23-Sep-2000

Category: Humor, Romance, Friendship
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: 3+4, 1x2, later 3+1, 4x5
Warnings: Probably major OOC for Quatre and Duo
Feedback: C&C
Notes: This is written in Quatre's POV.

Disclaimer: Gundam Wing and its characters belongs to Bandai, Sunrise and Sotsu Agency and are only being used for non profit entertainment purposes.

Heero Worship by babaca

Heero Worship. We've all had it at one time or another. Every one of us Gundam pilots. There's just something about that tough, intense, quiet, steely eyed Japanese boy that just made your knees turn to jelly. Heck, even I had a thing for Heero for a long time, but never did anything about it. The only one who had the courage to break down the walls Heero put up was Duo. Now Trowa had it. Bad.

What? You thought Trowa and I ... *snicker*, yeah, right! Oh, I'll admit the moment I surrendered to him in Sandrock that he held a certain fascination for me. So tall and quiet with those beautiful green eyes and that auburn hair. We did attempt to forge a relationship beyond friends, but there were too many complications.

Complication one: Trowa. He seemed to have this need to put me on some kind of pedestal. You can only hear someone say to you that they aren't worthy of your love only so many times before you just want to bop them upside the head. I got to the bopping stage a little early in the relationship. Not to mention being on a pedestal made intimacy hard to come by. It's tough to be close when you're so far way and out of reach.

Complication two: The Maganacs. They liked Trowa for his fighting skills. But they felt he was coming from a background a little too different from my own. I've never had a mother, but if I did and she was reincarnated, she would be Rashid. Rashid is constantly giving poor Trowa a hard time being around me so much.

Complication three: We both were attracted to Heero Yuy. I finally let my attraction die down to a mild crush and an occasional wet dream, but not Trowa. Whenever Trowa enters a room the first thing he does is locate where Heero is. He's quick. If you're not looking for it, you'd never notice that he's doing it. Must be that bang. It obscures so much to many but not to me.

I wonder if Heero even knows he has such an effect on Trowa. Trowa and I rarely ever talk about this. I've tried but he always changes the subject. I guess it's that pedestal thing again. He doesn't want to hurt me. I wonder how high is Heero's pedestal in Trowa's mind?

One day I was trying to find out about the dynamics of his last mission when I noticed that Trowa had stopped talking and had a faraway look in his eyes. Surprise, surprise. He was staring at Heero from behind the bangs and seemed lost in thought. Well you know, you can only stand so much before you just have to go ahead and do something.

"Trowa, do you want me to find out how he feels about you?" I asked directly.

Trowa heard the question and it brought him back with the intensity of a bucket of ice water in his lap. "Nani?"

"You heard me. You've been quietly stalking the guy for months now. Isn't it time you learned the truth?" I sighed.

"I don't know what you are talking about, Quatre."

Ah. Playing dumb. If I were as naive as I looked I'd almost buy that. But I'm not naive.

"Trowa, it's okay for you to like Heero. You're not hurting me here. I just want to know if you want me to do some research for you," I smiled.

I could see he was thinking about it. "What would be the point? He's with Duo," he said sadly.

I blinked. Allah, he has it for him bad. I've never seen Trowa this sad before. I try to give him a little hope. "You don't know that. Maybe they are just friends. People think you and I are more than friends."

He seemed to think about it. "But Quatre, we WERE more than friends."

"Yes, but not anymore," I said. "Look I won't do anything to embarrass you. Just let me find out for you."

He seemed to hesitate. In battle and war situations, Trowa never hesitates. It's only when human emotions are involved that hesitation is his friend. I almost didn't hear him say, "Alright."

I can tell you, I was a little surprised that he finally allowed me to help. Maybe my pedestal is getting a little shorter. Now the trick was getting Heero alone for a friendly discussion. That was tougher than it sounded. Duo hung around Heero like a constant shadow. I'm surprise the boy doesn't follow Heero to the bathroom, what do I know? Maybe he does.

The opportunity presented itself when Heero and I got a mission to infiltrate and destroy an OZ lab. Heero would infiltrate and I would be his backup. Except for a tense moment or two, the operation went without a hitch.

After returning and stowing Wing and Sandrock, Heero and I were walking back to the safehouse. Where to start? Where to start? Man, the things I do for friends!

"Heero," I demurred.

"Hn?"

"I know this sounds incredibly childish ... like something out of grade school, but what do you think of Trowa?"

Heero slowed his pace to look at me. Damn he's too pretty for his own good. "I think you and Trowa are well suited for each other."

It took me a moment to realize he completely misinterpreted my question. So I decided to change tactics. "You mean like you and Duo are suited for each other?" Batting my biggest blue-green eyes at him innocently.

Heero stopped. "Nani?"

"Are you and Duo a couple?" I opted for the direct approach.

He blinked. "What seems to be the problem Quatre?"

"Gomen for this sounding so grade school again, but I know someone who has a thing for you. I'm just wondering how serious you are about Duo."

Allah, I love when Heero looks confused. Those blue eyes just flicker between shades of cobalt and prussian blue. He's really sexy looking when he's confused. I almost missed what he said I was so absorbed in those eyes.

"Quatre," he said slowly, "I like you as a friend..."

I couldn't help it. My laughter cut his 'let's be friends' speech short and he looked more confused than ever. "No, Heero! It's not me! I mean I think you're cute and all but ..."

"Is it Wufei?" he asked increduously.

"No. That leaves just one more," I smiled.

"But Trowa's with you."

"No, he's not. We haven't been together in months. We're friends, that's all."

Heero kept that sexy confused look on his face. "You don't act like you're not together."

I shrugged. "Hey! What can I say? I'm an affectionate guy! So answer my question. Are you and Duo together?"

"Duo and I have been through many things together..." he said slowly.

"So? We've all had things we went through together. You and Trowa were gone for months after you self-destructed. Duo and I spent a lot of time with the Managacs. Heck, even Trowa and Wufei have spent time together. What's your point? Are you or aren't you?" I reasoned, quickly tiring of these hijinks. Talking to Heero can be almost as tiring as talking to Trowa. Maybe that's the attraction?

"We have a relationship of sorts. Duo seems to put a lot of stock into it."

"And you?"

"I like Duo. Maybe I love him as much as he insists I do. I don't know," he shrugged.

"What do you think about Trowa?" I persisted.

"I like Trowa, of course. He did nurse me back to health."

"So if you and Duo weren't together, would Trowa be the next person you would seek out?"

Heero thought hard on that question. I could tell because his eyebrows furrowed ever so slightly. So I make it easier for him. "In a perfect world, where Duo wasn't a factor at all, would you want to be with Trowa?"

"Maybe," was what he said.

We were almost back to the little house. "Look, I don't want to embarrass Trowa, so don't say anything, okay?"

"Hn."

Ah, those monosyllabic responses were almost music to my ears. We entered and as usual Trowa sought Heero's presence before noticing mine. I would almost be pissed off if we were still together. But this time I see the flush on Trowa's face. Heero must be staring at him. Great! So much for not embarrassing Trowa! Well actually, that might be a good thing. It will force Heero to evaluate his feelings at least until ...

"Hee-chan! You're back!" Duo bounded into the room grabbing Heero's hand and dragging him out of the room. When they left, I saw Trowa's face. That damn sad look was back.

This is getting to be ridiculous. Well organizing is my strong suit. I was just going to have to find a way for Heero and Trowa to spend quality time together. But I was going to need help. Usually on an adventure like this Duo would be my perfect accomplice. Since this involved matters of the heart (Duo's heart in this case), I knew it needed help elsewhere. I headed into Wufei's room. I've never asked him to help me play matchmaker before. Well, there's a first time for everything.

I thought Wufei would fall off of his bed when I told him what I had in mind.

"But I thought you and Trowa..."

"We were, but we're not anymore. Geez, did we have to have some sort of dramatic argument in front of everyone so you could figure out we're not a couple anymore?" I asked exasporated.

Wufei managed to look abashed. "Gomen nasai. I shouldn't have assumed."

"It's okay Wufei. So how can we get Heero and Trowa together alone somewhere without interference from Duo?" I asked.

"Doesn't it bother you that you are trying to break up Heero and Duo?" Wufei asked amazed.

I had to think about that. Duo was my friend after all. But I want what's best for Trowa. At the moment that seemed to be Heero. Besides Duo stalks poor Heero around with a quality that's not unlike Relena's. He even managed to almost sound like her when he's bellowing Heero's name from across the house.

"Heero feels a little trapped by Duo," I conceded.

"Then he should be the one ending the relationship, not you," Wufei said.

Damn Wufei and his sound reasoning!

"I'm not trying to end anything. I'm trying to get to really quiet people to sit down and reveal their feelings to each other."

"And you don't see the messiness of the possible outcome?" Wufei asked.

"Of course, I do. But things can't go on like they are. Trowa is miserable," I said hoping this would be the end of it for a while. I was starting to get a headache.

"You're doing this for Trowa. Are you sure you don't still love him?"

"Oh course I love him, Wufei. Like a friend. A dear friend." Don't I?

After a quickly muttered, "I don't see you trying to find me someone" remark, Wufei decided to help.

"Okay, the simplest solution would be to send them on a mission together somewhere that will take days for them to come back," Wufei reasoned as he began typing on his laptop.

"That's good, Wufei," I smiled. "You pick the place and I'll locate a nice small safehouse for them."

Wufei grinned back at me. "You are truly evil, aren't you?"

"Oh no, Wufei, I'm merely an angel of mercy!" I snickered. Suddenly there was a knock on the door and Wufei put his computer on sleep mode.

"Yes, come in," Wufei said irritated.

Duo bounded into the room. He never ever seemed to walk anywhere. There was always a bounce to his step. He seemed a little surprised to see me there.

"Wu-kun, I was going to ask if you knew where Quatre was, but I guess I've found him."

"What can I do for you, Duo?" I asked with as much innocence as I could muster.

"What did you do to Heero?" the pretty boy with the long braid said.

"Do? Nothing," I replied.

"Why is he acting so funny then?" Duo accused.

"Funny, how Maxwell?" Wufei joined in.

"He seems moody."

"Isn't he always moody, Maxwell?" Wufei countered.

"Well, yeah. But this is a different type of moody. I can't get him to touch me or talk to me for that matter. He keeps saying he needs to think. What does he need to think about QUATRE?" Duo practically yelled.

"We were just talking about things. Nothing in particular," I lied.

"Yeah right! Are you trying to steal my man, Quatre?"

"Why would I do that?" I asked innocently.

"Because you and Trowa aren't together anymore," Duo said.

"What makes you think that Maxwell?" Wufei asked, amazed that Duo knew.

"I can tell when someone is hard up and horny. Quatre's looked that way for months. Haven't you noticed?" Duo said.

Well now I was pissed off. And embarrassed. Did it look that obvious to him? "Get out!" I hissed at him. Scared poor Wufei too, he jumped when I said this.

"NO!" Duo yelled. "This is Wufei's room. Only he can throw me out! Why don't you leave!"

Wufei sighed and said in a calm voice, "Maybe you both should leave and take this discussion elsewhere."

"Fine!" Duo and I retorted to Wufei and started to leave. I let Duo step out first then I closed the door behind him. I turned to Wufei and said in a calmer voice, "Gomen nasai. Maybe I shouldn't let you get involved with this."

It was weird the way Wufei was staring back at me. I thought he would be mad. He didn't really seem to be. He smiled a sad smile and said, "We hard up horny people need to stick together, ne?"

I laughed and decided I had a new and different respect for Wufei. "I guess you're right."

Trowa and Heero had a "mission" on the other part of the world. It would be at least two weeks until we would see them again. Duo begged Heero not to go, but even he knew missions always took high priority in Heero's life above all else.

The first week in the house with Duo was sheer hell. He kept glaring accusingly at me. Finally I had enough and said to Duo, "If I was after Heero why aren't I on this mission with him?" That brought a smile to Duo's face.

"Ah, I get it now. You're trying to hook Trowa up with Heero. That won't work. Heero's not a take charge guy in relationships. And neither is Trowa, boy, did you just waste their time," Duo laughed as he left the room.

"Damn Wufei, he's right you know. It probably wasn't enough to just throw them together," I sighed.

Wufei walked over to sit next to me. "If it's meant to be, they will find the way. Don't worry, Quatre."

I couldn't help myself. That was the sweetest thing I ever heard from Wufei. I kissed him. All right you hentai, stop! It was an innocent kiss. A real genuine innocent kiss. A sweet kiss. A nice kiss. Mmm? Oh!

Wufei didn't look surprised by my action at all. He smiled and kissed me back. Not quite so innocently.

It's funny. Of all the guys, I never really thought of Wufei as someone I would want to take as a lover. He's overly-opinionated, chauvinistic (boy, my sisters would just LOVE him), and has an over-inflated sense of justice. However, he is also very smart (he can usually back up his opinions with facts and figures), sensitive (although he tries to hide it) and has a great sense of fairness.

I won't even bother to mention the fact that he's incredibly beautiful. We never really spent much time together in the past. I seemed to spend most of my time with Trowa, Heero and Duo. Sure Wufei usually isolated himself from us, but I'm usually trying to get everyone together. So I still wonder why I never tried to get closer to him.

"What are you thinking about?" Wufei asked as he nuzzled my neck.

"I was just wondering why I never made the effort to get closer to you before," I said honestly. I find I don't play my innocent act with him very much.

"It's because I wouldn't let any of you get close."

"Ha! Come on, koi!" I laughed, "Trowa and Heero as masters of avoidence yet I managed to get close to them. That's no excuse."

He pulled the covers over our bodies closer. (I'm not one to kiss and tell. Sorry I didn't give any of you the very fun and very sexy details of our getting together.)

"I didn't want to get close to any of you. Everyone close to me seems to die. All of you are too important for this war to die due to the frivolities of getting involved with me," Wufei said seriously.

"Getting involved with you on any level, friend or lover is never frivolous. I'm honored you allowed me to be part of your life," I said none too easily. I could feel my tears trying to spring.

Heero and Trowa returned today. Duo sat by the door waiting smugly. Geez, I wish he wouldn't act this way. He gets more and more like Relena everyday when it involves Heero. It seemed less like love and more like obsession to me.

Wufei made me promise not to interfere if Trowa and Heero didn't work out. So like Duo I pay rapt attention to the two when they returned.

"Heero! Trowa! Welcome back," I enthused, "How was the mission?" Hey, you can't expect me to get down to brass tacks, can you?

"We infiltrated the base and got the information. I've sent the discs to Dr. J," Heero said. Neither boy seemed to have any change of expression. Oh well, I guess I'll have to ask Trowa later.

Duo grabbed Heero's hand. "Let's go, Hee-chan, we have some lost time to make up for!"

Trowa looked away and Heero did not look happy.

"Duo, we need to talk," Heero said as he was being lead away. They left the room leaving Trowa, Wufei and myself.

"You and Heero?" I smiled.

Trowa turned a pretty shade of pink before nodding.

"I'm happy for you Trowa," Wufei said. Trowa looked up at him a little surprised. Then he seemed to notice that Wufei had a casual arm around my waist.

Trowa's eyebrow raised, but he did smile. "I see you two have been busy in my absence."

I giggled.

Duo stormed back in the room. "You think you're clever don't you?"

I'm not sure if he's addressing Trowa or me.

"Trowa, I predict Heero will tire of you soon, so I'm not worried. Now as for you, Quatre," Duo glared. "Unless we're on a mission, I don't have anything to say to you."

"Duo, I swear, I didn't do this to ..." I tried.

"I don't want to hear it," Duo shook his head, then he stormed out again.

Damn. I am a baka sometimes, ne? I looked over to Trowa to see how he's doing.

"I'm sorry Duo's not happy about this. But then again, I didn't think he would be," Trowa reasoned. "I'll see if I can make this easier for him."

I guess he saw the relief on my face. "Quatre, you never have to worry about me. Really. I know this was of your doing ..." Trowa continued.

"Wufei helped!" I felt the need to say, so I couldn't be blamed alone. The exasperated look on Wufei's face almost made me laugh.

"Quatre!"

"Well, it's true!"

Trowa looked at us bickering before he shook his head and said, "Arigato, Quatre. You have been a true friend to me." He pulled me into a brief embrace, before leaving to find Heero.

"So Winner," Wufei huffed. "Feeling the warm fuzzies yet?"

With that smart ass remark, I surprised Wufei by picking him up and carrying him off to his room to show him just WHAT I WAS feeling! Hey! I told you, no details!

OWARI

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