July 25, 2003
Most of the time we think nobody cares
So we decide not to care either
But then somebody does, and it destroys everything you've ever known
Everything you've grown used to,
having friends, but never really knowing them,
putting up a front to make sure nobody sees in.
But slowly you let people in
And you're glad you did. Well at least I'm glad I did
God works through friends.
A good friend told me something tonight that I really needed to hear
It's nice to know that you've impacted somebody in a positive way
and if they're reading this now, You've impacted me more than words can describe.
What else can I say.
I've never had someone to confide in
I've never been able to tell somebody absolutly everything
I think thats why I need to leave, I need to try to get away from all the fake people
Maybe thats why I want a boyfriend
Guys seem so much more real then girls
I want someone that when I'm with them, they will know what I'm thinking
Someone with which a look says more then words could ever say
Someone who isn't going to judge.
what do I want?? I want this
I know its just a song and that it maybe doesn't even exist, but I can't give up hope
not yet at least
anywho...enough about that
I didn't get to see Pirates of the Caribean tonight
I'm pretty sad about that, it was sold out so we saw Tomb Raider instead
Kinda wierd, but it was alright
I couldn't pay much attention to it though
My mind kept wandering to the absolutly amazing guy that I am stuck being just friends with.
If only life were a movie
I spose it wouldn't be good if life were like tomb raider though
Well I'm emotionally drained.
toodles