Just a small warning this is a long one.
So what is there to expect in life? Honestly I don't have the answer but then again who does right? Wrong! Or at least I believe in some small aspect I think we know what to expect in life in some aspects. We do have control don't we?
Well in any case we do have a choice in what we do with our life and that in some small aspect means we do know what to expect. Expecting the unexpected and know that we will make mistakes but at the same time we will make the right decisions at the same time. It’s all in how we take it and how we handle the situations at hand. Let’s take dating for example I’m not perfect at it but I try and maybe that's where I went wrong. You see this is how I see it now. We’ve always been told that love is a beautiful thing and that's its a wonderful thing which yes is vary true but America makes us think that when we fall in love it will be like the movies but that's bullshit sure I try and pass it off every now and then but come on I'm just a naive kid brand new to the world and thinking love is just like the movies haha yea right and I’m a big Hollywood actor with millions of dollars and anyways women don't want the guy from the movie they aren't looking for that there looking for someone who’s on the edge a bit crazy and ready to destroy there life by getting drunk and getting fucked up every night.... Well maybe not every girl but the ones that I tend to fall for are like that. See me I’m a quite don't do much kind of guy. I like the great American basics, Movies, music, books and crap like that but people don't want that they want to go out and go crazy but I’ve been threw that and its a bullshit scene. Well what ever they want im not here to say who's right and who's wrong us men we got problems to needless to say so does half the world but that's not the point im trying to make. In fact im not sure what kind of point im trying to make but I guess what im saying in some sense is that how come when you thinks things are just starting to pick up they some how fall down like that last domino when it slips outta your hand and knocks down the rest of the set that you spent 2 hours making not to see the last piece fall out of your hand and knock down the set but to make a beautiful mosaic of domino’s. Then when you finish you show your parents and your happy but how many times can you say that you dropped that last piece or you hit your knee on some part of the set and knock it all down. Do you honestly want to put the whole fucking thing back together again? I bet you nine times out of ten you wouldn't. But there are a few out there who for some odd reason decide that yes im going to pick up the pieces and put it back together. But trust me it gets old after a while I know you know why? Not because I was one of the few kids who put the thing back together after it fell apart but because it’s like relationships. I mean what's the point of them if your not going to work at them and give your partner the chance to make it up to them? Well ive done my best and did all that I could for you but you made the choice to turn to someone else and give me a big middle finger. Or at least that's how I felt and still feel at the time. I can be varying sour about these things sometimes but it’s defiantly not the first time. By John Larson
