hahahah...i just read through these...deeeeepressing. no..i don't feel like this all the time.
- © it still remains. running, falling, tumbling over myself and my thoughts. push me away. slipping, sliding, crumbling over him and what he brings. sacred tears dancing inside. pushing still, tormenting at will. leave me be, but please don't leave me. i feel you in the winter of my heart. and those eyes, these eyes..they've abondoned me. kiss me cold, dead. sacred still, tears and their wicked dance. i'm nothing without them. everything without you.-
- © beyond the boundaries of acceptance, divine dream worlds draw blanks throughout this tortured mind. life and death cradle me with common hearts of darkness...and in the tangle of words the serious remains unsaid. what once we held so near is now all so dead. we all look for what is real..and are trying to feel misguided intentions. its off in the wrong direction until the end of the line, until we stop running to meet the end of time. with the flick of his tail the dragon flies..and with the whispers of the wind the anger dies..-
- © Yesterday's Rain -
...undream me and number my days. steal me away from underneath this knife...take it and bury it in someone else's soul. i fall when you waste me away. i'm destroyed when filled with such pain..when you push me into yesterday's rain...
- © Trip Over The World -
sweet 16 says me to i. i buy it just to dump it out. strung out on candy necklaces and spotlight shakes..how can i concentrate without you in me? i'm quivering with the confusion of what you gave me. do not think ..do not move. beauty queens and torment dreams~these are a few of my favorite things. i've got my fix and you've got your cure. i know i am wasting my time on pointless destruction, but it all had to end somehow. agression is the key to success. especially when daddy runs his hands through her her. hush little baby dont say a word. it's a painful strain on this little heart. she said it in a sort of supercilious way. i looked on with a lethargic smile wishing for the stupidity to fade. fade out to a blackened hole in the head...god..i dont want to be here.
- © Angel -
my heart has stopped at this moment for a silence to hear his breath. i see a mirror image of what everything should be. feelings provoked and my soul...it smiles inside of me. his voice is a much needed distraction from outside pain. thunder is silence in the presence of such beauty, such serenity.
- © This Broken Place -
beneath my broken mirrors and shattered will...my angel and her regret lie there quiet and still. burning inside for what is no longer hers...breaking outside for something unsure. the red rose in her heart is left to smolder in the fire of it's decay. her moonless nights scared the stars away. her dreams left in oblivion...an echo of his face. all that is left is the glittering smoke of her heart...
this broken place...
- © Ruin -
i'll let you go until finally there is nothing left. death treats me to you and i come pushing my way into your open wounds. i am the girl dead so long ago...you are the love shattered sad and slow. i could hear your dizziness, but i didn't listen..i wouldn't listen. i wish i knew where i was inside of you
- © Thousand Yard Stare -
here i am, next to sadness, nearest to madness. i'll trip madly into you and wonder, just wonder. he says, she says, they say..i won't say. these are the rules i broke, this is the way it was suppose to be. this is just another suicide note... a way to escape the fathomless despair. i'll sit on my hill and watch you there in never sober land...never again. the weight of what i'm thinking would contaminate the air with pain..but you'd still sit there giving your thousand yard stare.
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- © i am painting inside the walls so that you may sleep. my every thought and motion goes into you so deep. i'll take yours if you'll take mine, and finally we will be as one. my stoned soul walks through these grey halls...wondering once what it was like to feel your warmth beneath me. i praise the memory of the rain as we sat there dreaming the dreams no one else dared to dream-
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- © sinking into your smile, not knowing what path i am following, though i'm walking it for miles. holding your words in my hands and watching your wandering eyes find their way. i slide down this hollow road as it crumbles after me..looking for point after point of a pointless creation -
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- © the rain falls, pounds on the pavement like my heart to the floor. insanity looks in on the cages around...holding our small worlds. pushing their way in..cradling our tears. the value of our hopes is up and our fears put to rest. a kiss and i fade fast away -
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- © i live to dream another day as hopes of something needed flow into my life. i'd wait forever, i'd give it all up, just for his touch. i'd fall off the highest cliff into the sharpest pain for this much. i cound my days and wonder what life is if it can't be lived for you -
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- © he graces my dreams with mystery and scars of yesterday. sapphire eyes burning into another tomorrow. our palace uncrumbles unto velvet beauty..the joke is on them as we fall away from this place -
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- © Exist -
worlds collide..tears are dried. eyes are closed..bodies exhaust, yet minds are flowing with these endless thoughts. i cant exist and i cant be..can't remove the pain that remains in me. old times..new losses. dreams all end..reality awakes. when cruel worlds intrude and my heart they take. i cant feel and i cant see..can't grasp the soul that used to reside in me. angels exist..flames die. and for this i feel sorrow..but mostly joy..mostly high. i can exist and see and feel and be..just need to erase this pain and let it fall back into me...
