Born 5/5/69 in Syracuse , New York, I didn't have any real religious studies or teachings. My parents were Protestant but they were not active in church and did not follow any strict religious beliefs. They belive in God but do not study the Bible.
The only religious beliefs I was exposed to were the ideals in my own heart.
I have always been very attracted to monsters, demons, dragons and even at the young age of 6 I envisioned myself as a Devil-Worshiper, as I called it then.Pretending to be the devils child on Earth. I guess now (as I look back on it) it was something I was meant to do -preset destiny as it were.
At about 10 I started trying to find information on how to worship Satan and call on Demons.I started looking for books on what I thought then was the same as Witchcraft.My first books were more about the Salem Witch Trials and the Inquisition, from there I began looking in bookstores for books such as "The Complete Book of Witchcraft and Magic" but something was missing.
At 12 years of age I found a bookstore called"The Seven Rays" The only occult shop in Syracuse at the time.There I found the Worlds of Aleister Crowley Israel Regardie, and Eliphas Levi.Such books as Magick in Theroy and Practice, The Gold Dawn, Transcendental Magick. Included in these books I learned of others writings such as The Grimorium Verum, Goetia, The Grand Clavicle, The Grand Grimoire and The Grimoire of Honurius.

I never had a formal teacher on the subject so all of my learning was from researching stores and libraries.

Upon reading from the old GrimoiresI found that this style of magick was very attractive, but the rituals called on Angels and different names of God. to threaten the Demons into coming to the Magickians and fullfilling his desires.So I kept searching for real Satanic practices, while at the same time trying to adapt the rituals from my other books.By doing this I could only change the names from the Gods to Satan, Lucifer and such.
I altered the "Ritual of the Pentagram" from The Golden Dawn then I began to alter the prayers and conjurations from the Old Grimoires to call on the demons in them using the name of Lucifer. I have since then learned to alter many more and have created my own Demonic Magickal System basing it on the style of the old Grimoires.
Around the age of 15 I found the Satanic Bible and the Satanic Rituals by Anton La Vey.These were the first real Satanic books I found.I remember the first time i got them I went home and stayed up all night reading them. After reading the Satanic Bibleabout 3 times I began collecting Ritual tools. The first tools were very simple aknife, a wine glass a pillow case I cut-upfor a alter cloth, with paint pens I drew baphomets on it, I got 2 black canldes and with all that I went down to the basement I assembled my alter on the west wall.I began practising rituals on a weekly basis performing rituals from the Satanic Bible, along with my altered versions of the others, opening in the morning and closing at night.
This seemed to help relax my mind. After opening I would sit in the center of the circle and meditate on what I wanted to accomplish that day and on Lucifer himself.
I was also still practicing my own ritualof homage to Lucifer which I have modified over the years but I continue to use.
The only ritual from La Veys Satanic Rituals I ever performed on myself was the Satanic Baptism which I performed at the age of 16.Most of La Veys rituals I have performed from The Satanic Bible were rituals of compassion I performed for the benefit of my family and friends to help them attain the things they desired and they have seemed to have worked quite well. I've performed a ritual of destruction once but it didn't work.
I then got the idea of using the rituals of the Satanic Bible mixing them with the demons of the old Grimoire using the seals as well. My first experience with this was when I was 16, my dog had seizures and would shake all over and choke. So I performed a ritual using the seal of Lucifer from the Grimoirium Verum and I called upon Lucifer to stop her seizures and while I didn't see or hear Lucifer that night, my dog lived another 6 years without another seizure.

From then on I kept performing rituals in this manner, while still using my altered versions of the magick from the grimoires, this became my sytle of Magick.

At the age of 20 I found a book that confirmed my odeas that the system of the grimoires could be altered in to a system to call on the demons in the name of Lucifer instead of threatening them into it like the grimoires do.That book was"Frabato the Magician" by Franz Bardon and this drove me even harder to make a completely usable system of Satanic or as I call it Demonic Magick based on this style.
But even so I still love to perform the rituals from La Veys Satanic Bible. I have found no other system yet that is as masterful or can compare to it even my own rituals are not comparable to the structure La Vey has constructed.