October 19, 2003
Today was very much filled with mixed emotions
Church was good, and ballet was good
242 was sorta depressing for me
but i realized a lot about my self
and i'm going to make a huge effort to change somethings
plus I think that I can officially say that I am over him
or at least well on my way
I think I just need to spend some time with my friends
and with God
I just need to be satisfied with my relationship with God right now
and not worry about a boyfriend
I feel like going out for coffee with somebody new
somebody that i don't get to talk to alot
i just feel like meeting new people
but i also feel like talking to all the old people
oh man
I just feel like being with people
i feel like talking about meaningful things
and just trying to figure junk out
but its 11
and i have to go to school tomorrow
so I should sleep
maybe another time