Just when you had things figured out...
Well, it's been quite a while, but what with the goings on in my life coupled with the fact that I until tonight forgot my own damn password to log into my journal, it's been impossible for me to write...

So much has happened since my last post, I cant even think of where to start....well, it's summer again so I'm back at good humor...working my ass off to make a living...bills living downstairs and has been for about 3 months now...and suprisingly we havent killed each other yet...although one night we came close...c'est la vie....

Tonight was an eventful night, Shyla of all people called me...the last person I ever thought would call me....so we hada nice long chat about what we wanan do with hunter, about visitation and such....looks like Im going to get to see her again on wednesday...*crossing fingers* not really much else noteful going on in my life...I wake up, Iwork I go hang out with someone...I sleep...same old ad nauseum....

Linkin Park - Numb
wow, quit the delay in posts....I've been busy though, I found work! W00t...well, I put in a couple days at the plains hotel, and that was....well...bunk, but I got a call from 24-7(which I start at tomorrow) new years eve day, so I quit that job, which worked out cuz I SOOOO didn't wanna work new years eve...

now THAT was quite the night....

Whitney had a party, and it was pretty cool, alot cooler than the party we ended up ditching off to go to for a bit....we ended up spending like 45 minutes in the cold waiting for a cab, PRAYING we'd make it back for midnight(which we did, with minutes to spare) so in the end it was alright, a good night....

this weekend kinda sucked though, specially since I sat at home on saturday night cuz everyone but whitney and I went to lin's christmas party....ahh well, no big deal really, woulda just been the same ole, I just HATE spending saturday night at home...

Nothing much has happened beyond that, I start
a new job tomorrow, so that should be interesting....

Ravers on Dope - Acid
Meh, a long put off post, too many things that have recently happen, and I've wanted to post them all, but had no ambition to do so....another "feelings post" tonight

having been laid off last thursday, I've been feeling rather useless...added to the fact NONE of the applications I've filled out all the resumes I've put out...not a single call back....I NEED a job, I need money...whits moving out in 2 weeks and I'm already half a months rent behind....I dunno what Imgunna do...I need a job and soon....other than that, I'm more or less....confused on everything that's been happening....everything around me seems to be changing, and people are changing and i'm just watching it all happen :P

Fuck you all
I had a great weekend....at least, I think I did....really, I swear I enjoyed myself....yet I'm so fucking miserable....I went to a movie, played some video games, DJ'd a family party and got to see some people I havent seen in ages....and even work was cool tonight....still, as soon as I came home, I just felt angry and miserable....shrug, dont know what my deals is, but I hate it here at this very moment....I wanna leave and stay gone for a long time....i just wanna pick up and go somewhere where no one can find me, and get away from it all for awhile....

I fucking hate people, I wish they'd just fuck off and leave me alone...sick of the bullshit, and the lies and the two-facedness of it all...people pretending to be something they aren't....

fuck it, I hate being in a pissy mood....Im gunna go to bed....

Tranceportation
it's Sunday, and I'm at my mothers as usual

My mom and brother are busy at work, making the frame for her new closet....the closet my brother might come out of some day....kiddding of course...

it's been a very good weekened indeed, i've had more fun that I can remember having in a long time :D

Friday night, I went to moose jaw with josh, lorna and jennie....kinda on the fly, jennie was over hanging out with luda and I, and out of the blue josh called her up and asked if we wanted to come for a ride, so off we went....we went to his apartment, hung out for a bit, and later ended up in the town and country mall...

now I've spent alot of time in malls, but it's different being in a mall in a different city....may sound lame, but everything seems so....fresh and different ....either way, after our little mall experience, we tried to find a place in MJ for coffee, but we ended up just going to smitties in regina...after they left, my buddy dave came and got me, we grabbed jeremy from my house and we went to the uni to play some UT2k3 with the "nerds" as I call them :D actually, they are pretty alright guys...

saturday was the "big" christmas party for jennies work, so a bunch of us(jennie, josh, lorna, joey) and I all met up at the rack, and played pool and drank til around 12(josh and lorna left at around 11) ....after that jennie had to go home, so garret(we ran into him there) joey and I were gunna go find something else to do, but stopped at BK along the way and suddenly joey wasn't feeling good, so we dropped him off and called it a night....

it may not sound like anything exciting, but it was definately a great weekend :D

and now it's sunday, I'm at my moms and I have to leave for work in an hour....weekends over, back to the real world for another week....poo...more later

-=- Justin -=-

Digitally Imported is my drug of choice!
*yawns* Here I sit, 3am and once again I'm well beyond tired, and should have probally gone to bed hours ago....oh well, I'm young and impetuous....the joys of youth....except lately, I don't feel all that young...I feel alot older, a lot wiser than I was even a year ago....alot has happened in the last year, and It's actually served a lot of good....I've found a new sense of discipline and ambition that I recently thought unfathomable...

I've been working at the call center for almost 2 months now, and for once in my life I feel like I'm where I want to be...It's not the greatest paying job in the world, but I work with great people and feel like what I'm doing is right, and I've never felt that before...

Unfortunately, the hours suck, and I've thus been prompted to aquire other employment to supplement it...at the moment I havent had much success, but feel as though I shall rectify that, and soon...until then, I'm not doing to bad off....my finances are in order, and with a roomate I don't feel to rushed....it all seems to slowly be coming together....

All I'm really lacking now, is a girlfriend....someone to share my joy with, someone to have fun with....to spare me of the loneliness I sometimes feel when I'm laying in bed at night...A slight tinge that reminds me that no matter what I do, I still lack a part of my life...a small void that needs to be filled...

at the same time, I cope, and I'm in no hurry...I've had several opportunities, but for once in my life i feel no hurry...I've realised that sometimes being alone is better than suffering with someone you don't truly care for...I'm content to wait, unwilling to rush into something I am not completely happy with...

Until then I work, I sleep....I spend time with my friends....in a way, with the good friends I feel less alone than I could ever feel where I with someone...

SuperNovA
and today makes 3....I'm on a roll baby :D

I woke up around 11 today, as per my usual regime...Bummed around the house for awhile, , trying to find someone to go to wonderland with, but of course everyone was busy ...not really interested it rushing into the day,as saturdays are usually my lazy day(and/or sunday MY sabbath) darryl came over around noon, and we all kinda sat around being lazy until we left for downtown around 130...the bus took forever to get here, but what else is new....once we got downtown, we parted ways and I headed off to the bank and to wonderland where I spent 2 hours playing ddr with this really cool kid that was just learning....I love teaching noobs the tricks of the trade so to speak :D ..

Of course during the middle of a song, josh gave me a ring wanting to make plans for later...typical, but no biggie :D after wonderland I headed home, had a shower and hung out with whit, darryl and his friend mike, listened to some music and played some cards....then josh, lorna and jennie came to pick me up, we picked up joey and dropped jennie off...

headed to boston pizza to play some pool, and garret and his cousin met us and we decided to head to joshs to drink and play pool....after going to joshs we suddenly decided to head to his apartment in moose jaw, so we packed it up and headed to moose jaw, hung out did some drinking and then headed back around 230 and I passed out...joyous times had by all

-=- Justin -=-

One in a million
Wow, now look at that...2 days in a row for a post....I must have no life or something :D lol

Anyways, today was a pretty good day indeed :D Well of course any pay day is a good day in itself

I didnt sleep very well last night (the usual strange dreams plaguing me) but I woke up around 10 oclock, hopped in the shower and went off to work to pick up my PHAT pay cheque which was more than I had expected (gotta love bonuses :D)

after that, I headed downtown, cashed it and hung around a bit, catching the concert for the grey cup party(mutters about how the riders SHOULD BE PLAYING, Stupid crooked refs) waiting for whitney to call me so we could meet up

After we met up, we went for lunch and then went shopping(house stuff and a present for my friend)

after that, we went home, I did some laundry, had another shower and then met my friend jennie, played some pool, drank some beer, and then I came home and crashed....fun times...

Carry on Dancing
Well, well well....

Another much needed, but very much put off entry

It's been alot of the usual, work work work...
well, not in the last few days, works kinda slowed to a crawl at the moment, but shall pick up soon...

in the mean time, I've had much more time on my hands than I know what to do with...I've gone from working every day to not having worked in almost a week and well, I'm kinda going crazy...time to find a second job I guess :D

other than that, and the usual day to day "hanging out" with various people, not much excitement has happened in my life...well, other than the fact that whit and I went and got a land line hooked up yesterday, so once again I have net :D yay me :D

More later, -=- Justin -=-

Standing outside the fire
Another day, another dollar....worked another 9 and half hours today, fun times....I cant remember the last time I had a day off, but honestly it doesnt really bother me...I love my job, and I love the people I work with....they're all pretty awesome people for the most part :D

Not much going on my life lately, just a few failed attempts at sparking something with a few women along the way, but then again Im not in much of a hurry....without a female in my life, I've been doing quite well about working my ass off, which is good cuz the more I work, the more money I make...which I dont have the time to spend ...pft ahh well, c'est la vie....

2 days til the party, and I'm really excited....jennie and I did an EXCELLENT job decorating my place, but I must say most of the credit must go to her...she's quite creative, and very patient with my fumbling attempt at art(I am so very NOT creative with art) so, I guess come P-Day it'll all be worth the work we put in :D and I will ceraintly have pictures to post, until then...good day

-=- Justin -=-