This picture is cute

Maddie? Be my penguin?

WOW
Mood:  on fire
Topic: holy brightness batman!
Yesterday was such a good day! I got some awesome things from the one I love and a Polaroid of him. :D Tehehe! It's always nice to be able to have a visual during times of sadness and longing. Thank you Maddie for a great time and for being there. You mean sooo much to me. I can't even describe the size of my love and appreciation for you. All I can say is, wow. You turn my world upside down with every "I love you" and shake it up with every touch and kiss. I know that I can't live without you and I hope things never have to be that way. I want to make you happy every minute of every day and every night. Forever and for always, I love you!

Cool
Mood:  chillin'
Topic: what topic?
It feels really good to be home. As much as I look at the wheelers and long to be in the mud, I am soooo happy to be home. Ducky's happy to be home too. He didnt really like being by the fire, I don't think Ducky likes the smoke very much. He probably doesn't like it here at my house because both of my parents smoke. lol Sorry Ducky.
It is such an amazing feeling being able to hear your voice again, Maddie. I can't even begin to describe the joy I feel. I love you soooooo much! Still hoping for Friday.....
Love ya tons!!! *smooch!* tehehe

interesting night
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: with ducky
Topic: tings.... (yes tings)
I had an okay night last night. When I was talking to you online, I was crying and then I cried afterward too. The rest of my night was kinda odd but still fun all the same. First I was acting really crazy like I was on drugs or something. My cousin and I were having some fun hurting each other. She caught me right above the eye. She kept tackling me so I was shoving her around with my feet. lol Well then we decided to sit down and watch A Cinderella Story after everyone was done doing their online thing. Wow was that hard. I felt like such a girl!!! I cried atleast if not more than 3 times. I never realized how much I missed you until I sat there crying and thinking about it. It didnt help that after the movie, we talked about guys and stuff. My cousin has this guy that she likes and he likes her. They are gonna go to Valleyfair and stuff. We were all talking about our guys except for Jess, she was just wishing that she had a boyfriend. We really need to get her a guy, really. She deserves someone to swoon over. lol Well all in all my night was pretty eventful and emotion-filled. I suppose you could say it was a very girly night. lol I'm surprised we didnt have a pillow fight or something. That would have been fun. Anyways, I love you soooo much!! Forever and for always!

All My Life by K-Ci and Jojo
Mood:  crushed out
I will never find another lover sweeter than you,
Sweeter than you
I will never find another lover more precious than you,
More precious than you
Girl you are Close to me you’re like my mother,
Close to me you’re like my father,
Close to me you’re like my sister,
Close to me you’re like my brother
You are the only one my everything and for you this song I
Sing

All my life I pray for someone like you
I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I pray for someone like you
I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me too

Said I promised to never fall in love with a stranger,
You’re all I’m thinking of I praise the Lord above,
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug,

I REALLY LOVE YOU!!!

All my life, I pray for someone like you,
I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I pray for someone like you
I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me

You’re all that I’ve ever known, your smile on your face,
All I see is a glow,
You turned my life around,
You picked me up when I was down,
You’re all that I’ve ever known, when you smile
Your face glows,
You picked me up when I was down
You’re all that I’ve ever known, when you smile
Your face glows,
You picked me up when I was down & I hope
That you feel the same way too,
Yes I pray that you do love me too

All my life, I pray for someone like you,
I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I pray for someone like you
I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me too
All my life I pray for someone like you

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i dont know if the picture thing worked, hell i may have sent it twice. owell

Interesting week
Mood:  spacey
The week was interesting. Found some stuff out that I really didn't need to know. Ever have that feeling. Blah!!! And then we took home a straggler. Haha lol Katie. She's a cool Superiorite (or is it Superiorian or Superioran?) How about Wisconsinite? There we go. Anyway, she's a couple days younger than Jess. We had a good night and then she went home on Saturday. And then... da da da la da da la DA DA DA DA!!!! I got to talk to you, Maddie!!!!! That made me A LOT happier. Yes, you make me happy, and that's the minimal... Before I talked to you, it only hurt when I breathed. (ya I know, not very original, but still true) And yet I feel that even now I'm not completely here. Maybe because part of me is with you. I really hope it is otherwise, I'm lost. I hope to see you soon because Ducky helps, but only as much as he can. He's only a small object to which my love can be directed. (by the way, he says hi) Being with you rids my mind of all worries and makes me whole. (Tehehe! Unlost! lol)You make my world glow with your radiant personality. Your dad was right and so was Tom. Well, talk to you tomorrow. Forever and for always, I love you more than anything and everything.

Love you!

WEEEEE!!!!
Mood:  crushed out
Topic: rock on!
I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW, AS I HAVE BEEN SINCE I FOUND OUT I COULD GO TO MADDIE'S HOUSE!!!!! AAHHHHHHHH!!! At first when I got there I was scared and nervous because I didn't know what it would be like. And then there appeared my knight in shining armor to put his arms around me reassuringly. (he's so good at that) I had the best time ever! Maddie, your mom is so cool and so are the little kids! Remember when I said that I am amazed by you every day? Well, when I saw you yesterday, you blew my mind. This time I fell the hardest and it felt pretty damn good. Seeing you was the best thing in the world. Your house is a blast, even though I suck at Halo lol. Tell your mom thanks for Subway, it was great! (Like you, I am surprised she left us alone for that long) lol. Tehehe!! :D You taste good and you're a good kisser! Gee *cough cough* wasn't The Incredibles great? lmao. By the way, you have gotten more beautiful since the last I saw you. So have your eyes, I feel as though I could get lost in their depth (so amazingly green and brown with gold). I just have one last thing to say before I go. Can you guess? You mean more to me than anything there ever was or will be. I love you soooooo much and nothing can ever stop my love for you! I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!

yay
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: almighty malachi, professional bowling god is playing in my head right now
Topic: yes!
Thank you Maddie. Now that I have gotten a nice full 8 HRS!!! of sleep while snuggling with ducky and have "talked" to you, I feel a lot better. I still miss you tons and tons (more than you'll ever know) but I can function again!!! I was shaking really bad last night (and it had nothing to do with eating nothing or not drinking water like it usually does) (lol) But now the shaking and most of the sadness is gone. Ahhhhhh what a beautiful morning (hey just like you!) The sun is shining, the birds are singing, and it smells like fresh rain (hmmm I wonder why, maybe cuz it rained last night! wow lol) Well, I think I'm going to go meddle with other blogs and sites and stuff.
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p.s. I love this pic, it's called Tarot Card Fool by Yoshitaka Amano

i dont know what to do! i can't function. i miss you so much, it's really hard not to be with you. forever and for always, i love you sooo much!! i have to go...