004- I woke suprisingly well this morning. I am suprised, I really am handling this 8am class thing well. It's just so ncie to be done so early. I just have class 12-2, which is accounting and as interesting as it is it will FRY my brain. Bleh. So, I have made a few decisions. I am going to go talk to Levi's in Pismo this weekend and talk to them. See if they can offer me something. Also, I need to start lookinf into deadlines for Sac City or AR to see when summer school starts and such. I think I am going to try to find a way to stay, perhaps share a room for 350/400/month. I can always live down here for the later part of summer. Save on a month's rent. That might be a smart idea. Hmm, I'll see. Also, way off topic, my father is the best thing in my life. I can't believe how one person can be so right about, well, everything. I hope I am half the parent he is when I am one myself. (that's definately far in the future, don't get me wrong.) I talked to him last night about things and it's overwhelming how right he is and how much advice he gives. It's a lot to take in and it's definately stuff I have to sleep on, but yeah, starting today I have a new outlook on certain things going on here. Enough said about that. Don't be too suprised if I'm not on IM. My phone still works.
April 5, 2004- Yeah, so visit the picture link. Okay, so I want to do PolyReps. It's the unpaid club/organization that does the tours and things. I am just so excited to show my cousin around and the tours look like good fun and excersize. Plus, you always have to give back to the campus. Next year, next year... Plus, I want to do WOW, but obviously not for this Fall. For the next fall. When I am actually established here and know how to get places! Anyway, it's around 1:10 and I am so happy I have done everything I have. I've already gone to 2 hours of class, ate lunch, did some homework and have just a 2 hour class ahead! It's not so bad. Homework tonight too. I am really liking this quarter so far. I have more me time and am in good classes. I am feeling much more productive. Becca and I have had amny good conversations and I am inspired to really cut a lot of the negativity out from my life. That's all I have to say about that, really. It's so sunny, I just wish the warmth was here too today. Maybe I will do my homework outside. I have a good 3 hours to do, plus I already did about 2 hours worth. Yay productive me!
April 4, 2004- I haven't been that hungover, in, since, never! The turning point of feeling better was when I threw up. That always makes you feel better when you're sick. I walked with Ryan to campus market to get me some food and air, and that amde me a whole lot better. Eh, I figure I won't be going out partying for a bit so might as well get it in now, right? Anyway, that makes me very happy I already did homework yesterday. My stomach is still a little weird. How lame is that, I am watching the Kids Choice Awards on Nick. Channel surfing and stuff. Commercials for kids are so lame. They tell kids they have to be cool and all this stuff. It's so sad. Anyway, my stomach is feeling better but stil bad. Oh, also, let me say now I hate Amanda Bynes. Th'ats her name right? Yeah, okay, so I have to watch more of this Nick programming and feel shitty.
April 3, 2004- I tihnk back about how long ago that dreaded New Year's Eve was... wow. Time flies when you're... busy. Anyway, did my math homework and attempted my memo assignment for professional writing, but I don't know if I did it right. So I will go into office hours. I didn't go in office hours at all fall quarter, some last quarter, and I'm sure I will be in a bunch this quarter! Anyway, I guess as classes get harder I can no longer just use the book for help. Anyway, my cousin is coming the night of the 13th (Tues night) so that should be uber exciting. Everyone: have your room clean because I want to show her dorm rooms! Mine is not a good example because I dont share it, and she needs to see the Red Bricks and Sierra Madre. I'd appreciate it. Anyway, that will be fun. It's werid because we're not even close but I am uber excited. I guess I want to share the love of Poly with all! I think it'll be interesting when people come on self guided tours of the dorms. I want to answer people's questions and feel important. I'd want to talk to someone friendly if I was in their shoes. But all the fliers about lock your doors at all times and such is kind of scary... if they don't trust these people, why are they letting them through? I guess they have to say those kinds of things. Anyway, last night was interesting and I am glad I got out of my room and had very nice and constructive conversation. Yay for in person talks! Anywho, going out tonight, I need to pay either my Bud, Jose, and/or Jack a visit. It's been too long.
April 2, 2004- I don't know how long this is going to be so bare with me! A lot may be already known, but I want to write it down anyway. This is also not in order of importance....
Issue (A): I called my mom yesterday afternoon, not to return a phone call, but to actually talk to her. No one really knows about my mom and I, including Joseph. I realize I don't talk about my relationship with my mom or stepmom, only my dad. The other day I had a 20 minute conversation with my stepmom and I told Becca about it and she didn't know that I love my stepmom. I think Anne is the only one who has seen my relationship with my mom, but she doesn't even understand it. I know I have said some things about it, but sometimes you can't explain relationships. It's just like you need to know the whole story... but when it's a lifetime of events that make up the story, you can't just talk about it in one dinner period. But anyway, I called her. Just know that isn't something I do quite often... And I even volunteered information to her and told her about the job (or not job), Break and my classes. She is so happy in her life now and she is overjoyed that she is getting to be a better part of mine. I know that for sure. I was talking to her when I was hungry the other day on IM and she is going to send me a nice big care package of things and cookies! Yay for snickerdoodles!
Issue (B): This whole job thing (read yesterday's post if you need to know more- but I didn't get it) was a big bummer. I didn't get upset or anything, and as I have already said, it's not the specific job that I wanted. It was that freaking awesome housing deal. Okay, so I say to myself, that is the equivelant of, let's say $1200. It's just money. A lot of money, but money. So yes, I want to know what I can do to improve my interview skills for a future position, but I am basically viewing this as that I didn't get a nice housing scholarship. That's how I see it. So instead of sulking and being negative, I've been really trying to brainstorm what I can do to improve my situation. I told my dad about my ideas and I think he thinks I am already making plans. So he is telling me to s-l-o-w down and to not worry aboutanything. That kind of uspet me in a not-so-upsetting way because he always says exactly the right things. But I don't agree. It's not like I am already enrolling in summer school, I am just trying to figure out what my optoins are. Right now I am thinking of seeing if Levi's in Pismo needs an asst manager. Then I will see what my summer school and job options would be in Dsvis/Sac/Vacaville. I am not looking forward to Vacaville Levi's so that is a huge last resort.
Issue (C): Congratulations, you have made it this far! I really don't mind who reads this whole post. I don't expect anyone to. I just want to write down a few things so I can go back and read this later... and also to "enlighten" others on what's going on with me. The following is not even my point, or "issue C," but it's when people direct emotions to each other over these web things without oral communication is what personally bothers me. I suppose as one form of communication works for me, others work for other people. It's just my personal preference, and I don't think I saw that before. But yes, anyway, that wasn't "issue C." Issue C is... well... hm. I guess I'd violate my own prior statement, so call me if you want to know about issue C, or want to say hello, and we shall have a pleasent conversation! Yay!
April 1, 2004- Wonderful. "Thank you for your interest in working for the Office of Conference Services. It was indeed a pleasure meeting with you. This year we had an extraordinarily large pool of applicants with excellent skills, and found it necessary to narrow the field to those individuals possessing qualifications most applicable to our needs. Although you appear to have some excellent qualifications, you were not selected for this summer’s employment at Conference Services. However, we will consider you as the first Registration & Housing Supervisor/Facility & Services Liaison alternate if a position opens in the near future. Please let us know if you would rather not be considered for these positions." I'll call the Levi's store down here and see if they need an assistant manager. I'll find a way to stay down here. If not, hope isn't lost if I work 2 jobs and go to a JC in Sac. I just cant do my sales associate job at Levi's in Vacaville. I can't.
April 1, 2004- No sign of April Fool's... unless God is playing an awful mean trick on me. Will got a call for the job at 10am or so... and no call for me yet! And it's 2:40! Oh, the humanity! I tihnk I will go home if I don't get this job... housing is too much and I need to save. I'd take courses at a local JC and work... ack hopefully not at Levi's... okay, bad thoughts, won't think of that. I need this call. I need this job. God damn... I am going to freak out!
In other news, my classes are way awesome. I have learned so much in my financial accoutnign class these past 4 hours (3 really, syllabus stuff doesn't count) than in like a long time. I don't know. But I do know it's the coolest stuff ever and it's going to be so much work. It took me like 2-3 hours to get through just the first chapter... it was so insane and so much information. But I am glad I did because things in lecture made much more sense and stuck a lot better. I also have this professional writing assignment due on Tues and I am already freaking out. She wants it in memo format and I don't know how to organize it. I have the format off an example... anyway. Tonight shall be a good night out. I finally get to see the long-awaited Tom Hanks movie!! Yay! And at matinee prices, movies are always better! Excitement!
CALL, JOB PEOPLE, CALL!!!!!!!!!
March 31, 2004- What a nice past 7 months. Googliness alert, but yes, aww, I got my pictures backa nd there are some really nice pictures on there... I am just so happy. I slept in and took a shower and ran errands with Joseph and his working car. Yay! I made a photo parade of the Disney pictures and gave a bunch of doubles to Becca. I only had class 2-4 today so it was not a big deal to have today off. I need to get my tax refund check from my brother. I am too lazy to amke that trip. I wish I lived in the location of Cerro Vista instead of Yosemite, It is closer to classes and still on the outskirts. Oh well. I need to clean my room too. And do financial accounting homework. And read professional writing. I'm not even huingry for dinner, plus I am running out of meals. Perhaps a VGs waffle will cure me at 9pm. I bought an 8 dollar calculator that just does basic functions today. I could ahve gotten a cheapy $3 one, but it was too small for my eyes. I need it for my financial acct class and calc, we're only allowed to have a basic calculatorfor tests. Yep yep. Nothing else of interest... Farmer's tomorrow!
March 30, 2004- After a seriously bad night sleep last night, I have thought about a lot of things. And I guess everyone needs a night like that. Anyway, people know my phone number. So, anyway, I am in love with this quarter. I am going to be in love with the BUS 214 class, financial accounting. It is so interesting and I am UBER excited.... BUS 207, business law is also a great class where I will be super happy, and I am somewhat sad I dont get to go tomorrow. For having a day off... why Wed? I only ahve class 2-4 Wednesdays.. what a waste. I am so excited, after this quarter I'll be more in tune with my future career and be more of a business person. I am so excited! I want to learn! I am done at 2 today and Thursdays, so I will do lots of homework now so I can have a relaxing day tomorrow. I ahve to figure out this textbook thing too.. after e-mailing this guy about the NINTH edition book I need, he says okay offers $25 and then I arrange to meet him and he has a freaking EIGTH edition! I know they are super similr, but she assigns 10 pages each night, and that is way too much checking to have the page numbers all screwed up. Plus, I can get the eigth edition for $12 from someone else, not $25. He was bummed I didn't buy it, but you know, I said 9th edition... People are dumb sometimes. Ah yes, what a great few hours ahead of me, I get to read the first chapter of my accounting book! Yay!!! And no, that won't take a few hours but I have math and things to do. Non fun things. Poo.
March 29, 2004- Monday Monday... and the first day of Spring Quarter! I can tell this quarter will be a lot of work and will go by quite quickly. I have had calc and tech writing thus far and I think the professors are interesting, but I don't know ho exciting the material can be. Spring Break ended much better than it started, and I am glad I had the weekend to catch up on sleep and such. I just need yo buy one more book for $25 from this guy (I love screwthebookstores.com! $54 at ElCorral) and I am set. Some chick bought this econ book off of me last night and I got $40, it was the coolest most random thing. Got the phone call at 8 and met her at 9 behind VGs. Yay! I just handed Nikki the money for her calc book, but hey. It all works out still. So I am in the library right now because I came down to eat but have more time to kill... this 4 hour break wont be so bad on Mon/Wed. When I have homework, it will work out nicely. Perhaps tanning time?
March 24, 2004- Grades grades grades... wheee! Not really. But I am so happy I got a B in history. I reall got a C or C- percentage wise, but his curve is fantabulous. Anyway, yeah, I got a B in English, which I understand is a good grade, it's jsut in Engl 134, I was hoping for better. It was just the first stuff that screwed me up for the position I wanted to be in. Oh well. Maybe my final essay wasn't as stellar as I had hoped. Anyway, I had so much fun at Disneyland, and since I hadn't been there since I was 6 (so in essance, never) I relly enjoyed everything. My mom would have really liked that flight over CA ride. Anyway, I was pretty bummed we were leaving, even if we were just going to sit and people watch on the Main Street USA, I'd ahve liked to. I paid a lot of money for the day and wanted to do more... It was just so happy at nights with the lights and kids with their balloons and all the Mickey's for sale. I wanted to stay so badly. But I guess everyone must compromise. My dad told me once that you always feel screwed when you compromise because you know the value of what you are giving up and only assume the value of what the other person is giving up, so it always seems like you gave up more than the other person. I think that's true. But anyway, that's really beside the point. Also, I think the car ride home was very much needed and I am glad I got to listen to other sides to the story and got to say exactly what I wanted to. Without really discussing anything, because I am not going to on this, I am just very sad that nothing would have been said at all if I didn't speak up. There's more I could say about that, but I'm not. Anyway, this should be a relaxing day and the rest of the week will be uber fun.
March 20, 2004- So finals are voer, the winter quarter is over, and I don't want to take history ever again. I tihnk I got an A in econ, definate A in stats (5 units too!!) and a hopeful B in history. English will be a B+ or A-, depending how good I did on the inclass essay and final essay. I thin my investing essay kicked ass. Anyway, we'll see on Wednesday when grades are posted. Once again I feel screwed from the bookstore, but I think I have learned morefor optimal profits enxt quarter and years afterwards. I should sell my secrets. Right now I am at Meghan's and we just did errands in Oxnard, and let's just say all drivers are CRAZY. I admit I get angry, but I am not psycho. I'm not talking aobut you Meghan, but the other psychos. Anyway, I wish I had my Echo, because I think people's cars do not get optimal gas milage by any means. Ryan thinks gas for Dinseyland there and back would be $50.... Okay. My Echo, lets say at $2/gallon for $50 should be able to go anywhere from 700-1000 miles, depending on traffic. That's all I have to say about that. I'm going to go have fun! Adios!
March 17, 2004- I'M COMING, JIMMIE! I AM COMING, PLEASE FEEL MY LOVE AND CHEER! Yes, that's right, my father got me a ticket to go with him to see the May 2nd race at California Speedway. Oh my God, I am like SO STOKED.... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jimmie, I love you!!!
So, yes, isn't the phone nice? I have taken down my boycott, but I made my point. Anyway... so my stats final, this 2-3 hours dreadful, untamed cumulative lion-monster was a tame little cute kitty cat that just took an hour to scratch behind its ear to purr.... aww what a cute final. Here kitty kitty.... Okay, that may sound better if I said that in person with my voices and stuff, but you get it. Oh man, that was so easy. The last page had 7 points about our project, where we just commented on the other people and then we had to answer some dumbass BASIC questions about the project. First of all, I bet the others couldn't even remember my frist name or knew how to spell it, and then I think deinfattely one, maybe the other couldn't answer these basic questions. It is so funny. I love that. There is no excuse because not only could they have helped, I sent tehm the final project. Boo-yah, that just makes me so HAPPY! Redemption! Revenge! The world loves me afterall! Okay, so yeah, after stats final, I went and got lunch, then went to the gym, and realized I fofrgot my bathing suit and it was getting to the point I jsut wanted to go back to my room and start cleaning (or doing computer stuff obviously) instead of getting it and going all the way back to the pool. Great. History final tomorrow.... lots to read... crap.
March 16, 2004- Finished my stats project (thanks to me), studied and did my econ final (wasn't that bad, probable A for the class), and went to a 2 hour long stats review session. I helped Staci with econ then off to the gym, and oh, how rewarding! I love going to the gym, it feels so good for me and relieves stress and it's just like nonstop laughter with Becca. Becca and her gnats... anyway. I am boycotting IM for the week, becaue I don't feel like being part of drama that isn't mine. I have school to focus on anyway. I am not even going to discuss this further because communicating on webjournals and IM, when it comes to heart to heart conversations or something of significance.. yeah, well that can be done on the phone. My room number is 68260 if anyone has something to talk to me about, but otherwise, I'm out. I am so confident Spring Break will be fun, and I think not getting myself involved in anything this week will help that out. Anyway. I'm not angry or upset, just saying. No one should take this too personal, but I am just saying that's what I'm doing. Call me if you want to talk!
March 15, 2004- So it is Monday and I was too busy to write over the weekend. Friday consisted of me working on our stats project. I spent the evenign before at the essay party, and the next mornign was dead tired. I turned in my essay to Wilkinson, and then went to go work on my stats project. I was in there from the am to late afternoon.... oh my lord I was so hungry. SO hungry. I hadn't eat... and that night I watched SWAT (so good and a movie I wanted to see) and went out for the joyriding with Becca and Meghan in the Amigo. That was fun. I still don't believe we went out as far as Grover Beach. Anyway, I slept in Saturday morning and we ended up going to the beach later. That was nice because of the weather being so foggy, not much to do until the fire started. Ryan, Becca, and I had a great time in the VUE. The campout was fun, and Denny's was yummy, and I fell asleep shortly afterwards of getting back. Sunday I watched the race (another Junior win) and I just did some more homework. So many people in the tower neeeded my help, I felt special. I tihnk I should do the SI stuff because I explain things so much better than what the SI people do. Obviouly because it works out so much better than what the SI people are learning. Anyway, today was just working on the stats project more... I should turn it in with just my name. It's all my words. The one girl really helped with data collection and helped me word things, but the toher one ditched us early on Friday and did nothing to help. I really like working in teams... when everyone does something! Or else it isn't team work, just one person giving many people credit. Whatever, it'll catch up with them later in life. I am so tired... I need a nap. But by the time I wake up, it'll be dinner then gym time, and then I have to study econ late into the night. That's why I am updating now.... so I am at least doing something. I have to go find Joseph to sign a thank you card for my uncle.... he's upset with me too...... agh, where are you Spring Break?
March 11, 2004- I jsut about cried myself to sleep with Joseph last night. Yesterday made for a bad day. I don't know why everyone is snapping at each other and I feel like telling off everyone I know, but it's getting bad. I tihnk I am going to lay low until the Sat BBQ. Anyway, the interview went really well, I think I gave off a good impression. The other 2 people weren't there for my interview, so I was with just one guy. It was pretty comfortable, and I think I gave some good answers. There was this priority questionaire that I misunderstood so I had to BS a lot of it, but oh well. Hopefully I'll get a good remark out of it. I'll know after Spring Break. Anyway, I am going to go to stats now.
March 10, 2004- Interview tomorrow. Hopefully I will be a tad more personable tomorrow morning at 9. I am just so tired of people right now. I had a good day, but was not in a happy mood for the later part. I went to English and read some really crappy essays... I mean I can't believe people write like that. I'm not saying I'm stellar, but I at least have a focus in my writing. Bleh. Anyway, missed History to go to back to my room and then went to stats. We filled out the teacher/course eval forms and I gave the teacher VERY high ratings... an A on everything but the textbook. For the written, I said I was thankful and everything regarding the course was fair, but I said I wish group work wasn't so emphasized. Truly, I don't mind group work, especially when it means less work for me to create a better product than any individual could do. That's fine. Teamwork is great. But when everyone else is competent. Oh lord. I said that everything takes me so much longer because not only do I lead and do all the work, I must go back and re-explain myself. Bleh. I've learned a lot about group work from this! Anyway. After that I went to the beach with Becca where we sunned for just an hour, whihc was actually enough to see some difference. The sun is stronger here than in Davis. Yeah, then I kind of got into a fight with Becca about nothing really, I guess I was just being an overall bitch about things. And then more people pissed me off later, and I am at my wit's end with people. If anyone calls me up and asks me about something, right now I would give the most frank answer I could. I don't care about people's feelings, I don't care about what people think of me, I jsut don't care right now. It's not my general train of thought, but I just don't like people right now. It's not a superior ego complex thing, it's just everyone bothers me. Too many people are complaining about the same things everyday and have the same white middle class problems and I just don't want to talk to anyone right now. Last night's sleep didn't help... going to sleep at 5am. Yeah, not smart. But I just had to talk things out with that certain someone. So yeah, just a lot of stress coupled with people being dumb has put me in an off mood. I ironed my shirt and pants for my interview tomorrow and will take a good night's sleep so I will be good for my 9am appt tomorrow. Oh man, I need this job. What was a the metaphor? Like a fat kid needs pie? Yeah. Works.
March 9, 2004- Anxious anxious for Thursday! Anyway, I bought a pair of pants at Mervyns today at Madonna and looked around. I got Anne a few things at Cost Plus for her birthday (26th). So, played racketball tonight, that was intense. It would be insane if we actually played right. Becca killed my face. She smacked a ball right under my left eye. I can only have so many bruises!!! Oh man, I am loving this weather. I am so happy. I am starting to realize the intensity of next quarter already. 17 units, and I'll really be feeling it to. Last quarter I had 17 but did no homework for 3 classes, this quarter I do little homework for 2 classes and have 17 units, but next quarter, I'll have homeowrk in all classes. And they're harder! No classes I've pretty much already taken! And, this job will have training... hmm.. lots of stuff to do! I won't freak out yet, and I'll be happy when this quarter is over. All I ahve to do is go to the writing lab and revise my essay, do the stats project (Friday's all day extravaganza with the group) and some extra credit homework for stats... and that is it! Econ final Tuesday, Stats final Thurs, and Hist final Friday. I can't believe Mikey is done Monday. Two week break? I wish I had that actually because I would go home for a week and then go for Spring Break. even if I could be home for 2 or 3 days like Becca will be. Anyway, yeah, kind of ready for this quarter to be done. But thatis repetiious of all my posts. So something EXCITING and NEW.... I'm really happy! Does that count? I'm happy a lot,a t least I think I am. I don't know, these past few days has had a welcoming change and it's so wonderful.... Oh! Once again, I ahve to clean half of my room out in canse I get a roommate... That's just annoying. Everyone knows I'm not. I am just going to lay all my posters on my bed and move the furniture as minimally as possible. Stick the other bed in the old corner, move up all the furniture and clear the other wall and closet. Want to help?
March 8, 2004- I hate nights when I can't sleep. Well, today was a great day. I overslept for my stats study group, but oh well. History was boring as usual, and then I had to get keys from the front since I locked them in here. Haha on me. Anyway, the sun was great. GREAT! Nothing beat walking all the way down to the econ midterm to fill out all Cs and turn in the test. Why'd I even go? I wanted to at least look at the problems. Oh man, it was such a nice day. Dinner was fun (almost everyone in our terms) and the gym with Becca was productive. I feel the stairmaster... I know it sounds silly to do that but it burns those calories! Anyway, the race was good yesterday, another Kenseth win. I didn't do much Sunday but the race and dinner and homework. Oooh, tonight I wrote my essay for English, so now I'm about done for that class.. no final. Just need every person to read this essay and make adjustments.... if I get like a 95 or better I can get an A. I just want an A in this so when I suck it next quarter, it's a little more balanced. Personal goals, you know? Anyway. Cant sleep.. cant sleep... cant sleep.. argh!
March 6, 2004- Sitting here with dye on my head as Bec, Meg and I talk about hair and shampoo and brands... yay! So yeah, today was fun out to Pismo. Very sunny day and lots to see and do. The sand was so nice and I am so excited to go next week to spend the day there and go out and have a bonfire. I hope my brother brings me firewood!! Let's see, happy times ahead and nothing to report.... lots of homework, guess I'll do it tomorrow during the race. I just dont like doing that. My race is my sacred time. You know. Anywho, this is quite scatterbrained.. so I am going to stop typing on Becca's laptop now!
March 4, 2004- So I am still playing Theme Hospital. I went with Meghan todat to fill in my schedule for my application too. I was skimming some of my old posts, and they are so scatterbrained. Pointless, fragmented, typo-ridden thoughts. Oh well. Nothing to do tonight, would do my stats but let someone borrow my notess o I wont have them until tomorrow. People should not take tough classes if they are going to have trouble with the language. You don't see me in Frankfurt trying to attend business classes there, do you? Whatever. I want to bottle this sunshine up and sell it... that would be a profitable business!
March 3, 2004- So last night my uncle took me, Joseph, Zach and his gf out to dinner. That was nice, just long. And then he came back to the dorms with Joseph and I and we played the piano in the lounge and talked. He got here at 6:30 and left at midnight. It makes sense since we're the sole reason for his trip... but at the same time... that was so long! Well, it's a once in a year sacrafice, right? It wasn't that bad, it's jsut too proper and the conversation is too proper. Bleh. No Lighthouse, anyway! So today I didn't go to hist because Engl is cancelled... so I got to sleep in until 11. How awesome was that. All I have been doing with my free time today is playing Theme Hospital. I have probably clocked in 25-35 hours since I go this thing on Saturday. I can't stop! If you guys know me, whenever I get a new Sim or Theme game (or "Rediscover" it) I paly it until the whee hours of the night and all during the day for aobut 2 weeks, then I cut down more, than it is very sparingly. It's just what I do. Those are the only computer games I ever really got into. Simulation games. I had the ORIGINAL Sim City. That was fucking AWESOME. The R, C, and I rectangles.. yeah buddy! Okay, yeah, so remember that post a while ago asking when people grow out of video games? I think not too many people who are older play them because it's not what they grew up doing, but now everyone in their 20s played them as teens, it'll be a long time until people stop. Like TV. Old people watch TV still.. mindless entertainment. Yeah, so interesting, huh? Why am I babbleing about this? I have no idea. Anywho, I am still (yes still) hurting from the ATVs, but in all my fall bruise areas. My right leg has all of its bruises in full bloom now and it is terrible. I am limping to class. I wore flip flops today and the zero cushion of them killed my leg. Learned another lesson! Yay! Anyway, my eyes are all bugged out from playitng my computer game too long... must rest....
March 1, 2004- So much easier to write March than February. Do you pronounce the first r? Anyway. Didn't update for a while because I was crazy busy. Um, let's see, Friday morning was insane waking up 10 min before my in-class essay. I got there 5 min late, but I finished. I feel a lot better about that essay than previous in-class ones. If I get a solid B on that, and like close to 100% on the huge-ass essay due in 2 weeks, I can do so well! At least I just have to go for 10 min tomorrow and not at all the rest of the week. So yeah. Um, did well on my history quiz last Thursday! I should get a B in that, hopefully. Unless I majorly fail the final, which is actually highly possible. Stats midterm on Friday went fine. I know the material real well, but it asks for the information in different ways so it really tests your confidence in the material. I guess things like that is good because it really does test your knowledge, but at the same time, those are the hardest tests!! Thursday I registered.. actually I am 100% certain I posted then but it's not here! I remember talking about my schedule. Bleh. Oh well, 2 bus classes, bus calc and Engl 148 (like 145). So yeah, ended last week alright.
THIS WEEKEND KICKED SO MUCH ASS! I just wanted to thank you guys for being so awesome. My dad had a great time and was glad to see I was in good company. He knows my previous friendships didn't do much for me, so he's glad to see I have a lot of friends who are a positive influence on me and I think he is majorly relieved you're not all slutty drunks. I am jsut so glad he got to meet you all. Christina, next time! Oh man, I still hurt from the ATVs. Yes, what did I learn? If you can't see the other side of hte "bump," be careful! And falling off and getting run over hurts. That could ahve been a lot worse... Anyway, dinner was awesome, I was glad to see my dad (no Amber or cats... pooey) and jsut to have a lot of fun. I know we'll ahve genuine outside of SLO fun over sprng break, but it was good to have a lot of fun this weekend. I don't know what I would have done... NASCAR wasn't even on! Expect pictures up soon, and then more later when I get the roll developed.
Happy 6 months with Joseph and I! Our relationship is getting a lot stronger and I can see I mean a lot to him. He got me Theme Hospital! My literal 3 year mission to get this archaic game... and he got it for me! I know a computer game isn't romantic itself, but I can't express how thoughtful this is. Enough stuff online, but yeah, aww, I feel so special!
February 25, 2004- So ATVing this weekend should guaranteee maximum mudization. Awesome. I'm hungry. Anyone have food? I am out of meals for the week. But I get dinner tonight at the EQ thing. Not eating here on Friday... just basically need to get through one more day without meals! Lots of homework to do tonight: reading for history, English summary, notes for stat midterm, review Econ (no way am I going to class out in the boonies)... Oh there's more, I know it. Okay, so as I was going from class to class and all around today in the storm, I thought of a few things to keep in mind when enduring such watershed.
1. Forget about pride. Do whatever you can to bumb half of an umbrella off someone walking your way. Perhaps just knock them upside the head and steal the umbrella. It's fucking wet. Oh, or, just don't be a dumbass and leave the umbrella in the room.
2. Wear tennis shoes that aren't 5 years old. Holes result in not-fun feet and socks.
3. Be careful walking back to the dorms. It's uphill, so walking on the sidewalks is like swimming upstream in a river.
4. Have a goddamn HOOD on.
5. Go up the stairs of the hall that is on the other side of the wind. Way less rain is in the stairwell and you don't trip. There are no "caution: wet floor" signs... can I sue?
6. Don't even try blowdrying your clothes afterwards. It is a lost cause.
7. Feel free to randomly crack up laughing because you think the person in charge of rain is a really, really big prick. I also thought back to the storm/car scene in "Big Fish" to help ease my pain.
8. And finally: Feel free to say "fuck class!" and stay dry indoors. I won't tell.
February 24, 2004- Happy birthday to my mother! She doesn't read this, but, hey. Backstage dinner was fun, and didn;t get much homework done. Pooie. Oh well, just let it all build up for tomorrow, because tomorrow isn't guaranteed. My new motto. Anyone is free to take it and modify it to fit their own needs. I give myself to much credit.
February 23, 2004- Is the world so bored to have the associated press comment on our Mardi Grad weekend?
http://www.cnn.com/2004/US/West/02/22/rowdy.mardigras.ap/index.html
So, I'm happy. Yes, Yaelle's World is happily rotating. Our econ teacher never even mentioned the cheater to our class, I guess she didn't want people to suspect who it was. Anywho, I got a 47/50! Yay! And that is worth 35% of my grade. How awesome. Kick ass is what it is. I am sort of dissapointed I am not going to the concert with Megs and Becca, but I have to start savin money. Going to WalMart was enough spending for like 3 weeks. Seriously. Yes, so today was alright. I realized I have done so well in econ, I don't have to go to class any more and just show up for the final. We have 3 midterms and 2 count, the worst one gets dropped. So I got an A on both, so why bother taking the third? So I get a 94 instead of a 91? Who cares. And the final wont be too bad. So, yeah, I may not go to econ as much anymore. :) Um, talked to my dad, he knows we're coming and it will be grand! I have to talk to people about Saturday, see what people's plans are because I want to take the ATVs out during the day. If people want to venture into Davis, I'll drop them off there before we leave, but I really want to go. The only place that is open is a 45 min drive away. So yeah, I want to go. I really do. So no one decide Davis for Saturday day is better than ATVs. Also for dinner, I need to know how many people are sticking around the house for dinner. I am, and that would be nice if people could join my family. But otherwise, I don't care what people do or where they go... hmmm, so yeah. I am excited though. I ahve to clean my room and decide what I can cast away. I am so excited to visit with my dad, I ahven't told him about the job or anything yet. I want to! So yes, how fun. Anyway, yeah, oh I cast off a meal to go to this award ceremony tonight (sort of guilted into) and it sucked. Dinner sucked more than Lighthouse and I sat at a table with my accent history teacher. Holy shit. I wanted to DIE. It was over soon enough, but I am still hungry and I wasted a good time with people for dinner and a meal. POO. I only have 3 meals left. Yeah. Insane, huh?
February 22, 2004- Wow so last night was crazy. Between tear gas, pipe bombs, paintballs, horse police and K-9 units, it was pretty exciting! I only saw one pair of boobs actually. But yeah, so it was insane. I wish that happened every month. I couldn't handle it every weekend. Becca's friend was pretty depressed the whole night so we didn't stay out as long as I hoped, but it was fun. We never got to where we were going, but all is well in Yaelle's world. Oh my lord, that was so much fun though. There were so many people around, and in the dorms, on the street.... Yeah, but running away from a pipe bomb is the highlight of my weekend. Will got chased by police cars and tear gas and ran from Foothill&CA all the way back to campus. Holy crap. Anywho. Yes. So Will spent the night, on my FLOOR, and that was interesting. It's fun to have someone over, it reminds me of junior high or something. I like talking to someone until you fall asleep. This upcoming weekend will be great. I am going to take home a bunch of crap I do not need and see my family and dog and it's great because there is a week off in NASCAR (don't know why) so I won't miss a race.... get to meet Becca's mom and stuff.... I am so excited! Yay!
February 21, 2004- Last night was fun. We went and saw "Big Fish" and went to In N Out and all sorts of craziness was going on. we drove through California area and stuff and it was a messload of people. How insane. Why is SLO so big for Mardi Gras? I could understand UCSB or something. Hmmm. Oh well. Going out tonight with Becca and her best friend from high school that came up for the weekend from UCSB. Goldy is a cool name. I like unique names. I should anyway. Yes, so I ahve decided we all ened this summer job. I better get an interview. Holy shit. I need this!!! Anyway, yep yep, went out to lunch and to Madonna with Cris and Will, and just hanging around until tonight.... Wheee! Yep yep... anywho, give me a call, I amy call someone if we get all stranded somewhere icky tonight!!
February 19, 2004- So yeah, exciting exciting. No homework last night or tonight... sweetness. I don't know how I am so lucky! So today, I went down by the football field and applied for this job. I REALLY hope I get called back. It's really neat, I guess the dorms get rented out or something over the summer to camps and things, and so you can apply for postions either with like office/clerical work or desk front jobs helping out. It pays like 7.00-8.50/hour and it's basically full time over summer (starts the Monday after school ends) and there would be some hours during Spring Break. How nice would that be?? Oh man, and living arrangements can be made for $175 over the summer. How nice, and then Cerro Vista would start in September? Oh man, I want to do that so bad. I REALLY hope I get called back. When I get registered for Spring Quarter, I am going to have to bring that by. But otherwise yeah, it'll keep me busy and occupied and lots of good money..!!
February 18, 2004- Today is pretty dumb. Not bad, just dumb. At lunch I was reaching for something and my trey on the salad bar tipped over and all my lunch and dishes went on the floor, the dishes shattering. Great... Yeah, good thing I didn't have any glasses of juice. So I got balsamic vineagar on my pants and scarf- hopefully that will come out. I am hungry though because I didn't really eat anytihng as a consequence, I didn't want to go backa nd get another sandwich and stuff. Bleh, yes so I got a cut on my finger that is STILL bleeding 4 hours later... I finally got a bandaid. From the health center. When I was there for my appointment. Bleh, she tried taking my blood pressure before, but I was too nervous. Hahaha... yeah but it wasn't that bad and no need to go into details but I just had to bite the bullet. The doctor was really nice. The whole thing was 41 bucks, so no spending this weekend or next weekend. I have no money. Must save for Spring Break! So yeah, midterm in 20 minutes, I'll do okay. I just want to do well enough to not ahve to take the third optional midterm. If I get an A on this one, I dont' have to take the other one. How sweet would that be. Yeah, so, off to econ, and I am hungry!!!!
February 17, 2004- G@#%$#^#&%&#!!! I just worte half of this long post and it closed.... bleh. So yeah, this will be less rehashing because I am tired of it. I'm in a good mood, just damn! Anyway, So yeah, this will be long since I haven't posted in a while. Stupid internet being down for half a week, you know, we PAY for this service. Some people had to go to the library this morning to register. This school sucks sometimes. Sometimes.
WEEKEND REHASH: Thursday: no country night, Becca and I were just not in the mood. History midterm. Gym time though however! Friday: In class essay, stats lab, then a movie Along Came Polly with Will, Meghan, Christina, and will's friend Wendy. I came back to my dorm afterwards and Joseph was asleep, so I went back over to Will's dorm. I cleaned his whole room too. His half at least. That caused some weird conflict later.. but that's not really online journal stuff. Anywho. Saturday Valentine's Day: Went well. Would have been better if Joseph's car was in working order. We just hung around the dorms. With all the food places closed (annoying) we walked down to campus market and ate lunch outside together. He also bought me this stuffed scruffy dog from the El Corral. So we had fun together. We went to In N Out with Meghan and Will for dinner, and yeah, afterwards was kind of weird, relating back to me cleaning Will's place. But anyway, yeah, let's not get into that. It's not a big deal and it's been discussed. Sunday: Joseph's birthday! Daytona was on, and we watched that and I did all my laundry (3 HUGE loads) and just kind of hung around again. Monday: The same thing, lots of homework and less fun. Oh well. We went to Madonna for lunch. Very nice to sleep in!! OVERALL: A nice weekend.
Okay so yes, about my mental state of mind. How else to put it? Anyway, I don't know, too much drama and heresay. If someone wants to know anything, ask the person it relates too directly! Too many people are getting upset over stupid jokes and things that aren't they're business. It's silly. I am going to more late nites and things with Becca and I am so glad to have someone to talk to. I may not have expereinced everytihng she has, but she can see everything I have done. And we have really similar senses of humor, so I think we can talk about a lot of things and so yeah.... yeah. I really enjoy late nite and gym time with her. It's nice to have a person that will listen and someone I can listen to. It's a nice concept. I am also not stressing, but concerned about my grades this quarter. I know I'm not in a skinking ship, but I have personal goals and standards. And I haven't been keeping up with mine. Sure some grades for some people are a blessing and that's great. But for me, some things aren't good enough. I don't like compromising myself because I feel lazy. I am afraid that I got a little deviated from my work this quarter. I don't know. I hate this quarter. Like my dad told me, we are in the same environment we were last quarter where everything was new and exciting, and it was a blast. Now, we're not neccessarily bored, but things have become routine. We want the novlety of last quarter and it's no longer here, leaving us with some angst. So yes, I think that's what everyone's blues relates too. I just can't wait until spring quarter when I figure out this summer stuff and have a new set of classes, hopefully including business law!
February 12, 2004- Missed a post! Oh well. :) Yes, so the opera. Fun, really. I think a lot of the coolness of it was the novelty since it was a new experience. But I got to get all dressed up, look pretty, go to the PAC (which I love) and see soemthing I haven't ever seen before. I thought it was likea musical with the songs being typical opera-ishs tyle. They sing through the whole thing! I didn't know that. Okay, so yeah, it was interesting. The plot was a little dumb though, but oh well. Il Travatore I believe it's called. Look it up. Anyway, yeah, they had subtitles on this large screen above the stage so you knew what was going on. I read the synopsis before so I knew the plot... just in case it was going to be hard to follow. I never understood when like actors can do a whole monologue, but holy crap, sing an wentire thing? It went by so slowly too. The subtitle would be like "I Condemn you to hell!" and it would take a good 45 second (1-mississippi...)for the to sing it. Holy shit. The funniest thing was the guy sitting on the other side of Joseph who started to snore. I was interested but starting to get tired, but holy crap, that snoring was ready to put me out. He was asleep like the whole time. How great. Yeah, so I wouldn't be like "Wheee! Yay! Opera time, yeah we all need to go!" or something of the sort, but I would be open to going with someone who did feel that way. College is just about finding what you like and don't like and that was jsut a new experience to put under my belt.
Today was funky too. Since I was so busy with classes and going out with Becca to Big O Tires and In N Out and the opera, no time for homework! So, I woke up at FIVE, 5, V, a.m.! However to get the point across that I woke up at FIVE a.m.... jeebus. Holy jeebus. So I read history until I got read y for Engl at 9, then had the history midterm at 10. I think I did really crappy, perhaps D or lower, but I don't care. I really don't. It's history. (haha I meant it like I don't care about this class, history, but it's like I don't care because it already happened it's history... haha I jsut crack myself up. I didn't notice that util I typed it. hahahahaha) I'm really not laughing. I'm not THAT stupid.
February 10, 2004- Days just keep going by, don't they. Well, I've been thinking a lot lately. Last night I felt lonely, almost alienated (don't ask) and it spiraled into homesickness, but just for my family, not Davis. I felt sad and called Will to cheer me up, but I wanted to talk to my father. he didn't answer. I fell asleep finally, but soon afterwards Joseph came up. It was so nice becuase I just needed someone close to me to remind me that I am blessed and have family everywhere. So, that was a much needed hug, but the loneliness carried into today somewhat. The morning classes were the usual blah, with the usual waking up at 8:45am for my 9am class... taking a shower afterwards. Yes, so then this afternoon/early eveing was a terrible experience going downtown. Going there and my errands were fine, but it was a hard time getting back. I didn't get a ride at first, then Will said he'd come but his car had a flat and then Joseph said he'd come and his battery died. I am a jynx! Anywho, walked back... that's a long walk when It's dark and I'm tired and you are along a busy street. Bleh. So I talked to my dad on the phone, and he told me some really smart things about why I feel so "bleh" lately. He told me that at first things were new: the dorms, people, classes, EVERYTHING. Now the novelty has worn off, and it's not that I'm bored, I am just searching for that new factor... you know? So anywho, that's why things are blah. But I need to stay positive. Today was crappy with the rides and walking home from downtown, but I mean I am happy right now, at 1am. I went to late nite and afterwards had another long talk with Becca, and I am just so much happier I don't feel lonely. I like how I am starting to understand becca a lot more. She has been through a lot that I haven't and so her views and experience are something I don't take lightly. I rally like to listen to what she has to say and why she thinks and feels the way she does. Anywho. So now I have started some homework... but I just had Nikki and her friend come up and visit me.. so that has delayed my process. I dont think I was getting much done anyway. I was in the middle of wiritng this. So sorry if this is disjointed. Anywho, yes, I want to do something fun for Mardi Gras but don't know who to go out with. I need a place to stay. Too amny random sobriety checkpoints scare me. But drinking isn't the note I want to leave you all thinking aobut in this posting, it's that I am starting to become more aware of how I feel, and moreso WHY I feel that way, and I am very open for people to talk to me about what they feel and perhaps if thy have noticed some behavior in me that isn't cool. I really don't feel that lonely anymore and am so glad to be here at Cal Poly, as always!
February 9, 2004- Happy birthday, Zach! He's now 20. Oh my lord, that seems so old. 20. It's so funny that most 20 year olds we know still play Call of Duty. I find it amusing. At what age do people stop listening to current music (rap and rock) and stop purchasing the video games... I find that funny. I can't wait to have a real job, no. Career. A real career where I can get dressed in a nice outfit each day and be taken seriously and have my window view office. Yes, that will be nice. When I complain about my history reading, I must just remember, it's for the sake of my future! Okay, so one class isn't going to make a break the future, but it's a constant perseverance and work ethic that gets you there. Take my stats class for example. We got back some midterms, and he was saying how if you got a bad grade, don't worry because if get Bs on everything else we do you can still get a B for the class. But if you were tog et Bs on everything else, would you really have failed the first exam? Stuff to think about. Anywho, so I can't wait until Friday when we get to make sure we're in for Cerro Vista. That's exciting. I wonder if they tell us which room we got, or just that we have a room. Oh well, doesn't really matter. I probably would knock on the door and be like we brought you a pizza, can we see the layout? haha- I would too. Anywho, yes, class 4-6 and I have to read a history chapter tonight, and I REALLY want to go to the gym.
February 8, 2004- Oh my lord, yesterday was so awesome. I was SO stuffed. I have gone out to eat before and have had excellent food, but I don't think the timing of the best food came at a more perfect time. Someone had to save us from that Lighthouse-VGs slump. It was just so happy, and I was so glad Meghan's parents were so happy to be there. I could hear them say to each other how glad they were that they came, and they were so awesome and hilarious. You can only say that about someone else's parents though. :) I really wish I remembered my camera, but I will get pictures from people I am sure. Meghan's mom took a bunch of pictures of Will and I throughout dinner, and so you'll be able to see the progression of our dinner through photo journalism. Hahaha. The absolute funniest part of last night was when Meghan realized the water man was blindfolded... Oh my gosh, I'm laughing thinking about it. Besides the great food, everyone seemed to be having a good time, I sort of was seated sort of away from Scott and Ryan and Christina and Meghan, so I don't know everything that went on down there. I heard laughter. I also heard some bickering of some sort, which is terribly uncool. I was smiling the whole time. I can't remember the last time Meghan was jsut truly so happy. I mean we can all make her laugh at VGs or something, but you know there still is a little something in her mind telling her something negative. But none of that was ther last night and she was just so radiant and beautiful. I am glad tall Scott didn't go because I would not want Meghan to be holding back, she was just so happy. Genuinely happy. Meghan, whenever you feel sad about people or or Oxnard, think of last night, okay? I love you!!!!
February 6, 2004- I have a lot of the dances down! I am so excited! I can do the electric slide, Tush Push, the one to Cotton Eye Joe, and the that slide one. I lve that song. What is it called? Have you ever made love in the backseat of a car? That one. Yeah, I had a lot mroe fun than Becca, but it was good times. We are starting to get the point where we know a lot of the dances so we need a partner to practice with. I won't go unless at elast one guy who wants to dance with us comes, rather if he knows what he's doing or not. I jsut need someone tol hold my hands as I do the girl's part. You can find partners for the 2step and such, but not the Horseshoe and things like that, the couple dances with like a pattern. Anywho, lots of fun and I am glad I really am starting to pick up on them!
Today also is good because I think I did alright on my inclass essay this morning, and got a 93 on the essay I turned in a week ago! How awesome! And I met Becca for lunch at Lighthouse (0 meals!) and went to stats. I got a 46/50 on that midterm, another A! Awesome! All these hours of homework pay off. Yay me. I would feel really bad if I breahted homework all last week like a did to get a B or C. Not that anything's wrong with those, it's just for the amount of time spent... yeah. So, I am excited. My stats is worth a lot for my GPA being 5 units and I think I'll get an A... I have a 94.4% in the class right now... with a quarter of the possible points being earned. That's a good roll! Anywho. Yes, looking forward to tonight and this awesome Meghan birthday weekend! Yay!
February 5, 2004- It is the new Yaelle standard to wake up at the last possible moment to go to English. Lst quarter I had a 9am class twice a week, and I woke up at like 7:45! I don't know why I can't do it this time around. It's all good, I'm in my PJs until 1, then I come back to the dorm and am done for the day and can shower now. That's nice. I can't wait to make my schedule so awesome for next quarter. Priority 7 will get me some classes that won't be closed but crap times, but I shall crash earlier sections! Yay! Today is a hapy day, and I shall do some homework now before I get too distracted and don't want to do it over the weekend. Stats takes a brutal amount of time. I shall do that.. yes yes, country night is tongiht too! Yay! Come!
February 4, 2004- Oh jebus, I am so tired. I want to curl up and take a nap. In fact, I shall after this. I actually woke up a full hour before my 9am class, whcih is a shocker because I usually get out of bed at 8:45. I was just a walking zombie today. Last night was somewhat upsetting too. I had trouble breathing as if a heavy weight was just apply pressure on my chest and lungs. It went away and had a relaxing time at the gym, and fully enjoyed my lemonade icee. But I don't know, there's some tension I feel is around me. I don't know what it is. Like I feel like almost everyone I encounter besides like 4 people are rubbing me the wrong way. I don't know, perhaps after this very awesome weekend I'll be happier. I am not sad, just in that terrible blah mood that won't shake! I'm okay, just need a nap. :)
Oh I thought it would be worth mentioning- I went to Foothill yesterday via bus and it was great fun, and I am getting a VISA check card and went to Rite Aid. Yay, that was fun! I also got $10 cash for the week, and I am only allowed to spend it at country night. Yay!
February 3, 2004- Ack! I wrote 2003 again and deleted it. I am dumb. I also messed up with my alarm, I'm not used to setting it, but because of the power outage yesterday, I had to. I did it wrong or something and it didn't go off, so I woke up naturally at 9:35. Peachy. So I hopped out of bed scrambled to get myself together to make it to the last part of class so I could ask the teacher what I missed, I figures seeing her at the end shows better faith than just not going at all. So I waited outside for 5 minutes until the class was dismissed and talked to the teacher, I didn't miss much. Thank goodness. I also picked up an old quiz and summary. I felt icky and "bleh" in history, so I came back to the dorms in my hour break of 11-12 to shower. Went back for stats 12-1, picked up stuff from Sandwich Factory and brought it back to my dorm, which I am currently enjoying as I type away.
Last night I got really sad. My cute kitten Tiger, that I came from my other cat so I've had her her whole life... well, she is so adorable and loves to be adventurous. She's so cute and likes to be pet for hours on end, played with, and go outside and sunbathe. She is my little free spirit. Well, ever since my mother started to rent out her condo, she started to either live in my mother's room or stay outside because she is so afraid of people she doesn't know. It's so sad. And then my mom stopped coming home too often so she didn't get to see a familiar face too often. So now that my mom lives with her boyfriend in the bay area, she took my kitten and my other cat Dusty to that house. Dusty is chill because the boyfriend has three yap-yap dogs and Dusty stands up to that and will go by them to get outside. But Tiger, as my mom tells me, just stays upstairs in fear. When the dogs are let out she snoops around the house, but never goes outside now. And I miss her so much and just want to take her with me where I know she'll get loved and appreciated. She gets so excited to see me over the breaks.... I want to see my kittens! And now I don't think I will be able to like over the summer because they live there and I'm not going to that house... at least I don't think. Okay, so now my mom said that there is this girl who would rent out the room in Sept and she wants a cat, and my mom proposed to bring Tiger back to the house and the girl would really want to take care of it and so she could go back to my old house and have her same hideouts as before. I hope that happens, but I really want my cat back for me. I don't want some girl to get attatched to Tiger for 9 months, I want my baby back and to live with me! I alsmot hope we dont get into Cerro Vista and get an apartent I can have a pet in and get Tiger. I want my shmoopie back! Agh! So yes, that made me really depressed.
Not a good sign if I blow my nose (sick) and blood is in the tissue. At least I am done for the day. I love Tuesday and Thursdays. Positive times.... I'm trying at least... This quarter just isn't good.
February 2, 2004- Yep yep, so yeah, the weekend was nothign special. Friday was nothing and so was Saturday, but the bonfire was pretty cool. I was the only warm one and we all talked about family and stuff, it was nice. It was funny to apy about $1/log since I have SO much firewood at home. We probably have like 1000 logs or something. It's insane. I don't know, my dad hasn't cut any recently and has been using it through the winter and camping... hmm. oh well. Yes, Sunday was pretty wasteful, I went over to Meghan's room and "watched" the first half of the superbowl over there. After half time (stupid and in poor taste) I left. I wasn't hungry for dinner and didn't go to late nite, so I was pretty hungry for lunch this morning. I applied for Cerro Vista this afternoon and have a class 4-6 I do NOT want to go to. If I read the chapter between now and 4, I'll decide not to go. It's in the bus building, all the way across campus, and it's pouring. Bleh. That's how I feel: bleh. I am reflecting on this weekend and it was just bleh. I am not negative, I really am trying to be positive, I guess I'm just neutral. Just bleh. I think I am starting to think aobut things that aren't really for posting, and that's just making me feel more bleh.
January 31, 2004- Yeah last night was interesting. I was going to spend it with Joseph, but he went to sleep around 9/10ish, so I went and played cards and a little Mario Kart in tower 5. I ahve so much doing things with those people. I think a lot of people have this high school mentality that they have to have as many friends as possible and must go out to get drunk every weekend or else it is shameful. I am way over that. Not that's it's not fun to party, but it just doesn't build healthy friendships. I find it much better to hang out with a smaller amount of people who you know pretty well and just enjoying each other's company. That's so much better. Yeah, so I had fun last night. Tonight going to Pismo should be fun, as long as we get a lighter. No homework for Yellie! Yes!
January 30, 2004- Happy 4 months to Joseph and I! Anywho, last night was a total BLAST, and I think Becca and I are now going every week. It was too much. Her toher friends were there without us knowing so It was cool to have a few more people there. We tried almost everything and guys asked us dance and we were really learning! We're picking up the line dances pretty well, we've got another like 2 down but I can't do them from memory now, but if someone were to do it with me I'd be all over it. It was soooo much fun, a lot better than 2 weeks ago too! Ooh, I have not seen this quarter before... Missouri... anywho. Yes. So that was so much fun and I'm glad I am super happy at the end of this mega stress week. Yes, so Pismo Saturday and no other plans. Just not tons of homework! Yay!
January 29, 2004- Positive, sunny day! I woke up at 8:45 once more for my 9:00 class. It's kind of cool because I get max amount of sleep, and then go to class right on time, and have 2 hours of class quickly knocked out of my day. I then came back here, took a shower, and went on my merry little way to stats. We did a review, which I understood compeltely, and we got back our quiz from yesterday, another 10/10 for me! Yay! So, afterwards I went over to 10-138 for the writing lab, which was of great help for my essay due tomorrow. I think I can improve it a lot more. He said it was newspaper/article-ish, not in a bad way, it just was, and I thought that was funny that my journalistic background can come through. I LOVE journalism! Anywho, so I went to Sandwich factory and brought back the food to my room, and now am happily typing away sipping my SoBe and eating my salami sandwich. mmm mmm. I am very happy, especially since I have my essay and midterm for tomorrow under control. And most everything is done. Actually, besides English reading, I don't think I ahve any homework this weekend... awesome...!!! Happy happy day for me. It's about time too. :)
January 28, 2004- It is hard to update with this amount of stuff going on. Two midterms and the history thing due, and an English paper due plus normal homework? Seventeen units is a lot of work I tell ya. It's almost over, and I'll never see this amount again until fina;s week (hopefully). Anywho, I am in a pretty decent mood now that I have finished my homework by midnight. Didn't play racquetball afterall, but I just had too much to do. Tomorrow the plan is country night! Yes! That'll be fun. Becca and I will have a good time. I don't know if anyone else is going. So yes, I have really been trying to keep a positive face through it all. I truly am trying, and I don't see myself as a negative person, but I just ahve a hard time dealing with all this stress. I don't resort to anything unhealthy, physically anyway, but I sure dwell on things. Calling my dad the past few nights has really helped. I think he is very worried. He evn told my mother because she called today. I can't believe he told her, it's not a secret, it's just that means they talked.... ugh... I don't want to know. I don't feel like reexplaining things to her when she wants to hear it, it's not a good time for me nor do I feel like talking about it. That's why I didn't call her. Anyway, I said I'd call her later in the weekend when I got through the rest of this week. Bleh. Oh well, but happy faces. I've been keeping my room relatively clean, super clean compared to its tornado state. I think if I made my bed each morning, that would help. Tomorrow I have to go to some free English tutoring to get help on my essay and then I have an appointment with the OnTrack people at 3. Whee. I am glad I studied a lot for my stats midterm, because that's a big part of what I need to do tomorrow night. I can definately go to country ngiht with no worries!
January 27, 2004- Stress needs to end! There is nothing I can do about this Lindsay chick moving in, but I am thinking about why she got rejected from her room... I don't know. I am glad I mentioned no alcohol in the room, because that kind of put a negative mark in her book I think. I think the NASCAR put her off. I made it obvioous that I like this room and I like the space and obviously I ahve made it very comfortable, but I also said that I understand it's not my choice and I am supposed to have a roommate and just count my blessings. I don't know. The RA being right there also I think turned her off. Oh man, I wish I had a day of relaxation and Corona. That would be nice. Sigh.... Yeah, so I am ready for my history project tomorrow, and I still have to study for my math quiz (exam is on Friday) and there is just too much to do. I might skip out on econ on Wed to get more of this done. I also have a rough draft essay due on Thursday and a summary... crap. Crap and a half. I am going to the gym tonight though because that feels good and I am commited! Happy times, everyone just sort of remind me. I mean it's not like I ahve cancer or someone in my family died, so I am happy, I just feel very pressured. I think I will call my father again. He is quite helpful. He really calmed me down with the Jill drama yesterday.
January 26, 2004- Yeah, so I hope I never have a weekend like that with that much homework, but I think that will be the essence of every weekend from now on. So to not kill everyone who I have already bitched to about Jill, yeah, well, all you need to know is that she finally crossed the line by writing obscenities on my door. I have tried to calm situations by being submissive and quiet, letting her look like an ass, but now I will no longer tolerate being bullied. I was fine with her being stupid and getting the pleasure of seeing her just look completely dumb and laugh with my friends, but now I am personally offended and feel harassed. I am very much aobut my principles and I was basically shaking as I was telling the RA. I am done with Jill and she will no longer push me around. So yes, I know most of you already heard that, so new news is going to have the RA myself and Jill talk. I am so glad I told the RA. Calling my dad also calmed me down. So yeah, anywho, I'll report how that goes and let you know. I have dinner soon, then gym time tonight (yay!). My econ midterm went well and the history report is almost complete... English reading to do tonight and TONS to do tomorrow afternoon.
January 25, 2004- Holy moly, my weekend is becoming this giant wheat field acres large of homework and things to do. I feel like it is my lonesome self in a corner with a syth (sp?) slowly chopping away at the field. Weird analogy, but it works. Nice visual. *thumbs up* Yeah, but yesterday I did SO much homeowrk and 2 HUGE loads of laundry, cleaned my room up even more... I watched Finding Nemo with Joseph in the evening which we both really enjoyed. He laughed at the parts we have all been repeating so often... like the Squishy thing and "Just keep swimming... just keep swimming..." Yeah, but his neighbors told us to turn the nonloud movie down... they're always noisey and high... so that really put Joseph in a bad mood. I felt bad and we resorted to headphones. He gets so irritated about his neighbors and dorm life down there in the dungeon. He was going to sleep up here and left for some reason, then called my cell like 4 times trying to get back in... he locked the door, I sure as hell didn't get out of bed. I barely remember that, I know I talked to him for a bit, then I woke up at 10 and he left for his room because I woke him up when I got on the computer. I have no idea what is going on in his mind. So yeah, group meeting at 3 and 5, I'm hungry and probably not going to the gym. Phooey.
January 24, 2004- When problems arise, I will definately try to say something instead of hinting ot it on here. That's no good. I should be able to say stuff. And people should be able to say things to me! nyway, homework sucks major ass. I slept in until 1... yeah... I was tired. I went to bed at a reasonable hour too. Well so I did about 3 hours of homework yesterday and about 2 and a half so far today, and that completes my stats homework. Now I must transition to my crappy report on religions.. a group project. I am also compiling it so I have to wait for people to e-mail it in. Only 3 other people have done it and people are supposed to do it by this evening. Hopefully everyone will pull through. Yeah, so I have to do mine on Christianity. Then I have to do my English reading. No fun. I am meeting for about 4 hours tomorrow with my different groups too. What does this all equate to? NO TIME. Agh! It's around 4:30 and I haven't eaten today. This is sad. I also have lots of laundry to do. Crap, I hate my weekend.
January 23, 2004- Still keep writing 2003. Oh well. Yeah, so I had an inclass essay this morning. I went in my PJs. My next class is at 12, so I have a full 2 hours ot regroup and shower. I had a good night last night. Joseph came up and we played Monopoly, since no one else will, and that was fun. I always win... but I am going bankrupt! We left it set up so we can return to it, but I doubt we will. He's going back home for the weekend. Anyway, no plans for this weekend... nothing at all. No one ever tells me waht is going on. I had a good conversation with Becca at late night and it was really nice. I'm glad I was able to talk to her and I am glad I was able to tell her soem things about how I feel and she really understands. I wish I could help her with some of her family problems, I just can't relate. I felt that way with Anne, where I'd have problems with money or the divorce and she couldn't do anything to help me. She just didn't understand... Not the fault of anyone but it's jsut hard. I really want to be there for Becca. The least I can do is listen. Anyway, I am pretty cheery and I think it's the start of a new trend for me. I am working on being optimistic!
January 22, 2004- Didn't update yesterday but there wasn't much to report. Just did a bunch of homework, story of my life. I'm actually in a good mood. So, yeah, today was interesting. First of all my cough is SO annoying. I only have it in the morning so everyone in English thinks I am dying, and as the classes get later in the day, the less I cough. Now I haven't coughed in hours. Strange. Ooops, just coughed, but you don't know that. So yeah, in my hour break (11-12) I came back to my room to mkae sure my bed was made properly. Joseph made it and I didn't trust him to do it exactly right. He missed the most important part... he put the pillows side by side. Okay, what tells a parent more clearly that 2 people are sleeping in the same bed then 2 pillows SIDE by SIDE. Come on. Boys don't think of these things. Anyway, I did Nikki's econ homework too. That's the first time I did someone's homework for them I think. Anywho, stats was next and that is getting so complex. It's just insane. No other words... just insane. It's not that I don't understand, it's just like the problems are like 18 steps long and it's jsut a lot to sort through. So, yeah, then my brother picked me up and my mom was in the car and been with my brother since 10am. So we went to Firestone for lunch and then my brother left for class, so my mom and I had about 3 hours to kill around downtown. I got a big new fishbowl and palm tree at Law's and it's awesome. My mom is doing well and we get along like 800 times better. I also had no idea how many cool shops are downtown. I never went into all the boutiques. There are some cool neato ones. Yeah... so she left around 4:30 and now I am back in my dorm. I am getting hungry again but am not going to get food until freakin' late nite so oh well.
How am I, anyway? All I do is talk about what is going on. well, right now I am really happy that I had a good time with my mom. We didn't get along too well, lots of small (and big) fights that just came from too much exposure to each other. Now I can spend a whole day with her and it's no problem, where before there was a time I lied to her face about where I was going just to go to my dad's. Yeah, so I am glad we get along much better now. I don't like hearing about her boyfriend who she has basically moved in with, but I figure whatever makes her happy. I don't have a problem with it, I just don't want to hear about him. That's all. I don't want to talk to her about Joseph just as I don't want to hear about her boyfriend. She is really more like a friend than a mother. She didn't have mush to do in raising me after the divorce, when I was like 8. It was all my dad, I believe anyway. Not like she didn't affect my life, but just she never knew about things, important things, because I didn't tellh er. Maybe I didn't trust her. I don't know. It's a very complex issue, but things are better.
I am also pretty happy with my social scene now. I feel each day I get closer to my friends, but at the same time I sometimes feel left out. IT's not the joking or kidding, I can totally handle it, so I wouldn't want people to think that, it's funny too. If I'm laughing, I'm not hurting. Anyway, I just feel like it's everyone else and me I guess. Perhaps because I ahven't met people's parents and been to people's homes. I don't know. It's sort of silly, and I know I'm appreciated, which is great because I didn't have that with my old Davis friends. Like all 3 of the real ones... Yeah. I don't know, I'm just silly I suppose.
Also, things with Joseph are improving. We've spent a lot mroe time seperately doing our own things. I go downstairs a lot and I believe we're both pretty open about what we want to do. I think Joseph buying the opera tickets was a good sign that he is going to express what he wants to do and start communicating it to me. I only ask him upstairs now when I want to show him my fish or clean room, and I think I am depending more on myself and other friends for comfort. I used our relationship as a crutch where he was the first person I went to for anything. Now I am remembering how I lived my life before college and how I solved problems. I can figure them out myself, remember what my dad has told me, and share my thoughts and feelings with other friends. So yes.
Besides my new founded headache typing all this out, I feel a lot better. I sunk into a semi depression the first 2 weeks back but I ahve really bounced back. Ever since country night and the fun I had there... and the events that happened afterwards, I really woke up. I got to think clearly about a lot of things I hadn't for a while. Please feel free to come to me with any problems or whatnot, I want to make others happy! Smiles!
January 20, 2004- You get long posts like that last one when I don't update for 3 days! Well, last night Joseph got infused with tons of energy and wanted to watch Pirates, great if it wasn't midnight.... I made it to the part about the description of the curse and just went into a deep sleep. Consequently, I woke up at 8:47 this morning... and have a 9:00 class... so yes. That's fun. I forgot my stats binder (important) so had to come back here to get it. I also then was suppsoed to emet that horrid homeowrk group during this hour, so consequently I have to go after stats with them and answer questions. I am not going to do this at all anymore. This week was better doing it on my own, and I thought hey, an hour to check answers won't kill. But I know I have the right answers and I don't want to spend time after my class today (my last one ends at 1) with these people. Now I can't get lunch with Becca. GRAH! I will be all smiles after I get backa nd take a long, long shower.
January 19, 2004- Holy crap, this weekend was INSANE. I am leaving in 10 min so I won't finish this, so I'll add to it. There's a whole tihng with Joseph, and it's not really for web posting, but yeah. That was some hard times. Change is good, and I get to make sure I'm going to be more independent and Joseph gets to have more of his own time. The time we spend together will be more enjoyable I'm sure.
So Friday after classes Becca and I packed up and went downtown SLO shopping. Got some Express clothes, hit Victoria's semi annual sale and got my favorite bra for half the price... YES! We returned some videos and got In N Out. Then we went to Nikki's and that was GREAT fun. Nikki got stoned/drunk fast and was officially dumped by Bob earlier that day so she went in te back and threw up a lot and went to sleep. I was out there with Becca getting quite drunk and having fun with her friends. Funny conversation. She has the whitest rich friends ever. You wouldn't believe it. So I made fun of this guy named Brewski (I don't know how he spells it) because with a name like that and looking like a freakin Backstreet Boy, come on. I think he took it harshley because this kid probably never got made fun of in his life. So yeah, that was fun, and I was about by 1am. I started too early. The chip dipping in the drink instead of the salsa was bad enough, but when I went to take a sip of beer and spilled some on my shoulder because I missed, Becca told me I had enough. I didn't argue.
So Saturday (got to go... to be continued) Okay, it's the 20th now but I'll continue. We came back and shopped in Paso and picked up a few more things (Don't you love the dollar store?) and got back around 5ish. Bill Maher was that night and it had its funny parts, but he made a lot of comments we all had to kind of bite our tongue at. Becca and Joseph and I had a good time, but I probably had the best time compared to them. It did have some funny parts. Obviously it had a lot of political humor which was fine but I want to see an entertainment comedian. Like Comedy Central stuff. That would be awesome.
Sunday and Monday was spent just kind of getting out and shopping and picking up some things. Homeowrk. The fun stuff. Sunday Becca Joseph and I went out to Applebee's, and that was some good eatin'.
January 16, 2004- This weekend shall be interesting. Country night was great fun and I really tried to pick stuff up. It was great clean fun with friends trying to do something new and I loved it. I even got a big group card! It was cute. Nikki MUST go.
On the night of the 15th, I didn't cry. Despite what *other* people may have thought, I didn't shed one tear. I thought about a lot of things and went to sleep. The end of last night feels like this heavy weight that that I'll just think about for a long time, but I don't think I'll ever cry about it. Most things tend to happen for a reason, and I believe alst night will make me grow. I haven't yet experienced things at Cal Poly the way I should, and I need to try somethings on my own. The source of my recent depression seems to have left, believe it or not. Perhaps the stress of me knowing this was going to happen was building on me, and this may be what I needed. I don't know, I still need more time to think. There are more things (a lot more things) I have to say about this but are not for a web journal. Happy sunny day.
January 14, 2004- Yeah, so I don't know what is up with me lately. I have been overall depressed since Winter Break and can't seem to be truly content. It's like all my good times (which happen frequently here) are distractions from my sadness. Sadness about what? I am not sure. I feel very distant from people, but almost like the world is continuing without me somehow. I need to get a smile on my face and remember how miserable I was back home and realize how great life truly is, and I am not sure wh I am having troubles doing so. Dropping the SI and freeing up my schedule drastically is a great improvement. Hopefull after this weekend I'll be a lot better. I don't know what's wrong, I just hope I don't spoil other people's mooods and attitudes if all I do is complain. I don't want to become outcast for my temporary almost depression, but I'm not going to lie. The problem lies within me, I jsut have to figure it out. I wish I could truly appreciate everyone and everything I have, but it seems like I can't right now.
January 13, 2004- Sorry, this is becoming almost every other day! Well, I think I jsut solved half my problem. Going from 9am to 1 with an hour for lunch, then class 4-6 but doing homeowrk in that interval plus then doing to dinner afterwards gets me back in my room about 7:45 with not having any down time and I have homeowrk left to do. I jsut can't keep doing that. 4 days a week plus classes on Friday! So, today I dropped my study group. It is a lot of stress to consistently have large blocks of school/homework for 4 days straight without downtime during the day. I also feel that the people in the study group will use me as a resource more than I feel I will get out of the group meeting. Now 2 days a week I go almost solid 9-6 and 3 days a week I'm done at 1. It's very nice. Next quarter I will do my best to have all my classes between 9 and # no matter what with one day off.. rather it be Monday, tues, Wed Thurs or Fri... just one day off competely! Yep, so I am much happier now. I also wrote some thank you letters to relatives who sent me birthday cards and checks. $150! Whee!
January 11, 2004- Sorry for the lack of updates. It's really 12:04am on the 12th, but oh well. Yesterday, Saturday, was uver fun. Meghan Joseph and I went to Pismo, Foothill and Madonna for all sorts of errands and shopping. We got Joe pants at the Levi's outlet, I got a book at Aida's, we shopped around Cost Plus and I got a poster, got Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on DVD, all sorts of stuff. We went to lunch at Denny's and then later Ryan took us out for a belated Xmas gift to Applebee's. Myself, Ryan, Becca, Megs, and Christina all wne tto that. That was really fun. That night I stayed in as everonye played cards, I just needed some "chill time." Oh, and Friday night we rented 3 movies: Down With Love (TERRIBLE, even the other people who like those movies thought so), Barbershop (we still need to watch that) and Blue Collar Comedy Tour. And oh my Lord, I don't care who you are, that was funny. The best part was this joke about a broken old swingset that would fall over when you got so high... oh my, too many things are funny because they're true. You might be a redneck if when to do the hodown you throw your woman on the floor. HAHA... Oh gosh, yes so today! Today I slept in and goofed around on the computer playing the Sims with Joseph and read some, went to the stats study group for about an hour, and then we went to backstage for dinner. Didn't get much homework done tonight, but wrote my dad an "update on my life" e-mail and a letter to Erin in New York. I also watched Joseph play his new computer game which is "better than Halo."
So that's what I've been doing, here's what's clicking upstairs. Nice way of putting it, huh? Well, Joseph tells me I have been overall derepssed since Winter Break started. That was true for some time.. break was depressing, but I like to think I ahve gotten out of that slump. I think my overall patience has dwindled in recent times. Just my patience with stupid people (no with any of my friends), but just with like that horrid study group and Jill, these things are pissing me off to no end. They really shouldn't. I like to vent too to get things out, and this online stuff really does help, but at the same time I like to express my displeasure with things and just want people to listen. I am not searching for advice, just someone to say, it's alright, no worries, and distract me with a great conversation or fun times. I don't mean to make people around me grumpy. But being back here makes me happy and I truly love life. Life is great. I know tihngs get me down and I already feel the pressures of this 18 unit quarter... and it's the start of Week 2.... but no one said college was easy and a giant acid trip (well some did but they didn't get too far in life.)
January 9, 2004- I really like my new room. I feel like it's bigger and my bed is awesome. I love it. Today sucks lots of butt however. I hda class 9-10, 1-2, and am currently in the library waiting until 4 to meet with people to start on the stats homework. The campus is so empty around the halls compared to Monday or Tues... anywho, next week won't be as bad since we'll meet at a better time and I am getting into the earlier section of stats official after 5pm today. That's exciting! So I will really go 12-1 not 1-2. And its final is Thurs instead of Friday. Exciting, huh. Well, it's getting close to 4 and I need to meet people and get this overwith. I think I am staying in tonight, watching a DVD with Joseph... no biggie, but feel free to call me! Country night is this Thursday too since last night got cancelled. Be ready!
January 8, 2004- My birthday is getting farther and father away.... I love this, it seems like I ahve been back forever, but it hasn't even been a week yet! I love that, so time goes by slowly, in a very good way. I changed around my room today during my 3 hour break. I put the beds together, moved all my pictures and posters andrearranged seom furniture. I basically moved the desks down to wear the second bed used to be and pushed both beds together by the window. The fridge is in the corner acting like a nightstand where my head of the bed used to be. Anywho, yes, I'll need to take pictures at some point. I have to spend some time on this site at somepoint updating. but good day, and got my English done, yay me! I need to read some history and I'll be set. I am meeting people to do the stats homework tomorrow at 4.. Friday at 4.. yeah, the fun times I have.... Oh well. Saturday is big errand day (going to the bank to clear my dad off my stuff, Joe needs a haircut, go to Aida's, pick up Joseph a pair of Docker's for Joseph.. yeah... the fun things like that. I think Megs and Christina are going to tag along too. It'll be fun and uber-productive. Yay!
Oh, and I really hate Jill. I'm not even going to write what she did today..... Everything she has done or will do involves me doing something ordinary and no big deal and her overreacting and being a stupid bitch. I *hate* her. I am going to right this giant essay why Jill needs to get over herself and give it to her. I'll mail it to her at the end of the year. It'll be awesome. Yes! It'll be great. If anyone has a doll, like an old Barbie or anything, just any old doll, I want to hang it up (via noose) and stick pins in it and stuff. Doesn't that sound like fun? I know Becca will want to help.
You know, just because she feels the need to be a hypocritcal, spoiled, slutty, loud-mouthed, irrational wench doesn't mean she needs to convey this all to me.
If I could mow her over with my car, I would do so. You know, when I plowed that skunk down over break, I felt really bad. But not if I did that to Jill. I don't think I have ever conctrated so much hate into one person. If I could clense the world of Jill and all people like Jill, I would. I'm not angry, I just like writing aobut how much her existance bothers me. It is quite fun. I'm actually in a great, great mood. Just to let you know, as much as I joke about violence concerning Jill, I won't ever do anything (obviously) but one day I truly will tell her to FUCK OFF. I always jsut stay silent and just hear what she tells me so rudely but never come back with something because it isn't worth it, but I don't like how she can go back with the satisfaction of getting the last (or only) word in. I just don't think yelling at her is something I fee like doing. I'd rather just make intelligent comments behind her back about how much she should die.
January 7, 2004- Yesterday ended up being very good. I got sad because I felt like no one cared and it was getting later and I didn't want anything, just to feel a little extra special. But I got a call from my uncle, some chocolates from the girls across the hall, an e-mail from my dad and Anne, along with my mom earlier that morning, a card from Nikki, PJ pants from Christina, and a card from Joseph. It's so cute. It made me cry. A lot of things made me cry. I also got a DVD player for my bday a bit ago from my dad and Will got me my Bill Mahr tocket. So, I was very pleased at the end and so glad people gave me good wishes. It meant a lot. So thank you everyone! Country night tomorrow night! Whee!!!
Today was alright, woke up 20 min before I had to leave for English (too many snooze button hits) and the day went be somewhat fast. I tried scanning in a lot of the econ book, but it cuts off words. I might jsut give in and buy the book... I don't know. NOT the study guide, she goes over the questions and they're online. I don't need to spend the money on that. Grah. Well, if I don't buy books for that class, I have a 103.25 total for the quarter. So, yeah, fun times. I also went to the grocery store and got Nutella and potato bread..... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..... and milk. I am going to run out of milk so fast. I bought a gallon but I am going to go through it..... agh! It's okay. I think I also found the source of the smell in my room and cleaned that (the fridge with Ajax bleach powder) so hopefully it will smell better in here. I think it does already.
January 6, 2004- Didn't update yesterday because it was insane. My schedule is terrible, I go 9-2 with funky breaks so I don't get much done and can't go back to the dorms. Perhaps when I start getting homework I can use the breaks effectively. Right now I'm inbetween English and history, so I am wasting time in the library still trying to manipulate my schedule on POWER, I failing attempt. Today is my birthday, the big 18... but I don't feel special. No one is amking a big deal out of it, which is alright, I just wish someone would bring me a candybar or leave me a note on my board. I know I have a few cards out there in my name... And I got a DVD player from my dad. I don't want anything, I just want to feel special. We're going out on Thursday to country night, which will be awesome (!!!) I jsut kind of wish my day was fun. Perhaps pie at Marie Calanders or something will perk up my day. It's not a bad day, I just want to feel special! Yay! Oh well, I know people do care.
January 4, 2004- HOME! Whee! I even enjoyed Lighthouse. Although the food wasn't appetizing and was more obvious tonight than any other night... It was still great. Because I am home. We got in around 3:30ish and I don't have a roommate again for this quarter! Awesome! It's midnight and the lights I want are on and I can use up both closets... paradise here. Classes are tomorrow. I have hist 11-12, stats 1-2, and econ 4-6. I am hoping to crash the 10-11 hist class to give me a bigger break and then on other days when I have a 9-10 class, it will be easier. They'll be back to back. Will is actually in that class, and I had no idea. It was all that was open. No, but it is great to be back. It's my computer, my things, my decorations, my bed... ahh.. and I got to see everyone! Yay! Well, it is truly a blessing to be here and I can't wait to see how my classes go. I ahve all of them but engl tomorrow basically. Apparently my history teacher has the worst accent. Great. Oh I also bought one of my textbooks for $25 from this guy's dorm and it's the wrong year edition but hopefully it'll be okay. I'll ask the prof about it on Tues. I am buying all 3 history books for $45 tomorrow so I ahve to go to the ATM before I meet up with that chick. She wants to meet when I have a class, so I have to call her. Yeah, so exciting times!
January 3, 2004- So tempted to write 2003. Anywho, went to the bank this morning and deposited 400 bucks (paycheck and Christmas money).. well 398 and chnage really, but I am so happy. My savings has a huge dent in it. I really can't spend. Jeebus. Only on books, but I am even being really good about that. I am going to save so much money. I swear, use screwthebookstore.com for you enxt quarter and find people who will sell you bucks for cheaper. So far I've saved 25 books compared to the El Corral Used price on3 books and a cheap study guide. Hey, $25 is more than nothing. They're cheap stuff anyway, like $33 at El Corral and $25 from the person. But I mean can you see the savings if the book was like 75 used... and you paid someone 50.. that's 25 on one book. I hear good things from amazon.com book prices too. Never again, El Corral! Anywho, get to clean my disaster of a room today and pack away all my stuff...make sure not to forget anything since I won't be back for a while.... whee! Leaving tomorrow, I'm so happy! I'm in a good mood really, esp since it is sunny outside. Anyway, I should get started on some of that. To the moon!
January 2, 2004- Today was a great day. I went to SF, picked up my big paycheck on the way and SF was great. we took the BART in from Richmond and had lots of fun walking around. I got concealer from Clinique and shoes and sunglasses from Ross, my grand total was like 30 bucks. Not bad at all. But hear me now, no spending in January! Just cash! That's it! Agh! But it was great to talk with Erin and we had a good time and went into a lot of stores. I had to get out of Davis. Just had to. Anyway, stopped by my old karate studio to see people but it was closed down... and then I stopped by Anne's to say goodbye. Anywho, so now I am home and I have to do lots tomorrow. I will feel so good cleaning and packing and going to the bank. My paycheck was for 298 and change after taxes and I ahve a smaller one coming too a bit later. I also have my $100 check from Chanukah to deposit and so yeah. I am angry because the caps lock was on and I was trying to get into my bank account (password didn't match obviously then) and it locked! So I have to call up people tomorrow to get my online banking again. Grrr. Leaving Sunday morning... grr.. I am going to call my dorm tomorrow night to see if anyone moved in (answers the phone), I'm so anxious to know!
January 1, 2004- First time I got to write out the year.. ooh 2004, I'll do it again, 2004. Don't you hate the first 2 weeks when you're writing out a check and you keep writing the previous year or say the wrong year.. yeah. Anywho, my parents used to set back the clocks like 4 hours early so at 8pm we thought it was midnight and would bang pans out the door and scream happy new year so they could get us to bed early. We're like 5 at the time, okay? Isn't that smart? Anywho, today was uneventful and last night was so terrible. If you already know about it, here it is again, probably in better detail than I told anyone.
Okay, so Joseph spent the night of the 30th here and left on the 31st around 3. It was so wonderful. I was in the best mood when he left.. except for the fact of him leaving. So I met Will in the evening and met up with Kira and Sinan and things were kind of sketchy, but I figured we would have some fun, I'd just have like 2 beers and be on my merry little way and crash at Jake's (he already said yes) and no one would drive and it would be all good. Well, it was embarassing because we were like part of the little few non high schoolers at this completely lame high school party.. it wasn't that lame, just none of them were friends of mine. It was embarssing because I was tipsy and I was just being a little too loud for a place I didn't know too many people at. I don't know. That's not a big deal, just something I think about now. So anyway after trying to find a better party (I personally didn't care) we came back to Jake's and it was getting kind of emptied out. We counted down and this was like the peak of my tipsiness, and Will left shortly after at 12:30. So it is just me, Kira and Sinan. And as I am starting to sober up, they're still trashed. They had a lot more previously. They're all good, not throwing up or anything, but drunk. Well as Kira and I walk Will to his car, Sinan thought we left so he took off. Well we get back and so he's not there, so Kira is crying and super emotional yelling at me to find him. At this point I just really wanted to go home. I was done with these people. By the time we got in touch with Sinan and he came back to the party, it as getting later and I was feeling fine, but just wanted to go. I was so tired too. I knew not to drive since I did have stuff and was really tired. See, I'm really smart about all this. Well, I also get my pride all stuck up and refuse to take a ride to my car and refuse to crash at Jake's house.. it was kind of creepy there, and I just dont need people to take care of me because of something I chose to do... so anyway I walk a few blocks in the hard rain and get in my backseat with my pillow and blanket and go to sleep in my backseat. But I couldn't sleep, I called Joseph and cried my self to sleep while on the phone with him. It was pouring too. Really hard. I slept until 8:30am and came back to my house (I mean by this time everything is fine in my system) and I've been here ever sicne.
I really was smart about everything and thought ahead, but just didn't think about people sucking as much as they do. I'm just really pissed off with my situation and being here, I dont really have anyone to be angry with besides myself. I hate it here so much and hate everyone here except you and Erin Kimsey. I need to go now and not come back for months. I can deal without seeing my parents for a while. It's called the phone. I miss my dorm and my stuff and my computer and my friends and my life.... I feel like this is just a terrible boring vacation that I am taking alone and can't do anything about. I need to go back as soon as possible. I refuse to come back this summer.
Anyway, sorry about how long that all is, but yeah....
I hadn't felt so abandoned and isolated before. It made me FURTHER realize how lucky and blesses I am at Poly and how I have zero up here for me.
I want Joseph to call. I was SO happy when he was here. Just read the Dec 31 post. I was about to float away.
I'll live, right? God I need to go back to Poly now!
But I'll put on my happy face once more, smile and say HERE'S TO A GREAT 2004, EVERYBODY!
December 31, 2003- I am so happy! The happiest I ahve been in so long. I went to drive to Lincoln to see Joseph and we spent all evening together and then we came back to my house and he spent the night here in the guest room and stayed all morning and afternoon. It was so wonderful. Yesterday was our official 3 months of being together. How sweet! It was wonderful having him here. I can't wait to get back to the dorms and be able to see him and all my other friends as often as possible. Here is terrible. I miss everyone too much. Well, tonight is New Year's Eve, and I'm trying to figure out where I can stay. I think I'm going to stay at Jake's. I am going to be smart and be able to remember everything, but I know not to drive no matter what. No more 2003 postings! Everyone be safe tonight! Yay!
December 30, 2003- Agh, it's morning but I didn't write about yesterday. I slept in until I had to go to work and did my last shift.. it's over!! Whee! I get paid Friday. It's hard to have gone shopping and have Xmas over and still not have been paid for work. The point of my paycheck is to cover these expenses! I have to deposit my uncle's check still. Whee! I wrote a check to some shop vendor in the mall for $12 bucks like 2 weeks agoa nd they still haven't cleared it. I hate that. Hate that. Hopefully he'll never do it then! I worte a check to blockbuster for 45 bucks (season pass) and I swear they never cleared it and so it was like free! Whee! That's not my fault. They need new accountants or something. Anyway, I need to get that money and put some back in the bank... low numbers in the account... ack! Today I'll see Joseph later.. I talked to him on the phone for about 2 hours and I miss him and he needs to come!! Agh!
Later December 28, 2003- That other one is like about the 27th, this one is about today! Yes, so not too much left of 2003. I loved this year. I did so many cool things. Earlier in the year was senior fun and prom (or as much fun as you can extract from a dreadful place like high school)... I worked, graduated, worked all summer, went to some ball games and saw fireworks, went to Hawaii, a week long trip to paradise I paid for all on my own.. oh man that was nice. And then moving to Cal Poly, getting adjusted to college, meeting friends I will have for a lifetime, getting to know myself a lot better, meeting Joseph... awesome. Awesome awesome awesome. I loved this year. Next year will be 800 times better because I'll spend all ofit in Poly, no high school in 2004. So anyway, I do feel blessed for everything I am able to do and for the people I am surrounded with. On IM, I jsut talked to this 7th grader I had in a weeklong camp last winter and we talked about life and sex. I am so glad she has a boyfriend and knows limits and rejects drugs... I can't believe 12 and 13 year olds are faced with that kind of stuff. Dude, when I was 13 I had missing teeth and super frizzy hair and just watched cartoons and SNICK and TGIF. Come on. I had a puppy dog crush on someone I'm sure, but if they actually wanted me back, who knows what I would have done with myself. Holy crap. Ic an't believe these kids are faced with some of this stuff at a young age.
So about my day, yeah.. just tomorrow for work, I got Tues off. Even if I do nothing with my day, that's 6 hours for me to regain my mental health and sleep in and not have a care in the world. It's awesome. So awesome. Just have to get through tomorrow... Then no more Levi's EVER.. hopefully I'll stay down in SLO for summer and not go back. Plus almost an entirely new staff will be there by summer anyway. Yes,s o one more shift. I think I'd be alright with all this if I got paid. I'll get money on Friday. Apparently they're going to try to apy me out of the register the rest of the money so I can get paid for both pay periods I went into over break before I leave. That'd be nice. Anywho... I'll be good, my week is filling up with plans to SF and New Year's and stuff. Good times, just one last week here...
December 28, 2003- Yesterday was alright. I worked 12-6, a nie quick shift although I truly hate working. I went out with Jake and saw his house and then we went to the place I forget its name but it's the Mexican place down by Woodstock's... anyway we got chips and played some pool. Kira joined us by this time. Yeah, so I need to learn pool. It's sad. I actually made a few real good shots, but a lot of BAD shots too. Joseph was supposed to teach me, but I never got the hang of it. With just a little instruction I get a lot better. So anywho, got home around midnight, not too late. Calling people is fun, I did that. Nikki was laughing and really drunk so that was an interesting conversation. I want to talk to Becca, haven't heard from her in a while. Hopefully she's alright. I wonder if she's still in OR.. anywho, work 1-7 today, and then I picked up a shift for Monday... &$@#@!$%^#%!.... I called this morning to see if she can start asking people if they can take my Tues shift. I was only going to do 2 extra shifts and I don't want 3. I want out. NOW
December 26, 2003- Today at work was quite rough. My legs truly do hurt. Who shops the day after Xmas? Sales anywhere weren't that special... I don't know. And aren't people broke from buying all thier gifts? I didn't ring so I don't know how many gift card were used, but I mean we did way more business than gift cards could allow. It was insane. I just folded... and folded... and hung, can't forget that. Anywho, so that was 12-8:30 and then I went to Old Navy and returned the ugly scarf and white fleece thing. I didn't have a gift receipt so I got the sale price of it.. so unfortunately instead of like 40 bucks I got about 25. I had a $10 gift card so I jsut pitched in $10 of my own and got this REALLY warm red down jacket with polar fleece inside. Oh goodness it is so warm. So that makes me happier about that. I ddin't like that other stuff. I got the jacket today instead of another gift card because there is no Old NMavy around and I would rather just spend it now. All I'd get for the money is like 3 shirts (which I don't need) or flip flops in the summer. So yeah. What am I going to buy at GAP? Anywho, then after that I saw Will and we went for milkshakes at Applebee's. I came home and haven't done much since. Just online.... whee...
I cannot express how much I want to go back. all the holidays are over yet I'm still working and I miss peopel. Next wee won't be so bad: I work Sunday, am going to SF on Mon, work on Tues, stuff on Wed, doing stuff with Kira and Will on New Year's (probably going to Jacob's party.. we'll see how that is) and then I ahve to get my stuff together before I leave o Sunday. I will do stuff with Erin a lot next week too. So it'll go by faster, but I want to go back to SLKO.. and see everyone, and hopefully I'll ahve no roommmate!!
December 25, 2003- I hope everyone had an excellent holiday. I truly did. These past few days (23-25) have beenw onderful. They've made being home for so long worth while, but now I do want to go back again. I already wrote about my mom's experience thewre, but let me tell you about Xmas at my aunt;s in Oakdale. My family is really cool, but I don't like being the age I am. I'm stillbe ing called "one of the kids" and my aunt keeps remembering things from years ago that she brings up... Yeah, I'm still a minor but I am about 2 weeks away from being 18 and have plenty of non-child things going on in my life right now. But all in all, it was a very good trip. It's only aobut an hour and a half away. I feel like I got a bit rippewd on the present exchange though since my wish list didn't amke it to the people up north and so I got an Old Navy pullover and fleece scarf. The pullover isn't bad, but just nothing I need. But my uncle really liked his jacket. He loves it really. Which is great! And in the $10 gift exchange, set up like white elephant gifts with numbers and the whole shabang, I got a $10 gift card. That was the only gift card there, we always have randomness going on. Chess set to beer bong to lotto tickets to $10 cash... yes. Everyone brings something cool like that. In the inner family ecxhange, my stepmom loves her lighter. I guess she's trying to quit but she is in love with this thing. It's way cool to light and flick and stuff. I really want one! I got a ncie black purse from my brother (Liz Claiborne black leather) and a Jimmie notepad and some random hologram Santa ruler. Don't ask. Yeah, so I mean between the rug, blanket, GAP card, Old Navy card and clothes (which can be returned), $100 check, and odds and ends from friends, the holidays were quite worth while. But truly, seeing my family means more to me than anything. I lveo them so much. As much as I talka bout money and what I hope to get, I am so glad to see my family, esp since I don't see my mom's too often and people are getting quite old... you never know when things will happen. I am also glad to see my dad's side because I missed them on TG break. I also enjoyed Joseph's visit. I can't even tell you how special that was to me. He made the best impression on my mom's side of the family and I had so much fun with him and I lvoe my feet rewards he gave me. The best present is having him with me and letting me into his life. I can't wait to go back to SLO to see everyone, I miss people a lot!!!
December 24, 2003- So much to catch up on. Let met tell youa bout yesterday. Shortly before noon I met Joseph and I was so happy, I mean genuinely happy. I rarely get a smile on my face that I just can't help and it's the greatest feeling. You just feel so good, about everything and nothing can stop you from grinning. I love that! So I gave him his watch and I got foot care... I got turtle slippers (turtles have meaning) and they had jewelry and foot bath stuff in them! How cute! We ran around town and he saw Davis from the car. Oh, he saw my dad's house too and my tree and my room... I was so glad he could see my homeotwn and my house. We stopped by the Co-op and visited Anna, and then we went to Safeway to pick up flowers and such for the people at the party. We had to go to Border's too and pick up a special magazine for my uncle. Anywho, after that we went to In n Out because Joseph was starving and dinner wasn't for antoher few hours. We went to my mom's and just my grandparents and my mom was there. Everyone else showed up a few hours later due to heavy traffic. Dinner was good and everyone loved Jospeh. Very good impression. We all opened gifts and I got (not that this is the most important part of the night or anything, it turly wasn't) but I got a $100 check, a $50 gift card, some Italian cansy/food gift thing, a NASCAR rug with Jimmie's car on it (YEAH!!) and this really heavy faux mink blanket and some other small things. My mom loved her bracelet. Anywho, the whole thing was great and I had an awesome time. It meant so mcuh to me to have Joseph there and meet everyone and see my homes and I had a great time. I wish my other SLO friends could visit. After the thing, I gave Jospeh my card I worked on for so long and we talked for a few hours until he had to go home. One of the best days I've had, and esp the best day of break.
Today I worked 10-3, and then came home to watch the second Lord of the Rings before we went to go see the 3rd one. Will wa sin the area so he dropped by and saw my tree and dog and I agve him his poster. He really likes it. You can view it at: www.despair.com and it's "Elitism." Way awesome. Anywho, I had to fast forward through the battle to see the rest of the second one to finish ont ime to go. I'd seen it before, but I need a refresher! Anywho, so we went to the 6:30 movie and got out at just about 10. Long... But so good. AWESOME. I'd rather see 1/5th of the movies I see if they were all that quality. Why can't they make movies like that often enough? People will watch them... yeah. I really enjoyed it. And it made me think about my friends and stuff with all the parts at the end. I am really lonely up here but not at the same time. I just really love it in SLO. Family and friends up here are good, but my life is definately in SLO. I have to stay there for summer, I couldn't do this again.
Anyway, Merry Christmas, have a good day tomorrow! I'll be at my aunt's for the day and get good food and more presents and see my dad's side of the family for the first time since summer (I was too sick on TG to go see them all). Lots of love!
Later December 22, 2003- I have a big smile on my face. People are awesome. So I saw my mom in the mornging before work and got my laundry all done (like 5 loads) and went to work 3 to 9:40. I bought this nice pair of Levi's.. a $110 pair that is at our store for $20 because they're overstocked. Yeah! Then employee discount... huzzah! Work wasn't so bad... but it could be better. I came home to eat some of these yummy Oxnard cookies... oh my God, I have to stop eating this stuff though. After the holidays... New Year's Resolutions last 2 weeks, but just in general I want to be healthier. People commented that I looked like I lost a few pounds and I want to excersize more. Anywho, off track! So I get the cookies and Will's present came in too, so I'll have to give that to him. I also get to see Jospeh tomorrow, for sure, and he's going to see my house and Davis and my mom and my mom's side of the family. I get to meet my mom's serious boyfriend too. It shall be an interesting day... I also just sort of found out I need to get small tokens of appreciation to some people, so that'll be some running around. I also need to watch some LOTR before I see the third one Wed night. So much to do, but I am so excited to spend the day with Joseph tomorrow. So stoked! It'll be a good day, I want to go to sleep early so it'll come faster. Anywho, I miss everyone lots and hope people have a good holiday!
December 22, 2003- Oh man, Christmas is almost here, thank goodness. Yesterday I got mad at my sort of last friend here and I already want to go back so badly... I am going to stay down in SLO for the summer. I can't do this. I hate working at my job and I know I'd jsut do that and work a few other jobs to keep me preoccupied and that's not healthy to work like 100 hrs/week. Esp for the reason why I'm working. Anyway, I have to drop off laundry at my mom's before work today, so today looks like another grim day. I wish Xmas would come!!!!
December 21, 2003- Why aren't the holidays here yet? They need to come so I can go back to SLO. I don't even know what I'll do voer summer. It's insane. I don't want to be here in anymore. I miss everything and everyone and I don't feel like that's my room and I want to go. Today I am seeing Anna, who I haven't seen since like over summer. So perhaps that will make me feel good, but right now I am kind of depressed. Don't listen to Enya when you're depressed. I also found the bill from my ER visit lying here in this tqble and I feel TERRIBLE.... But I don't want to say anything to my dad. I just feel so bad. Anywho, I'll be fine, I just miss everything and am happier down in SLO. It's lonely up here.
December 20, 2003- Even date.. work! Today was long, worked a full 8 hour shift... All for you guys! Christmas gifts paid off! Yay! Alright, well, work sucked today because there are some rude people out there, telling me to shut up, calling my coworkers confused and stupid, making me hold their drink for like 3-5 minutes as they do crap.. I can't believe people. I know I was frustrated when I went shopping yesterday, but the last thing I'd do is take it on the sales associate. Oh man, retail is a bitch. I am doubting I'd want to work there next summer. I know all retail is like that, but I want to work somewhere where I can transfer to downtown SLO. Perhpaps Staples or Office Max... that's sales but not clothes! I can deal with stock and sorting... yeah... hm... well, stuff to think about. I really want a job at Home Depot. THere's one in SLO. Yeah, getting ahead of myself. I am going to come back a few weekends before school is out and pick up and fill out apps to start right away. Maybe I'll work the Levi's job until I get something else. Ack! Anywho, last night I spent forever on Joseph's card and it's perfect... I really want to give it to him. I reread it like 7 times, and I was lamost in tears.. and then I had to call him, and he didn't answer and so I went downstairs and came back up an hour to see 3 missed calls and I called him back, waking him up.. and then I lost it and cried. Oh my God, I not only miss him, but shcool and my room and my friends.. I want country ngiht to come and we can all be back... I miss everyone! I want to celebrate Xmas and then New Year's the next day and go back!
December 19, 2003- I wrote this long detailed thing of today and I accidently closed the window before entering the text to the website.. great. So, condensed version: I miss everyone.
Today I finished my Xmas shopping which was frustrating and hard in the crowds and rain, but everything is done. I realized that I spent a ton of money and I don't feel bad about it at all. I would never spend that much on myself, the 350 or so the total came out to be, but it's not for me. I know a simple card tells everyone that I love them, but it's importnat to me that I give back a small token of my appreciation to all my friends. About half my spending was on my 4 major purchase gifts, the other half was on a ton of 10 to 15 dollar gifts. I gave it some thought and I am looking forward to Christmas so people can enjoy my gifts and I love to give. I don't buy all of these to wrap and hold on to! And then I thought more about my life at Cal Poly. I feel truly blessed. I wrote my Christmas card to Joseph tonight which took hours to perfect... and I realized how blessed I am to have him in my life. I also have never felt as accepted and loved in my almost 18 years of life as I do now. It's amazing how a few people in 3 months can affect your life. I don't think in a post will I ever mention how high school was again, because it is over and old news, and I am onto bigger things with better people. I feel like the past few months havebeen the happiest times of my life. The only bummer in it all was that whole mono thing... but I mean that's a one time deal that has nothing to do with social issues. I feel like I have a bright few years ahead of me full of joy, happiness, and many blessings. Thank you to all you angels who are reading this, because it is you that has helped to make me feel this way! Lots of love to you! 2004 will be the best year so far, I can tell.
In case you had to know, I got Amber a "Black Ice Chrome" Zippo lighter, lighter fluid, flint, and the lighter has "Amber" in pretty caps font engraved on it. I got my uncle a nice Docker's jacket from work (this is like a $150 jacket that I got for much less from my discount and stuff) and Jospeh.. well, he might read this so he'll jsut have to see. It's very nice, whatever it is I got him that is. :) That was it for my shopping today.
December 18, 2003- Well, it's an even date so we know what that means... Work! Yay! I woke up to my hone going off asking me to come in an hour earlier (true Levi's fashion) and did nothing until then. Well, I mailed off Meg's package. At work I worked with the new asst manager and it makes me think I am so happy to be at Cal Poly. I truly was going to be hired for this postiion of I went to a JC and was going to work.. and this girl is my age and jsut started Solano and is telling mea obut her views and thigs and she is EXACTLY like me, in how she describes things anywho, she uses my exact words in some of her descriptions. Anyway, I think it's interesting because that could have been me, and I am so happy I am off to a real college doing something with my life. I mean nice girl and all, but she just is a reminder to me of what I could realisticly could spend the next 6 or 7 years doing. How sad. But yeah, nothing bad at work, it jsut sucks to work in general. I was so hungry so I met Will at In N Out afterwards and we went to Border's, but there is nothing to do in Davis. I want to go back to SLO. Anywho, yeah, and tomrrow I am going to finish my Xmas shopping and not deal with it anymore. Great! I thought of Amber's present, and my uncle is getting clothes from Levi's, and Joseph is getting a/an _____ (I don't know who reads this!). Those are the only presents left to get on my lsit. I wish Xmas would just come so I don't have to shop anymore and worry about presents and keep spending money. I want it overwith. But, all in all, happy times! Smiles! I am going to leave the computer on to download all the songs I want but am afriad to download at Cal Poly.... lots of rock and alt and 80s and random stuff! Yay for crazy random!
I miss you, Joseph!
December 17, 2003- Mmmm deviled eggs.... so good. Y'all have no idea. I am so excited about Country Night!! I have never done anything eventful for my birthday before... so this is new and fun! Winter birthdays at the end of break tend to be lots of nothing. A few years I didn't do anything except dinner with friends. Perhaps buffet lunch... Anyway. So far about 10 people said yes.. and the more we get, the merrier! It'll be uber fun despite people's tastes in music. Friends, laughter, it's always fun. So today I did nthing except go to Woodland mall (which consists of a few trinket shops, Target, Mervyn's, JC Penny's and Gottschalks) and picked up my photos at WalMart. A lot of them didn't come out because they were from Rocky Horror and were too dark. But yeah, got the rest of my $10-20 gifts and got Will's present ordered, and I have Meg's to mail off tomorrow. What to get Amber???? It's hard to shop in a $25-30 range when anything she'd want at that price she owns. I have to think of something funny, pretty, or practical. Not TOO practical. I want to get something for her future car. I was thinking about a custom license plate frame, but I can't think of anything funny. I looked at some websites for ideas, but nothing speaks to me. So yes, good day, and I hope to have more good days later on this break! So far, I'm on a roll!
Later December 16, 2003- Okay, that last posting should really be just December 15 because that's all I talk about. Anmywho, today all I did was work 2-9. In classic Yaelle fashion, I stayed an extra hour and got a bit more money. I am on schedule for Thurs and Saturday, and I have this upcoming Sunday off. How nice, huh? Yeah, Joseph has to do family things tomorrow, which is all good. I called Shanna today and her flight was cancelled so she wasn't home.... so she'll be back tomorrow afternoon. Hm, tomorrow I will also do laundry from the past 3 weeks (since TG) and make some calls.. see who's awake. Anne is busy I know but that's fine, I think I amy stop by Rich's house randomly. Perhaps Pilar. I have no idea, I don't talk to Davisites anymore. They almost all suck. *Almost* Yep, so otherwise, not much else to report. Oh, so about going back to work, yeah, that's interesting. It's nice to see people and nothing bad happened and I talked to this girl the whole night who got hired the week I left so nothing bad really happened, but at the same time, I'm not used to being on my feet for 7 hours anymore and I don't like stupid questions and I don't like hanging up stuff anymore... I remember why working just in general is lame. I mean it wasn't hard or anything, just a good reminder of it's not bad, but not fun. You go, get paid, and leave. That's all. Anne got me a foot messager I want to try out.... I am so excited! One of those nifty bubbly ones... yeah! My poor feet!
December 16, 2003- My yesterday was fun! I have a shift today 2-8, my first working shift since August 14.... agh! Anywho, hopefully it will go well. This is actually a copy and paste from what I wrote from an e-mail, but I think it is a good description of tyesterday. It's somewhat detailed, so it gets long, but you know.... it's what I did! Here it goes...
So I woke up early and visited with my mom. It was really good and I mean no fights or anything and so yeah. She has a boyfriend she spends a lot of time with and constantly goes to his place and stuff and rarely is home anymore. She hates the renters and thinks she'll rent out the whole place since there isn't even a reason for her to be in Davis anymore and move down to the bay area and get a studio closer to SF airport and her dad and this guy Marty. I don't know. She is going to take the cats down to her dad's place in Sunnyvale since she goes there more often then the house. But she'll do that after break so I will be able to see my cutie muffins.
After that I went to the high school. I just went to Sally's room and visited with ger during lunch and sat in on The HUB. They have had 3 issues and there aren't any dramatic changes really. But it's nice. Seems like a good group. But yeah, no drastic changes. Oh! By the tennis courts they have some HUGE construction going on, and I asked about it and Sally said they're putting up a 2 story performing arts center for the school and are reconfiguring the tennis courts. I guess then the mayor said something about they can't cut down a tree in the process, making things difficult.But yes, Sally and the HUBsters are fine!
Then I went to the post office and mailed off something for 3 friends and 2 cards. Whee!
I then kind of killed some time and then met Joseph at the Roseville Galleria at around 4 and we spent a little bit of time around the mall, then went to dinner at Red Robbin. That was goooood, and they're good servise really showed. It was a nice place to eat a good burger indeed. I liked that palce a lot. Then we spent time in the car just talking since we hadn't... I missed him so much, and do already! I also met his friend from high schol Lisa and walked around his high school some too. Things are really going well for us. I'm so happy. That is just a wonderful feeling.... Things are a lot better back from last Thursday. Happy times! Happy times lead to happiness. Anyway, got back around 1:15am and went to bed.
December 14, 2003- Ah, so home. Yes, home. The place you can come back to no longer how long you've been gone and feel like you never left.. or for that long for that matter. So, yesterday we set up our Xmas tree, which is freain HUGE, like a good 9 feet. This thing is insane. We needed a ladder to decorate it. It was the most fun thing ever. They got it for about 30 bucks too since it's so late in the season. Last ngiht I went to see Anne and just hung out there and saw Risky Business.. today I went to Arden with her. I got a lot of Xmas shopping done, about a third. But the easy third. I got all my Poly friends something except for Megs.. poor Megs... Anywho, yes, and I got my mom something. It was expensive.. so that was the only expensive gift I bought today. I can only get one pricey thing at a time.. need to space it out. She got a nice bracelet, but I can't tell anything else because other people may read this. Yep yep, home cooked meals are nice. Tomorrow I am off to see my mom for the first time since Sept (she was working during Thanksgiving) and see my high school journalism class and lots of fun things of the sort. Mail off these gifts.. whee! Anywho, talk to you all later.. give me a call!
December 13, 2003- Leaving here right before noon, my bro is packing this morning. I would ahve slept in more! Anywho, everything is packed, the room is clean, and the other half is clear. Booyah! Who says that anymore? Anyway, so yes, speech went fine and I got a 94.05 total for the class. So yes. Peachy. But oh my lord, I have some things to say about Stock on Polyratings. When I do it, I will copy and paste it on here. It's so smart. It will knock down anything positive to say about that man. You will not be able to argue anything. It will be the best comment ever. So, there's only me and the RA on the girl's half of the tower and I hear the nice shower is on... I think I'll wait because I have nothing better to do. Sigh...I'll post sometime later when I am home and have homecooked food in my system.
December 12, 2003- Yeah, still at Poly, don't be jealous... Oh my God, I had the econ final this morning and I probably did fine enough for an A in the class, and then what else... So yeah, then I saw Joseph some and then went to Lighthousem and Will got me a birthday present.. I now have a ticket to see Bill Mahr in January. How fun! Yes so yeah, then I saw Joseph off before he left to drive. He was supposed to o back yesterday but left today because he wasn't quite well yesterday. Last night we had a long talk and conversation and I truly hope things are going to be well and positive times are in fact ahead, but I think the seperation of break will make the heart grow fonder. I love him, and I don't want anything to happen. So yes, that's really all I want to say about that on this web journal thing, but yeah... I miss him already! Anywho, still ticked I ahev a speech final over my head still... it's my Jeff Gordon speech. I am the bitter exwife Brooke. whhee. We'll see how it goes, I'll have more to report later I suppose. I just want to go home right now. Bye bye.
Later December 11, 2003- THat was in the morning and all sorts of things happened today. I got up around 11 and fiddled around on my computer, then went with Nikki to Aida's and bought one of my Engl books because I can't find anyone with it and I wanted to get the nicest used book possible (or any used book for that matter, didn't want them to run out!) and so yeah. I found out that my brother needs a different macro book and so I tried to sell it but could only get 20 bucks for it since it's not in use anymore, so I decided to keep it. I learned my lesson! Anywho, so that was peachy and then we went to Campus Market and blew plus dollars like there is no tomorrow. $44 was the total, and I had 15 bucks left. I got a poster for 18 bucks and lots of cards for Xmas and things, and then some school supplies. I'd have more left but I spent a lot of money on other people and bought Joseph a lot of things in the quarter because he ran out of plus dollars. You can get lots of things there. You can even buy Playboy calanders there! Who knew? Anyway, so yes, even though they roll over, I will have a frsh start of plus dollars nex quarter and obviously won't use those all. Nikki has about 220 left. Some people eat off campus... Anyway, I have to get ready for a 10am final tomorrow (econ) and still have time to see Joseph tonight. So yeah, let me get to that studying...or e-mail and talking and THEN studying....
December 11, 2003- Haha after reading this, visit the site below. Just keep watching it... Anywho, yes, so the final went fine, and as EVERYONE knows, the bookstore screwed me over. Here is what I learned about seeliing back books. If you're not getting at least 45% of what you paid back, do not sell it. Also, if they ask about a missing disk or CD, clarify if they have any idea what they are talking about. Another larger point: boycott the damn bookstore and go to Aida's. They are cheaper in every regard and sell back to you with more money and I want El Corral dead so badly.. I will never do business with textbooks there again. They will not use me anymore! I am going to wait to buy my books after break because I need to know what I am crashing and that is a mystery at the moment. Perhaps I'll buy my known classes' books on Friday. I don't know. Anyway, yes, life is in fact a bitch and books are the biggest scam of the world. Alright, enough about that, my room is pretty clean, just some general straightening up. My desk is set up (that took some time) and things are a lot better with my furniture arrangement. I hope I don't get a roommate because I have plans for a new arrangement of furniture if she doesn't come. I expect a roommate but hope for no one... I will have the coolest arrangement ever. Stats final at 4, which I already made my notes for but I will give some practice problems a try... Go to the site!
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December 10, 2003- Fuck me. So I thought my phys final was at 1pm so I was going to wake up at 9am to study (last night was horrid, I couldn;t study) and then I figured out my final was really at 10am. At least I double checked. So I woke up at 6am to study. I took a shower and everything too, but I need to go soon to check HW answers and crap. After all this, no more pyhsics for the rest of my life. I need to get a..let's see... 45/50 to get a 90%, or a 28/50 to get a 80%. I doubt I'll get that. I'll probably get like a 38 or 42 or something. There will be too many 50/50 guesses for me to get them all right. Ah well. B for that class I suppose. At least I'll have a final done. Thank God. I want to go. I'll probably post again today. I have to go study. Bastard.
December 9, 2003- Last night was weird. Notice my evenings are crazy but my days are boring. So I start my day at 5pm.. because all I did was do stats notes and some cleaning. So we go to Backstage and get pizza, and afterwards we go to my brother's appt. (This is myself, Nikki, Meghan, Christina, Becca and Will). So we go and I give him a 10in pizza since I got it for him with my mounds of plus dollars and I was supposed to get the legs for a drafting table I'm setting up and give him this cooking oil that has been in my room for perhaps 8 weeks now. Well, I forogt the oil and forgot to get the legs. So I will go over today. But since Megs, Becca, Christina and I are trying to live in the new dorms for next year, he gave us a small tour of teh apartment. Becca was the cutest thing in the planet because she hasn't seen them before and was making all sorts of mental notes and claiming the room next to the shower with the tub. It was so funny. So, anyway, that was fun and then I go back to my room. After doing some laundry and talking with Krystal, I go to late nite with Joseph. So here he is raggin on me so I make fun of him. But I use my hands and just take out my hot chocolate and it goes all over... including my jeans. So, Megs Christina Joseph and I come back here and they're in my room as I clean my jeans in the bathroom. Well, I guess I left the door open because the old RA saw my tree and started yelling at Megs and Christina in the room for having a tree.. but they don't live here... so our RA came out and said she'd take care of it. She more laughed about me not having my door closed than the tree, but I ahve to get rid of it. I'm taking it down today ANYWAY. I hate being told something that I was ALREADY going to do. Ick. So, Joeseph texts me to go downstairs right away, so I do... and I go to the 1st floor where he is nowhere to be found. I bitch about him to Jeff and Tim (in a joking matter) and come back up where I talk with Megs and Christina some more and get told to shut up by the RA because we were so loud... and then Joe calls me and tells me that he's in my closet! I tie the closet up and finally let him out... I was so freaked out... and then the 2 girls left and I was left with Joseph for the rest of the night. Nikki woke me up this mroning for her laundry. Were getting pancakes this afternoon too.
So, enough about the what's going on, "Deep Thoughts" by Yellie... Well, I am realizing that the past 11 or so weeks of being at Cal Poly has been the most life changing time of my life. No, I do not have a complete new outlook on life and I haven't learned anything really in the academic sense, but college isn't always about books. I have never had so many friends and so many people to hang out with. I love you guys so much. Yes, even you Meghan. I admit it. But I was so busy senior year, I never had time to do anything. I was like everyone's casual friend and no one took the time to cal me or want to get to know me... that's why I am still in cotact with only 3 girls, because those are the 3 that actually cared about me. I feel so happy here that I can call somone up at any hour of the night and someone will be at my door ready to listen. It's an amazing feeling, because I've never felt like I have fit in or am appreciated like I am here. I also have lots of sentimental things to say about my lovely angel, Joseph, but he knows it already and I'll never forget how I feel... so that's enough of that. It's amazing what 3 months can do. I'm also down though because 3 of my close friends last night were sad and cried, and I get frustrated with myself because I'm really not full of words of wisdom. I think back how my dad said the right thing every time I was sad about something, and it made me gain a bit of hope back. I wish I had that talent, I want to offer something else than my ear. But, as I am beginning to realize, most of the time people just want you to know what is troubling them, want to talk it out, and just need some support from the listener. So, overall, life is pretty kick as here in SLO but my room is so messy I want to cry.
December 8, 2003- Last night I did not go to sleep until after 4am, and I woke up at 10:30 when Nikki called me. I got to find my glasses in her car, thankfully, because I was freaking out. The smallest things out of my control will bother me and just chew on my brain until nothing is left. I hate that. The small things get to me more than the larger problems. I feel like I should be doing more work than I am. My finals won't be that bad and are much later in the week, so this weekend was so empty for me. Everyone else in my tower is jsut studying and studying and studying... At least Meghan and Becca have been pretty cool about doing things so I don't feel like a slacker. Second year I'll have so much more to take and to do, I'll be much happier. Next quarter I'll have more work but nothing should be too hard. I am going to have to hope to crash psy 201 because there is no way I'm taking that lab 7-10pm Thursday nights. So, yep yep, cleaning my room is proving to be a difficult task. I am getting much more organized, but I have to sort through so many things and throw stuff out and fit things places... it's just taking all my energy away. As long as it is done for tomorrow so I can do work all tomorrow, life will be easier. I can't wait until I rate my professors on polyratings.com. I want to get my finals done first and my grades in. But I feel it is my Cal Poly student civic duty to report. If I use it, I shall contribute to it. Well, let's see in my room I just have the one last dresser to clear out and to wash dishes. I cleared out the other desk.
To continue today's post, I shall write about how crappy I've felt lately. I feel like something is terribly wrong, but it is out of my reach on what it is or what it is even about. Consequently, I cannot do anything about it. I think the upcoming break will be good, for multiple reasons. It will give me some alone time, some true alone time, in the environment I feel the most comfortable in. I know you must be thinking I do get alone time in my dorm room, not having a roommate, but it's still not the same. As much as I consider my room home, there is still noise and neighbors and people knocking on my door. Sometimes you want to feel truly isolated. Last night I felt sad and depressed, but there wasn't much to be done. I lost my glasses and I channelled all my frustrations into that, but it was quite silly. It wasn't even about the glasses. I just don't feel like things are going right in certain aspects of my life and it gave me insomnia last night. But I do know that I am doing well in my classes, have made tons of friends here and have something great going on with Joseph. So life is good, great really... I guess life can't be peachykeen on a daily basis.
December 7, 2003- Oh man, what to report... so yesterday ended up being a waste of a day, I did a whole lot of nothing in a whole lot of time. I guess that's what you get the weekend before finals. Last night I stayed up talking to Joe until like something like 5am, and woke up aorund 1pm today. I played some basketball with Meghan, Becca, and SSR (Scott, Scott and Ryan) until people disbanded. We then went to Meg's and played some quality SNES, and then dinner from there. Tonight I have been cleaning my room, and I can not tell you how frustrating this all is. I have to clear out the drawers and closet and stuff and I have so many things I need extra drawers. The lay out of my room makes the room look smaller, but there's not much else I can do. I took everything out of the other closet and desk drawers and it is just all over my bed and dresser and all over the floor. And speaking of my floor, it needs to be vacuumed SO badly... I want to just get this all done and over with. I meant to do some laundry but I think that will be tomorrow. I also have to find out where the mildew smell of my room is coming from and kill it, but I don't know. I played "What is still fresh?" with the fridge, and hopefully I am correct. I ate a donette and I am debating if it is good or not. That is probably a bad sign. Oh, I also dusted everything and Joseph untangled the rat's nest of wires my coputer had going on. So, lots done, lots to do... off to work some more into the night!
December 6, 2003- Haha, don't you love joy riding? Nikki and my trip (is that grammer correct?) went from let's drive to going up Hwy 1.. a super windy coast hugging highway that is GORGEOUS and we went all the way up to Carmel. We saw the elephant seals on the way up and stopped at Nikki's beautiful house and then drove around Carmel some, and came back US101. We got dinner at InNOut. I bought her snick food and InNOut since she paid or gas and drove. The least I could do. So anyway, later that night we went to the agr party and that had so many people. I wasn't too tipsy, but more like in a bubbley mood. I went and bothered Joseph after coming back from the party early and it was funny. He wouldn't let me bother Jeff. Anywho, so that was fun and today I am going to meet Will for lunch and go to Aida's and see if I can sell back some books, and then later when Joseph wakes up, which will be like 3 or 4 in the afternoon, we'll go out. I wanted to go out today and he said he'd take me to Pismo or something, but we'll see. He might sleep the day away. Anywho, things are happy in Yellie land... but I have to clean my disaster of a room and arrange the furniture back for 2 people. Ack. Who wants to do that. But my room does need to be cleaned though, it is so bad. Oh, and I just found out my uncle would want Cal Poly gear for Xmas and they just had the 30% off sale... wonderful timing... right? Great. Oh well, sucks for me. I have to go get ready for today!
December 5, 2003- So it's morning and I am realizing what a waste of time this weekend will be. I have lots of time and nothing to do. But, that will be nice and relaxing so there is little to complain about. I got a 15/15 on my impromptu speech, so bascally I just need to do my final to get an A in that class. I thought for sure I'd get a B. I also have the possibility of getting an A in physics, but I have to ace the final which is possible but I don't know. Yesterday I went to the bookstore's crazy sale and bought 30 bucks worth of school supplies, a shirt, a car decal, and a secret santa gift. I bought Becky some girlie cute Cal Poly binders so she has sometihng cute like that, since I ahve no idea what to get her and my deadline is coming up. Anywho, last night I went with Nikki to the grocery store. I was able to go to the bank and deposit a check that has been in my wallet forever and picked up some dnL at the grocery store. Joseph came by later and that brings me to ths morning! Whee... I think I am going to go joy riding with Nikki today and find things to do later. How fun and eventful!
December 3, 2003- Lots to report since I last wrote. Took that make up midterm and got an 88, although a good score, it is terrible for that one. Almost everyone I help with homeowrk got a 92 or 94. I made 2 stupid mistakes that pulled me down from a 98 to an 88. But as long as I get a 82% on the final, I will get an A in the class. I'm not worried at all. Physics I learned that if I get an A on the final, I get an A in the class. If I get a B, I get a B for the class. So I am going to shoot for the A, although I thought I wouldn't be able to do it all quarter. Econ is no problem and who knows what I'll get in speech with that crazy curve. Happier notes.... I bought Pirates of the Caribbean on DVD last night! I don't have a DVD player so Becca came over with her laptop so we could watch it. Xmas time I'll buy me a DVD player for my TV and start my DVD collection. What else... hm... I ahve just been so stressed with the quarter ending, I think it had some negative impacts on friends close to me, but the stress is almost over. This weekend I will be sure to catch up on some sleep and perhaps do some Xmas shopping. Off to do some stats homework.... Sunny days!
December 1, 2003- Rabbit rabbit! No one does that anymore. Anywho, things are very cheery in the realm of Yellie. I saw the doctor this morning and she said I shall be at full speed by the end of the week and sees no need to see me again unless I feel worse and call to make an appt. My appetite is back and I am really looking forward to Lighthouse. I love being back. This is so much more fun than home. Everyone I know is here. After a weird ride home (jumping the median on I-5 to avoid a parking lot on the freeway and switching cars to drive back with Joseph for the last 80 miles) I got back and had people over. I put away all my clean laundry and heard lots of stories and it was mucho fun. I get to hear more today since Nikki couldn't come by last night. Exciting times. I went downtown with Will to the post office and now I am doing laundry and getting ready to do some last studying before my make up midterm at 1:30. No big deal, I already made my notes, I jsut need to go over it again. I feel like I did this stuff ages ago, it's not really current in my mind anymore. Anywho, happy days ahead and the sunlight coming through my window is so refreshing!
November 30, 2003- Whee, today I get to go back to SLO. I almost feel like I have been in a coma for the past week and a half to 2 weeks. I remember nothing and everything seems like a blur. I have slept SO much. I suppose it is a good thing. Well, it is a good thing. Anyway, it's the morning and we should be leaving here in a few hours. It's raingin here in Woodland so perhaps (??) it won't be as bad in SLO? I'm not driving so I guess it makes little difference to me. I am looking forward to going back to school thought and finishing up with this quarter. I am going to study more for midterm tonight and unpack, and hopefully that will put me in good shape for the rest of the week. I am so glad this quarter is almost over, although it seemed to go by so quickly. I feel like I've barely been in school... but at the same time, I've lived down in that dorm for a year. Anyway, enough reflection, I have to pack up all my loose goodies roaming the house and clean up my trashed room. When you live in one place for a week, it is bound to get thrashed. Come on, we've all seen my dorm room after like TWO days of no cleaning....
November 29, 2003- Just as I revise my site, here I go and get deathly ill not able to update at all. Not fun! Anyway, to fill everyone in, I got a really bad case of mono. "The worse case in years" according to my doctor. The problem was as that everytime I saw the doctor, I'd have some other bad but proportionally smaller thing going on, like bronchitis, so I always got treated for something else. Well, finally after everything was wiped out and all that was left was the mono, a doctor was finally ready to actually see i there was something more to my sickness. It's like the whole Comlumbine thing, no one is willing to test and plan for what ifs until they already happen. Anyway, after a second try on drawing my blood on Monday,(still ave the bruises), they saw I had a strong case oof mono and have had it for quite some time. This made me happy that I finally knew what the problem was, but so angry I spent the whole weekend in misery without being able to see a doctor. The whole reason why my father did not pick me up Thursday eve or so is because of an important midterm I had on Tuesday. But I could not postone the midterm without a compelling reason... the mono. So It was annoying to find out on Monday, rather than Fri, that I could leave early. but I did. I slept and slept until Thursday, and that is hen I finally ate something! I ate a total of half a meal within that whole week prior to, so it was so nice to eat a bit of turkey and potatoes on Thanksgiving. I got a lot of my voice back and called almost everyone on my phone list to wish them a Happy Thanksgiving and went to bed. Friday I had much more energy but did nothing still, just rested. Today, Saturday, I am much more awake and ready to do something. I am at my mother's house now and I used the laundry machines. They are big... and free... and I wish I brought even more laundry to do!!! I got a good 2 loads done. That's important. When I get back I am going to do my sheets and blankets so I can sleep in a clean atmosphere. I also have been doing stats homework this morning and created my notes for the midterm. I am taking it Monday during my professor's office hours. I also have a follow up doctor's appointment Monday morning. I am pretty filled up until New Year's I am ralizing. There is this week, the last week before finals, and then finals week. After I get back I am working during break and there are the holidays and other things like that, and I should be in working order by then. So things are pretty planned out until my birthday, but that's fine. It's general planning, I have no idea wat I am doing at 6:45pm, on Dec 21. It's not that crazy. So yes, more to some, but I thought it would be good to update! Sign my guestbook!
November 20, 2003- So it seems I am almost done with this quarter. All that remains is my econ quiz (whcih I am taking in an hour), one short physics quiz, a speech test, and a stats midterm. And finals. Okay, well, it's a lot but so little compared to how much I have already done! I got an e-mail back from the psy prof today saying he doesn't do a waitlist thing so I am going to try to add some other class to my schedule, I'm not leaving it to chance for me to crash it. Anyway, I am feeling better but massively dehydrated and dreading another long day of crap I must deal with today. I wrote my friend Erin in NYC a letter yesterday. Hopefully she'll get it by Thanksgiving. I miss her, I'll see her over Winter Break. I also called my old work the other day to see when I could come in about talking about wortking over Winter Break. I may be roped into working one of the holidays, which I refuse. I did them all alst year. You can read about my displeasure if you wanted to in my old postings. Anywho, I should get dressed and get ready for econ and all the other joys of Thursday. I also need to take my massive amounts of medication that are going to kill me.
November 17, 2003- Whee. Yesterday I couldn't even walk to Lighthouse without constantly gagging. I wanted to choke to death. I was alone in the evening and I was having a hard time. I called my dad and got in touch with my brother and I went with him to his girlfriend's appartment. It was nice and not a dorm. I had hot jello "tea" and saw old "Best of" SNL DVDs. That helped, but I woke up in the night coughing. This morning I went to the health center on campus and got 3 new cough medicines, since the cough is what is killing me. The doctor thinks the antibiotics aren't getting me cured because I ahve some viral thing, not bronchitis. So I have my inhaler, the antibiotics to finish off, and these 3 new medicines. They work, I haven't coughed all afternoon really. I am happy, but I have a chart with times and what to take when because I have so many. It's insane. 5 medications is a lot! At least one is codeine, something to look forward to. I just am glad this is now and not during finals week. I did stats hw this afternoon and wrote Erin in NYC a long letter. I can't wait to mail it! I just have to go downstairs. Yay. Physics quiz tomorrow, econ test Thursday, and stats midterm next Tuesday. Whee! Then break! Almost there!
November 15, 2003- Good news is that I decorated my tree and it's so pretty and wonderful. Clear lights, maroon ribbon, silver ornaments, it's so nice! I love it! But, I also went to the ER last night. It was not cool. I was coughing and coughing and couldn't breathe. Joseph was with me and I called my dad and I went to the French Hospital off of Johnson. I was pretty sick. They gave me an inhaler and took chest xrays since I've had pneumonia before. I don't have it now, but I have bronchitis. Whee! So we got in around 12 and left around 2:30 I think, and I went to sleep. I took like 5 times the normal dosage of NyQuil so I was ready to pass out hours beforehand. I slept in this morning some and then went to Rite Aid to get my Rx filled. I take 4 pills once a day for 4 days. I took some at the hospital too, so I am waiting to take my first pill until tonight. I am really hungry now actually, but I just ate a pepperoni hot pocket and Cup of Soup. Becky, my nextdoor neighbor, was so sweet during the whole thing and offered me anything I would need, but I only took a few cough drops. I got things I needed so I should be okay. I just need some in house food now and milk. While waiting for my drugs, I went around Rite Aid and got this GIANT GIANT NASCAR mug. It's huge. The diameter is like the width of hand with all my fingers together and it goes from like the tip of my middle finger to past my wrist in depth. I am looking forward to mucho hot chocolate. After Rite Aid Joseph took me to In N Out and we got some lunch there and worked on a puzzle. I got sick and coughy once more and went to sleep, and woke up about 7:30. I talked to my poor worried father for 15 minutes and then Joseph was here for a tad bit, and now it is 8. At 9 I get to take my last puff on my wheezer thing, and I can't wait! It's a miracle at work. It just opens up everything. Coolness.
November 14, 2003- Weekend! Yay! Except I am coughing. I was better, what happened? I don't feel like going to the health center today. I was going to but I was hungry and then I realized I have no money for medicine. So I came back to my room to get some but I don't feel like making the ten minute hike back there now. Maybe I'll call and make an appointment now for Monday so I have to go. Anyway, I did really well on my speech! It was the cat story afterall and I got a 15/15 on it. I wore a low cut shirt on purpose since Stock is sexist, so obviously that didn't hurt. It was really good though. A lot of people got 15s actually. So, tonight I am hoping to decorate my Christmas tree. We'll see if it happens. I will be so crushed if I don't get to with Joseph tonight. It's imprtant to me, and I've been looking forward to it all week!
Joseph was here! :)
November 13, 2003 - My poll is great. I hate physics I can't wait to be out of that class. I only need to attend the first 5 minutes to get my assignment back and get the next one, the class itself is pointless. I just sleep sitting up and kill my neck. Econ wasn't so bad because he stopped reviewing the same material we have been doing forever. We're moving on! Last night I went to dinner with Meghan and Joseph, and then right afterwards I went to In N Out with Nikki and Becca. How special. I was so full after all of that. Anyway, I have to practice for tonight's speech, I'm going to tell the cat story afterall. It has a point. Plus, there's more to it, about the kittens and leaving hem with the SPCA. So yes.
November 12, 2003 - Wow, so this website will live once more a few more alterations and some pictures up and this will be suoer nifty. I have stats homeowrk to do tonight and then I have to practice the Tell A Story speech. Who knows how I'm supposed to practice telling a story. I think I might tell the child abuse one since no one has heard that story yet. People in speech have heard most of my good stories, I don't want to be repetitious to my friends!
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