a new choice to make, a new life to live. as i stand nearby to watch, the love battles the darkness, and i hope won't get beaten in this fight for my heart. each time i do this the inside of me struggles to remember who i was and who i want to be. destruction pulling at my every thread as i dream of conquerring the world, and even myself. each time i do this i die again, but somehow i survive it, and i overcome it once more. passion flowing through me, driving me to reach out and feel the all of existence, to kiss the life force of the universe. each time i do this i destroy myself, only to create another, only to play god once again with my soul. ripped between two of who i am, maybe three, maybe four or five, but knowing i have to be whole again. each time i do this i fall apart again, only to find the pieces that were lost somewhere inside to put them back where they belonged. beating down the who i am when the who i am is the one i hate the most, and knowing the only one who can support me is me. each time i do this i tear my mind to pieces, searching for the parts i need to be complete again. backing off into the corner, i see the light battle the hate, and i can only hope for the best. each time i do this i dream it will be the last, but i know that never could be, and it could never be what i really want. |
