Things to think about:
Ever think that everyone is against you? Ever think that you have no reason to be in this life? Well welcome to my life! The mind is a funny thing. Mine can twist and turn everything into something totally against me. My mind is against me; it hates me and wants me dead! The voices wont leave me alone! Not everyone in this world wants to hurt me! There are a select few who actually care about me. But no, my damn mind wont let me get close to anyone. I cant trust anyone; its something my mind likes to tell me. it likes to see me in pain. See, me and my mind are totally against each other; in a everlasting battle. And sadly Im loosing...my mind is gaining control over me and I cant excape. Sooner or later my mind will gain complete control over me and I will loose everything. And if that ever happens, I will do the one thing to stop it...I will kill myself. Im already half there. Im not afraid to die. I actually embrace death and know it very well. There are only a few important things stopping me; those things are keeping me sane. They are helping me control my mind. I can trust them with almost everything...almost. I wont let my mind win, I cant let it win! I have to have some control over it. If my mind is so against me, then why is it in my body? Why have I been choosen to fight the power of this mind? It hates me...it wants to see me get hurt. It is telling me to get out of everything before I get hurt, but thats what it wants...to see me break down, to see me surrender myself to it. But I cant...I have to keep this battle going for as long as I can.
