p o e m (s)

Love Me Do (Suffer My Desire For You)

by Anrui (found this one at Shinraonline.com)

Sitting with you last night in your car with the rain softly pattering on the roof and doors... I was so at peace.

((I love the smell of rain))

Being with you was like being with an extension of myself... and it felt so right. As comfortable with you as I am when I'm alone. And I wish that time would stand still, because the hour we had was too fleeting. I wanted to cry when I realized it had got late and it was time for us to part once again.

Why did it feel like I would never see you again?

Pushing away at such thoughts, you held me in your arms and we looked out at the blurry, rain drenched scene all around us and talked of more pleasant things.

The radio was down low, the sounds of Smashing Pumpkins filling the silent moments that didn't even matter, anyway, because they were not an awkward silence, but a peaceful one. The kind you have when words aren't necessary and you can say anything or nothing at all and it would be okay. We didn't need to fill the silence with unnecessary bable, and we didn't need to think about what would happen next. No worries, no insecurities. We simply were. And it was so beautiful.

You told me not to cry and to just live in the moment that we have here and now. The future isn't promised and yesterday is gone, so just enjoy today.

I spent so much time debating if I should even go up to see you, because I knew it would hurt to have to leave again. But I decided that once was better than not at all. And though it hurts now, I would rather have the pain of us being apart than to have never touched your face. I'd rather die today than live 100 years without knowing you.

What I feel for you is different than anything I've ever felt for anyone before. It scares me, in a way, to feel the way I do when I'm talking to you. But it's okay, cuz it just feels right. I've known you for such a short while, but it feels more like I've known you all my life.

And these nights I get high just from breathing. When I lie here with you, I'm sure that I'm real. --Something Corporate

A thousand raindrops fell from the sky that night, blurring the lines and fogging the windows. But the world was beautiful, anyway. When it came time for us to go our seperate ways, a few solitary tears escaped from behind my eyes and meandered down my cheeks. I wiped away at them furiously, ashamed of my visable unwillingness to let you go. What if you walk away from me, and never look back? I don't want this moment to end, I want to live within it.

Wishing on stars and counting the days, I wait until the next time when eyes meet eyes and your smiling face brightens my world. And I'll remember the songs that filled the silence, because they'll echo in my dreams. And I'll remember the sadness that I felt when we realized that it was getting late and we had to part. And I'll remember the hope I found when you promised me that we'd find a way for our paths to cross again. And I'll remember how the shattering warmth of your kiss melted my body into your arms and my heart into your hands, that night when I felt complete.