Chp 13
AJ sat confused in her apartment. He had waited until 3, but Santara never returned. He walked grumpily into the dressing room, and threw himself into a chair.
"AJ, what's wrong?" Howie came and sat next to him.
"Nothing..." AJ muttered. He rubbed his face roughly.
"J, I can tell something's up. What happened?" Howie asked quietly.
"Why the fuck are woman so damn difficult? I mean, you tell one you love them and they run like the plague is coming! Jesus, it always happens, too. No woman wants me, what the fuck!" AJ snapped, angrily.
"Whoa.....Calm down." Howie replied. "So, I take it you told Santara you loved her, and she ran?"
"Yes, I am so sure she loves me too, you know how it is, you can tell! But, she ran. What the hell do I do??"
"Well, after the concert, go to her place again. Tell her that you know she's scared, but that you wont hurt her. Some woman get scared, especially if they were hurt before. Just tell her you'll be there for her."
"You think that'll work?" AJ asked.
"Yeah, I think its the best way to go." Howie responded. "But until then, let's do this concert thing."
Santara sat on her couch, watching one of her favorite movies, Romeo and Juliet. She looked at the clock, and found herself thinking about what AJ was doing. She had walked around London all day, thinking about everything. She knew AJ would be gone by the time she came back, and she hoped he'd never come back. It hurt, but it was better this way. She had realized she was totally gaga over him, and that would only lead to heartbreak. 'In my fuck 'em and leave 'em days, I never had to think. This is too hard.' She had tried to reach Marie, hoping she could get advice. Marie hadn't been home. She had called Mel, but Mel was busy. Her family would have been of no help, and Cherie wouldn't help, so Santara was alone. She had picked up ice cream on the way home, and was eating out of the carton watching her movie. It was about 11:30 when the movie ended, and Santara was too tired to even try and go to bed. She fell into a light sleep curled up on the couch.
Santara awoke with a start, instant fear in her stomach. Someone was pounding on her front door. She looked at the clock. It was 1:30. Awfully late to be accepting visitors. She grabbed a knife from the kitchen and crept towards the door. She looked out the peephole and it was too dark in the hallway to see the person. She slowly opened the door, knife raised.
"Santara? Thank god." AJ said as the door opened slowly.
"AJ?" Santara asked. The knife went down and she got less upset. "What the fuck are you doing here?"
"I had to see you." AJ said. He walked past her into the loft.
"AJ, its 1:30 in the morning. What are you doing here?" She asked. AJ ignored her and went and sat on her couch. She reluctantly sat next to him. She looked at him, his face was sad and he wasn't even wearing his sunglasses.
"San, why did you leave this morning." AJ looked at her sideways. His eyes pleaded with her.
"AJ..." Santara went to stand up, but AJ forcefully pulled her back down.
"No, tell me the truth. Tell me what you feel." AJ said softly. "I love you, and I can promise that I'll never hurt you. Why wont you just open your heart?"
Santara looked down. She really did love him.
"AJ......I wish I could believe you. But, you know that'll we would never work out."
"How can you say that? You don't know! Do you have a crystal ball or something? No! So, you cant say we won't last!" AJ practically yelled.
"Am I supposed sit in my loft all the time while you go off?"
"No, San, you are going to come with us on tour. I know you don't have anything lined up for a while. You can come with us, give you and I a chance. Please?" AJ asked. He pouted slightly.
"AJ, I.........I don't know............I cant................"Santara stuttered.
"Why not?"
Santara had no answer. AJ looked at her expectantly.
"I guess we could try..." Santara said. AJ jumped up and hugged her. He started talking a mile a minute.
Over the next weeks, Santara started touring with the guys. She was really close to everyone and she and AJ's relationship just kept getting better. They ended up in New York, and Santara dragged everyone to the bookstore where she and AJ met.
"OK, guys, I have an announcement to make." Santara stood on a chair in the store. Everyone turned and stared.
"AJ, sweetheart, you have been so patient with me. You are the best man I have ever met. I decided that the place we first met would be a good place to say this. "She cleared her throat. AJ came and put his arm around her leg. She looked into his eyes, and saw how much he loved her.
"AJ, I love you, I always have." Santara said. Everyone looked at her like she was crazy but AJ started laughing. He grabbed her and swung her down tom him to hug her.
"San, I love you too." AJ laughed.
Chp 12
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