November 20, 2003
I can't wait untill christmas
we picked names for secret santa today
it was much fun
I'm very glad with who I got
I know exactly what to get her :)
the nkmb youth retreat is tomorrow too
thats going to be so awesome
i'm very very excited
i hope my mom agrees to send some money with me
cause i have absolutly no money to bring
and i think i'm gonna need some
but we'll see
things are going much better for me
its amazing how good we can act
i even fooled myself
not that i wasn't happy
just that there was nothing wrong
and when i finally realized that there was
and that i needed help
it was very much like hitting a brick wall
but now that i've peeled myself off the wall
i feel much better
i'm so incredibly sore from track though
actually i'm not as bad as i thought i would be
but still not good. lol
i have hip hop tonight too
that should be pretty funny
I went to the breakfast club this morning at church too
it was really good
I think I'll probably keep going
I'm really working hard to get back on track with God
I was hiding for awhile
but now I'm ready to be found