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Today is 12/18/2003 & I'm thinking about neo-expressionist Mark Kostabi.
Today is 12/19/2003 & I'm thinking about The Checkers.
Today is 12/26/2003 & I'm thinking about Weirdness
Today is 12/29/03 and I've got to get something off my chest. The Holidays were a real fucking drag. I discovered that I've been wasting my time hanging around narcissistic, paranoid-schizophrenics for too long. First is this one girl, who does nothing but complain about her lot in life, and yet she does absolutley NOTHING to change it. I mean why the fuck should I waste my time listening to this garbage "Oh, I feel so lazy. Oh I feel so dysfunctional.", bla-blah-blah. The other has completely lost it. I mean I've seen this kind of behavior before - from mental patients on the streets of The Bowery. She accused me of plagarizing her in my short film, completely untrue; then she started threatening ME, OK!! ENOUGH!! BEGONE YOU VILE CREATURES. I WILL NO LONGER TOLERATE YOUR INSANITY...AT ALL. OK, so I end up going to this party Saturday night, and it's like a bad soap opera. I hear nothing but conspiracy theories thrown around about Bush; whom I support; and frankly it was all boardering on anti-semitism too. When someone says if the Jews weren't in the middle east there be no war; essentially there saying if the Jews didn't exist there'd be no war. This all pains me to no end, because I have to walk away from it, and then what am I left with? A lonely desert - that's what. So 2003 was a great year, my best in awhile; though I have the distinct sensation that 2004, while it may be even better, will be the lonliest of all. I can relate to no one...Oh well.
Today is December 30th. Here's a list of female abbreviations I found funny: FAT = BBW, full figured, curvy, big boned, not a barbie, et. al.
GD = Gold Digger
YAGA = Dinner, movie, gifts, whatever, but... You Ain't Getting Any.
EMBOMB = Massive mental baggage.
SFM = Sex For Money
TURAM = The Universe Revloves Around Me, get used to it.
SID = Seeking impossible dream. Im imperfect and have my problems, but I require a guy that's ideal in just about every way.
MMT = Me Man Too. I demand all the rights and privleges a man has and demand all the rights and priveleges of a woman of course.
STRING = Like To String you along for as much as I can get before dropping you.
ILIF = I Live In Fantasy, looking for someone to fit into my fantasy world.
IOKUNOT = Romance novels OK, erotic magazines not. When are you guys going to realize that whatever you want or desire is offensive and wrong, and whatever women want or desire is beautiful and good.
FELINE#1 = Must Love Cats. They are my priority, but don't worry, if we hit it off you will be 2nd priority.
IGODD = Im a goddess but realistic. I know I won't find a god out there, never seen a guy ad describing himself as one, so I will settle for a mere mortal, but you better be an awfully impressive one.
HEFTY = Height Weight Proprotionate. None of your business what I really weigh.
FEMWAD = Fulfill Every one of My Wants And Desires, and maybe I will fulfill one of yours.
DWR = Danger Will Robinson. (You really should avoid me but I will lure you in anyway.)
MY WINTER READING LIST:
Mark Kostabi and The East Village Scene 1983-1987 photos and text by Baird Jones, forward by Enrico Baj.
Autumn Rhythm: Musings on Time, Tide, Aging, Dying and Such Biz by
Richard Meltzer
The Unknown God
W. T. Smith and the Thelemites by
Martin P. Starr
STAR DATA
Below is an analysis of my natal birth chart that my friend wrote for me. You can visit her bitchin website Sun Earth Moon.
SO with the Sun in Aquarius this man wants to have a Knowledgebase with which to address life. Information is mobility and Michael likes both. With the sun in the first few degrees of the sign the Capricorn influence is also there, and this makes for wanting to use ideas in a practical fashion. This could make for a Work life of higher mind and also a utilitarian love for ideas such as in Writing and communication and making contact. Maybe also a significan letter writing.
Now Michael, you see all that Sagittarius in your chart? Sagittarius is the wanderer of the zodiac. "Dont pin me down they say. That and they want travel and truth and will seek information from many quarters, including cult and fringe realities that contain morsels of hidden truths. They are the seekers of the wheel.
Now you have Mars, Jupiter and Neptune, 0, 1 and 2 degrees plus Venus at 16 plus Moon at 21 degrees in Sagittarius. DO you see why I put some emphasis here? This kid has half his planets in thie one sign.
Michael? Some people read the chart like "Oh you have all this in one sign but nothing in say Gemini. Well I take that to mean that Gemini you have nothing you need to master there this lifetime. You can think, you can be black and white, you know what you like and don't life. BUt what your perceptions mean? This is like a life work for you. Sagittarius is pulling you in to seek and find. To look for the big picture. ANd Mars/Jupiter/Neptune can mean only one thing in this chart, you will not be stopped from this quest. You will kick and rebel so you might as well know ahead of time not to box yourself in. With Venus there too, you may as well look for a lady friend (if you haven't already found her) who is a searcher too. The quest it too important to deny for you.
Now with Saturn where you have it in Taurus, you will be forced to answer the material question in this life. Either it is that you have much material and this creates a concern for who you are in the midst of it all, or you lack material yet with everything else going for you it leaves you wondering why. Either way, the material begs to be understood and made this life's peace with.
WIth Pluto at the last degree of Virgo, you are bringing up the tail end of the generation in Virgo. These are the folks who are trnasformed theu analysis of material - data - facts from both above and below. You are ushering in the next generation in Libra who are transformed thru bring balance to the blend. Both these are important to your growth on the spirit side.
Uranus in Libra makes for a path of wonderment and a real love of the non-phenomenal life. A taste for the sublime.
With Mercury in Capricorn you get some good ideas, but really reap the reward when they move to the realm of manifest reality.
there it is!
blessings,
piph
