happy fucking new year. i'm so depressed it's not even funny. i've been slicing up my wrists like mad, and the "deadly cycle" has started worse than ever. i'm trying to lose all the weight i can on a starvation diet with fruit only when i'm REALLY hungry. lets see if i can get down to 90 lbs eh?
(12/25/02)
heyyy my new layout totally rules! i'm completely obsessed with it! lol. christmas is pretty awesome eh? i got all sorts of cool stuff but i dont feel like describing it right now. so later dude
(12/23/02)
ATTENTION. NEW LAYOUTS BEING CREATED AS WE SPEAK. so be patient and stuff.
(12/22/02)
only 3 more days till xmas and i get all my starwars crap that i asked for!!! i'm so friggin excited. I'm getting 2 Anikin action fictures, a star wars ep2 stationary kit, the ep2 DVD, this little lollipop head with anikin and hopefully a tshirt or something. i need a patch that says "teenybopper star wars fan". it's quite accurate. I mean, this obsession started when i was EIGHT friggin years old!...i miss tim. i dont know why, that boy just gets in my head. it's more controllable now. oh yeah!!!! today i'm either gonna see Harry Potter (finally) or Two Towers!!! yayyy! and i'm wearing my awesome new shirt that used to be a 3/4 sleve black thing, but i sewed bell sleves onto it (green velvet...grrroovy baby) and safety-pinned picture of hanson that used to be on my shirt...i made alot of crap yesterday sewing. it was great. well that's about it. LAAATER, gonna watch Moulin Rouge!!!
(12/20/02)
Dude, i havnt been on here in forever. it's insane...i gues i've been busy and i seriously have. so you know how it goes. oh lookie.
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cute huh? gah well lets update shall we? Tim is being the best sweetie you could hope for, in an ex boyfriend no less. he's just beig nice and funny and stuff, good shit. like for example, today when i was getting off the bus we hugged coz it's vacation now, and then he held up my hand like i drew in my picture, spikes/dark polish and all. he's just been acting more tim-my ya know? oh yes vacaton starts today...more family time (just what i need in my consistant depressed state of mind...sigh) still no boyfriend. still depressed. still...christie. oh but steve bucholz likes me. so that's cool
(12/1/02)
pinch, punch, first of the month. lol :) gahhh i hate my life, thank god thanxgiving break is almost over. if i had to deal with my family (specifically julie) any longer i swear to god my head would explode. i went on a shopping spree yesterday at the Independance mall, it felt so good to spend lots of money and know you still have plenty in the bank (i am currently 1,159 $ rich, and i earned every cent myself. beat THAT) i spent 97 dollars exactly and this is what i got: HOT TOPIC- Juliana Theory patch and tshirt; Bad Relegion tshirt; Anti Flag Patch / TARGET- Purple eyeshadow; concealer; green nailpolish / NEWBURY COMICS- beatles pin; Suicidal Tendancies' "Prime cuts"(cd) / CLAIRE'S- coloured headbands; spikey bracelet / and a diet pepsi for 1.00. not so shabby if i say so myself...i was supposed to be buying a dress for the semi formal, but what's the use when i dont have a date, and no boyfriend to pull in at the last minute (yep that's right, say bye-bye to bret...i think...) so i spent my 'dress money' on random other stuff i've wanted. nothing like shopping therapy to cheer you up...for a few hours anyway. dammit i need drugs or something.
(11/20/02)
ohhh i got so inspired today to write my story! it's a secret though, just like all my other writings but damn, i'm so inspired! it's gonna be such a great story, i cant wait to get really into it. but i gotta do a bunch of research first you know. Uhm...practically no homwork today so i'm just puttering around. Decided to update here to make up for lost time. gonna shit around for a bit...if you'll excuse me...
(11/19/02)
Ikey is 22. Bret calls practically every night. Friends are good. Tim & Tommy are gonna be in the IS play. Grades are good and classes are tolerable. new layout too. so yeah, life has been keeping me good these days...so who knows when it will change fast. I've been slacking alot lately- not writing enough songs, putting off homeworks and updates for this and my journal though there really isnt anything of importance to write about. I don't know what my slump is all about...hormones probably. who knows it'll have to end sooner or later. so that's it for now, ta ta.
