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Pascal's Journal -- Read on, if you dare.
+---[ Pascal Curio - Journal ]------------------------------------------------+
|                                                                             |
| This book has definitely seen better days, or has it been constructed to    |
| look so... used? The blood red leather that is the skin of this journal has |
| many creases all over it, and the spine looks as if it is about to fall     |
| off. A single, long piece of dark brown thong is attached to the book, and  |
| seems to be the only thing that ties together to keep the book closed. Of   |
| course, given the owner of this journal, this piece of string that keeps    |
| the book shut is heavily charmed and spells of guarding keep this book from |
| being opened by anyone other than the owner, or a person that the owner     |
| would deem, 'worthy.' Her charms are not of the most advanced magic,        |
| however, so someone many years her superior, say, her godfather, would be   |
| able to cast several spells, and the book would almost pop open. The inside |
| pages of the leather journal are stained a heavy yellow, with age, and even |
| though it is the 1990s, the pen used to write in the journal seems to be in |
| the form of... a feathered quill. Red ink seems to be the favourite here,   |
| the ink drying so that it becomes an almost sickening dried blood.          |
|                                                                             |
| The handwriting on the inside of the leather journal is extremely neat and  |
| meticulous. The writing is heavily slanted to the right hand side, and the  |
| baseline is angled downwards. The connections between the letters are sharp |
| and needle-like, and at the same time, there is close to no spacing between |
| each word, as well as the letters. Everything is crammed together as close  |
| as possible. The stems of her 't's and 'd's are long and pointed, there is  |
| no looping, and the stems of the 't's are crossed way above the midpoint of |
| the 't'. The loops of the 'y's, 'g's, and 'j's are barely complete, and the |
| 'a's and 'o's have been been closed off with careful precision.             |
|                                                                             |

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Feb 29, 1996

Just when you think you have to tear your hair out in boredom, someone interesting comes along. Caught who I presumed to be, a jerk, smoking in the forum, while I'm trying to read. Elijah Cruise. If Cathryn were reading over my shoulder she would scream. I probably shouldn't write his name because she probably memorized the sound of pen scratching out those letters.
Turns out maybe I should have gone to the Valentine's Dance, though to be honest I'd rather kiss a centaur's ass. He claims to have been paid to put a love potion in the drinks, and given the rumours of what happened, I believe him. So smoking jerk turned out alright, for the time being.

The next line is scribbled in what appears to be a rather angry manner; much pressure has been applied to the quill here.

I cannot find my book. Shit.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.
March 1, 1996

Apparently I had dropped my book in the forum yesterday when I left from talking with Elijah. He returned it back to me today, and seemed, for a moment, friendlier than usual. He had gone to see Potthast. She'd went and gone to get a picture of herself half naked inside one of those magazines. As I'd take the boy, he went to go make her life miserable. I have yet to get my hands on a copy of that magazine, but when I do, I need to go request an autograph.
Elijah spoke briefly about banding the those that were like 'us' together. He doesn't know anything about me nor I about him, but I'll play along. For all I know, he could be trying to use me as a pawn. I'll take this as I will, but he better watch himself.

Fin.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.
March 5, 1996

Got bored and had to do some stalking around the halls again. You hear some pretty interesting things, and sometimes I find this better than hexing the toes off of some random student. Wandered into the Library and managed to scare off a few students. Saw that Dragon girl again, but didn't catch the name. Hard not to notice a dragon walking around the grounds. Met this young boy. Very interesting. Very fiery. Very submissive. I enjoyed myself. Charmed some magical creature repellent orb that he had with him, and will now watch closely to see how he uses it, if he's not too chicken shit to use it.

Fin

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.
March 7, 1996

Saw a falcon on the grounds yesterday. Beautiful. It soon grew tired of me (I don't blame it, if I was a falcon I'd not want to deal with some human), flew away and was replaced with Elijah Cruise. Quite possibly not who I think he is. Will have to speak with him more thoroughly to find out. Mysterious boy.
I believe I got Orb Boy in a spot of trouble with Nadezhda Ivanovna inside her classroom. Bloody fat bitch just about crushed me with her desk. I did, however, score a barbed whip out of it. Believe that there is dried blood caked on the whip. Will have to do some testing, which requires permanently borrowing more supplies from the potion room.
Interrupted a romantic tryst between orb boy and his girlfriend today. They have names, Toby and Lien respectively. Latter seems to lack any sort of confidence whatsoever. Disgusting. Toby may be molded into shape, but I am more interested with the fact that he is so easily to be swayed. Did not need to distract purple whale inside classroom for me, but did so anyway. Do I thank him? No, I could have taken care of myself, but he was fun to watch anyway. Not everyday you see someone turn purple from rage.
Orb of Wonder works of course, except its effects surprise even me.  Didn't realize that it would do that. Should have never ever doubted anything that Diophantus imposed upon me to learn. Would thank him if he cared to hear me speak. I do not look forward to seeing him again come the summer. With any luck, he'll be away in Austria and I will have the manor to myself. I am convinced that he is a dark wizard.
Someone, and it better be a girl, has been tampering with my gold lock on my chest in the dorm room. Stupid. Diophantus does not enchant things for me because he feels kind.

Fin.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.
March 10, 1996

What a total and complete brat! I think I can work with this. I have a stinking suspicion that Elijah put a laughing-bubble potion in the soup at dinner. Lien and Toby drank it of course, and the former ran away before I could even begin to make her life even more miserable.
On a side note: I think the Potions Classroom needs more Retroactum Serum.
Toby Darling had better watch himself.
Was in such good spirits after what I did to Toby. So good in fact, that I sat for about a half hour with some girl who would have normally annoyed the hell out of me. What's wrong with me?

Fin.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.

March 11, 1996

Just had breakfast, and already I can tell that this is going to be an excellent day. Went in with the worst possible feeling, and came out feeling awesome. Hexing those two boys on the breakfast crew with me made me feel slightly better. Their fingers will separate in a few days, but they don't know that yet. They can always rat on me, I suppose, but then I get to rat on them about why their scrambled eggs weren't cooked, or why the orange juice tasted /so/ strange.
Toby called me a bitch today. I'm very proud of his progress. I think Lien may have actually talked to him, and he promised he'd stay out of the forest. Let's see how long that lasts.

Fin.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.

March 16, 1996

Toby and Lien still prove to be amusing. I was almost hoping that the former would show somewhat of a spine. His ability to be angered so easily is something that I am sure can be carefully honed, or whatever that word should be. I was once like that myself, and look at me now.
Slowly working on building the boy's trust again, and I think I'm succeeding, after I fixed him up. The girl is still skeptical, and so she should be. Next plan is to get Toby back into the forest to test that orb, once more. No doubt Lien will come along.
Spring break is coming soon, and thankfully I am staying on the school grounds. I have no desire what-so-ever to see Diophantus.

Fin.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.

March 19, 1996

Received letter from Diophantus that strangely resembled a docile howler. I am to come home. His voice still rings in my ears and this is going to be a shitty shitty Spring Break.

Fin.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.

March 28, 1996

Didn't have time to write while over Spring Break. Didn't bring journal with me, because the last thing I need is Diophantus snooping on me. Spring Break sucked, to be honest. I studied, and was told that I was not to do anything else. Poor Samson was bored out of his mind, but at least he usually escapes Diophantus' notice.

The pen shade changes lightly, as if to signify that the two paragraphs have been separated by a time frame.

I've just received an owl from Toby. He says he's going treasure hunting in the forest. I've been issued a challenge to see if the orb really works. What an idiot. Of course it works.

Fin.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.

March 29, 1996

The trip to the forest is something that I will never forget, no matter how badly I want to. I have never felt so much pain, and so much lack of control in my body. Writing about it makes me cringe and want to throw up.

Something went wrong with the orb, and something happened that wasn't supposed to. The last transformation was relatively painless, though rather awkward to be honest. It affected everyone in the room, though this transformation... it hurt.

I thought I was going to die, and that I would be scarred for life, that there would be two red gouges on my back where those black wings shot out of my body.

I don't remember much, I remember not being in control. I remember flying, and for a split second, I had never felt so free. Then the pain returned and I remember seeing darkness.


Fin.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.

---Later that day---

May I be turned into a mushroom, or never speak these thoughts that I have out loud. I ought to erase all memory of this... but I can't. Why?

Fin.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.

March 30, 1996

It would be stupid to say that I'm completely over this, but I'm not. I haven't slept in a long time, and to make things even better, my own temper has gotten the best of me, and I have made a bet with Toby Darling. He seems to think that I cannot be nice. His meaning of nice is to merely lie to everyone when they deserve to tell the truth. It is not my fault that everyone is so fucking sensitive.

I haven't seen Elijah in a while. I wonder how he is.

Fin.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.

+---[ Pascal Curio - Journal ]------------------------------------------------+
|                                                                             |
| Elijah's handwriting is distinctly male, and could be classified as that of |
| a five year old. No girl alive would have such deformed looking letters.    |
| The letters themselves are extremely small, but on the lines they seem to   |
| dance around somewhat, tilting with a slant to the right. The pressure on   |
| the pen must have been extremely high because the words are etched on a     |
| blank page behind the one scribbled on.                                     |
|                                                                             |
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Note: April 1, 1996 was April Fool's Day, and the start of the month in which Pascal and Elijah were to spend in each other's bodies. Consequently, Pascal can't update her journal, because she is now Elijah, and Elijah is in possession of the journal. He, in Pascal's body, will be updating instead.

For an IC reference, you can read the last installment of "Let them eat cake! (Part 2)"
April 2, 1996

So... girls do keep diaries (or journals or something)! This is very good to know. So let's see, how does one write in their journal? Maybe I should give it a name and write it letters like Anne Frank? I will call it Aspen (because she put me in this mess, thus I will give her credit in the journal form). Pascal, I'm sure you will read this and wonder why I'm writing. I'm not even sure myself.

Dear Aspen,

Life as a girl is - interesting. That's pretty much all I can say. I'm not sure if this punishment will be all that bad in comparison to what could have happened (i.e. menial/manual labor, oh how I hate working!). Anyways, this is Elijah writing, only I'm in Pascal's body. It's weird. One thing I've learned in my lifetime is that girls are strange creatures. I will never understand them and never aspire to. So the body switching is quite the interesting task.

It was kind of fun though in some respects, I'm Eli in disguise! The name's Cruise, Elijah Cruise. Very Bond. Very cool. Anyways, Lien told me she doesn't like her red cloak, makes her look like Little Red Riding Hood! It took everything in me NOT to howl. So funny! I'll use it later when I'm back in my own body. Oh, and I was actually nice to BILLY! But only because of this stupid bet Pascal has with Toby (which by proxy I have with Toby).

I met Pascal's roommate, Serah. She's kind of strange. Bizarrely nice to me. She knew something was up though. She kept asking why I was there. Maybe she's knows I'm me and has some sort of strange crush? I'll keep you posted Aspen!

Sincerely,

Elijah Cruise (written in cursive)
April 4, 1996

Dear Aspen,

Talking to Kit was wonderful! She probably hates Pascal even more now. I said that Elijah (who is really me) was "ruggedly handsome" while in Pascal's body. This only goes to show that I know nothing about women. NOTHING.

I talked to Pascal, and we decided I should lose the bet. I wouldn't mind writing a love letter to myself. Actually, it would be my honour to write it (I like ringing my own bell and tooting my own horn).

Damn I could use a cigarette.

Sincerely,

Elijah Cruise (in cursive)
April 10, 1996

Dear Aspen,

Wow. This is complete shit. The Hammonds wrote me a letter. And it's not like I wrote them. If I'd wrote them first, that'd be different, but I didn't. Anyways, that's not even the worst part; apparently the Cruises want me to meet with them. They have no fucking business coming back into my life after the way they tossed me aside like some cheap toy. I don't know if I'll meet with them or not. Not to say that I'm not the least bit curious, but I don't need to put up with their crap again. Nor do I want to.

Elijah Cruise
April 15, 1996

Dear Aspen,

I really needed to escape today, but it just wasn't happening, so I thought I'd turn into the Falcon to help speed the process along. Then it occurred to me: Pascal has never experienced such a transformation. I don't know if her body can take it, and if it can if it will kill her. Hell, it almost killed me. So yeah, I must suffer like everyone else.

Sincerely,


Elijah Cruise

April 20, 1996

Dear Aspen,

So yeah... this psycho kid without a green robe on came and talked to me/Pascal today. Creepy. He caught me too! It sucked hardcore, and I know he suspects /something/ and thinks I'm not Pascal (and am hiding in her skin). Bah! Oh, and I had a cigarette in Pascal's body today. Worst smoke I ever had.

Sincerely,

Elijah Cruise
 
May 1, 1996

What the fuck is this? A whole month without my journal and trust Elijah to be writing in it. For god's sake, he named it as well? For fuck's sake... Aspen?!

To be serious, I have no objection to him writing in it. Gives me something mull over, should I ever decide to look back upon these events and reflect on my life or something. It's a good thing I don't put anything extremely personal in here. Maybe someday, my diary will be found, like Anne Frank's. And then I'll get it published, but only after my horrific and tragic death. Fucking Diophantus will probably murder me in my sleep if I don't get to him first. 

The point of this. April Fool's Day this year was by far the most exciting day of the year yet. Well, more interesting things have happened, but really, great minds, great minds. I was in the middle of my bet week when I ran into Elijah, and we started talking. He's a little bit paranoid. Anyway, I hadn't pulled anything on anyone for April fool's because of that fucking bet, but with Elijah around, we came up with the idea for a polyjuice potion for all of the professors. Other things happened between Elijah and I as well but

We only managed to trick Chapman and Farreau, but really, having gotten the latter, it makes up for not getting the rest of the professors. Elijah had found a strand of blonde hair on the floor, and it turned out that it belonged to a six year old girl. Chapman's daughter or something. Man, it was priceless.

Until Farreau decided that to punish us, she'd make us switch bodies for a month. We couldn't even tell anyone because she charmed it that way. Clever bitch, isn't she?

Do you have ANY IDEA what it's like being a boy? Oh, my, god. At least I didn't have to deal with a particular week of the month that was rather painful, but still, boys have their own issues every single fucking morning. Thank god I never have to deal with that ever again. Christ.

Elijah and I managed to catch a few moments just to talk to each other during the month, fill the other one in on what was happening, let the other know how to act, how to talk, etcetera. I swear Elijah managed to get his hand on some smokes, because all of my robes, and everything in my side of the dorm, smells like cigarettes. Elijah's body was used to the smoke though, and it doesn't make him look cool. It really doesn't, but he still does it anyway, so I did it while I was him.

It's nice to see how everyone else reacts to him. He made me fucking girly at one point though. I do not skip through the halls. I do not talk in a sugary sweet voice. Even when I'm pretending to be nice. Christ.

Lien really /really/ hates Elijah. He seems to be able to push her buttons just by standing there and breathing.

I'll tell you this. I miss being six feet tall.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.

May 9, 1996

Have had an absolutely fucking horrible week and a half since I've turned back into a fucking girl. Toby Darling seems to think himself my friend, and I've been under so much stress from every, single, fucking thing in the entire world that I blew up at him and said things that I shouldn't normally have said. No, I couldn't hex him, and I couldn't insult him properly enough. What bullshit.

You try and say something nice to someone, like Lien Nguyen for example, and what the fuck do you get back? Total and complete ingratitude. Fucking Sukaku better stay on her back day and night because he can't protect her forever. Fuck I'm pissed off.

Elijah speaks of running away, and I wish with all my heart that I have what he has, just so I might be able to do the same. He says that I should go with him, and I would in a heartbeat, but part of me feels as if he's just going to leave one day, and I'll wake up, and he'll be gone. In my mind I trust him. So why do I question this?

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.
May 12, 1996

I met a boy today. Except I would hesitate to call him a boy once I'm through with him. Fucking little prat needs to be castrated. He made some comment about me being just a girl, and it got very nasty, very quickly. We ended up dueling in the entrance hall to the AMC. I'm surprised no one walked in on us. It was an absolute mess, and I have a nasty gash on my face to prove it. I don't yet dare sneak down to the potions lab to get supplies for healing, or to go to the infirmary.

On a totally unrelated note, some guy I met in the library yesterday helped me erase all the words in the charms textbooks.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.
May 13, 1996

Elijah's gone.

Scrawled in a heavy cursive that is barely readable is the signature, P.Curio.
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