and ever so true; every moment was happy when I was with you. you were the best thing that I’d ever known, and I couldn’t believe all the love that you’d shown. I didn’t think I deserved it, all the love you gave; I put on a mask because I was afraid. I was so worried you wouldn’t like me, I became someone else, and that’s all you could see. The biggest mistake that I ever made was to give into fear and let it push you away. We started fighting, and I couldn’t see why; it wasn’t working, and I watched you die. I was too selfish to assume I was wrong; I was so different, my real self was gone. Too blind to see it, I tried to fix you; I tore you apart, I didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t understand why it wouldn’t work, frustrated us both, both ended up hurt. You worshipped me so, couldn’t point out my wrong, as I slowly lost you, you felt you didn’t belong. You played out your love, you couldn’t take anymore, you lost all your feelings, and I felt ignored. A shock made me see just what I had done; I’m about to lose you, and I feel so alone. I’m not angry at you, and I take all the blame; I took you for granted, played a stupid game. Everything you were doing, and I refused to see all the wonderful things that you did for me. I just asked for more proofs of your love; didn’t appreciate what you were made of. Now it might be too late, and I understand why, but I’m so sad, that I just want to cry. I have all the memories played back in my mind; I want to apologize, but there’s not enough time. Now I’ve one thing to ask of my god of love, this one more last chance, ‘cause I know it’s enough. I send all my prayers that you give me this try to take all my wrongs and make them all right. I know now it’s different, because now it’s me; I’m back to myself now, I want you to see. It may be too late, but I really hope not, I’m waiting this two weeks for you to give it thought. I hope you remember what we really are; I love you so much, and I’m trying so hard. I ask for forgiveness, though the blame is all mine; please don’t let this be our final goodbye. |
