January 9, 2004
Its the weekend!!
whoohoo
much excitement
i had an incredibly easy math test today
hopefully i'll get a really good mark
cause i need to bring my mark up a bit
i'm a little worried about it
My youth is going toboganing tonight
i'm not going
i don't like toboganing
and i don't feel like going to youth tonight anyways
I'm so tired
I feel like I havn't slept in months
which is kinda true
I hate thinking
thinking is my worst enemy
i'm blissfully happy when i'm not thinking
cause whenever you think all the bad stuff comes to mind
and its just depressing
so i'm just not gonna think
ever
I think its really funny when people want to get out of highschool so badly
like they think its going to get easier or something
as if highschool is so hard
and life only gets harder
I'd way rather be in highschool and have my parents paying for everything i want to do
then be on my own and have to make ends meet
people worry alot about finding themselves.
I don't
why is that??
not why are you trying to find yourself
but why am i not?
I guess the only reason I can think of
is that you can't define me
i'll never be one thing that you can know
i'm always changing
I know my values
and my morals and beliefs
and those will never change
if you know that about me
then i guess you know me as well as I do
luckily I don't care much about finding
"myself"
I'm content to go with the flow
and just be myself
I may not know exactly who that is
but i know my likes and dislikes
and if those change
it doesn't matter
cause its just me changing
as long as I rely on God
my identity will be in him.
and thats what I have to say about finding yourself. :)
178 DAY UNTILL CAMP!!