you say your life is a thing that you cannot share, and I don’t understand how you could not care, because when you’re alone I want to be there. Is it so hard for you to lose some control if the loss of the power could make you feel whole? You say this love would make you play another role, as though you could even lose what’s in your soul. Would you feel more complete if you pushed me away? You seem happy to hold your feelings at bay, to push things off to deal with another day. Procrastination keeps us from having to pay. If its simply the chance that’s not worth it to you then I must know that there’s nothing I can do. With all we are and with all we have been through, I still cant make you feel the way I want you to. I am so very willing to fight this fight, not that it really matters who’s wrong or right. I know we seem to push and shove with all our might, yet I cant force myself to give up on this light. |
