My first attempt at a poem

Death
As Shakespear put it
“From the day we are born,
We start to die”

For some it’s alot sooner
than we would like

Your gone
Dead
Even now
after the first
initial shock has
worn off,

It takes my
breath away

like a sword
has peirced my
chest and
slashed my heart

I can’t believe it
it seems like yesterday
when you first walked into
English class

Sheepishly holding your books
in front of you
like a barrier
protecting you from the unknown

I didn’t know you then
I still don’t
Now I never will

The next day you came to phy-ed
you didn’t do much,
jsut sat by yourself

later that day
In English again,
Ms. Zilka assigned 
your seat right next 
to me

I liked you when
I frist saw you
When we first met
and everyone introduced
themselves

Darren made you smile

I’ll always remember that smile

We became friends
I told you everything about me
you held back
Secrets

It didn’t bother me
you had a right to keep
your past secret

We grew closer

On Halloween night
at about 6:30
you handed me a letter
I read it

You opened your heart to me
I saw what your life had been

I hoped better for you

Then you told me
you where leaving
going home

The part of me that
knew you couldn’t stay
lepat for joy

But it just made the place
I live in that much
more drear

I guess soem birds aren’t
meant to be caged
Their colors are jsut too
bright

But
I guess, I just miss my friend

After you left
We promised to stay in touch

I wrote or called you
everyday

You wrote me on occasion

We started to drift

You got new friends
Your own little cliche

I wasn’t part of it
anymore

The frozen over stream cracked
one chunk of ice 
slowly floated down stream

It hooked up with others
and picked up speed

It didn’t take long
until it was
out of sight

One slab of Ice still
stayed, clinging to the bank
unable to join the others

I was fed a rumor
a rumor I didn’t want
to believe

I tried to ask you
about it
you didn’t write back

you didn’t call
I called
you didn’t answer

Our worlds
once inseperable
shattered

Flying back apart
as if they had
never been together

Not a day goes by
that I don’t think 
of you

I wonder with
what ifs
and might have
beens

Then once again
you came back into my life
shattering it again

You’ve changed my life again
only now
your own life is
extinguished

Your gone
Dead

and I still wonder

What if...
3-15-01

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